Ownership Disclaimer: Glee, nup! You might notice a significant written section from the actual scene, so ownership for that is hugely theirs. This is relevant to help set the scene for my au twist. Also, not everyone can see the telly screen, so this is done for those who like to have things read to them, and also for those who can read with a huge magnifier.
But my imagination I do, and pov too. Strong believer in relationships being about trust and forgiveness, love and tolerance. And huge doses of reality.
Thank you:Everyone reading all these delightful stories, esp Travelling the White Line, esp Blaine, Blaine, Blaine Devon Anderson and so many, many more.
Appreciation: Marla's Lost for such a beautiful review. Faves and followers ~ the pressing of those buttons are a terrific review too.
Music Inspiration:All of me – sung by Darren Criss ~ aka Blaine.
I totally adore Blaine Devon Anderson, his character was a life saver for Kurt. His progress through the series and the honey who plays him, compliment one another. Some scenes didn't end the way I wanted them to, so I'm doing what I like to, and writing them my way.
This collection of stories will be an alternate continuation or ending to any scene from the show.
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Ch2 ~ Conception, Pregnancy, Delivery ?
Quinn sits at the head of the Celibacy club table, Santana and one other Cheerio member to her right. On her left is Brittany and three other Cheerio members.
Far on the other side of the room a new recruit, Rachel Berry.
Quinn hits the gavel down three times, "The Celibacy club is now in session. Thanks to School rule that says we have to let anyone join the club, we're welcoming a new member with us this week, Rachel Whatshername."
"Where are all the boys?" asks Rachel.
"Down the hall. First half hour we separate, then we come together to share our faith."
And down the hall:
Finn twirls a football in the air, thinking aloud how he only joined celibacy club to get in to Quinn's pants. But he likes that the boys can get together and talk about sexual issues, like Jacob Israel considering suicide because of his sexual frustrations from being bombarded with provocative images and temptations.
Up the hall:
The girls continue their meeting talking about teasing the boys and not pleasing their boyfriends.
Down the hall:
The boys continue their meeting talking about making out and grinding but not allowing complete fulfilment and keeping 'that' problem at bay. For Finn, what works for him is to remember when he drove into a public servant and nearly killed him. The glass smashed everywhere, the windscreen needed replacing and the person had to go to hospital. The best thing though, is that since, Finn doesn't ejaculate too soon. His Mum screaming in his ears is just the noise required to prevent any grandchildren ideas.
Up the hall:
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The two gender classes now come together, they prepare helium balloons to play 'don't get pregnant' games. They hold a balloon between them and apply sufficient pressure so as to entice, but if the balloon pops then that would indicate getting pregnant and it makes the Angels cry.
Breaking from the group, Rachel changes the mood in the room. "You know what, this is a joke?" She stands away from Jacob and looks at the others glaring at her. "I'll tell you something else too, a dirty little secret. The girls like the idea of sex as much as the boys."
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The two gender classes now come together. The boys sit on the opposite side of the meeting tables. The two captains having made the tables one huge round circle.
Finn and Quinn sit side by side. Everyone have their hands joined one to the other.
Finn starts, "Thank you Lord that we can all join together and discuss this difficulty." They all say Amen, open their eyes and let go of the group holding of hands.
Quinn continues, "By keeping ourselves busy and not allowing more than our hands to hold, we are certain to keep our Celibacy rules. Finn could you share with us what you boys do to avoid temptation?"
He stands and picks up some papers, "Ladies, boys. Well we're all really men now. Other than our school work, we have many physical activities and hobbies that will help keep some of us from temptation. On the list just created today we have written some activities coming up such as sports until Thursday night. On Friday there is a men's cooking class at the community centre. The young men attending that will also be writing in their planners thoughts and issues they find enticing. With this list it is hoped that you ladies will be able to assist by next week helping to prevent such temptations."
There's a significant rumble of complaint between the ladies. Quinn pipes up, "Pardon Finn, are you saying that we do things intentionally and that some of this is our fault?"
"No not quite. Only that we're human and many of us are attracted to you ladies." A clearing of someone's throat is heard at the back of the men. "Oh, sorry, and we need to accommodate for the gay group too." Finn goes quite red in the face, "Quinn your turn to let us know what you ladies will be doing to avoid temptation."
"Thank you Finn. This week we will be having a hand sewing competition, which we've been asked to make a basket full of bow ties. On Friday night we'll be having a candle and scents demonstration. This week in particular we'll be studying the organic nature of raspberry." She puts her papers down and looks at the room of men, "Us ladies, have a request of you men. We're asking that you use underarm deodorants and shower more, please? Some ladies find your natural 'man scent' attractive and difficult."
With both captains seated, the end of the meeting bell chimes and Quinn indicates to the person for the closing of the meeting to take her turn.
"This meeting has been very productive. Until the next meeting we are all to think about different types of contraception, used not only to prevent pregnancy but also to prevent sexually transmitted diseases."
"Thank you Rachel, as a new member I hope this hasn't been too overwhelming for you?"
Rachel sits, taken aback by Quinn's politeness. "No, no it was fine, thank you."
