A/N: I do not own any of Fosters Family characters in the story, all rights belong to ABC Family.
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The beeping sound came from a distance like slow a train. As the noise got louder and louder, Stef came to, she extended her arm and pressed the off button. She rolled onto her back and slung her arm over her eyes. She took a deep breath, pulled the covers off and got up out of bed. By 8am Stef had managed to get Brandon out of bed and breakfast laid on the table. Mother and son sat at the table eating their blueberry pancakes, fruit salad and yoghurt.
"Brandon honey, mom needs to go to a meeting this morning for a few hours"
"Is it for work, can I come?" Brandon asked looking up from the table
"No, it's a very important meeting but I was thinking maybe you would like it if Lena came to stay with you while mom was out?"
"Yay, I like Lena, she's really good at telling stories" Stef smiled, it brought her joy to see how much Brandon had connected with Lena.
"Ok great, I won't be long I promise"
"Ok" Brandon responded as he turned to put a fork full of pancakes in his mouth. "Can we watch a movie tonight?"
"Sure honey"
Stef watched Brandon play with his matchbox car on the table, she looked at his sweet innocent face and she knew that it was important to talk to him, yes he was young and maybe he wouldn't understand but Lena was right, she needed to be honest with him. She pulled her chair up next to him, her chest was pounding; heat started to move up her back and rise to the back of her neck. She rubbed her hands over her thighs a few times.
"Brandon, honey, can mom talk to you for a minute?"
Brandon looked at his mother with big brown eyes and nodded, his giant ball of curly hair bopping up and down with every nod.
"Do you remember when I told you what a lesbian is?"
"A lesbinan is when a girl likes a girl" Brandon responded
Stef smiled "Good boy, you remember! That's right; sometimes girls like boys, and boys like girls and sometimes girls will like girls and boys will like boys"
"Why mom?" Brandon had an inquisitive look on his face that made his brows scrunch together.
"Why what honey?"
"Why do girls like girls?"
"Well honey, it's the same when a boy likes a girl. One day you will meet someone, maybe it will be boy and maybe it will be girl but when you meet this person they will make you laugh, you will love spending time with them, talking to them about the things that make you happy and the things that make you sad. And whenever you think about them you will feel a very special romantic love."
"Eeewww, romantic like kissing?" Brandon pulled a squeamish face as he spoke, that made Stef laugh out loud. "Yes, like kissing"
"I don't like kissing" he responded
"You don't, not even when mom gives you lots of kisses all over your face." Stef leaned in to cover his face with a million tinny kisses.
"Moooomm stOOOp!" He wriggled around, moving his head from side to side trying to stop Stef's onslaught of kisses.
They both laughed as Stef pulled away.
"When you are a handsome young man, you'll love kissing" Stef gave him a wink.
Brandon paused for a moment, you could see that he had a thought cross his mind as he tilted his head and looked up at his mom. "Will I like kissing a boy or a girl?"
The question caught Stef off guard and by surprise, she stumbled for a second thinking about the best response "Um...I don't know sweets, when you are bigger you will know"
"How?" Brandon looked confused
"Well...Uh...When you are bigger you will start having feelings, romantic feelings and when you have those feelings for someone, you will know. But honey, you don't have to worry about that now; all you have to do right now is be the sweet, fantastic and amazing little boy that you have always been."
Brandon looked at Stef with a very serious face. "Mom"
"Yes baby"
"Why don't you have romantic feelings for dad anymore?"
"Uh...Well honey... sometimes...sometimes feelings change. In the beginning you can have romantic love for someone but then that love changes and it becomes a best friend kind of love." Stef steadied herself once more "Remember when mom told you that there are different ways you can love someone?"
Again Brandon nodded
"I love your dad like a best friend, honey; your dad will always be very special to me"
"Because he gave you me!" Brandon responded with a big smile on his face
"Yes, and there is no one I love more than I love you" Stef opened her eyes wide, leaned in as though she was about to give him a big kiss, but when he moved his head to the side seeing what was coming, she pulled back with a smile.
