Jennel's POV:
I wake up to the sound of my phone ringing, very loudly. I groan before leaning out of bed slightly to grab hold of it. When I move I realise that CeCe is curled up next to me, her head on my chest and her arm around my waist. I sigh before picking my phone up and noticing that Demi is ringing me. I answer the call before bringing the phone to my ear.
"Hello." I mumble into the phone as CeCe moves around next to me before turning over and wrapping herself in bed sheets.
"Can we talk?"
"About what? How you tricked me into going on a date?" I whisper into the phone so I don't wake CeCe up.
"It's not like that, I'm coming round."
"No don't come round."
"Why not?" She asks, sounding concerned.
"B-because I got drunk and high last night, the place is a mess. At least let me clean up a bit." I mumble into the phone while sitting up, CeCe sits up as well, pulling the bed sheet with her.
"Shut-" I cover CeCe's mouth before she can say anything else, she bites my hand but I keep it over her mouth.
"Who was that?"
"Jess." I answer bluntly as CeCe glares at me.
"Okay, I'll be over in an hour, bye."
"Bye." I reply before ending the call and placing my phone in front of me and removing my hand from CeCe's face.
"Take it I'm leaving then?" She asks while pushing the bed sheets off her and standing up. I look her up and down before pulling her back on to the bed.
"We have just under an hour so you can stay for a bit, but I'm going to be cleaning."
"No its fine I have to go to Nick's anyway." She replies getting off my bed again and grabbing her jeans off the ground. "Actually I might stay for a bit because I know I'll end up hitting him." She says laughing before pulling her t-shirt over her head, I slide out of bed and pull on a pair of shorts and a hoodie.
"Help me clean though."
"Fine, asshole."
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CeCe left twenty minutes ago, Demi is due here in less than five minutes and I've just got out of the shower, now I'm lay on my bed naked, fuck. I quickly get off bed and throw on the pair of shorts and the hoodie that I had on before, I then tie my hair up. I grab my phone and my cigarettes before walking out of my room and down the hallway. I shuffle into the kitchen and pour a cup of coffee before lighting a cigarette and leaning against the work top. I take a drag as there's a knock at the door, I make my way towards the front door before pulling it open. Demi walks in, smiling at me.
"Oh do come in its fine."
"I'm sorry Jennel; I don't want to hurt you. I just wanted to have a nice time with you." She says, looking into my eyes and weakly smiling at me.
"You could've at least told me Demi."
"I didn't want you not to come."
"So you thought that you'd trick me into going on a date?" I ask, kinking my eyebrow at her. "Yes I probably wouldn't have gone, but I would've done something else."
"I'm sorry."
"Whatever, you staying for a-"
"Jennel what are those marks on your neck?" Demi cuts me off, walking towards me. I back away before she can move my hoodie out of the way.
"Nothing." I mumble, pulling the material up slightly, trying to cover my neck.
"Stop lying to me, what are they?"
"Why does it matter?"
"Jennel did you sleep with someone last night?" She asks I look down at the ground while tugging on the sleeves of my hoodie. "Jennel just answer me."
"Fine! Yes I slept with someone last night, happy now?!" I scream at her.
"Why the fuck did you do that?! And why would I be fucking happy?!" She screams back at me, while walking towards me.
"Because that's what I do, I'm fucked up Demi. You should just leave before I hurt you."
"I'm not going anywhere until I get a full explanation."
"Why? Just leave Demi."
"No, now fucking talk to me." She says, quite calmly considering she looks like she's about to murder me, I don't blame her at all.
"I'm scared of feeling love again, I'm scared of not being alone, and I'm scared of opening up to someone. With CeCe-"
"You slept with CeCe, are you fucking kidding me?!" She screams at me, I flinch as I slowly nod my head. She glares at me before motioning for me to continue speaking.
"CeCe doesn't want me to open up to her; she just wants me to open my legs. That's what I'm good for, sex. I know that and I don't care, it means I won't get hurt again."
"You're not just good for sex Jennel; you don't have to fuck people to feel like you're worth something!" She yells at me, I back away even more but she just moves closer to me.
"That's all you used me for when we slept together wasn't it? If we didn't have to see each other every day you wouldn't even remember my name."
"Just fucking stop okay."
"Why should I, it's true!"
"You were the one that threw yourself at me, you were the one that lied to me about your age and you were the one that got me into bed!" She screams even louder, I back myself against a wall as she moves closer to me.
"So this is all my fault is it?!"
"Yes it fucking is, you're just a slut." She screams into my face while placing her arms either side of my head. It's happening against isn't it? She's going to be like him isn't she?
"D-Demi stop." I stutter as she stands in front of me with her arms cornering me, I begin to shake. She doesn't notice though.
"S-spencer stop." I stutter as he stands in front of me with his arms cornering me, I begin to shake, not like he notices or cares.
"Why should I stop you're just a little whore?!" He screams in my face while placing his hand around my throat and pressing me against the cold wall behind me. I don't answer him, bad decision. "Answer me slut." He demands before slapping his hand across my face.
"Y-you're hurting me."
"Tough fucking shit Jennel."
"S-spencer just please stop."