Finn stands and bangs the gavel down, "This meeting is now complete and will resume next week, same time schedule."
The group get up, push chairs under the table, mix and mingle and leave.
Rachel calls out to Kurt, "Kurt? Wait up. Why are you and Brittany here?"
He stops walking, whispers in Brittany's ear and she goes on to catch up with Santana. Turning to Rachel, "What do you mean why was I and Brittany doing here? Same reason you are, to learn how to resist temptation."
"Oh I just thought with being gay that you wouldn't be tempted to having sex and the chances of getting someone pregnant is pretty non existing."
"Rachel, you and others at this somewhat homo-phobic school should recognize that celibacy is about avoiding promiscuity and not just avoiding reproduction and transmission of diseases. It's about respectability Rachel."
"I have two gay dads so I'm already aware of …."
~ before next weeks meeting ~
"Hey Quinn wait up?" Finn calls to her, she closes her locker and walks off ignoring him completely. He runs after her and catches up. "Hey what's with the silent treatment."
She has her back to the locker, looks up at his adorable trusting eyes and releases her pent up emotions. "I'm pregnant."
His eyes go wide, his mind fogs up and he can hear her saying something but can't quite make it all out.
"But how?"
"The hot tub the other week."
"But we had our pants on."
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"The water was hot, and that helps the sperm swim faster." Quinn starts to cry more, Finn wraps his arms around her. "I was going to get out of this town, I was happy with where my life was going to go."
Finn joins her pessimism, "I don't want to be stuck in this town as a Lima Loser, with a wife and kid on the side. I had plans for my life too."
Together, they both see their education and life as was expected to now be an absolute mess.
~ rewind ~
"It doesn't matter how it happened, what matters is that I'm pregnant."
"Are you going to get an abortion?" Hoping she'll say yes, but until he hears the words he still can't believe that he's the father.
"I've been in shock for the last few days. So I haven't made up my mind yet. I don't think this is really a discussion to have in the hallway of school, do you think we could talk about this tomorrow night? I've made us an appointment with the community health nurse."
"Yeah sure, that seems a better idea. Let's go to class."
The rest of the day progresses, she avoids eye contact with most of her class mates, she sits out of cheerio practice. In Glee rehearsals she watches Rachel intently and imagines how she'd never be in this situation, with being a frigid player.
Finn goes through the rest of the day feeling stung, he tries to listen to Rachel but notices more how her voice really aggravates at all the wrong places in his being. Hoping now that he hasn't got her pregnant too, with having just shared a kiss, but that might be sufficient because the sex ed classes he had attended turned out to be incorrect.
The school parking lot empties as the cars leave, one car remains, Quinn's. Finn tucks the hair behind her ear, kisses the back of her hand and opens the door for her. "I'll not be at school tomorrow Quinn, I'm going to take the day off. Can you pick me up for the meeting or will I pick you up, or do you want to just meet me there?"
"It's fine Finn. I'll pick you up. I'm also not going to school tomorrow. I'm going to spend the day looking through my family library and soaking up my home atmosphere. After lunch I'll visit the Church Pastor's wife and pray for guidance from God."
She's buckled up in the car now, he shuts the door and starts the long walk to his home, wishing he hadn't missed the bus or other lifts from others. But right now, he needs to distance himself from Quinn, he's not totally dumb, he's very certain he's not the Dad, but he'll be there for her until she pushes him away.
~ in the morning ~
Quinn wakes refreshed and very hungry. Her Mum and Dad go about their morning ritual and leave, not noticing she hasn't gone about her normal school day beginning.
After they leave her, she makes her way to the family library. It's a room that is full of books from floor to ceiling, and has the feeling of stepping back centuries in time. With the doors closed, it's impossible to note which time line you're in.
She picks a science history book and sits on a chair by the fireplace. This is a favourite book of hers, one that inspires women of her family. It is a reminder that females can do many things, when given the opportunity and support system in place, irrespective of being pregnant or having any physical abnormality.
Her eyes drift to a slumber and fanciful thoughts of playing family with Finn and their little cherub colour her mind. A huge cloud in the form of Puck moves over her imaginary sky.
Her eyes open wide and she sits and sobers up, knowing the real father of this child that she carries, will most likely have something significant to say, when he learns of her predicament. Therefore the idea of a termination sounds reasonable.
Eventually she gets ready for her meeting with the Pastor's wife.
She pulls the handbrake on, turns off the engine, unclips and makes her way to the front door. The idea of being a Pastor's wife being such a romantic notion, until she opens the front door and sees the welcoming calamity of a not so perfect life.
"Hi Quinn, come on in."
"Hi, thank you."
She makes her way to the sitting room and waits for the trusted female ears. Next to her Mum, this is the lady Quinn trusts the most.
She watches her shut the door behind her, and makes her way to join Quinn alongside the fireplace.
"Okay, now Quinn. Here is a list of all your options." The Pastor's wife opens a folder for her and gives it to her.
In front of Quinn is a detailed list of so many options.
Have the baby and give it up for open adoption, or give it up for a closed adoption.