"How do you feel about mom and dad not being together anymore?" Stef hated asking the question but she remembered Lena mentioning that it was important to provide Brandon opportunities to express himself, and make him feel heard.
"I'm sad" he bowed his head as he spoke "I wish daddy didn't have to live in another house"
"I know sweetheart, and I am sorry that you are sad. B, you know you can talk to me anytime you are feeling sad, yes?"
Brandon looked back up at his mom "When can I see dad again?"
"I don't know honey" Stef immediately saw the disappointment wash over Brandon's face "But I tell you what, I'll give your dad a call later today and let's see when we can arrange for you to spend some time with him, how does that sound?" There is nothing more painful as a parent than seeing your child hurting.
The smile that spread on Brandon's face immediately made his eyes sparkle. "Can we call him now?"
"Not now, I still want to talk to you about something very important, but I promise I will give him a call later today" The disappointment was less heartbreaking, you could see that he longed to see and spend time with his father.
Brandon turned to grab his glass of orange juice and took a sip before turning back to look at his mother. Stef pinched her shoulders together as she tried to find the words to finish what she had started, they had veered off her carefully prepared script. The nerves returned, her stomach twirled and her shoulders stiffened "Brandon, can mom ask you something important?"
"OK" his sweet face looked adorable, reminding Stef of a simpler time in life, when life seemed far less complicated and stress free.
"How do you feel about mom being a lesbian?" Stef straightened her shoulders and watched Brandon carefully as he thought about the question.
Brandon took a moment. "I don't know...its ok I guess" he shrugged his shoulders. "I don't like it when the other kids make fun of you" he spoke softly.
Those words felt as though a pin hit Stef's heart; that created a sharp pain in her chest; the pain rose through her body and settled at the bottom of her throat. "I'm sorry that they make fun of you my love, you know what they say is not true!" Stef fought hard to hold back the tears from rolling down her face.
"I know, but it makes me mad" his eyes dropped to the floor as he spoke
"I know baby, but you know what, they say those mean things because they want to hurt and scare you. The best thing to do, is not get mad, walk away and go and tell an adult"
"Why?"
"Well honey, I think bullies are sad and angry about something in their lives and they bully to make themselves feel better. Bullies don't like people who are strong they like to pick on people who they think aren't as strong as them, so the best way to deal with a bully is to be brave, tell them you are not scared of them and go and tell your teacher, and then I want you to tell me, ok?"
"Ok"
"Mom"
"Yes baby"
"I think it's ok that you are a lesbinan" The words were filled with sincerity and Stef could tell that he meant every word. She immediately felt the weight of the world lift from her shoulders, the lump in her throat subsided. The words were honey in her ears. For the first time since she came out she felt as though she could breathe, he was ok, he would be ok, and everything she feared had vanished with 9 magical words.
"Thank you baby, that means a lot to mom" she extended her arm to rub his shoulders in appreciation.
Brandon smiled back at his mother. Stef looked at Brandon and saw a young boy she was so incredibly proud of. He was kind, he was intelligent and he was sincere, and she knew in that moment he would grow up to be a fantastic young man. Raising Brandon was the greatest joy of her life.
This conversation had not gone as Stef had planned, but the conversation was far more rewarding than she had ever expected. Connecting with her son like this felt amazing, seeing how he was handing all that was happening around him made her proud. She knew she had made the right choice to speak to Brandon. It gave her the confidence she needed to carry on.
"Brandon sweets, how would you feel if mom told you she felt a special romantic love for another woman?"
"Oh" Brandon took a moment "Are you getting married?"
"No honey, we are not getting married" Stef said with a smile, as crazy as she was for Lena she wasn't ready to jump into another marriage, never mind that it was not legal for two woman to marry, but that was a conversation for another day.
He pulled the same squeamish face he had pulled earlier. "Do you like kissing her?"
