Hello again! This week I am going to try and post every two days, because I have mocks all week! I will have a total Clintasha frenzy after next Friday though don't you worry! :)
Previously
My phone bleeped immediately after and I got a text that read:
"You look beautiful tonight. I couldn't say it in front of the others. You know how Stark is! Have a good night."
"Who are you texting?" Maria said trying to peek over my shoulder.
I whipped my head around and said "No one" whilst pushing my phone in the opposite direction.
Big mistake.
Pepper snatched the phone and I said "Pepper give it back right now."
I was about to get up to tackle her to the ground, but Maria held my arms back to the sofa.
"'You look beautiful tonight. I couldn't say it in front of the others. You know how Stark is! Have a good night.' It's from Clint." Pepper read out.
Maria released me and I sprinted over to grab my phone back nearly knocking over the glasses of wine that were pre-laid on the table.
They looked at me with raised eyebrows.
"Are you and Barton together, because everybody thinks so?" Maria asked.
"No, we're not and what do you mean?" Everybody thinks that?
"All the agents believe you are together. Even Fury."
"FURY? FURY THINK WE'RE A COUPLE?" I shouted. How is this happening?
"Yeah! Some people even have bets!"
"What do you mean bets?" I asked, not really wanting to find out what she meant.
"Well, whether you're married, whether you've slept together yet. Stark made a bet yesterday didn't he?" she asked Pepper casually. Was this normal?
"Yeah, he did. I think it was £50 that you are already married to Clint and £100 that you have already slept together." Pepper replied.
"Well Stark has just lost £150, but why do they think that?"
Maria looked surprised. "Have you seen the way you two act around each other at the S.H.I.E.L.D bases? 'If you can find one of them, the other will always be close by' is what they say at S.H.I.E.L.D." Maria said.
"But Barton doesn't even like me in that way." I argued, which is right. He doesn't
Both the girls scoffed and Maria said "Yeah right. I have seen you together on mission. You protect each other to the ends of the Earth, you hate being apart and have you seen the way he looks at you?"
I crossed my eyebrows. "What looks?" I questioned.
"You must be blind not to see them! He always looks at you when you are not watching and then turns his head away the slightest second before you look at him."
"Well, he's been getting sloppy about that recently." I whispered under my breath so no one could hear me.
Pepper squinted. "What did you say?"
"Nothing."
"JARVIS, voice replay please."
"'Well, he's been getting sloppy about that recently.'"
"And what do you mean by that?" Maria asked.
I looked back and forth from Pepper and Maria. They were sitting on the table whilst I was opposite them on the sofa. It felt like an interrogation.
I sighed and said "Clint was looking at me and I caught him staring. He looked away immediately and he started going red, but that doesn't mean anything."
"He must have been really distracted this time." Maria teased taking a sip of red wine that was on the table. "How many times has that happened?"
I paused. "A couple."
"He likes you." They said at the same time, phrasing it as if it was obvious.
"Tell me everything that has happened between you two since he came back." Pepper said.
"Do I have to?"
"Yes. We need to convince you of the truth." Maria said.
I knew I didn't have to tell them if I didn't want to, but I needed to talk to someone besides Barton and get this off my chest.
"Fine. So I guess you need to know about the fight too then."
"Tell us everything that happened." Pepper said.
"Okay so I had just finished fighting the Hulk and I made my way to get Barton. We fought for a while and I was doing well, but he caught my ankle where a metal tube had hit it earlier when the explosion happened. He grabbed it and pulled me down. Then he...he..um..." Come on Natasha I said shutting my eyes and breathing deeply.
Maria placed her hand on my wrist telling that I was upset and then said "You can tell us anything."
I nodded slightly and she squeezed my hand reassuring me that she was there for me. It felt good.
"So, he came on top of my and...straddled my waist. He put my arms above my head with one hand and I couldn't get out of his hold. Then he brought his face down to mine so our noses touched...then he.. he started to..unz-unzip my catsuit."
They looked at me stunned and I just said "Slowly and intimately Loki had said to me and I knew exactly what he had instructed Barton to do. But I told myself...that I didn't want it to happen like this."
"You want it to happen though?" Pepper asked.
I thought about it her question and decided to reply truthfully. "I think so. That's what I thought at the time." sounding more confident in my words than I thought.
"Anyway," I continued. "I headbutted him and he was knocked unconscious. Then later when I was in the medical room something...weird happened while I was waiting for him to wake up."
"What was it?" Maria asked taking another sip of red wine. How much had she had?
"He was fidgeting in his sleep, like he was trying to shake off Loki's control, but then I heard him talk."
"What did he say?"
