A/N: Sorry for the wait, I've been busy and losing my writing mojo a bit, but I'm back, I'm here with another chapter, that shall be short, until I get my mojo back which is hopefully next week when I get study leave, so until then, I hope you enjoy this one.

PS. I know they keep you in the hospital at least two days after a C-section, but somehow that little fact escaped me when I was writing it, so sorry about that. Thanks to those who pointed it out.

Castle had led her straight to the bed when she stepped through the doors of the loft, she had wanted to put Elizabeth to bed but he didn't want her climbing the stairs so soon after her surgery. She eventually got into the bed after listening to him inform her on all the things that can go wrong with surgery, especially a C-section and that she just needed to be in bed for a couple of days.

She watched as he climbed the stairs with their sleeping daughter to lay her to rest and made her way to the loft as Alexis and Martha set about preparing dinner. When he returned, she had dressed down and was in one of his T-shirts and under the covers waiting for him.

"How is she?" She asked.

He smiled and climbed into bed beside her, "She's fine, she's asleep." He wrapped an arm around her as she snuggled up to his side. He leaned down to gently kiss the top of her head, "Get some sleep Kate, you're gonna need it for later."

She nodded, "Will you stay?" she asked, looking up at him.

"Of course, let me just get out of these clothes." He eased off of the bed and stripped down to his boxers, pulling a t-shirt over his head.

"Okay, I'm here." He said once he returned.

He wrapped his arms around her once again and she buried her face into his shirt, "I miss her." She mumbled.

"Do you want me to bring her crib down here? I know that's what we had originally planned but then you were in labour before we could move the crib." He said.

"Could you? If you don't mind getting up again." She said quietly.

"You mean if you don't mind letting me go again." He laughed as he looked down at her hands that were fisted in the front of his shirt, holding him tightly.

She loosened her grip and smiled sheepishly, "Just go."

Again Castle got out of bed and with the help of Alexis, got the crib into their room and placed it right in the corner of the room. She was still asleep when Castle brought her in and was about to put her in her crib when Kate called out to him.

"I wanna hold her."

"Kate you need to sleep." He argued.

"Castle, let me just hold her for a sec okay? I just need to." She said, sitting up and stretching out her hands.

Slowly Castle made his way to her and placed her in Kate's waiting arms. Kate drew her little bundle close against her chest, a small smile on her face.

"She's so small" She commented.

"Yea, she is, but the doctor's say she's fine, she's healthy, there's no need to worry." Castle said, sitting on the edge of her side of the bed.

Kate ran her fingers over the baby's head, feeling the soft hair that covered it. She kept doing this for a long while, just staring at her child and running her fingers over her head, she didn't realize the big grin on Castle's face from watching his fiancée and new born daughter together, after Kate's scare.

He could see Kate was tired when her fingers started to drag and her eyes droop, so he stood and took the baby from her arms, he knew she was half asleep when she didn't protest. He placed Elizabeth in her crib and came back to Kate, resuming their previous position.

"You think we can do it Castle?" She asked after a quiet moment.

"Definitely." He said with no hesitation.

"How are you so sure?" She asked, doubt evident in her voice.

"Well, we've been partners for years now, even before we became intimate partners and we could handle whatever life had thrown our way, but we had to do it together and now you know I'm not going anywhere and I know you're not going anywhere and we're going to raise the hell out of this child and I mean we've got some pretty good help from her aunts and uncles, she'll be well raised and even more protected." He told her.

"You always make me feel better you know that?" She whispered, he couldn't see her face, but he could hear the smile in her voice.

"That's all I ever want to do Kate." He said quietly, letting her know he was being serious.

She fell quiet again, as though contemplating something.

"Castle there's something I want to tell you."

"What's that?"

"You were the one that saved me, even before we met officially." She started.

"How's that?" He asked, not so sure what she was talking about.

She took a deep breath, "After my mom died, I used to hang out in the library a lot, because my dad's drinking became too much and I did anything to stay out of the house. One day I was browsing through books when I came across yours, it caught my interest so I started reading it and before I knew it, the sun was shining and I had read all of your books." She paused, but Castle knew she wasn't finished, so he didn't say anything.

"Your books made me forget where I was, forget reality and took me into another world and it made me forget for a moment and I was happy and I loved you for it. So I looked you up and saw that your new book was coming out in a few weeks' time, so I saved my money and I stood in that line for three hours to meet you."

He didn't know what to say, he had met Kate before that copy-cat murder? Knowing he had saved her when he didn't really know her made him speechless.

"It wasn't a long meet, but you signed my book. You smiled at me, asked me my name, how I was." She paused again, laughing quietly, "You said you loved my eyes."