Stef couldn't help but laugh "Yes I like kissing her" she replied. She continued to stare at Brandon looking for something that might suggest he was unhappy about what she was telling him, but he seemed more contemplative than emotional. After a long moment of silence Stef spoke again.
"B, honey, how would you feel if mom told you that she had special romantic feelings for Lena?" Again Stef looked intently at Brandon for signs of how we was receiving the news. You could see the wheels turn in his little brain as he took in the information.
"Do you love her?"
"Yes I love her"
"Is Lena why you don't love dad anymore?" he asked with concern in his eyes
Stef's response was immediate; the last thing she ever wanted was for Brandon to think that Lena was the reason why his parents were no longer together. "No honey, I promise you, Lena is not the reason why your dad and I aren't together anymore." Stef took a deep breath. "The romantic feelings I have for Lena are not the same as the feelings I have for your dad. Brandon honey, please don't blame Lena for what happened with me and your dad, this is not Lena's fault and this is not your fault."
"Then whose fault is it?" He asked; the frown on his face enhanced by his dark eyebrows scrunched together.
"It's no-one's fault sweets. Things change; and I know that it is difficult to understand and is very frustrating but the older you get the more you will see that things are always changing"
"But I don't want things to change, I want them to stay the same" Brandon voice was whinny.
Stef sighed hard "I know you don't, but change is a part of life. Do you know why things are always changing?"
"No" he said reluctantly
"So we can grow and learn, if things don't change then we don't grow and we don't learn and become better people."
"I don't want to grow and learn, I want to stay the same" he folded his arms over his chest, his lips pouting.
"You don't want grow, you want to stay a little boy forever and ever...like Peter Pan?" Stef voice was playful.
Brandon's face lit up with delight "Yes I want to be like Peter Pan!" he spread his arms out wide.
Stef reached over and picked Brandon up and placed him on her lap "Well then I should cancel your birthday party" She raised one eyebrow, anticipating a response.
"No, I want to have my party" he snapped back at Stef
"But you just said you don't want to grow and change, if you don't grown then you never get older which means no more birthday parties, and while all your friends turn 6 and 7 and 8 years old, you will still be 5. And when all your friends go to big school, you'll stay in kindergarten."
"Nooooo, I want to have my party, I want to be 6, and I want to go to big school"
"Staying the same is not fun is it?" Stef asked pulling him in close to her chest
"No" Brandon shook his head from side to side.
"Change is a good thing honey, lots of good things come when things change"
"Like what?" Brandon looked up at his mom
"Like...when you started going to school, that was a big change. You weren't staying at home all day and it was exciting right? You made new friends; you learned knew things from your teachers." Stef looked down and Brandon and saw him thinking hard. "And remember when we moved from our small apartment to this house, that was kind of scary moving into a new neighbourhood and meeting new people, but now you have a garden to play in and you can ride your bike up and down the street, and you love this house, right?"
"This house is my favourite; it's the best house ever" Brandon chirped
Stef smiled "Sometimes change can feel scary, and it's ok to be scared but change is a good thing. You should never be afraid of change my love" she kissed Brandon on the head.
Stef paused for a moment "Are you OK?" she rubbed gentle circles down his back.
Brandon nodded "I'm ok"
"Promise" Stef asked to make sure
"Promise" he responded looking up at his mother.
"Ok good; and if you ever feel scared or sad or angry or anything you'll come and talk to mom, yes?"
"hhmhm" nodding seemed to have become one of Brandon's specialties, something Stef is convinced he picked up from his father.
She brushed her hands through his hair "Ok good. Would it still be ok for Lena to come and spend time with you today?" the question was tentative, softly spoken.
"Yeah, it's ok" he replied
"I love you B"
"I love you too mom"
The sight of mother and son sitting at the kitchen table locked in an embrace was heart warming; the golden rays from the morning sun created a golden glow around them.
