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Chapter 39
I was on Kaname's bed panting from the lose of blood, because my neck was covered of my blood from Kaname biting. The sheets were covered with my blood from my arm. I looked at Kaname to see him on the side of the bed. He put his hand on my cheek.
'Damn it. Why does Kaname have to give me the same punishment as Onee-sama did.' I thought.
"You didn't drink his blood..." Said Kaname. "On that single thing, you did great..." Kaname bit me again making me twitch my fingers. I kept panting and gasped as he pierced his fangs deeper into my skin. He released his fangs from my neck to look at the anger on my face. "The feeling of powerlessness... makes one feel mortifyingly angry at themselves, doesn't it...?"
"...What do you want me to become...?" I said. "Why did you go as far as giving me...Hope...?" Kaname put his hand on my forehead.
"All I want is for you to be the way you are... Victoria..." Said Kaname. He took my arm in his hands and pulling it up to his face. "I just... thought you should realize one thing though... the fact that there are things for which no matter how hard someone tries, it always comes down to nothing. I left Hope with you so that you would realize that..." I remembered when I was young as Kaname kissed the back of my hand.
"...Why..." I said breathing heavily. "Why are you...speaking like you are filled with nothing but despair...? It may have take me ten years to do it, but... I did come back, Onii-sama..." 'Yet something doesn't feel right.' "Is it not good enough? Onii-sama... Am I..." Kaname drinking my blood from my arm. "...I see... it's because I really am no good than Onee-sama... isn't it...?"
"Victoria, it's actually because I'm so dreadfully afraid that one day... you might throw yourself into a lost cause and sacrifice your life in the attempt... I don't want..." Said Kaname. "...I don't want to live that a second time..." My eyes were wide.
'Second time? It can't be? No way. Why are you telling me this?' I thought. I touched Onii-sama's cheek.
"Is it because oto-sama and okaa-sama... gave their lives for was for nothing...?" I said. 'I do know what you are talking about, but...'
"No. You know that's not it, Victoria." Said Kaname. I looked up at him with wide eyes.
"I... am... not going to die...!" I said. "...So please... don't sound like you've lost everything... like back then..."
"...Victoria..." Said Kaname touching my hand. I looked up at him.
"I know..." I said smiling at him. "I know you are not actually... my brother all this time." Kaname picked me up bridal style. "Even though I was surprised that you were... also my brother. And that you were not actually... my brother. I always felt like you were brother, even though... you hid things from me." I closed my eyes leaning my head against his chest.
"The world you see is different... from the one I see." Said Kaname.
"I imagined." I said.
"And that's precisely why..." Said Kaname. Kaname lead me to the doors where I thought I smelled him. The door was open to a big a room and at the other end was a coffin. Kaname lay me down on top of the coffin.
"This place..." I said. "I was right it did smell like Onii-sama. So then..."
"You are right... Victoria." Said Kaname. "I was inside... this coffin all that time... All that long flow of time... wishing to be finally reduced to dust, but never having that wish granted... I had thought that my long journey... had finally ended, but..." I grabbed on to Kaname's sleeve. Kaname looked at me.
"I understand this Onii-sama, but I don't quite understand it..." I said. Kaname lifted me up to his neck.
"Then... Do you want blood...?" Said Kaname. I nodded my head. "You have seen it before, but wouldn't be more interesting to see it for yourself, my whole memories."
"What about... Onee-sama?" I said. I looked to see Kaname's eyes wide suddenly.
"What about her?" Said Kaname.
"She needs to... know to someday." I said. He whispered in my ear.
"Then show her someday." Said Kaname.
'Someday.' I thought. I looked at Kaname's neck. 'see it for yourself, my whole memories. His whole memories." I bite Kaname's neck and the memories started to slip in. I see a memory of a baby bleeding and that Rido was holding the baby, and he was talking to a coffin. He opened the coffin and hand went up to reach his neck. My eyes were wide as I recalled it was Kaname in the coffin, the original Kaname. Rido was talking that he was Kaname's owner and that he was going to devour his life. Before he can say 'life' Kaname bit into his neck drinking as much as blood he can.
'So this is what you were like Kaname. I never realized seeing it with my own eyes can see how your life was like.' I thought. The memories changed to show Juri holding her baby boy.
"Good boy, Good boy... Kaname." Said Juri.
"He's such a good boy, isn't he? Ah!" Said Juri. "Now way, he made such a weird face just now!" I chuckle a little watching this scene. "How funny, isn't it?" Haruka was looking down at the child and so was Rido.
"Wow I haven't seen this scene in a while." Said a soft girl voice.
"He was very cute as a baby." Said a boy voice. I looked behind me to see Mimi and Kaoru smiling at this scene.
"What are you two doing here?" I said.
"You are entering Kaname's memory, and we were in those memories." Said Kaoru.
"So we want to see Kaname's memories... again." Said Mimi. I looked at Mimi with confused expression.
"Maybe it is a good thing after all... to give birth to a new life, with all the hidden promises and the unknown factor comes with it..." Said Rido. I turned to look at Rido, Haruka, and Juri.
"...would you like to hold him in your arms? Huh, 'Uncle Rido?'" Said Juri.
"Wow, it had a nice atmosphere when Kaname was born." I said.
"Yes, but that isn't actually Kaname." Said Kaoru.
