The Impossible Possibilities of Love

Chapter 4

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or associated characters.

Kagome tiptoed quietly into the kitchen, heading straight towards the coffee pot. She bit her lip as she slowly opened a cabinet and took down a coffee mug. She quickly and quietly poured herself a large cup and added her favorite, Vanilla Caramel creamer, careful not to make noise closing the refrigerator door. She made her way back to the living room and melted into the couch and sipped her liquid salvation.

The last two weeks had been hell on Earth in the Higurashi household. The day after Kagome and Kai arrived home, hell broke loose. Kai had started his rebellion and Kagome saw no end in sight. He refused to sleep for more than twenty five minutes, no matter if it was day or night. Every time she put him down, twenty five minutes later; he was back up and crying with a vengeance.

His crying was a whole other matter. Kagome had once thought a baby's cry was soft and beautiful. Her son killed that theory; his was more of the cry of a soldier going into battle. His cry was loud enough to wake the centuries old dead!

Kagome took a few more sips of her coffee and let her head fall back against the back of her couch. She was in dire need of sleep, but she didn't see that happening anytime soon. The bags under her eyes had developed bags under them.

Kagome felt herself dozing off when the shrill ring of her house phone made her pop up, spilling coffee on her pants and floor.

"Damn it!" She hissed as she quickly sat her mug on the coffee table and raced to shut the phone up. She knew her efforts were in vain when she heard Kai's famous battle cry. Kagome sighed heavily and snatched up the phone.

"Who is it?" She asked irritably. His nap hadn't even lasted his full twenty five minutes. She had laid him down only ten minutes ago.

"That's a funky way to the answer the phone. What has your panties in a bunch?" A voice she recognized as Sango's asked.

"The phone rang and he's awake, again." Kagome answered as she made her way to the nursery. Hopefully a bottle would do the trick.

"Why didn't you put the phone on silent?" Kagome blinked. That was a good idea and she had no clue why she hadn't thought of that.

"Call me later. Go deal with my honey bunch." Sango said before she hung up. Kagome shrugged and turned the phone around to flip the switch on the volume. There, no more noisy baby waking phone calls. Kagome tossed the now silent phone on Kai's dresser as she made her way to the crib.

"Hey, mommy's sweet baby. Did that loud thing wake you?" Kagome spoke softly to her son as she lifted him into her arms and made her way back to the kitchen.

She grabbed a pre-made bottle off the shelf inside the refrigerator door and put it into the bottle warmer. She set the bottle warmer and gently rocked Kai while they waited. She had changed him before she laid him down the first time so his diaper was still fresh. 'Lucky me.'

Once the bottle finished warming, Kagome checked the temperature on her wrist. Satisfied, she carried Kai into the nursery and sat in the rocking chair. She gently maneuvered Kai into feeding position and fed him his bottle.

This was her favorite time of the day.

She felt connected to her son during his feeding times. It was one of their special little moments to bond and appreciate one another. 'God, I sound like one of those baby commercials.'

Kagome gently rocked Kai as he finished his bottle. She then burped him and laid him back down to finish out his nap. Kagome grabbed the now empty bottle and quietly left the nursery, pulling the door half closed behind her. She made her way to the kitchen, placed the bottle in the sink, grabbed a towel and cleaner and went back to the living room.

Kagome had just sprayed cleaner on the coffee mess when a knock came from the door. She dropped the cleaner and towel and dashed to the door before it woke Kai. Kagome opened the door to find a nervous looking Inuyasha holding a few bags in his hands.

"Hey," She said, not really sure what to say to him. "What are you doing here?"

"Hey Kagome, I thought I'd….uh…come by and check on you guys." Inuyasha gave her an uneasy smile and shook the bags in his right hand. "I brought food."

Kagome smiled and stepped back to let him in. "Thanks. You can take it to the kitchen."

Inuyasha nodded and walked past Kagome to head into the kitchen. He placed two bags on the counter and turned back towards her, three bags remaining in his possession.

"I got Kai a few things." He said with a smile, his eyes glancing around. "Where is the little guy?"

"He's down for a nap." Kagome said as she peeked inside the bags on the counter. Ramen and chicken. Kagome felt her stomach grumble. "What did you get him?"

Kagome pulled down a couple of plates and sat them on the kitchen table. Inuyasha busied himself by pulling out the gifts he had brought for Kai. Kagome turned towards him to see what he had and began giggling. Inuyasha looked up from the gifts confused.

"Um, Inuyasha, you do know he can't do anything with those yet right?" Kagome said still giggling as she sat the plates on the table.

Inuyasha looked down at the PlayStation 3, PlayStation Vita, remote controlled SUV, and softball set. He looked back up at Kagome with a sheepish smile. "I knew that." Inuyasha set the toys back inside the bags and sat down at the table while Kagome dished out the food.

"It was nice of you to buy him those anyway. He'll appreciate it when he's old enough." Kagome said as she sat across from Inuyasha. "Thanks for the food. I haven't been able to cook much lately." Kagome put a fork full of ramen and chicken into her mouth, moaning at the taste.