Stef was drying the dishes when she heard the knock on the door. She dried her hands, placed the dish towel on the counter and made her way to the door. The sight that greeted her when she swung the door open was pure perfection. The light was in the perfect position, creating a halo effect around the giant curls that encircled Lena face. Her face glowed, her eyes shone bright, her smile filled the air.
"Hi" Lena was the first to speak
"Hi" the word fell from Stef's lips, she was transfixed. This woman was something else and the way she made Stef feel was exhilarating.
"Can I come in?" Lena looked at Stef with a smile.
"There is a fee" Stef quipped
"Oh really now, what's the fee?"
"A hug" Stef opened her arms as she spoke
Lena took a couple of steps forwards and wrapped her arms around Stef midrib. As she leaned in to let her chin rest on Stef's shoulders, Stef quickly snuck a kiss on the lips, before settling into the embrace.
"There was no mention of any kisses in the entrance fee" Lena scolded as she rubbed her hands up and down Stef's back.
"It's in the fine print" Stef laughed
"Ah of course it is" Lena laughed back
"Hi Lena" a tiny voice came from the back of the room.
The two women turned to find Brandon standing in the hallway, still as a rock looking at them intently.
"Hi Brandon" Lena, responded, stepping away from her embrace and walked forward towards Brandon "How are you?"
"I'm fine" His response was subdued, not the normal delight he would express whenever he engaged with Lena. Lena pretended she didn't notice and carried on as though nothing was unusual, but she could feel his hesitance towards her, the uneasiness that filled the space between them.
"Brandon, we have manners in this house, you know that" Stef stepped in when she realised that her son was not particularly concerned about politely asking of Lena's well being.
But Lena could tell the little boy was not his usual self and stepped in as soon as she realised he didn't have a response "Was that you I heard playing the piano?"
Brandon nodded "Mrs Rogers taught me to play a new song"
"I would love to hear it"
"Maybe later, I'm tired of playing now" Brandon's voice was cold.
"That's ok, even Beethoven needs a break" Lena responded with a smile
Brandon looked over at Stef "Mom can I watch cartoons?"
"May I please watch cartoons" Stef corrected
"May I please watch cartoons?" he recited back to her
"Yes you may, but you know the rule, only 2 shows!"
Brandon turned instantly and walked to the living room.
Stef took in a deep breath "I'm sorry"
Lena turned to look at Stef "No need to apologies, he seems out of sorts is he ok?"
"I told him about us this morning"
"Oh wow, ok, how did he take it?"
The two women made their way towards the kitchen as they spoke
"He seemed fine when I spoke to him, I asked him if he was ok and he said he was fine"
Lena rubbed Stef's back "It's all still very fresh give him time to process it all."
Stef smiled and took a moment to consider what Lena had said "Yeah, I hope so"
"Have a little faith" Lena replied.
The smile that spread across Stef's face was one of self amusement. Maybe she'll try a little faith, she thought, only because Lena suggested she did. Oh she was in trouble she thought, she was going to trust faith because Lena had suggested it, yip this was definitely love. She looked at Lena "Do you want some coffee?"
"I would love some thank you"
They sat at the kitchen counter for a while; Lena listened to Stef recount some of her conversation with Brandon, marvelling at how well he seemed to be taking things. They discussed Stef's impending meeting with the lawyers, how she felt nervous. Lena offered words of support as she listened. When Stef looked down at her empty coffee cup, she glanced at her watch it said 9.25am.
"I need to get going" She said looking back up at Lena
"Yes of course, are you going to be ok?"
"Yes I'm going to be fine, are you?"
Lena winked at Stef "We'll be fine"
Stef made her way to TV room where Brandon was sitting on the floor watching morning cartoons.
"B, sweets, mom needs to go to that meeting she was talking about this morning. I need you to be a good boy while Lena looks after you. Can you do that for me please?"
"OK" Brandon displaying very little interest in what Stef had to say and continued to stare at the TV
Stef kissed the top of his head and turned to Lena
"He's eaten so he should be fine, the fridge is stocked..."
