Okay so I'm a little disappointed with the reviews for the last chapter but still thank you to everyone who did review.(: I sort of feel like many people are loosing interest in the story, if this is true please let me know. When people don't review as much or I don't get as many reviews as I used to I start to feel like you guys aren't interested anymore. I feel this way in almost every story I've written so far and it just be because I'm not very sure of myself. So please let me know if you are loosing interest and if you are then suggest some ideas please.(:
Disclaimer: A few direct quotes from Fallen by Lauren Kate.
He covers his face with his hands, takes a deep breath and says,"I fall in love."
"Over and over again. And each time something horrible happens."
He's been in love before? I feel a tinge of jealousy, but I have no right. It's in the past right? But why is he bringing that up now?
I look down at my lap and start awkwardly fidgeting with my fingers.
He kneels down in front of me and grabs my face in his hands.
"Rose, look at me. You have to listen this is really important."
I nod and look up into his eyes.
He takes a deep breath.
"The person I fall in love with each time is you."
I let out an awkward laugh," If that's your way of being romantic, it came out pretty cheesy."
He makes a frustrated sigh,"I'm serious Rose, let me explain."
He takes a deep breath,"I get to live forever."
Okay, this is getting out of hand.
"Dimitri this isn't funny," I say.
"I'm not trying to be funny," he replies, eyes flashing anger,"I get to live forever. I see people being born, growing up, falling in love, having children, and the die. Everyone dies around me, and I get to see it all over and over agin. But you're different."
"What do you mean?" I ask suddenly afraid. Is he for real? Or is he just crazy? It would explain why he's in a place like this. I want nothing more than to run from him right now. He's scaring the crap out of me. But something in me is urging me to stay and listen.
So I do.
"Rose, you don't get to have children and grow old." he replies looking down.
My heart, its beating so fast.
"Why not?" I ask afraid to hear the answer.
"Because you die every seventeen years."
I don't reply. How do you reply to something like that? I open and close my mouth repeatedly trying to say something but no words come out.
"We meet. Every seventeen years, we always meet. Somehow we always run into each other. It doesn't matter how much I run or how much I push you away, you always find me."
I take a deep breath," Dimi-"
"And every time we meet you fall in love with me," he says,"I can push you away or run away myself but at the end of the day it makes no difference. You fall in love with me."
He turns around, his back facing me with his hands on his head.
What do I say!? This- it all sounds so crazy! He sounds crazy! I want to run, but I can't. I want to think that what he saying isn't true. But somehow, inside of me, I know it's true.
"Why is it so bad to be in love with you." I whisper.
He whips around immediately anger evident on his face," Because it kills you! I kill you!"
I let out a shaky breath,"Why are you telling me this?" I ask.
"Because it's time," he says.
"You said that to Adrian." I remembered him telling Adrian the same thing earlier.
Then everything clicked.
"All those times, Tasha and Adrian kept telling me it was going to end bad. Things with you end bad, they always end bad." I say thinking of all the times they told me those exact words.
Dimitri nods and lets out a small chuckle," You and Adrian were best friends in every life. Unlike me, he's stay by your side whenever he found you. I'd push you away to try to prevent you from dying. But with Adrian and the rest of them it didn't matter. Them being near you never affected you."
I look at him wide-eyed," Them?" I ask.
He nods," Lissa, Christian, Jill, Tasha, Sydney, and Adrian."
I swallow," All of you-"
"Live forever? Yeah," he replies cutting me off.
I have so many questions to ask. I want to know why they live forever. Why do I die every seventeen years. But without thinking I ask one that I really didn't want to know the answer to.
"Am I going to die now?", I ask terrified.
He shakes his head," I don't know. I thought I knew the rules, but we kissed and now I'm so confused."
"Because you kissed me?", I ask," After we kissed you looked surprised, why?"
He doesn't have to answer I already know.
"We kissed and you thought I was going to die." I say in shock.
"But it's different this time." he says.
"Because I didn't die?" I ask quietly.
He nods.
"How do I. . . die?" I choke out the words.
He takes a deep breath like he knows it's going to take a while to explain," It depends on how much you know. Usually just kissing will do it. But when it doesn't, telling you the truth, what I'm telling you now, will."
He looks up at the sky," I wander the earth knowing in the back of my mind that you're coming. At first I used to look for you. I didn't know how much it would hurt seeing you die over and over again. But when I did I couldn't take it. I stared to hide from you, but it never worked. You always ended up wherever I was, it didn't matter how much I ran away you were always placed wherever I ran to. So I stayed, whenever I saw you I stayed. But I tried hard to keep my distant. It wasn't easy but I did it. The only hard part of that was you. You'd look for me, you'd always had some excuse to spend time with me. It didn't take long for me to realize you came around every seventeen years."
"So you knew I was coming?" I ask.
"Not the day that you did. I know that eventually you would this year. But I didn't know specifically when. The day I did see you, well I didn't know you were coming that day."
I nod," You looked surprised. Then you smiled. Then you flicked me off."
He looks down at his feet,"Uh-yeah I'm sorry about that."
I nod," Okay, I'm not trying to sound conceited or anything but the day I got here I saw you laughing with Christian, you were laughing so hard I was a little jealous. How can you be so happy when you know that I was coming eventually. And that soon after that I was going to die." I ask.
"The only way to survive eternity is to be able to appreciate every moment.", he says shrugging," It doesn't matter anymore though. I can't laugh like that anymore. Not when you show up."
Ouch? "Gee thanks for making me feel bad about making you depressed. You know all this sounds really crazy. How do you expect me to believe you?" I ask becoming stubborn.
"You said it yourself, you felt like you knew me before. I denied it before but it's true." he says.
"I felt like I knew you before sure! But I meant from the mall or the beach or something! Not from some past life." , I say.
He gets down on his knees in front of me and hold me face in his hands.
"In your heart you know it's true." he says.
His eyes drift away from my own to something behind me. One of his hands release my face and reach behind my head. When he pulls his hand back I see that it's a flower.
"Remember when we used to pick yellow daffodils in the fields of Virginia?" he asks lost in thought. When he looks back at me and sees my confusion his smile falls.
"Nevermind, of course you don't remember." he whispers.
I need to get out of here. I need to go somewhere and clear my head.
"Dimitri I'm going to head back to my room. You've told me a lot and I just need to think for a while." I say.
He nods and stands up helping me off the log.
He gives me a gentle kiss on the forehead and we say goodbye.
When I reach my room I really don't have a chance to think over anything because the next thing I know I'm fast asleep on my bed.
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