Sorry I didn't update last week! I had SAT's. I wanted to thank everyone who reviewed and wished me a happy birthday you guys are awesome! Warning, there is a lemon in this chapter! I put a few warnings in when it starts getting really intense for my squeamish readers. I need your help guys, I'm having a bit of writers block. I honestly don't know where I want to go with this story anymore but I'm determined to finish it so if any of you have any suggestions I'll gladly accept them! But honestly please tell me what you think I should write in the next few chapters cause I really can't come up with anything so if I don't get much suggestions I might have to temporarily put this story on a hiatus till I get a good idea on where I want to go with this story, and I really don't want to do that. So please let me know what you guys think I should do. Know onto the story, enjoy!
I wrap my arms around his back pulling him closer. He pushes me deeper into the bed. Without knowing it I start tugging on the hem of his shirt. He pulls back a little and I pull it over his head.
When I look back into Dimitri's eyes they look different. Still a deep brown, still filled with love, but now with something more, lust.
Curling my fingers in his silky hair I pull his face back to mine.
Dimitri's lips go down my neck leaving feather like kisses along the way. He pulls back a little and looks at my clothes, or well his clothes.
He raises an eyebrow.
I laugh," Um- I've been out cold for three days and I smelled so I took a shower, I didn't have any change of clothes, do you mind?" I ask biting my lip.
He buries his face in the side of my neck, probably smelling the traces of his shampoo and conditioner," God no, I was just wonderin-" He stops himself.
"Wondering what?" I ask breathless as he continues to leave kisses on my neck.
He swallows hard," If you had anything...under."
Well damn. I didn't see that one coming.
I pull his face back up to mine, leaning into his ear I whisper," Why don't you find out?"
He groans and his lips are back on mine.
It's different this time.
Before our kisses were full of love. Don't get me wrong they always are but, they were innocent. There was nothing innocent of this kiss. This was need.
Pure, blunt, unadulterated, need.
This time I start leaving kisses down his neck, trying to be a bit more daring a lightly bite his neck.
He groans.
Positive reaction. So I keep doing it.
His hands go under my shirt and start caressing my sides.
Well here's were it got complicated. Back in Florida I was known as the schools whore. I was anything but that, I'm a virgin. And the only other guy I've ever kissed was Jessie and well that went up in flames, literally.
I mean I was a flirt and I can honestly admit to that but I wasn't a slut.
And I have absolutely no freaking idea what to do. I mean I know the basics, duh, everyone does. But I don't know how to be good at it.
Oh shit, what if I'm bad at it? That'll be so embarrassing. Is their even a bad way to do it?
I must have seen hesitant to Dimitri because he pulled back,"Roza, are you okay?"
I nod, "Yeah, um, it's just I don't really know what I'm doing." I let out a nervous laugh. Damn he must think I'm an idiot.
He pulls back a little more and my hands immediately go up to bring him back.
"We don't have to do anything you don't want to." he whispers huskily.
He wants this. The need in his eyes and voice, it's obvious. And yet he's willing to stop for me.
But hell no. How long have we been waiting for this?
"No Dimitri, I want to do this." I say pulling his face closer to mine.
I know Dimitri is a virgin, no doubt in my mind. But he probably knows more than me, I mean come on, he's a guy. Even if he doesn't talk about it or anything other guys do. So I'm pretty sure he knows what he's doing.
But I don't want to seem entirely helpless either, so I do the only thing I can think off.
I sit up as much as I can and pull the oversized T-shirt I was wearing over my head.
Saying Dimitri looked shocked is an understatment. His eyes trail down to my breast.
Yep no bra, that answered his previous question.
LEMON STARTS HERE!( Graphic, in my opinion.)
Dimitri lays a hand on my shoulder and lightly pushes me back on the bed.
He places a kiss on my lips before trailing down leaving small pecks on his way down. When he finally makes it to my breast he pulls back a little and looks up at me.
Panting I look down at him, curious as to what he's gonna do.
One of his hands that were at my waist slowly trails upwards, using one finger he slides it over my nipple.
I bite my lip and unconsciously buck my hips into his feeling something hard. Was that his-?
The next thing I know his mouth is on my breast, this time I can't hold back the moan that rips through my throat.
His teeth graze my nipple and without knowing it my hand is on his head pulling him closer.
"Dimitri." I moan.
He pulls back and his mouth is by my ear," Yes Roza?" He lightly tugs on my earlobe and I moan," Make love to me."
Honestly, that sounded so cheesy I wish I could take it back.
But the next thing I know his lips are back on mine. His hands tangle in my hair, my hands scratching down his back. Hopefully I don't leave any marks.
My hands trail down to the front of his pants, I pop the button and pull down his zipper.
I push down his pants as much as I can and he kicks off the rest.
Now we're both left in his boxers, ironic.
He wasn't making any move to remove my boxers so what the hell. I grab the top of his and slowly slide them down.
His breathing picked up, he was panting into my neck.
After he kicks of his boxers he pulls back to look at me. His eyes were asking permission, I pull his lips down for a small peck, yes.
His hands are on my hips, slowly he pushes down my, well his boxers.
Maybe I should have waited. No cause I'm not ready or anything like that. Trust me I want this. But I mean this is not sexy.
Really, like whenever I thought of how my first time was gonna be I assumed I was gonna look pretty good, you know lingerie or some shit.
But no, I had to be wearing an oversized T-shirt and guy boxers. Not hot.
Well at least in my opinion, I don't know what Dimitri's into.
He pulls back and takes me in, me in all my naked glory.
He lets out a loud breath," God Roza you're so beautiful."
I smile and my eyes trail down to his package.
