you can complain that this is too short. please do it. I want you to complain so I have some kind of inspiration.

This is part 1 of 2. :) it seemed easier to upload them at different times, plus part 2 is nowhere near ready to be edited.

so, I guess i shouldinsert my disclaimer here... I own nothing.

yeah.

ENJOY, LILY!

The back and forth between Animal Man and training was taking all of my energy. I barely had time to sleep before I was sneaking off to watch him.

I had never been more glad that we were on break, it gave me more time to watch him keep the animals well trained. To see him interact with them in ways I knew I never could.

His eyes were a green I had never seen before. His jaw constantly stubble covered, and his cheeks formed dimples when he ate. He was perfect.

I had watched him countless times, hiding behind something indiscreet, barely breathing in hopes of not being caught. And I never was.

Until one day, while he was training a lion.

I was sitting behind a cart, filled with bags of clothes and shoes, casual wear for the whole family, when stupid me moved a little too loudly, and yeah, I definitely got his attention.

He spun around and crouched, in an almost animal like position, preparing to pounce on me. It was kind of hot.

"Who's there?"

His voice was beautiful. Of course I had heard him address the animals, and laugh and talk and sing, but he had never aimed his words at me before, and his voice was incredibly sexy. I may or may not have been sporting a hard on in that moment from the two words alone.

"Uh, um, it's uh, me."

I mumbled more stupid words along the same lines as that, including:

"You don't know me. But I've seen you watching my act," insert awfully awkward long pause here, "I swear I'm not stalking you. Consider it really creepy admiring."

It took about two minutes for me to realize he couldn't see me.

Walking around into his line of vision felt like the walk of shame. Except instead of walking towards my cranky Grandmother, I was tiptoeing towards my subject of stalking. It was more like the the walk of you've-been-caught-and-now-he-is-going-to-make-the-lion-eat-you.

Which was much worse than having Grandma take a kane to my hand for breaking her vase.

He was still crouched in his predator like stance, but slowly straightened as he watched me, almost visibly relaxing.

The lion was crouched, snarling at me, and I jumped back. He laughed.

"It's not funny. If that thing eats me and you laugh I'll haunt you."

He giggled. My god, he giggled. "Lester has no teeth," he chuckled, "the worst he will do is make you piss you pants."

"Oh. Well I'll just leave you to, um, train him. Train Lester, the lion. Lester the lion that you're training right now. That one."

I finished my idiotic rambling with a point towards the lion, which earned me a snap of it's jaw.

"M'kay bye!" I yelled before turning and running out the tent door.

The last thing I heard before I turned towards the kitchen carriage was him laughing. Loudly.

The next time they see each other is during training for the next show.

Cas hears people talking about the animals, and the tricks they will be performing. Hears the nurse talk about how much the children will love the horses new show, the kitchen staff gossiping about the elephants new poses. He even hears one of his team members talking about how hot the Animal Man is.

And so he tries to act casual as he speed walks towards the performance tent where the practice sessions are taking place. And there he is, talking with the elephant softly whilst guiding her slowly through a crowd of people.

His face is freshly shaven, no hint of the stubble that Cas loves so much, and his eyes look like they had slept for days. He looks happy and fresh.

Cas spends about an hour just watching the animals get used to the new setup the same way the humans do. It's fascinating really. Until it's time for him to practice.

He's over this life, wants to stop and settle down. Maybe buy a cat, or have a kid. The circus is old news for him and he thinks maybe it's time to move over, let a new kid with bright eyes take his place.

Just one more tour.

Review or Cas stays in the circus forever and he will die sad :)

kay bye.