"Stef, we'll be fine" Lena interrupted
"I know" Stef replied
They both walked back into the kitchen where Stef collected the things she had set aside to take with her to the meeting. She turned to look at Lena
"Thank you again for this"
"Go or you will be late"
"Ok I'm gone" She leaned in and gave Lena a kiss on the cheek
"Bye Brandon" Stef spoke loudly
They barely heard the half hearted response that Brandon gave. They both laughed at how uninterested he seemed with Stef's departure. Lena rubbed the side of Stef's arm.
"I'll be back as soon as I can" Stef spoke
Lena smiled and they exchanged warm loving looks before Stef made her way out the door.
Lena poured herself a cup of tea before making her way into the living area where Brandon was sitting on the floor with his legs crossed starring at the TV.
"Do you mind if I sit with you?"
Brandon nodded yes in response without looking at Lena. Lena sat down in the arm chair across from the TV. They sat in silence watching Tom and Jerry dart around on the screen, Brandon would let out a little laugh every once in a while. It wasn't long before the show ended; and Brandon picked up the remote and switched off the TV.
"Mom says I can only watch two" he spoke without a word being uttered by Lena. Lena watched as Brandon stood.
"Do you want to play a game?" he asked without looking at Lena
"I would love to" Lena responded, watching him make his way to a chest of drawers on the other side of the room. He opened a draw, stood quietly for a moment before he pulled out a big box and walked back to the coffee table in the middle of the room. He put the box down at the centre of the table and kneeled down to start unpacking the pieces in the box. Lena stood from her chair and walked to where Brandon was sitting; she put her tea on the table and sat on the floor opposite Brandon.
"I like monopoly" She spoke as she pulled a cushion under her
"Me too" Brandon responded without looking up.
"Which one do you want" he offered Lena first dibs at the different playing tokens. Lena looked at the options in the box for moment and settled on the top hot. Brandon chose the car. He quietly set up the game and the two sat in comfortable silence playing.
"Can I ask you something Lena?" Brandon spoke without warning.
"Of course honey"
"Do you love my mom?"
Lena looked at Brandon, who continued to look at the board game in front of him. "Why do you ask?"
"My mom said she loves you" Brandon continued to look down at the game.
Even though she could feel the blood rush through her body, Lena kept her composure. She thought carefully for a moment about how best to respond. "How does that make you feel?"
Brandon shrugged his shoulders "It's ok I guess."
"Yeah"
"Yeah" he recited back to Lena, silence falling on them again.
"Mom used to be sad all the time, she thinks I didn't see, but now she's happy again, and I like it when she's happy."
Lena felt the lump in her throat rise, her eyes welled up. She smiled at Brandon who looked down as he moved his piece three blocks up. "I love your mom very much" Lena spoke softly. Brandon smiled.
When Stef walked back into the house, she was greeted with the sound of chatter and laughter in the kitchen. She walked through the passage slowly listening to Lena and Brandon chat away.
"You got some on your nose" She heard Lena's voice
Brandon giggled
"There going to be nothing left if you keep eating it before we've finished." Lena spoke again with laughter in her voice.
"How long will it take to be ready?" Brandon asked
"It should take about 30mins" Lena responded
Stef stood at the kitchen door and the sight of Brandon and Lena standing over the kitchen counter with a giant mixing bowl in front of them was delightful. There were eggs, flour, milk and oatmeal spread out on the table. Brandon was the first to spot Stef.
"Hi Mom"
"Hey buddy, what you guys up to?" She spoke as she walked into the kitchen.
"Lena and I are making oatmeal cookies" he responded with a giant smile
"Wow that's fantastic" Stef walked over to the both of them. She brushed her hand over Brandon's head and leaned down to give him a kiss. "Have you been a good boy?" She asked with her head buried in his head. Brandon nodded in reply. Stef then looked up and walked the 3 steps over to Lena and gave her a kiss on the cheek. "You two seem to be having fun?"
