Hey guys.

I am so sorry that I haven´t posted in so long. I´m not going to bore you with the reasons...

I don´t own VA or the caracteres, just the story-line.

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Back where we started.

Rose POV

Chapter 5:

I was completely and unshakably in love with him.

My eyes locked with his as I felt: shock, pain, hurt, love and confusion running through me and guessing by the guilt and pain in his eyes it showed on my face too.

I forced a blank expression on my face, internally cursing myself…..

His lips moved slightly, forming one word. Roza…..

That one word, that name, was like a slap in the face and I flinched.

It snapped me back to reality. Blinking a few times I came out the daze I had been in. I forced a soft smile on my face and looked down at the faces in the front row. Meeting my father´s confused, worried and protective gaze, made my face soften and the smile genuine, reassuring him a little.

"Thank you..." I said looking at the time. "So I guess I will see you all again after the twenty minute break and then I´ll have the band come out to play the rest of the set with me. How does that sound?" They cheered and whistled in response. I chuckled, standing. "Okay see you guys later." I smiled, waved a little and made my way to the stage-exit and quickly walked through the door.

I closed it softly behind me leaning back on it, closing my eyes, my shoulders promptly slumping and a long painful sigh escaping my lips, feeling the tears prickling behind the lids. I could feel my throat closing up as I tried to hold back the sobs that had been threatening to escape since I saw Dimitri. How was I going to keep my cool for rest of night, knowing he´s watching?

All of these memories just suddenly floated through my mind. The first time we met, our first date, our first kiss, the first time we made love where I lost my virginity…..

I could remember how soft his hair would feel between my fingers. How his accent would be more pronounced when he was feeling strong emotions. How his eyes would sparkle and lighten when laughing and smiling, or darken with lust and harden in anger. How a jolt of electricity would sparkle through my body every time my skin touched his. How his large strong hands could feel so gentle and loving…..

Flashback:

We had been going out for almost two months now and things were going great. We had been taking things slow and getting to know each other better. Though I hadn´t told him that I was a virgin. I think he somehow knew though or at least that I wasn´t as experienced as him. He seemed okay with it, respected it and would pull back (reluctantly) before things got too far. Even with the constant and growing sexual tension and emotions between us, we hadn´t gone further than some heavy make-out sessions, teasing touches, loving embraces or sleeping in each other's arms (some nights at my place or his).

I hadn´t talked to or seen Dimitri for a week. He had a work assignment for a client in L.A. However, before he left, he told me that he would come by as soon as he got home.

I had missed him like crazy and he was constantly on my mind, making it hard to concentrate on my classes, work or anything else. Sometime during the week I finally admitted to myself that I had fallen completely and unshakably head over heels in love with Dimitri. The revelation filled my heart and soul with warmth, hope and determination. And then a plan began forming…..

Dimitri was coming around eight pm, it was seven thirty now and I was running around anxiously adding to the finishing touches, lighting the candles, checking everything was ready and making sure all other light was turned off. I was nervous and excited and hoping everything would be a success.

I had taped an envelope on the front door with his name in big bold letters. Inside was a key to the door and a note:

Dimitri.

The first time I saw you, you left me breathless and my heart was pounding.

The first time I talked to you, you left me curious and wanting to know more.

The first time you smiled, you left me speechless and stunned.

The first time you kissed me, you left my lips tingling and yearning for the next.

The first time you touched my skin, you left it craving and burning for more.

I hope you like surprises because I have one waiting for you inside. So hurry up and follow these instructions:

Unlock the door with the key and come in. Lock it behind you, shed your coat, shoes and bag in the hallway. And then just follow the light…. I will see you soon.

Love

Roza.

On the floor, a path formed from the hallway, through living room to my bedroom door. I had lined up black candles in two identical rows and in the middle of it scattered red rose pedals.

Inside the bedroom the walls, carpet and ceiling were dark beige (right side wall is half covered by a floor-to-ceiling mirror). The dresser and vanity standing against the wall by the door and bedside tables were a medium wood color. A few lit candles were in the window, on the dresser and the bedside tables, giving a more soothing and relaxing atmosphere to the room. In the center of the room was the bed. The king sized bed had a black bedcover and a few big gold pillows resting against the dark wood colored headrest. Roses and lose pedals were scattered around to highlight the bed and (soon) me.

Satisfied that everything was ready and my alarm clock telling me I had thirteen minutes left, I walked over to the mirror to make sure I looked good enough.

I was wearing a new red silk D-cup push-up bra that made my breasts look great and red panties that complemented my tanned skin. I was only wearing a little make-up: black mascara, smoky eyes and a clear lip gloss. My hair was hanging in natural loose curls down to my waits. I applied a little edible glitter oil to my cleavage, stomach, thighs and legs to add a light sheen or glow to my skin.

When I was done I walked over to turn on the CD player at the bedside table, set the volume on low and crawled on to the bed to wait for Dimitri. I lied down on my side in a sexy and inviting pose, facing the open door.

I breathed deeply a few times trying to calm my building nerves, insecurities and worries. What if he reacts badly? That he thinks it´s stupid, naïve, childish or desperate. Or if he doesn´t even want me or feel the same way? Or what if I do something wrong and ruin everything?

My internal rambling is cut off by the sound of the front door opening and closing, then a small thump and some shuffling followed by slow cautious footsteps moving closer and closer. My heart raced and palms begun to sweat as some anticipation welled up in me.

A few seconds later, he walked around the corner in the living room holding the note in one hand and eyes down on the path. The glow and shadows created by the candles, were giving him a darker, mysterious, more alluring, dream-like look. He was wearing a white shirt, the sleeves rolled up to the elbows and the two top buttons open showing a peak of his stunning tanned chest. A pair of tight dark jeans, black socks and hair tied back at the nape of his neck.

