Jennel's POV:
Why the fuck is it so damn bright in here? Did some twat turn the light on? I open my eyes and the light isn't even on, but the motherfucking sun is shining through the damn curtains. Fuck my head hurts, why do I let people get me drunk on school nights? It just ends in disaster and I always get a bitch of a hangover the morning after. I roll over and Demi is lay next to me, fuck. She just smiles at me; I roll on to my back and stare up at the ceiling while Demi trails her fingers up and down my arm.
"I missed you." She whispers into my ear, trailing kisses down the length of my neck and then sucking on my collarbone. I let out a small moan before pushing her away from me, she just sighs as I push the bed sheets off me and then sit up. Sitting on the edge of her bed and then pushing myself up.
"Forget about me Demi, I'm not good for you."
"I can't forget about you, and I don't want to forget about you."
"Shut up Demi." I mutter, grabbing my shirt of the ground and then pulling it over my head, I grab my jeans off the end of Demi's bed and then slide them up my legs.
"It's been two fucking weeks Jennel, if I wanted to forget you don't you think I would've done it by now? I want you back; I want to be with you. I want you to be mine and no one else's!" She yells at me, wrapping herself in the bed sheet, standing up and then walking towards me.
"Demi this is so fucking complicated, it's fucking me up even more than I already am."
"But it doesn't have to." She mumbles, wrapping her arms around me and then pulling me close to her. I don't even fight her, I just let her hold me because right now that's what I need, that's what I've missed. I've missed having Demi holding me, I've missed having Demi love me, fuck it I've missed Demi.
"I know it doesn't have to but it is. Why can't things just be simple for once?"
"Because I'm your teacher and I'm in love with you, that's why." She mumbles against my neck as tears begin to roll down my cheeks, I quickly wipe them away before pushing Demi away from me.
"I've got to go, I need to get ready for school, um bye."
I attempt to leave her room but she just grabs my wrist, pulling me back towards her and then wrapping her arms around me before pressing her lips against mine, dragging her tongue over my bottom lip. I slowly open my mouth and her tongue slides over my bottom lip, grazing against my tongue as my arms wrap around her neck. I moan into her mouth and she smirks against my lips before pulling away from me.
"I don't know when I'll get to do that again, I just wanted one last kiss." She whispers against my lips as I keep my arms resting on her shoulders. I being to play with her hair as she presses her forehead against mine.
"Only you."
"What about me?"
"Only you could still want me even after I've pushed you away so much, and after I was a bitch to you. Only you could see that I only do that because I'm scared." I mumble, pressing my lips against hers and then pulling away, she smiles at me and then quickly kisses me again.
"Where does this leave us then?"
"I don't know Demi, my life is complicated and we need to get past these fucking trust issues."
"I know we do, but we can do it right? I mean we did it before so we can do it again."
"Maybe, I don't know I'm crap with relationships, but something about you just seems so worth it." I reply, as she presses her lips against mine again. She pulls back and I stare into her eyes while still playing with the hair at the nape of her neck.
What I just said to Demi is true though, something about her makes all of this pain seem worth it. I don't know whether it's the way she makes me feel loved or the way she makes me feel like I'm worth it. It could be the way that she smiles at me whenever she sees me, or the fact that when I'm feeling like crap she'll always be there to make me smile again.
"I love you." She says, I zone back in and smile at her before replying.
"I love you too."
"Just think about what you want Jennel because all I need is you, you're all I need in my life right now."
"I want you, I know that I want you but I just don't want to get hurt again."
"I won't hurt you Jennel, you know that. I spent most of the time we were together proving to you that I wasn't going to hurt you." She says, unwrapping her arms from around me and then walking out of the room, I follow her out of the room and down the hallway. I grab her hand and she just turns to face me, I step closer to her, wiping the tears off her face and then shyly smiling at her.
"Just give me time Demi, I promise everything between us will be okay."
"What if it's not?" She asks, with doubt filled eyes as I brush her hair out of her face and then lightly press my lips against hers, tasting the slight hint of salt from the tears that were previously rolling down her face.