Lena looked back with a smile, her eyes silently reassuring Stef that all is ok with her and Brandon. "I hope you don't mind but Brandon and I thought we'd try our hand at making you some cookies for when you get home"
"Well thank you very much you two, can I help?"
"No me and Lena are almost finished" Brandon piped up
Lena laughed as she looked over at Stef "Brandon has been a fantastic little helper"
"Good boy" Stef responded looking at Brandon.
Stef sat at the kitchen counter and watched them put the final touches to their oatmeal cookies before sticking them in the oven. They cleaned up the mess on the kitchen counter and the three of them decided that hot dogs were in order for lunch. They sat at the small table in the back garden. Lena and Brandon recited the day's events to Stef, Brandon rejoicing at how he made Lena pay her lots of money for all the real estate he owned during their game of monopoly. After lunch Brandon ran around the back garden with toy aeroplane as Stef and Lena looked on.
"How did the meeting go" Lena spoke reaching out to intertwine her fingers with Stef's
Stef held her breath for a moment. "It was fine" she looked straight ahead at Brandon.
"What did they say?"
"Aaahh, as long as Mike doesn't contest the divorce it should be done in 6 months. They are going to draw up the divorce papers and file and serve them to Mike in the next week or so."
"And Brandon?"
"I've asked them to petition Mike to give me full custody, but we won't know how that will play out until Mike responds to the request for the divorce. They said it's not likely that a judge will take Brandon away from me, if Mike counters the request given his current history"
"OK, well that's great right?"
"Yeah" Stef's response was subdued and half hearted.
Stef's reaction to this conversation made Lena feel uneasy, Stef felt distant and disconnected. She knew and understood that this was not going to be easy for Stef, ending a marriage never is, but she had hoped at the very least that Stef would let her know how this was affecting her.
"Any regrets?" Lena asked tentatively
Stef immediately turned and looked at Lena "No, of course not my love" Stef curled her fingers around Lena's and raised their hands to kiss the back of Lena's. "Why would you even think that?"
Lena felt silly for feeling insecure "I...I don' know why asked that, it's silly" She spoke with a slight laugh hoping Stef would dismiss that moment.
"Can we have a cookie now please?" Brandon spoke loudly as he stood in the middle of the garden.
Stef looked over at Lena with a, 'this is your call', expression written on her face.
"Yes, I think they have cooled down now" Lena responded to Brandon
"Yay" Brandon dropped the plane he was playing with and made a B-line for the kitchen.
"Cookies and milk it is" Stef spoke with excitement as she got up from her chair, pulling Lena up with her. As they started walking to the door, Stef suddenly stopped and turned right into Lena pulling her into a hard kiss on the lips. The moment caught Lena completely by surprise, but as she felt the eagerness with which Stef held her she was quick to allow herself to sink right into the embrace. The kiss was deep, all tongue and full of heated passion. Stef was the first to pull apart; she took a satisfied and self congratulatory breath. Lena stood in silence catching her breath.
"I've wanted to do that since you walked through the door this morning"
Lena laughed, "I can tell"
Without another word, Stef grabbed Lena's hand in hers turned around and walked towards the kitchen.
The trio decided that an afternoon movie was in store; they each grabbed a cookie and a glass of milk and made themselves comfortable on the couch. Brandon was given that task of choosing the movie and of course it would be his favourite, Finding Nemo, a movie he and Stef had seen what seemed like a gazillion times. Stef and Lena sat like a pair of teenagers holding hands on the couch. The movie finished and Stef got Brandon in a bath and ready for dinner, while Lena whipped up a salad with grilled fish. Brandon was particularly chatty during dinner, entertaining Lena and Stef with interesting facts about the things he learned during his piano lessons. Lena and Brandon seemed in their element discussing the names of famous classical musicians. Brandon was in bed and out like a light by 8pm.
Stef and Lena grabbed a cup of tea and settled themselves on the couch. Stef tucked herself snugly under Lena's arm and rested the back of her head on Lena's shoulder.