"Why is that?" Inuyasha asked as he watched her chew with her eyes closed seemingly in bliss. He turned his eyes down towards his own plate and pushed unwanted thoughts out of his head.

"Kai has been on the warpath lately. The kid barely sleeps." Kagome said before eating another fork full. Inuyasha smiled at her as the two continued to eat in silence. Once done, Kagome leaned back and rubbed her stuffed tummy.

"You're my hero for that Inuyasha. I haven't had a real meal since Kai and I came home." Kagome gave him a wide smile and collected their plates to put in the sink. "To be honest, I haven't had time to do much of anything lately. Kami knows this apartment needs a good cleaning." Kagome said as she rinsed the plates before setting them in the dishwasher.

"It's that hard on you, huh?" Inuyasha asked with a small smile. He stood and wrapped up the remainder of the food, putting it into the fridge for her.

"Sometimes it is." Kagome said right before a huge yawn hit her. She covered her mouth with both hands and gave an embarrassed giggle. "I'm sorry; I haven't had much sleep lately."

Inuyasha took a close look at Kagome and noticed the bags under her eyes. He walked to her, put his arm around her and walked her out the kitchen. As they entered the living room his eyes did a quick sweep. He hadn't noticed before that her apartment was in slight disarray.

Kagome looked up at him curiously as he led her down the hall towards three doors. "What are you doing?" She asked as she wiped a hand over her eye. Her sleepless nights were finally catching up with her.

"You need to rest Kagome, before you fall over. I'll watch Kai for you." Inuyasha said as he stopped in the middle of the hall. "Which room is yours?"

Kagome wanted to say no, but her body was giddy at the idea of real sleep. Against her wishes her arm raised and pointed a finger at her bedroom door. Inuyasha walked her in and gently pushed her towards the bed. Kagome looked at Inuyasha wearily. Could she really trust him to watch over her son?

Inuyasha caught the look Kagome gave him and smiled. "Don't worry Kagome. I'll stay in the apartment with him. Besides, technically he's my son too. It's about time I pulled my weight." He winked at her and turned to leave the room, closing the door behind him.

Kagome smiled at his comment and allowed her worries to cease. She laid her tired body on her bed, which seemed more comfortable than it ever had before, and let herself drift off to sleep.

-X-

Inuyasha walked quietly back into the living room and looked around. The least he could do was straighten up for her. Inuyasha began picking up things off the floor and putting them in their proper places. Once he finished the living room he moved onto the kitchen, sweeping and mopping the floor and making sure all the dishes were in the dishwasher.

He had just switched the dishwasher on when he heard the loudest cry in the history of baby cries. Inuyasha quickly jogged out the kitchen and into the room the cry came from. He walked to the crib to see Kai squirming around, his tiny face red from his crying.

"Hey little guy, what's all the fuss about?" He asked softly as he lifted him out of the crib. This seemed to work as Kai began quieting down. Inuyasha gently rocked him side to side as he tried to remember what to do about babies crying.

'Right, check the diaper.'

Inuyasha took Kai to the changing table near the crib and laid him on it. He then unwrapped his blanket and checked his diaper. He was wet, so Inuyasha began the challenging task of changing him.

"It's a little loose, but we're good right little guy?" Inuyasha talked to Kai as he wrapped his blanket back around him and picked him up. He walked into the living room and sat on the couch. He gently bounced Kai and looked at him.

Kai looked so much like Kagome, but also like someone else. Inuyasha thought back to what Kagome had told him in the hospital. He couldn't wrap his mind around why she would even consider having a sperm donor. It wasn't like she was unattractive or had a shitty personality. She could be scary, but she wasn't so bad underneath it all.

"Your mommy is strange little guy." Inuyasha whispered to the newborn, who had just opened his eyes and peeked at him. Inuyasha smiled as Kai's eyes wandered over his face and then closed again. The two sat for a little while longer in a comfortable silence, until Kai began to fuss again.

Inuyasha tried bouncing him, but when that didn't work he switched him to lie on his shoulder and gently rocked him. Kai began to whine softly and Inuyasha began to panic. He stood and began walking back and forth, gently rocking and whispering softly to Kai. This only caused Kai to cry louder.

'Shit! What the hell am I supposed to do?' Inuyasha tried to remember all the things he knew about babies−which wasn't much to begin with. He didn't want to have to wake Kagome to ask her, she needed as much sleep as she could get.

Suddenly a thought popped in his head and Inuyasha mentally smacked himself. "Fucking idiot. The kids probably hungry." Inuyasha rolled his eyes at himself and walked to the kitchen. He found a bottle already made in the fridge and grabbed it.

"Hey, wanna tell me how mommy warms this up?" Inuyasha asked Kai while he looked around the kitchen. He spotted the bottle warmer on the counter and stared at it. "Now how the fuck does this work?"

Inuyasha sat the bottle in it, holding Kai in one arm and turning the warmer with his other. 'They couldn't just write the instructions on the side?' After five minutes of nothing, he finally found a button on it and pressed it. A couple minutes later he checked the bottle to find it warm and went back to the living room to feed Kai.