Damnnnn. Is this a joke? That is not gonna fit.
Dimitri lies back on top of me and continues kissing my neck,"Are you ready?"
I nod. He lifts himself up a little and leans his forehead against mine. He takes a deep breath and looks down.
I wait. And wait...
You know what?
My hand goes in between our bodies, I grab his dick an place it at my lips.
Dimitri throws his head back in a loud moan.
I wrap a hand around his neck," Come on." He nods.
He grabs himself and goes up and down against my lips. I buck against him and moan.
Slowly he pushes in. My hand goes down to his bicep.
I wait for the pain to hit but it never does. I mean yeah there's a underlining dual ache but it was bearable.
I loosen my grip on his bicep to let him know it didn't really hurt.
He lays his forehead against my own, slowly pulls out and pushes back in harder.
"Ugh, Dimitri." I moan.
My hand gripped his bicep harder now only it wasn't in pain. Dimitri leans closer and buries his head in the crook of my shoulder.
Eventually he picks up his pace and I can't help the moans that come out of my mouth.
"Shit Roza." He groans.
I feel something building inside of me, my moans got louder and louder. I was close and I was getting frustrated that I couldn't reach my peak. Dimitri knowing what was happening reaches between us and softly draws circles on my clit.
"Dimitri! I-I'm gonna-"
"Fuck Rose I know hold on." he starts pumping faster and my moans turn into full-out screaming.
I wrap my legs around his waist wanting him deeper, harder.
I can feel it no, I'm so close. Dimitri pulls all the way out and shoves himself back in to the hilt.
Finally I exploded around him,"Fuck, Dimitri!"
He continues pumping and then abruptly stops cumming inside me.
LEMON ENDS HERE!
Dimitri falls beside me, his breathing labored.
After a few minutes I could finally get my breathing to normal. Dimitri wraps an arm around my body and tucks me into his side.
I lay a hand on his chest, his hand comes up and he intertwines his fingers with mine. I look up and smile at him.
"God, I love you so much Roza." He whisper into my hair.
"God I love you too Dimitri." I say placing a kiss on his peck.
"So you remember."he asks.
I laugh," Yeah, everything."
He smiles," That's amazing Roza."
"Yeah." My smiles falters a little but Dimitri catches it right away.
"What's wrong? Don't you want to remember?" He asks frowning.
"Of course I wanted to remember! It's not that. It's just, what now?" I ask.
"What do you mean." He asks genuinely confused.
I sigh," I don't want to talk about it, I don't want to worry especially not now, after what we did."
"What don't you want to worry about Roza, just tell me." He says.
I let out a breathe," Just what are we going to do now. I mean God said that I get to choose who I want when I'm born into a life that I'm not baptized in."
Dimitri nods,"Yes because when you're not baptized your parents didn't make the choice of God for you."
"Yeah I understand that but what now. I choose?" I ask.
"Yes, now you choose God, Satan, or me." he says.
"I choose you, of course I choose you." I reply.
He smiles," It doesn't work that way."
My eyebrows furrow," Then how does it work?"
"Well now we wait." he replies.
"Wait? For what?" I ask.
"Well you remember everything now and this is the life were you get to choose, but now we just have to wait for God to call us back up." he says.
"We have to wait for him to call us back up? To Heaven." I ask excitement seeping into my voice.
I know I'm going to choose Dimitri. There's not doubt in my mind. But the idea of seeing Heaven again excites me. I wanted to go home. Even if it wasn't permanent, just to visit.
"Yes, we were all waiting for this. Now all the fallen angels and Satan are going to be called back to see if they repented or not. Satan is obviously not going to repent. Everyone knows it's a lost cause but God has hope tha one day Lucifer will repent, that we all will repent." he says.
My body stiffens.
"Roza? What's wrong now?"
I bite my lip," What do you think he'll do. When I reject him again. Not God, Lucifer. Do you think he would put another curse on us. I can't go through that again."
I regret the words as soon as they left my mouth. What do I mean I can't go through that again?I have nor right.
I mean yeah in every life I had this nagging feeling that something was up and that somehow I don't remember something. But what I felt is nowhere close to what Dimitri felt. I couldn't live seeing him die every seventeen year, as much as I'd like to say I could handle it I can't.
I could never handle something so painful and the fact that Dimitri did for me makes me love him more. He could have easily repented as soon as he heard what he would go through but no. He still choose me.
Dimitri doesn't seemed fazed over what I said, "I honestly don't know but I doubt God would let him a second time. It wouldn't be fair."
"It wasn't fair the first time it happened." I mumble.
"I know Roza I know, but their's not much we can do till he calls us all back."
I nod against his chest, my eyes started dropping.
How the hell am I about to fall asleep!?
I've been out for three days and I'm still tired.
I groan against Dimitri's chest,"I have to go to school tomorrow don't I?"
He chuckles," Unless you want to fail your exams you are."
I yawn," I'm tired, Comrade."
I feel Dimitri smiles against my head,
"Go to sleep Roza, I'll be here when you wake up."
With that my eyes close.
Sooooooo what do you think? I honestly think my lemon sucked! Really that was bad. Lol I'm so sorry! Do you guys think so too? Let me know cause I have some people who have offered to do the lemons for me and the way I'm going I think I might actually take them up on that offer. So let me know what you think, and also like I've said in the AN above I have writers block so let me know if you have any suggestions. Last chapter got around fifteen reviews, that's the most I've gotten on this story so far! Do you think you guys can go higher this chapter? Try! I know this is a pretty high demand and I've never asked of this in any other story and gotten it but lets see if you guys are up for it, so 20 reviews please and thank you!(: