Edward POV

"Edward, why don't you go out with everyone else tonight. It's Halloween and you're sitting here at home all alone." My dad said, breaking my own of my current trance I was in as I stared at the TV. I looked up at him and my mother, standing there with worried looks on their faces.

"I can't." I simply replied.

"Why?" asked my mother.

"Because. It reminds me of her." I answered. My parents both sighed.

"Edward everything reminds you of her. And thats okay- you grew up together and you lived through many events together. She was your best friend, and we understand how you feel and yeah this sucks." My dad said. I looked at him in shock as he never spoke that way. "However, you can't stop living just because she is not with us right now. She would want you to have a good time and enjoy life. Instead of being all depressed from thoughts of her, why don't you instead cherish the memories you have with her. And someday hopefully you will be able to make more. But right now that cannot happen and you need to accept it. You can't stop your life because she was taken. You need to live. And when we find her someday, you can help her live again."

"I guess but.. I don't know. I can't imagine having a good time when she could be hurting right now."

"That's true. But like your father said, Bella wouldn't want you to live your life like this." My mom said, sighing as I cringed at her name. I looked at my parents, and saw that they really wanted me to not sit here like a depressed log. I sighed and stood up.

"Fine. But I don't want to." I stated, as I sauntered up to my room. I looked down to see clothes already laid out on my bed, dressing in a haze. Finally I made my way downstairs to find Emmett and Alice waiting, their faces lit up in smiles.

"Oh good! You saw the costume I laid out for you. It looks good, don't you think? You'll need these though." Alice said, handing me a pair of fangs. So I guess I was a vampire.

"Thanks." I mumbled. "What are you guys supposed to be?"

"I am an old fashioned movie star." Alice said, her eyes lighting up. After she said it, it clicked, as she wore a fancy dress and heels complete with curls, red lips, and a feather boa.

"Yeah and I win for best costume cause I'm the Hulk." Emmett said smiling. I guess I really don't pay attention anymore because he was painted green and wearing only ripped shorts. I nodded as a form of acknowledgement and followed them into the car. We drove over to the Hale's house where we picked up Rose and Jasper, both of them climbing into the car with surprised faces to see me in the backseat. I tried to be a little more interested, and easily got what they were supposed to be: Jasper went as a cowboy, a simple costume as he wore clothes he wore anyway, and Rose opted for Barbie.

"AH! We all look great!" Alice clapped.

"Where exactly are we going?" I asked, to prepare myself.

"You know Mike Newton?" Rose asked with a smirk. I groaned, they all knew I disliked him. He always tried to hit on Bella, making her uncomfortable and me angry. "Well he's having a party tonight. And it's basically the only one happening. So were going cause the whole school is gonna be there."

"Great. Sounds lovely." I muttered to their laughs. However, looking at their faces I could tell none of them were all too excited either, as we kinda just stuck as our group and didn't really do anything with everyone else. Just then I began to wonder why we were even going, but before I could ask we pulled onto a crowded street, everyone walking in strange outfits to one particular house. We piled out of the car and followed our way to the door, where we knocked.

"Woah, hey you guys! It's a shock seeing you all here! Come on in!" Mike, dressed as a pirate, said as he opened the door and stepped aside. The group walked in, me trailing behind like a sad lost puppy. "Edward? Damn, now I really am in shock seeing you here. How's it going?" He asked.

"Uh, dandy." I grunted. He smiled weakly at me and closed the door. I sighed, not knowing why I agreed to come here. In a town as small as Forks, everyone obviously knew about Bella. Something else everyone knew? That since Bella was kidnapped, I became a different person. I no longer spoke to anyone walking down the hallway. I never raised my hand in class even though I clearly knew the answers as always. And even more so, if I wasn't at school, I never left my house.

"Here Eddie." Emmett said as he shoved a drink into my hands. Normally I would have yelled at him for calling me by that hated nickname, but I just didn't care anymore. Instead I just looked at him with a questioning glance, wondering what exactly the drink was. He sighed. "Its a Vodka Sprite. Just drink it. Its good." I looked around and everyone else in the group but Alice seemed to have the same drink. She on the other hand just had water. Designated Driver I guess. I looked down at the drink in my cup. Sure I have had drinks before. But somehow I felt like that was different. I drank to have fun. If I were to drink it would be to take away the pain… and surely it would. Finally I lifted the cup to my mouth and took a sip. Then another. Then three. And then i was finished. I rushed to the kitchen to get another. Before I knew it, I had lost count of how many drinks I had. All I knew is that I felt great.

"WHO'S READY TO PARTY?!" Someone yelled from behind me. I cheered with the crowd as the guy, I couldn't tell who it was, jumped from the staircase onto the couch. I laughed, a foreign sound, along with everyone else when he missed half the couch and his torso slammed onto the wooden floor. "Stop laughing! Think you could do it better? You try!" The guy shouted out. Everyone else just laughed but I began to climb the staircase, wanting to try it.

"Edward! EDWARD!" someone yelled and grabbed my arm. I looked down to see Alice and smiled.

"H-h-hiiiii Ali." I said, taking the last sip of my beer.

"What do you think you're doing?!"

"I'm gonna, I'm gonna land on the couch." I simply stated. She crossed her arms.

"No you are not! You could seriously hurt yourself!"

"Ali, I- I'll be fine. I feel great! Watch!" I said, climbing onto the edge of the staircase. I looked down into the sea of people and saw three couches. Well this just got harder than I thought. I just shrugged and jumped for the middle one, everyone around me screaming as I landed softly on the couch. At that second I had a bunch of people all over me, patting me on the back and congratulating me and it was weird cause it was really easy.

"Dude, that was awesome!" Mike said, pushing through the crowd with 2 beers. He handed me one. "Here- you've earned it." I soppily smiled my thanks and took a sip, and continued sitting on the couch with Mike. Even though I knew I hated the guy, we were having a good time talking.

"It's cool you had this party." I said.

"Yeah my 'rents are out of town so it was the perfect opportunity."

"Niceee"

"Yeah. H-How are you doing though man? Since Bella.. you know, you have like fallen off the planet." He asked. My body went rigid.

"I don't really want to talk about that Mike."

"Oh come on bro, you can't ignore it, it happened!" he said. I just stared at him, until he finally sighed. "You know I will a-admit, I was always jealous of youu."

"Jealous? Why?" I asked, intrigued and thrilled.

"Cause you had that sexy piece of ass all to your-" that's all he said cause i didn't let him finish before my fist connected to his face. I was so angry in that moment. Bella was gone and here he was talking about her like she was some object and not the perfect, beautiful person she was. I punched Mike for a second time before I felt a punch myself. I turned to see Eric, Mike's best friend. I lunged after him too but someone grabbed me.

"Edward, Stop!" I heard a deep voice yell as two huge arms wrapped around me, restraining me.

"Emmett let me go!" I yelled, fighting against him. However, I was no match for my older brother and soon he had me out the door and in the car, everyone else climbing in too.

"What the hell was that Edward! You just started a fight!" Rosalie yelled. I glared at her, then looked to see everyone else giving me questioning stares.

"He said shit about Bella." I stated. None of them said anything.

"Oh. Well then good I'm glad you punched him. I should've let you keep going."

"Emmett!" Alice reprimanded.

"What? That little piece of shit.."

"Stop!" Jasper shouted above all of us. "Lets jet go home, okay?" We all looked around at each other, and I noticed all their faces were starting to blur. Alice sighed, put in the keys, and pulled away. Everyone was quiet for a few minutes and i felt worse and worse with each inch we drove.

"Edward are you okay?" Rose asked me, actual concern on her face. I looked at her, feeling something in my stomach

"No." I groaned, then I turned toward my window, put it down, and threw up onto the passing pavement. I felt instantly better once I had let it out, and the cool wind against my face helped too.

"EW!" Rose screeched.

"Shit, Ed- how much did you drink?" Emmett asked, turning around from the passenger seat in front of me. I shrugged and closed my eyes, and thankfully everything became black.