"I still do." He replied instantly, "I think I do remember you. I had been signing all morning and you, you were a fresh sight to see. Your hair was short and you had on jeans and a white t-shirt, you were wearing glasses and I thought you were absolutely gorgeous."

"Really? You remember that?" She asked, doubtful.

"I do and I'm glad that I could be there for you Kate, even when I physically wasn't and I'm glad that you told me." He said into her hair.

"I just want you to know how much you mean to me Castle. I love you, more than I ever thought I would and every time I think of it, I can't believe it. The man's whose books I'd read a thousand times over, stand in long lines just so I could say hello. The man who would eventually come to annoy me every day, is the man I fell in love with, the man I have a child with and the man I'm marrying. I don't think that thought will ever settle for me."

"You're perfect you know that?"

"I'm not perfect Castle, I have my flaws."

"Your flaws are all parts of you that add to your perfection. Your flaws are perfect to me and after I met you, that was it for me. It was you or it was no one and I'm so glad it's you."

She smiled, "Yea, me too." She agreed quietly.

"Now get some sleep Kate, before she wakes up." He said, pulling her closer to him.

She rested her head against her chest and finally drifted off to sleep.

She woke to the sound of a loud cry, she rolled over and realized that Castle was still asleep so she decided to try this, for the first time. She got out of bed and moved over to her crying child. She reached down and picked her up, propping her on her shoulder.

"Come on baby girl, let's not disturb your daddy." She said in a hushed tone as she moved to the office, closing the door behind her.

She bounced the baby as she walked around the room, trying to calm her cries, but it wasn't working.

"You hungry?" Kate asked, taking a seat and offering herself to her child, but she only pushed her away and cried louder.

"What's the matter?" She stood again, patting her on the back, thinking maybe she had gas, it had been a while since she was fed, she should be hungry.

Kate began to get desperate when she wouldn't quiet down and she sat down in the chair in despair, "Please tell me what you want? I'll give you anything, just please stop crying." She pleaded, she felt tears rising in her eyes, feeling as if she was already failing at this.

"Kate?" She heard his sleepy voice call. She looked up towards the door and saw him standing there, hair a mess and rubbing his eyes.

"What's the matter?" He asked, coming over to her.

"I – I don't know, she won't stop crying, Castle, I don't know what to do!" She cried as Castle took Elizabeth from her hands and held her up.

"I know this cry," Castle stated, "This is a discomfort cry."

"What?" She asked, rubbing her eyes.

"She needs to be changed." He said, standing up and heading to the bathroom to change her.

"Right, changed." She said absently. How could she not have thought of that? What kind of mother was she if she didn't know when her own child needed changing? She felt the tears in her eyes again and stood.

"Okay well, you can handle that, I'll be in bed." She said quickly, not wanting him to see her cry.

He was already in the bathroom when she crawled into bed. She shoved her face into the pillow and cried, she tried to keep her body from shaking, but she knew she failed when she felt his hand, warm on her back.

"Kate, it's okay." He said quietly.

"No it's not, I'm supposed to know she needed to change and I didn't. What kind of mother does that make me?" She cried.

"You're new to this Kate, it's your first night, give it time and you'll be great." He assured her.

"You knew she needed to change, how?" She asked.

"That was one of the only times Alexis used to cry, when she needed to be changed and when she needed to be fed." He told her, rubbing her back soothingly.

"I don't wanna mess this up Castle, I don't want to fail her." She said, rolling over on her side to face him.

He cupped her cheek and smiled sadly, "And you won't Kate, you're going to be great, you can handle anything, just because one bad thing happened doesn't mean you're a failure, I'm sure next time you'll be able to know just what she wants." She smiled.

"There you go, making me feel better with your words again," She smiled and leaned into his hand.

"Where is she?" She asked, as he wiped away a tear with his thumb.

"Back in her crib, she wasn't asleep but she was quiet." He told her.

She hesitated for a moment, "What is it Kate?" He asked

"Can she sleep with us, in the bed?" She asked, looking up at him from under her eyelashes.

"You don't have to ask me Kate, you're her mother." He laughed as he stood to retrieve her.

He came back to bed with baby in hand and crawled in, he placed her right in the middle of them and the both turned on their sides to face her.

Her eyes were open, glancing between the two of them with tired eyes.

"Twinkle twinkle little star …." Kate began to sing.

Castle watched as she sang their baby to sleep. She was still so unsure about her role as a mother and her ability to be one and he was going to prove to her that she could do it, no one would be a better mother than Kate, he just needed her to see that.

End A/N: More in the next chapter, idk what's gonna happen, I just write whatever comes to me, let's just hope something comes to me. Until then, leave me a review? And I'll see you next time.