"At first he said 'Don't touch her.' I guessed he was talking about me, but then he said 'Loki, dont even think about harming Tasha.' and I knew that he was. Then...he said 'Can't do that to her.' and then started begging. What is that meant to mean?" I asked.
"Well, it sounds like he slipped out of Loki's control, which is basically impossible unless you have a hope connection." Maria said.
"What do you mean by hope connection?" What has she found out?
"Well we were figuring out how his energy worked on people and discovered that they could disconnect from Loki's power if they had some kind of strong connection with something. In this case, it must have been you."
"So are you saying that Barton stopped Loki's mind control because of me?" I asked shocked.
"Yes, I think so. And when he said that he can't do that to you, it must have been him saying that he couldn't hurt you in that way, because you meant too much to him."
There was a moments silence. "We don't know that for sure." I said.
"Back to what happened. So he woke up and we chatted a bit about Loki and where he was. Then I sat down next to him...we said that we had missed each other and I put my head against his shoulder. We ended up hugging for about 5 minutes straight."
"Awwww. So sweet." Pepper said in a high pitched voice.
I ignored her and said "Then the battle happened and we closed the portal. I went down to join the others, but I was worried...Clint wasn't there. I got angry when he didn't reply, but he came up from behind the others. I ran up and hugged him...I was just so happy to see him." I smile graced my face for two seconds before I realised that I was still in a room with Pepper and Maria.
They smirked darkly and I rolled my eyes, still smiling.
"After that, we went to get Shawarma and Stark was telling us that Fury wants us to stay at Stark Tower. I asked him if he want to go, in Russian, and he replied Ya budu sledovat' za vami kuda ugodno. Vsegda."
The others looked confused and I chucked saying "It means 'I will follow you everywhere. Always.'"
The girls smiles were now reaching their eyes. "Stop smiling your freaking me out." They just laughed.
"When we were walking back, I had to explain the whole Coulson situation to him and he wasn't very happy. I told him that he was the only person I have left now that he has gone, but he just said that he blames himself for his death."
The girls both looked down into their laps upset that their friend had died. I carried on.
"We got back to the Tower and Clint went to the gym to hit the life out of a punchbag. I came over to him, forced him to face me and he practically broke down in my arms."
"What happened?" Pepper asked.
"Well, I kissed him on the head trying to comfort him and I thought I did wrong when he looked up at me, but he just thanked me for being their for him."
"He trusts you more than anyone you know." Maria interjected.
"I know he does. And I trust him more than anyone too. That was the moment that I first thought that I loved him and I think that I do. I don't really know what love is."
"Love is when you would do anything for someone. When you cannot be without them. When you can't stand to see them with someone else and you would die for them. Do you feel that with him?" Pepper asked.
That's how I feel about Clint. "Yeah. I do." I stated simply, then snapped back into my story. "I fell asleep against him once we were settled in the living room and I woke up to find that Stark had taken photos of us sleeping together." I said looking at Pepper.
"Yeah. He got told off for that don't you worry." Pepper said.
"Anyway, I sat up to go and kill Stark, but he pulled me back down on top of him."
"You two are so good together."
"Shut up Pepper. Then we had breakfast, or we would have if Fury hadn't interrupted us and told us we would be staying together for a little longer, which we sarcastically said we were annoyed about. Tony showed us to our rooms and there was an embarrassing conversation between the three of us about Clint crawling through the vents and him sleeping with me."
The girls raised their eyebrows for the ten millionth time.
"Not like that. He comes through the vents, but he doesn't sleep with me. He comforts me mostly."
"You two already act like your married." Maria commented.
I rolled my eyes and ignored her "Eventually, we ended up sitting on my bed talking about how he could've killed me. He placed one of his hands on my waist and one on my shoulder. I struggled trying to keep my heart rate down...a lot."
"Oh my goodness, you guys kissed?" Pepper said her eyes open wide.
"Well, we would've if it hadn't been for you. Our lips were so close to each others and my eyes were closed when Stark came to see us to tell us you were here."
Pepper apologetic face and said "Sorry."
"Don't worry about it Pep. It was amazing to be that close to him though. I could feel his breath on my lips and I just...It felt incredible." I said smiling.
"OH MY GOD! You are so brilliant together!" Pepper squealed.
I put my fingers in my ears and said "Stop screaming, please."
"Sorry. Again." she said in a quieter tone, but carried on. "But Maria, you agree with me right?"
"Oh totally! Of course! You two are the best couple on the planet apart from me and Cap!" she said a little drowsy.
"Maria, how much alcohol have you had to drink."
She tried to make herself look innocent as she said "A lil' bit, but you've had the same as me."