"It will be because I'm not letting you get away from me, not this time."
"I just want to be happy, I want you and I want everything to be fucking normal."
"So do I, but that's pretty hard when you're my teacher isn't it? But I graduate in a few months so everything will be normal after that." I reply, smiling at her and then grabbing my jacket off the sofa before walking towards the front door and sliding my shoes on.
I place my hand on the door handle and press it down, pulling the door open. Marissa falls into me and I just blankly stare at Demi, she shrugs at me as I push Marissa off me. She falls to the ground and stares up at me giggling.
"Oh, hey Jennel." She slurs, looking up at me and smiling from the ground as Demi groans and then drags her further into the apartment.
"Demetria Lovato will you get the fuck off me, I need water and sleep." Marissa slurs again, attempting to use Demi to pull herself up. Demi groans and picks Marissa up before dragging her towards the sofa; she throws her down and then just sighs as she turns to face me.
"Bye Demi." I mumble before giggling as Marissa rolls off the sofa, I walk out of the apartment and into the hallway. Taking a deep breath as I run my fingers through my hair and then making my way out of the apartment block and then walking back towards Lauren's house.
~~~
One week later
Jillian and I haven't spoken in three weeks; Wes has to see me without Jillian knowing because she said he isn't allowed to. I mean who the fuck does that? Right now I'm at Wes' dad's house, in the shed with Wes a handful of joints and a crate of beer. We're sat on the sofa and I've got my legs resting on his lap, a joint in my right hand and my phone in the other.
"So what does Jill think you're doing?" I ask, glancing towards him and raising my eyebrows at him, he laughs slightly before answering me.
"Well she thinks that I'm teaching Keaton how to play guitar today." He replies, smiling at me as his phone begins to ring. "Speaking of Jillian."
"Don't answer it, she'll know you're high which will then mean she'll know you're with me."
"Good point, so are you and Demi back together yet?" He asks, taking his hat off, ruffling his hair and then putting his hat back on, what was the point of that at all Wesley?
"Nope, I want to be, but I'm just scared and I keep pushing her away even more."
"You seriously just need to man up and get her back, ring Marissa and get her get Demi out and then to let you into the apartment."
"And then what?"
"Then you do some romantic shit dude." He says, grabbing the joint out of my hand before bringing it to his lips and then taking a long drag while raising his eyebrows at me as I write out a text to Lauren.
[2:49pm] Jennel: Lauren! Text Marissa, get her to make sure Demi is out for like three hours and then to let me into the apartment, I want Demi and I'm going to show her that I'm not fucking scared anymore.
I take the joint of Wes again and then take a drag before stubbing it out and then sitting up properly as my phone begins to ring, I don't recognise the number but I answer it anyway.
"Hello."
"Why do you want me to get Demi out of the apartment?"
Okay so it's Marissa, I might have to save her number when I get off the phone. Okay Jennel answer the question.
"Because I want to show her that I want her to be mine, that I'm not scared anymore, and that I'd do anything to be with her."
"When?"
"Today between like four and seven?"
"Fine, but this better work Jennel because I can't deal with her whining and sulking about you anymore."
"It will work, so you're going to get her out then? And let me in?"
"Yes I'll get her out and I'll leave a key under the stupid fucking plant that Demi keeps putting outside the apartment."
"Thank you, I owe you."
"Yes you do fucking owe me." She replies before hanging up, I smile at Wes, pulling my phone away from my ear, saving Marissa's number and then standing up. I pull Wes up with me and he just looks at me slightly confused.
"Don't look at me like that Wesley, we need to get supplies if this is going to work, time to go to Wal-Mart." I say, grinning at him and then grabbing his hand before dragging him out of the shed and into the garden. We walk into the house and he goes to talk to his dad while I wait on the sofa.
"Please daddy." I hear Wes whine, I begin to laugh because I've never heard Wes talk like that, ever. Wes and his dad walk into the living room, Wes smiles at me and then glances between me and his dad.