Inuyasha watched Kai drink from his bottle with a small smile on his face. He'd always liked kids, but never thought about actually having one. The little time was spending with Kai made him consider the 'what if's'. He wouldn't mind having a family one day. A wife, a couple of kids and a dog. Inuyasha chuckled at his thoughts. He would actually have to be serious about someone for that to happen.

Inuyasha was brought out of his thoughts by his cell vibrating in his pocket. He maneuvered Kai and grabbed the cell phone. He sighed when he saw Iyana's name flash across the screen, he considered letting it go to voicemail but he knew she would just call again.

"Hello?" He answered with zero enthusiasm. Iyana was becoming a bore these days.

"You haven't returned my calls." Iyana said with thinly veiled patience. Inuyasha rolled his eyes.

"I've been busy." He noticed Kai was sucking the last remaining drops out of his bottle.

"What has you so busy that you can't call me?"

"Oh, I don't know. I do work for a living you know." Inuyasha replied snappishly. He never explained himself to a woman before and he sure as hell wouldn't start with her.

"What has gotten into you lately?" Iyana snapped back. "I can barely get ahold of you and when I do all you give are smart ass remarks."

Inuyasha pulled the now empty bottle from Kai and adjusted him on his shoulder so he could burp him. Two pats in and Kai gave a loud burp that had Inuyasha chuckling. "Nice one kid." Inuyasha said to Kai, forgetting all about Iyana on the phone.

"Who are you talking to? Are you even listening to me?" Iyana asked running out of patience. Inuyasha sighed loudly.

"Yeah, I hear you."

"Hearing me and listening to me are two different things. Who were you talking to?" She asked again. Inuyasha thought about what to tell her. Nobody knew about his marriage except Kagome, Sango and himself.

"I'm babysitting." He told her. He wasn't about to get into those details with her.

"For who? None of your friends have kids." Iyana stated.

"How would you know?"

"You would've mentioned it." She responded.

"Why the fuck would I tell you anything about my friends?" He was getting irritated with the whole conversation. "I gotta go." He quickly hung up before she could respond.

He knew he was being an asshole, but she seemed to irritate him without even trying. 'She's lucky she can do that little trick with her mouth.' He grinned at the thought. Inuyasha looked down at Kai to find him fast asleep. He smiled at him then grabbed the remote from the coffee table and watched T.V.

-X-

Kagome woke feeling like a brand new person. She smiled as she stretched out her well rested muscles. She sat up in bed and ran a hand through her tousled hair. She then headed to the bathroom to answer natures call and brush her teeth.

She checked her reflection in the mirror, remembering that Inuyasha was out there. 'Not that it matters how I look.' She shook her head at herself and headed out into her living room.

She found Inuyasha leaned back on the couch watching T.V with Kai fast asleep on his lap. She leaned against the wall and looked at them. To an outsider they looked like a typical father and son bonding moment, but she knew better.

Her son didn't have a father and there would be no bonding moments for him. She ruined that when she fell for an asshole.

'I sure know how to make myself feel like shit.' She thought as she looked on, silently wishing for what her son would never have.

"Hey there sleeping beauty." Inuyasha's voice brought her out of her depressing thoughts. She looked up to see him smiling at her. "How was your nap?"

Kagome smiled back and joined him on the couch. She leaned down and kissed Kai on the forehead before responding. "Heavenly. How was your first day of parenthood?"

Inuyasha laughed softly. "I panicked a few times, but it wasn't so bad." Inuyasha looked down at Kai and smiled. He enjoyed his time with the little guy.

Kagome leaned back on the couch and looked around. "You cleaned the living room?"

"And the kitchen, but I didn't get to vacuum. I didn't want to wake you guys." He told her. Kagome looked at him wide eyed. He actually cleaned her place?

"Inuyasha, you didn't have to do that." She told him softly. Inuyasha just smiled at her.

"I wanted to help you out." He looked down at Kai then looked back to Kagome with a serious expression. "You can call me, Kagome, if you need help. I know I'm not his father biologically, but I wouldn't mind helping you out with him."

Kagome could do nothing but stare at him. Was he serious? It's not like she couldn't use the extra help. She would be starting work again soon and didn't have a babysitter lined up for Kai. Her mother had offered to watch him, but she lived too far and daycare was out of the question while he was this young. She didn't see a way around it.

"Thank you Inuyasha. I actually could use the help." She said softly offering him a smile. He smiled back at her and the two sat in silence until Inuyasha announced he had to go. Before he left out the door, he handed Kagome a card with his cell number and work number on it.

"Call me anytime, for anything."

For some reason, she knew she could trust him to be there.

Umm, hi? I know, I know, I fell off the face of the Earth. Life happened guys, a lot of life happened. But things are squared away and I can get back to bringing you the story that you were so fond of. You still like it right? You'll hurt little Kai's feelings if you don't...You wouldn't hurt a babies feelings, would you? No, I didn't think so ^_^ Hope you enjoyed the chapter, I stayed up until 2:30 am finishing it up for ya. I was feeling guilty about not updating for 2 months...I'm rambling. Okay, you know what to do! Hit that little review button down there and tell me your thoughts! TTFN hunnies. You won't have to wait 2 months for the next chapter promise lol.