"No, you need to be taught a lesson you slut, you don't just try and run away from me. I've given you everything; I've given you a place to live when no one else wanted you. I don't even fucking want you anymore but you're a good fuck."
"Get off me."
"Don't fucking tell me what to do!" He yells before punching my stomach and letting me fall to the ground. He then grabs a handful of my hair before pulling me back up. "Get up."
I slowly stand up and he forcefully presses his lips against mine, I try to push him away but he just slams me against the wall again.
"S-stop." I manage to stutter out as he begins to sloppily kiss down my neck.
"Get in the bedroom so I can put you to some good use." He snarls in my ear before pulling me away from the wall and shoving me towards the stairs, I don't bother trying to fight him off anymore. It's just easier if I let him do it, I don't get hurt even more and he leaves me alone for the rest of the night. "Move fucking faster you dirty whore."
She backs away as tears begin to roll down my cheeks. I can't even look at her, I just slide down the wall and curl up on the ground. I pull my knees up to my chest and let the tears flow from my eyes and down my face.
"Jen what's wrong?" Demi asks, softly, placing her hand on my back. I flinch and try to move away from her.
"Don't touch me, not again."
"Jennel I didn't do anything."
"S-spencer please d-don't." I mutter as my breathing increases, my chest rising and falling rapidly as I continue to shake.
"Jennel it's me, it's Demi."
"D-don't let him hurt me."
"I won't I've got you." She whispers as she places her arms around me before picking me up. She walks towards the sofa with me in her arms, crying against her chest. She sits down on the sofa, with me on her lap. My head buried in the crook of her neck as she slowly rubs my back; I grip on to her t-shirt as I continue shaking.
"Jennel what happened?"
I don't answer, I can't answer and I don't want to answer her. She doesn't make me answer either, she just holds me against her until I feel my breathing evening out. I lift my head out of the crook of her neck; she brushed my hair out of my face before kissing my forehead.
"Y-you reminded me of S-spencer."
"I'm so sorry Jennel; I never meant to make you cry. I never meant to say those things to you."
"B-but you did, is that w-what you think of me?" I mumble, pushing myself away from her slightly.
"No of course it's not, I just got angry. When I get angry, which is not a lot I say things I don't mean." She replies, pulling me back towards her.
"I'm sorry I fucked everything up for you."
I slide off her and stand up before walking around the sofa, she calls after me but I just ignore her. I walk into my room and slam the door shut, and then quickly lock it before smashing my fist into it. I don't even care that it hurt, I don't care that my knuckles are now bruised and bleeding, I just don't fucking care about anything anymore. I walk towards my bed and pull a bottle of vodka from underneath it before unscrewing the cap and taking a mouthful.
"Fuck." I hiss as the liquid burns my throat as I swallow it. I take another mouthful and then place the bottle next to me. I grab the picture frame that I kept under my bed, the picture of me and Spencer before things started to go wrong. I know he was a prick and he abused me but I still loved him. I look down at the picture and smile slightly at how he's looking at me, how his arm is wrapped around me. Keeping me safe, but it was all an act wasn't it?
I launch the frame towards the door, hearing the glass shatter from the impact. Of course I then take another mouthful of vodka before slamming the bottle down again.
"Jennel let me in." Demi says banging on the door while rattling the handle.
"No fuck off Demi, you don't even want me!" I scream before drinking out of the bottle again.
"Let me in, I do want you, and I don't want you to do anything stupid."
"Like what?"
"Jennel just let me in."
I can't be bothered arguing with her anymore, I push myself off the ground and walk towards the door, around the glass on the floor. I unlock the door before pulling it open; Demi walks in before wrapping her arms around me.
"Jennel listen to me, I care about you too much okay? I'm going to try my best to keep you safe, I'm sorry for hurting you."
I completely ignore what she's saying, I smash my lips against hers, causing her to stumble backwards. My arms wrap around her neck as I suck her bottom lip into my mouth before nibbling on it.
"Jennel stop, you've been drinking and I'm not doing this again."
"Doing what?" I ask, slightly pissed.
"Ending up in bed with you again."
"See you don't want me." I hiss, pushing her away from me.
"I do want you, I want more than sex though, plus you're seventeen Jennel. I want to wait; I want more than just a physical relationship with you."
"But I can't do more Demi, you don't fucking get it do you?! I can't be what you want!" I scream at her before shoving her backwards, she stumbles before glaring at me. I move closer to her before shoving her backwards again, so she's stood in the hallway. I step over the glass on the ground and shove her again so she's back against the wall.
"If you're going to fucking hit me get it over with!" She screams at me while staring into my eyes.
"Don't fucking tempt me Demi!"
"Fucking do it then!" She yells into my face while moving closer to me, I lift my hand up and she flinches. What the fuck is wrong with me, I can't hurt her. I don't want to be like Spencer, I can't hurt Demi. She's the one person I actually need; she's the one person I want. I lower my hand before falling against her; she wraps her arms around me. I feel safe, for the first time in years I actually feel safe.
"Don't worry, I'm going to fix you beautiful."
"You can't fix me, I'm unfixable." I mumble against her while she runs her fingers though my tangled hair.
"I am going to fix you." She states before kissing the top of my head.