Have an abortion, at the appropriate timing a list of different abortion techiques are listed.
Have the baby, keep it and plan life around the little treasure. This avenue includes where to live and baby minding assistance whilst she's in school.
Have the baby, keep it and plan life around the little treasure, but drop out of school. As Quinn looks at this scenario, the Pastor's wife speaks up, "That idea is not one I want you to think of."
Quinn looks up with questions in her eyes. The Pastor's wife continues, "No one would agree that giving up your education is in any plan. It is possible to do your schooling."
"But everyone will stare and ridicule me."
"That'd happen if you crashed your car and ended up in a wheel chair. The point is that you have every reasonable right to finish your studies, regardless of having a child or not."
"Okay, not finishing studies is not an option then." A huge smile crosses Quinn's face. "I'm really enjoying my studies, especially the art classes. And I've only got three more years till I graduate."
"Exactly, no matter what your studies results to date, you have to continue on. Failure, from quitting, is not an option."
"My Grammy always said that if I'm going to fail, it needs to be from hard work and not from quitting."
"That's my girl. Now what of the other options?"
Quinn sighs heavily, closes the folder and clasps her hands. Having put the folder down, she leans forward and rests on her knees.
"The challenge will be how my Mother and Father will react, and … I …. ummmm."
"Open up Quinn, what is it?"
"It's the father of the child, he umm, he doesn't know yet." Her voice starts to break from tears. "And my boyfriend thinks he's the father."
"Oh!"
"Yes, oh!"
"Well, we have some serious praying to do, and you have some serious thinking to do."
The two ladies look at one another. One with years of experience and wisdom, the other beginning out having made her own collection of errors.
The Pastor's wife clears her throat, and speaks carefully. "This little one, that you have inside of you, has happened because of a mistake. But what you need to consider is, which decision can you live with? Can you provide a solution that you can live with? Can you forgive yourself of one choice more than the others?"
The two ladies spend quiet prayer time together, they share cups of tea and an afternoon pastry.
The older lady takes Quinn's hands, and steady's her from crying. "No matter what happens, I'll be here for you and Quinn, God loves you no matter what your decision."
"Are you sure?"
"You are very fortunate to have so many choices, to such a predicament. There are many parts of our country where the woman is completely limited to one solution only. And there are many countries where this predicament results from rape, and again the woman's choice is limited. You, are very fortunate that you have technology and other circumstances going for you, and you still get to have an education."
Quinn's mobile phone vibrates and she looks at it. "It's Finn, he wanted me to pick him up. He said he'd come to the community nurse meeting with me."
"Quinn, you owe him the respect of being told the truth, from you. If he hears it from someone else, that will seriously affect his growth and respect for you. I know it will be difficult, but honest respect now, is a better choice from you. You should also consider the same respect for your parents. I think you'll be surprised how coming clean and honesty encourages respect and lessens shock."
"Thank you." Quinn stands, they hug and she's escorted to her car. "I'll see you tomorrow with my answer."
A sisterly kiss on her cheek, she gets in, belts up and makes her way to pick Finn up.
Quinn waits for Finn in his driveway, she receives a message from Puck, while she waits. A momentary image of her, the child and two fathers flits through her scenario hopes.
Finn hops in the car, he clips up and sits, visibly shaking. "Finn, it's going to be okay." She reassures him.
"Quinn, …" he starts and isn't sure if he should mention this thing on his mind. "I trust you, and know what I know, but I really don't see how it's possible you got pregnant from what we did."
"When we get to the community health nurse, I'll ask her to explain it. But at this stage, I can't think of another way it could have happened."
She turns the music up a little louder and they drive, the rest of the trip is spent in quiet between them.
They drive passed different family scenarios. Single children of different ages, with different aged carers. Well, Quinn puts the scenarios together of what they might be. For all good purposes, none of them might be related at all.
One scenario comes strongly to the fore, one of a woman who can't have a child of her own. And this woman could probably give this child, that she carries, a better life than Quinn hopes she could give her or him, just now.
In her heart, Quinn doesn't think she could end the little sweetie's life just now, not without lots of regret. Not when she knows that some other person could probably give her or him a better life than nothing.
Having looked at all the pamphlets dealing with the abortion idea, it's a subject close to everyone's raw nerves, and if any of her friends were to choose that path, Quinn knows she'd support and be there for them. But for her predicament right now, although she's pro-choice, she wants to see this child's smile one day and hear it's laughter too.
Already, while she's driving along, she's beginning to realize which scenario she wants to choose.
She drives with Finn, toward a solution. The most difficult scenario now, is hoping to gain Finn's respect and forgiveness.
It was wrong what her and Puck did, if she could undo it she would, but she can't undo it. What she can do, is think clearer and take responsibility for her own choices.
She parks the car, they exit. Finn waits for her, she reaches out and takes his outstretched hand.
"Finn, it's going to be okay."
"Yeah, I think it's going to be okay too."
The year started out with her feeling like a growing young lady, and has progressed to her becoming a woman.
Today the sun will set with her self respect intact. And may be, the year will end, with her being a Mum.