"Apparently I'm taking you two shopping, I don't know, go and get in the car."
"Thanks!" I shout, jumping off the sofa and then dragging Wes towards the front door, he grabs the keys on the way and then pulls the front door open. We walk outside and then make our way towards the car. I jump on Wes' back and he carries me towards the car, who has a driveway this fucking long anyway?
Wes unlocks in and then opens the backdoor before pushing me inside. I just glare at him, fastening the seatbelt as he gets into the passenger seat. Wes' dad walks out of the house and shakes his head as Wes attempts to tickle me, I kick his hand away.
"Wesley leave the poor girl alone."
"Sorry dad." Wes mumbles as he dad starts the car and pulls out of the drive way. Wes turns the stereo on and then puts some crappy radio station on, I roll my eyes as Wes begins to mumble the words to whatever shitty song is blasting through the speakers.
We stop at a red light and Wes' dad turns to face me, I smile at him and he smile back at me before lightly slapping Wes' arm as he attempts to light a cigarette.
"So why am I driving you two potheads to Wal-Mart?"
"Because this asshole here is becoming a loved up asshole." Wes mutters, tapping on the dashboard in time with the music.
"Shut up Wes." I say, kicking the back of his chair, he turns to face me glaring at me.
"Make me."
"Oh trust me I will, idiot." I reply, kicking the back of his chair again, he grabs my ankle before his dad slaps his arm again.
"Stop fighting children."
"Sorry dad." Wes mumbles, folding his arms across his chest before turning to face me and then sticking his tongue out at me.
We pull into the Wal-Mart parking lot, Wes' dad parks the car, shuts the engine off and then gets out of the car. He opens the door for me as Wes climbs out of the can and then leans against it, I walk round to Wes, grabbing his hand and then pulling him towards the entrance. His dad closely follows us as Wes grabs a cart; I jump inside it as Wes pushes it. We get inside the store and I begin directing Wes into random aisles while his dad just leans against the wall next to the main entrance.
"I'll wait here for you two lunatics."
"Thanks dad!" Wes yells as he pushes me down the aisle that is full of candles, must be fucking candle season then. I grab random amounts of red, black and white candles, pulling them into the cart as Wes races down the aisle. I'm not covered in tiny candles and big candles, Wes laughs as we end up near the flowers. I grab three bouquets of red roses and one bouquet of white roses; I place them at the end of the cart before turning to face Wes.
"Where to now my lady?"
"Wine and food!" I yell, pointing in the direction of the alcohol, Wes pushes the cart towards the wine and I grab two bottles of red wine and then a bottle of white wine, placing them next to the flowers.
"What food are you making?"
"You mean what food are you making?" I ask, looking up at him and smirking at him. He looks down at me, glaring at me before smiling at me.
"Fine then, what am I making for you and lover teacher?"
"I don't know, something with pasta in i- oh shit there's Jillian." I say, glancing towards the end of the aisle as Jillian and her mom walk past, lower myself further into the cart as Wes pushes me towards the section with the pasta, he speeds up as Jillian glances towards us. I hold my hand out, grabbing a packet of pasta and then throwing it in front of me with the pile of candles.
"Wes?" Jillian asks, Wes stops walking and then turns around, while I stay covered in candles, flowers and bottles of wine. I hear Jillian walking towards us and Wes continuously giggling, why does he have to fucking giggle when he's nervous?"
"Hey Jill."
"I thought you were with Keaton?" She asks, getting closer to us. "Oh hey Jennel." She mutters, looking into the cart, I glance up at her and innocently smile at her while she just glares down at me.
"Hey Jilly."
"What's with all of the romantic shit?"
"I'm surprising Demi." I mumble, pushing a bottle of wine off my ankle and then sitting up properly while Wes begins to push the cart again.
"And we're still buying things so bye Jill, I'll ring you later."