"I know this is my true brother." I said getting sad. Rido hold on to Kaname and something dropped on the floor. I started to chuckle.
"Ah! I'm so sorry! I thought it would still be fine, but..." Said Juri blushing.
"I forgot that Kaname was funny." I said trying to stop laughing.
"It's because you are bad at changing diapers, I'm very good at it... because I have experience taking care of my little and my little sister." Said Rido turning to the doors. "Let me see...I'll go and get you all cleaned up, Kaname. And I'll also get changed out of my shirt which you got all wet." I was still chuckling.
"Brother, I'll take care of... Brother..." Said Haruka stepping in the hall to see Rido gone. I stopped laughing and looked to see the scenario changed again.
"Oh no, Kaname!" I said. I didn't realize it but the Mimi and Kaoru from this memory saw me run pass them, while they were smiling. I looked to see Kaname in the coffin wake up and Rido was on the ground. Rido started talking to Kaname and he was bleeding from his ribs and neck. Kaname turned to look at the child that was in his coffin. The blanket he was surrounded in was soaked with his blood. Kaname touched the boys head and he was in the dead baby that is now living. Haruka entered the room.
"Brother..." Said Haruka noticing that soaked blinking and holding onto the live baby that was like his own.
'Dad...' I thought. I looked to see Juri seeing this scene. 'Mom... even though you two new, you still love him like he is your own.' There was one scene when Kaname was a child and Juri was holding me and Yuuki in his arms. I noticed Kaname grabbing me from Juri in his arms.
Outside of his memories I was tighten my hold on Kaname's shirt. I saw flashes of me and Yuuki grabbing hand with a smile on our face. I grabbed Kaname and pushed him down on the coffin. I felt the tears going down face.
"Why? Even though I knew what you are and who you are. Why would you still me show me this?" I said. "My ancestor, Kaname." The tears feel down on his face. I put my hand on his cheek.
"Victoria..." Said Kaname.
"You were in this coffin for so long... and you went inside the baby known as my real brother." I said.
"It's true." Said Kaname putting his hand on my cheek rubbing the tears down my cheek. I put my other hand on his cheek and leaned down towards him.
"Now please answer my question... why are you showing me this now?" I said. "Ancestor Kaname. No, Kaname-onii-sama." For a minute his eyes were wide but he composed him self.
"Victoria I-" Said Kaname.
"It was hard on you wasn't it? To tell us the truth until know. So I was waiting for you to finally tell, but... I can tell you are hesitating, Onii-sama. You don't have to tell me everything." I said trying to get off him, but Kaname grabbed my wrist and pulled me to his chest.
"I'm not hesitating, Victoria. I want you to know everything... drink more of my blood." Said Kaname. My eyes were wide and sighed.
"I saw Mimi and Kaoru." I said. I can feel Kaname nod. "Just to warn you Kaname they are you going to see your memories with me."
"It's alright." Said Kaname. I pierced my fangs in his neck. "Since they knew everything since the beginning." I saw a scene of Kaname holding me bridal style and Yuuki behind his back. We were asleep.
"Wait Here for a little, but... I have to go take out the enemies pursuing us." Said that little Kaname. "Don't worry... I'll be back soon to take you two to a place where you'll be warm again. The next time you open your eyes, you... you'll look at me with the eyes of someone seeing a stranger, won't you...?" I was siting on the snow with my day class uniform and my short hair.
'Oh boy...' I thought. 'This is the memory where I had to protect Yuuki from that...'
"...Are you two lost, little girls?" Said the vampire from before.
"Victoria..." I looked behind me to see a small Yuuki.
'What?' I thought. I was then surrounded by other vampires that I know.
"Victoria/ Master!" I can hear Mimi and Kaoru calling me running up to me.
'Wait did Kaoru just call me Master. Okay that's worried.' I thought. I looked to see Shizuka-sama, Rido and other vampire including Juri and Haruka. Their hands were reaching out to me.
"No! Stop it! Kaoru! Mimi, help!" I said reaching my hand out to them. They grabbed my hand and we were know going down to see shared of memories.
'What? This is...' I thought.
"Kaname-sama's memories." Said Mimi.
"Lord Kaname... is showing you from the beginning." Said Kaoru.
'I know that Mimi and Kaoru call him something like this, but when they are around me they only call Kaname.' I thought. 'What is going on with Mimi and Kaoru?' I see a woman wearing a robe covering her face going to Kaname. She said she was travel to find people like us 'people who can't die.' I saw disappear from Kaname and saying farwell to him.
'This person is...' I thought. 'Kaname-onii-sama you...' I was falling deeper and deeper into the memories. I saw Kaname going to one of the sick or dead and taking their blood. The people in the town call him Lord and started asking him questions, and calling 'monster', 'unnatural', and many other names. The woman reached out her hand to the Kaname and wanted him to go to where she was going. I looked to see many other people to where they are ahead.
'Those people...' I thought.
"Hmm... I have almost forgotten about the others in the past." Said Kaoru.
"Yes.. it feels like it was just yesterday when we met all of them." Said Mimi.
"What?" I said. I chuckled and Kaoru and Mimi look at me. "Zero and Kaname are alike... they just haven't noticed it yet." I see Kaname being scolded by the woman that saved him and that she is offering her blood to him.
"Lend me your power." Said the woman. I smiled.
"I know see Kaname-onii-sama." I said.
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