When he looked up from the floor and saw me, he faltered. His jaw dropping and eyes widening in shock and disbelief. Then his eyes travel over my body a few times before settling back to my gaze, eyes filled with a lot of emotion. Besides shock and disbelief there`s also some confusion, lust, longing, want and…. and was that maybe love?

"Roza….?" He breathed and slowly started moving forward again, eyes still locked on me.

"Hey Stranger." I purred his nickname with sly smile and a little finger wave.

When he was in the room he looked at the note in his hand for a few seconds before looking back at me thoughtfully and silently asking to explain.

Not quite ready to do that yet, I got of the bed and walked toward him. I stopped in front of him with only a few inches of space between us and the intoxicating scent of his clean and sharp aftershave filled my nose, making my mouth water and my knees weaker.

Wanting to touch him I rest my hands and spread my fingers on his chest feeling the warmth of his body and his beating heart through his shirt.

I slide my left hand from his chest up to his cheek and trace my thumb over his lips, my eyes never leaving his.

"Dimitri…" I whisper standing up on my toes, tilting my head upwards, I press my lips to his, kissing him tenderly and closing my eyes. He responds instantly, moving his mouth with mine and sliding an arm around my back, pulling me closer. His free hand cupped my neck, locking me in his embrace and weaving his fingers in my hair. I licked his lower lip with my tongue asking for permission to enter his mouth. He groaned slightly, opening and I slid my tongue against his. I moaned at his sweet taste, wrapped my arms around his neck pulling myself closer and harder against him as our tongues explored and battled for dominants.

Dimitri pulled out of the kiss, both of us gasping for air, with chest heaving, lips red and swollen. He leaned his forehead against mine while dark dazed eyes stared intently into mine and waiting for our breathing to slow.

"I´ve missed you Roza…"He said, voice gentle and earnest. He gave me a small loving peck and with the hand still on my neck, the thumb stroking my jaw. "Not that I´m complaining or anything like that but, I´m a bit confused and surprised of course. What´s this about? The note, candles and surprise? "

I took his hands in mine and pulled him with me over to the bed. I crawled onto the middle of the bed, sat down, legs crossed and pulling Dimitri down to sit in front of me. When he was comfortable I took one of his hands in both mine and played with his fingers. My eyes were looking down at our hands while I was trying to gather my thoughts and courage to explain. I couldn´t look him in the eye, afraid of losing my nerve and the fact that I was almost naked, making me self-conscious and blushing. I took a deep breath.

"I missed you so much this week and I wanted to make tonight memorable and special. And I wanted to do something for you. The words in the note were to tell you some of how I feel about you and all this…." I trailed of making a sweeping motion with my arm before looking at him. I shrugged smiling a little.

"Well, all this was to show you how I feel. To make you feel it. I don´t know how you feel but…" I paused gathering as much courage as could and looking at him, all my walls down and my emotions on my face. Baring my soul to him. I took his hand in mine. "I love you Dimitri. That´s what all this is about, this is what I wanted to show you. I love you….." I kind out rushed the words out but I spoke clearly.

Before I could see his reaction he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me hard and passionately. Shocked, I didn´t react for a few seconds but melted into the kiss and kissed him back with just as much passion, my hands holding on to his shoulders.

He deepened the kiss and pushed me down on the bed, lying on top of me. All of it was making my emotions run wild and the sexual tension build in my body. He pulled back a little to look into my eyes.

His beautiful eyes were so dark with emotion that they were almost black. There were too many emotions that I couldn´t decipher them.

Then he traced my jaw, cheek, temple and lips with light fingers while he studied the rest of my features before going back to my mine. The moment was so intimate and sweet that it melted and squeezed my heart at the same time.

"Ya lyublyu tebya Roza." He breathed before kissing me again.

End of flashback.

"Rose….. Rose?" I heard. "Come on Rose! Are you okay?" Adrian's voice brought me out of the memory and I blinked a few times to focus on his face.

"Øhm…. Yeah, sorry Adrian. What did you need?" Glad that he had interrupted I smiled and let the memory slip back behind the wall in my mind.

He looked at me worried and reached his hand up to my face to wipe under my eyes. "Why are you crying Rose?" His voice gentle and soothing. Startled I touch my face and he is right. My face is wet with tiers. I am immediately angry with myself and with Dimitri. Why did he haft to come here?

I realize Adrian is still waiting for my answer. I sweep my face with hands to get the rest of the tiers and put on a smile.

"I was just remembering Adrian. Nothing to worry about." I breathe. "What did you need?"

I know he sees right through me, but he knows we don´t have time for this now. "We need to get you fixed up and then you have the rest of the concert to perform." He takes my hand with a smile and moves toward the dressing room. "I´ve already informed the band that they have to be ready in ten. The after party is all under control, so no worries there, and everything else is set up." He pushes me into my seat in front of the mirror and gestures to the make-up artist (Jane) behind him.

"Thanks Adrian." I smile at him and get comfortable in the chair.

"No problem Rose." He says as he gives my cheek a peck before walking toward the door. "I´ll be back in five to get you all right?"

"Okay." I say, breathing a sigh of relief glad that he didn´t ask questions about before.

"Miss Mazur?" Jane´s voice is sweet and hesitant. "Are you going to change to another dress or do I just need to fix your make-up?"

I smile at her through the mirror. "I just need this fixed. Thanks Jane."

Jane smiles back and sets off.

So here you go.

I know you didn´t get the whole flashback. Sorry maybe another time.

I hope you liked it.

I will try and write the next chapter as soon as I can.

Kisses Ranim

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