"I'm sorry I wasn't able to arrange for Brandon to stay with my father tonight, I know I promised I would get us some alone time"
"It's ok, I really enjoyed today. I'm really happy we got to spend the day together"
"I was really nervous when I left this morning, I felt guilty about speaking to Brandon about us and then leaving you two alone together, especially after his reaction towards you" Stef eyes were wide with concern as she spoke.
"Yeah that could have gone really badly. But we're fine. We had an interesting conversation while you were gone."
"Oh really?" Stef looked over at Lena
Lena ran her eyes over Stef's face "He told me that you love me"
"He what?" Stef spoke as she sat up to face Lena
"Why do you look so surprised, don't you love me?" Lena's face was playful.
The tension that had arisen in Stef's face melted away, she leaned over and gave Lena a kiss on the lips. "Of course I love you"
Lena pulled Stef into her and they locked themselves in a deliciously rich and erotic kiss. Stef pulled Lena on top of her as she manoeuvred her body to lie on the couch. She pulled Lena down on her hard. Lena ran her hand through the back of Stef's neck and into her hair. Stef's feet tingled from the sensation; she could feel the arousal and heat rise through her body, causing her heart to flutter.
Lena pulled back reluctantly, Stef moaned at the sensation of loosing Lena's lips.
"How do we always manage to get ourselves in this position" Lena whispered, recalling the agony of having to stop the other night.
Stef didn't respond, her brain was sitting somewhere near her feet, she leaned up to try and capture Lena's lips again but Lena pulled back up.
"We can't and I should go" Lena hissed
"No no no no" Stef whined as she pulled Lena back down kissing the base of her neck, the sensation causing Lena to pure in Stef's ear.
"We can't, Brandon is just down the hall" Lena tried very hard to reason.
"Brandon is fine, and he's fast asleep" Stef kissed her way up the side of Lena's neck and over her jaw "I miss you" her voice was sultry and wanton. She nibbled on Lena's earlobe as she spoke.
Lena resolve collapsed as she felt Stef flip her tongue against the back of her ear. She turned her head and enveloped Stef's lips in hers. Stef tucked her leg between Lena's. It wasn't long before the sensations of touching each other was not enough and hands had slipped under clothing. Lena pulled back up again, her breathing was heavy; her eyes were full of desire. Stef propped herself up on her elbows.
"Bedroom" was all Lena said.
Stef bit her bottom lip and nodded her head. They untangled themselves off the couch and began walking towards Stef's bedroom. Stef grabbed Lena's waist as she followed Lena. As they entered the bedroom, Stef was suddenly very conscious of what was happening, and the beating of her heart began to be erratic, and nerves rolled through her stomach. This was not the first time she and Lena had made love but Stef was very conscious of how inexperienced she was at being with a woman. Lena exuded confidence in bed; she was comfortable with her body. While their first time together had been both satisfying and passion filled, Stef realised after that experience that making love to a woman was nothing like being with a man. Lena was the first woman Stef had been with and she felt like a baby learning to walk.
As they stood in the middle of the bedroom they turned and faced each other and let their foreheads rest together. Stef tilted her head and began tracing gentle kisses down Lena's cheek. Lena began to undo Stef's shirt, she titled her head to the side to allow Stef room to make her way down her neck. If Stef had learned anything the first time she had been with Lena it was that making love to a woman was a gentle, delicate and sensual act. Things had always felt hard and rushed when she had been with men. Mike in particular was very aggressive in bed and so Stef had learned to grab, and pull and bite. With Lena things seemed to be far more sensual, seductive and erotic.