"I'm Russian."
"Fair point."
"So, after you had your screaming rant at Tony and I had caught Clint staring twice, I-"
"My God! He keeps getting distracted by you, doesn't he?" Okay. Maria was definitely drunk.
"Apparently so." Pepper said.
"Back to my story! After that, we watched a couple of horror films until my body felt like it was going to die if it didn't do any exercise, so I said that we should spar."
"Their sparring has too much sexual tension Pepper!" Maria said.
I looked at her and said "It does not!"
"Shut up Nat. You know it does."
"No, it doesn't!" I argued.
"Okay. Tell us what happened when you sparred."
"Well, we fought...for twenty minutes...and then...I pinned him down...and I...stared at him...for a while." I said quietly dragging off the last couple of words.
"What were you saying Romanoff?" Maria asked.
"Be quiet Hill." I said and she just smirked along with Pepper. "So I stayed like that for like 20 seconds or something. And then...I thought about how we couldn't be together. And tears started going down my face. He asked me what was wrong and put a hand on my cheek. I just apologised...and left, locking him out."
"Why didn't you kiss him, you idiot?" Normally, I would've punched someone in the face for calling me an idiot, but she was my friend...and also really REALLY drunk.
"I still don't think that he is interested. He hasn't made a move or anything." I said.
"No, you just think he hasn't made a move and have you been around you? You block emotions. Imagine what he thinks about that!" Pepper said.
That stopped me for a minute. I block emotions.
"I locked myself in my room and my moment got ruined by Pepper. Again. Actually the more I talk about this, the more I come to realise that you keep interrupting my life."
"Sorry." she said. Again.
"STOP APOLOGISING ALREADY!"
"Sor-doesn't matter." she said and I smiled.
"You told me about the situation and I went to the gym to punch it out. After that, all I did was get dressed and come meet you guys. Then they came round the sofa and we talked."
"Through your mysterious secret eye conversations." Maria said slowly and lowly.
"Um...yeah. He was just asking if I was okay."
"And then you got the text." Pepper said.
"Yep. And that's it." I said.
"Oh my God. You like him soooo much." Maria said. Yep 100% drunk. Maybe even more.
"If you tell anyone about this then I will kill you."
"Understood." Pepper said. Then Maria saluted and said "Yes, ma'am."
"Why are you upset about this and why aren't you going to tell him? This is a good thing, Natasha." Pepper asked.
"No, it's not." I said angrily standing up walking over to the kitchen.
"Why not?" Maria asked loudly as she and Pepper followed me.
"Because S.H.I.E.L.D rules won't allow it and he deserves someone better." I practically shouted that last bit.
"It's never going to happen." I said falling into a chair and holding my head up on the table with my hands.
"Natasha, you are all that he talks about. EVER. So don't get the idea that he doesn't like you. And as for him deserving someone better, you could not be more wrong. You are the ONLY person fit for him to be with." she smirked. "I don't think anyone else can control you two apart from each other."
"What do you mean i'm all he talks about?" I said wondering what she meant by that.
Maria scoffed.
"He goes on about you like there is no one else left on the planet!"
"If what you are saying is true and he does like me...S.H.I.E.L.D rules still won't allow it."
"When has protocol ever stopped someone like Natasha Romanoff?"
I thought about what she said. "He really talks about me that much?"
Pepper and Maria said "YES!"
Maria continued in her drunken state "He bores me with the way he goes on about your skill!"
"Look," I said getting up out of the chair. "I am not going to tell him anything, because we are brilliant partners. The best team S.H.I.E.L.D has. I am not messing that up by allowing feelings to get in the way."
Pepper and Maria looked at each other and sighed.
"Fine, be like that." Pepper said "but it's going to happen whether you like it or not."
"That's all going to change after tonight."
"Why would it change?"
"They're all going out and he'll probably end up sleeping with a beautiful blonde or something."
"Natasha, tonight will change nothing!"
"Look, I don't want to talk about it anymore. Lets just eat some more food, drink some more wine and gossip about something. Anything."
"Alright, but this conversation is not over!" Pepper said.
We just spent the rest of the night talking about Cap and Hill, how annoying Stark is and I think we got a little bit pissed.
We drank what felt like 5 bottles of Vodka. Shit, we were more than pissed.
Clint. Clint. Clint. I could not get him out of my head? What is wrong with me?
My thoughts were cut off by the boys coming in at 1 o'clock in the morning.
Please review this story! I hope you like it :) I will probably post again on Monday or Tuesday, because of exams...HECTIC! I hope you liked the Captain Hill I put in there as well! Sorry if there's any mistakes :P