~~~
Wes and I have been in Demi's for two and a half hours, and so far Wes has made a nice ass meal, I've covered the coffee table with candles, in a rather colour co-ordinated patter if you ask me. The table is covered with a black table cloth, red rose petals and two candles in the middle.
"Shit, Wes I haven't got anything to wear!" I yell from the living room, Wes struts from the kitchen; he's wearing a pink apron and has a wooden spoon in his hand. I just laugh at him and he pouts at me.
"Don't worry, I text Lauren before she's bringing some clothes round for you."
"Are you sure you're straight Wes?" I ask, he just points the spoon at me and then walks back into the kitchen. "That was extremely gay!" I yell while grabbing a bouquet of red roses the bouquet of white roses off the sofa next to me.
I make my towards Demi's room, pushing the door open and then walking inside. I take the roses out of the bunches and then scatter them in the middle of her bed, moving them around slightly to make them look presentable, before making my way out of her room again.
When I get into the living room Lauren is sat on the sofa, holding a bag of clothes behind her head, she had a joint in her mouth and she's yelling abuse at Wes as he continues making the food. I grab them and then lean over the sofa to wrap my arms around her.
"Thanks Lauren."
"Whatever, the quicker you get back with Demi the quicker I get my fucking room back."
"Oh you love me staying with you."
"Yea sure I do, you get annoying after like three days." She replies, ticking her tongue out at me.
"That's just mean, you know you love me really." I whine, resting my chin on her head. "But even though I love you guys you really have to leave Demi will be here in like fifteen minutes." I say, looking down at Lauren and then glancing in the kitchen where Wes is dancing in front of the cooker while waving that god damn fucking wooden spoon around.
"Okay the food is done; just re-heat it without burning it. Also ring us both to tell us how it went." Wes replies, pulling the apron over his head and then placing it on the worktop next to the cooker. He walks into the living room and Lauren just looks up at me.
"I know, he's a little bit gay today." I reply causing Lauren to laugh and Wes to just glare at me while flipping me off. I roll my eyes at him before looking back down at Lauren.
"A little bit? He's gayer than Ricky Martin today."
"Lauren we're leaving before you two bully me even more." Wes mumbles, grabbing Lauren's hand and then pulling her off the sofa before dragging her towards the apartment door, he pulls it open and then pulls Lauren with him.
Once they're out of the apartment I lock the door and then make my way towards the bathroom, pushing the door open and then walking inside. I shut the door behind me and then lock it before taking off my clothes and.
I pull out the jeans that Lauren put in the bag. I slide them on, buttoning them and then taking the oversized black and red stripped sweater out of the bag; I pull it over my head before taking the necklace out of the bag and then putting it on. Praise Jesus for Lauren, she always knows what to pick when I need something to wear.
I shove my other clothes into the back, and then I run my fingers through my hair while unlocking the bathroom door. I pull it open, walking out of the bathroom and into the hallway; I rummage through the bag that has my jeans in attempting to find my lighter.
Once I've found it I wander into the living room, I glance at the clock at the wall and Demi should be here in five minutes. I throw the bag into the corner of the room before walking towards the coffee table and then lighting the candles. Once I've lit the ones on the coffee table I make my way towards the kitchen and light the once that cover the worktops in the kitchen.
I wander out of the kitchen and glance back inside, okay so it looks really fucking nice, I light the two candles on the table before stuffing the lighter back into my pocket, I dim the lights and then turn the stereo on, playing a mixed CD that Wes made earlier.
I sit on the sofa, waiting for Demi to come back; I stare at the front door until I hear her talking to Marissa and rummaging through her bag.
"Move over asshole." I hear Marissa groan before the door unlocks and then the door swings open. I sit up and run my fingers through my hair as Demi walks into the apartment. She stares at me in shock; I stand up and make my way towards her. Taking her hands in mine and then pulling her further into the apartment.
"Yea I'm going to Dallas', bye." Marissa mumbles, walking out of the apartment and slamming the door behind her, Demi just keeps her eyes on me.
"Hi."