They removed each other's clothes leaving only their underwear, Stef gently walked Lena backwards towards the bed. They fell together and immediately entangled themselves. Stef was the first to make a move down Lena's body and she marvelled at how everything about Lena's was different from a man's. There was no hair on her chest, her skin was so incredibly soft and smooth to the touch, her breasts where supple and even when her nipples where hard they felt softer somehow. As she ran her hand down Len's leg, the silky sensation immediately aroused Stef at her core. She loved how Lena's skin felt against hers, how her scent made Stef feel dizzy with desire and how Lena managed taste like the perfect mix of spicy and sweet at the same time, it made Stef salivate. Stef had never felt any of these emotions making love before, everything about being with Lena was sensationally new and exciting. It was marvelling to Stef the way Lena's body seemed to react to the slightest touch, the most delicate flick of the tongue. This time Stef wanted to be more pleasing to the touch and graceful in how she devoured Lena's body.
Stef took her time, she paid attention to every reaction that brought Lena pleasure, memorising the parts of her body that made her moan and hiss with gratification. It surprised Stef how aroused she became by Lena's arousal. All of a sudden sex was no longer a chore to be completed, but a delicacy to be enjoyed. Lena's orgasm made Stef's heart stop with excitement, they lay still for a moment as Lena made her way down. Stef slowly kissed her way up Lena's thigh, along her leg to the tip of her large toe, then back down towards her stomach and up her chest. Lena ran her hands through Stef's hair guiding her way back up her body. When their eyes met, Lena's eyes were glazed and satiated with gratification. They smiled at each other. Lena lifted her head to give Stef a kiss, and then slowly made her way down Stef's neck; Lena pulled Stef towards her and swiftly rolled her over.
"Oh that was good" Stef commented educing them both to laughter.
Lena looked at Stef with complete desire in her eyes before tracing her tongue down Stef's cheek. Stef was on fire, her toes curled and she dug her heels deep into the bed. She had never know a feeling this enthralling ever in her life, it took every ounce of her strength not to scream with delight. She grit her teeth and growled hard as Lena made her way down her body inch by inch. Every suction of Lena's lips against her skin felt like perfection, every flick of the tongue made Stef tingle with delight. As Lena worked her magic, Stef began to feel light headed, she felt her body lift off the bed, she pulled a pillow over her head and bit hard as her moaning became louder and louder. Stef doesn't remember passing out but she does remember the feeling of Lena's lips kissing her closed eyelids. Stef slowly opened her eyes, she blinked a few times, and when she regained her vision Lena was hovering above her like a goddess in a halo of curls.
"Hey, welcome back" Lena spoke softly
"Hey" Stef's voice was hoarse and dry
Stef caught her breath realising just want an amazing experience that was, as she looked deeply into Lena's brown orbs she was overcome. Her eyes welled "I love you" she whispered. The electricity of their emotions for each other bounced off the walls. Lena was overcome seeing Stef so vulnerable and open "I love you" she mouthed back as her bottom eyelids filled with tears. Lena leaned down and buried her head in Stef's neck, they held each other tightly.
The lay facing each other, neither of them spoke a word. Stef played with a piece of hair that had fallen on Lena's face and as she twirled the curl around her finger she couldn't help but admire how captivating the features of Lena's face were. A smile spread across her face.
"What?" Lena spoke tenderly
Watching Lena's lips move was like watching clouds float through the sky.
"Nothing" Stef responded smiling even harder this time.
"Seriously, what are you thinking?"
Stef blushed hard and shook her head against the pillow "No, I can't"
"Come on, please!" Lena begged
Stef looked at Lena intently for a moment, she closed her eyes. "I think you are breathtakingly stunning" the words rolled from Stef's mouth as though she was making a confession rather than a statement.
"Stef" Lena felt a lump rise to her throat for the second time that day as she tried to adjust to how incredible those words felt coming from Stef
"Are you getting all mushy on me Officer Foster?" the words catching in Lena's throat as she spoke
"I'm allowed to get mushy when I am speaking the truth"
It seemed as though there where very few occasions when Stef managed to say the right words at the right time without putting her foot in it, but right now she had got it perfect. They curled into each other's arms, neither of them remembers falling asleep, but it was the most peaceful sleep either one of them had had in a long time.
A/N: Thank you to everyone that has taken the time to read this story, an even bigger thank you to everyone that has taken the time to post a review.