Authors Notes: Well, here is the long awaited chapter 5 this is the longest chapter I have ever done. For those of you that can do longer chapters than this I bow humbly before you. I'm up to 40 reviews for 4 chapters that is just awesome.

Italic = Dreams Center Italic = Memory's 'Italic' = Thoughts "Telepathy" = (people, animals or device)

Warning! Cold Shower Content. Warning! Adult Content. Warning! Girls Making Love to Girls. Warning! Cold Shower Content. Warning! ANGUISH and PAIN! Warning!

By the way, if you hadn't noticed this chapter is rated M. HEHEHE! ^_^

Disclaimer: I do not own or make money off from the characters of Magical Girl Lyrical, Nanoha the only thing I own are my stories. I only borrowed the characters.

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Lightning Fingers

By

Zona Rose

Chapter 5-Lightning's Touch

Fate's POV

It's been six months since I've joined the 6th Mobile Division and my worst nightmare is standing before me. Not only that, but he's captured Nanoha. Will the nightmares of my past now include the woman I love?

Flashback

This was supposed to be an easy mission. Hostages were being held at an embassy in a neighboring country. So, we were brought in to free the hostages and take into custody the terrorists. What we got instead was a trap probably set for me.

Nanoha and Teana had snuck into the building to do some recon we needed to know how many there were and where the hostages were being held. Something had gone terribly wrong. Nanoha had told Teana to get out while she still could and gave her back up to escape. The last time I saw Nanoha was when she went into that building.

It's been three weeks since the hostage situation and still no word or sighting of Nanoha. My anger and temper are just below the skin. One wrong move or word and it could blow. I make sure that when I'm in the training room, I'm the only one there so I don't accidentally hurt someone. But Signum seems to always know that I'm there and spars with me until I'm exhausted.

Two days ago, a messenger came with a letter for me. Hayate assembled the team in the briefing room. As I read the letter, what I've been trying to keep under control I lost. I lifted my fist in the air and brought it down hard onto the steel table splitting it in half. Everyone in the room moved back against the walls terrified of what I had just done.

I left the letter on the floor and went to our apartment. Everything's the same; nothing has changed… well all except for one thing, Arf and I now sleep in Nanoha's room. It's the only way I've been able to bear her not being near me.

The morning of the assault, Hayate was extremely adamant. "Fate, you can't take your dog. This isn't an outing, this is a mission to get Nanoha back." I looked at Hayate after she was done with her little speech. I was not budging on this one. Arf was going whether Hayate liked it or not. It was the only way I knew Nanoha would be safe even from me.

We arrived at the warehouses; those specified in the letter. As the others were getting ready for the assault, I took Arf to the side. Arf and I share a special bond. We can hear each other's thoughts. Only those that have been able to share in my blood can acquire this ability plus much more. "Arf is Nanoha here? Can you get her scent?"

After a short while I could see Arf perk up as if she's caught something on the wind. "Yes, she's here. But she's not alone I smell several different people besides, her."

"All right, this is what I want you to do. ~~~"

End Flashback

The man I despised with every fiber of my being was standing before me with a very smug smile on his face as if he knew he held a trump card against me. He was standing approximately 20 feet away from me and Nanoha was probably another 10 feet behind him with two women on each side of her.

I was looking into the eyes of a madman; the man that took the last important thing from me forever…my sister.

"Fate, it's been such a long time. You don't call me anymore; especially after all we've been through when you were younger. I mean, the fact that you have allowed me to live has been quite astonishing. After all, you did profess how much you loved your sister Alicia and yet you allowed me to kill her right in front of you."

I was trying my best to keep things under control. Losing it now would do nothing but get people killed. I had to buy some time. I couldn't allow him to manipulate me, which is exactly what he wants.

"You see Fate, I've been watching you since you were born and when your little friend saved you and Alicia from your mother, I saw the bond grow between the three of you and I knew I had to get rid of that pesky little friend of yours. Then my opportunity arrived. She was on holiday with her parents and a horrible accident happened killing all three of them. All it took was a little tampering of the brake system and they all went over a cliff."

My eyes wide with shock. My knees gave way and I went crashing to the floor. He had described the accident that had taken the life of my childhood friend and savior to a perfect tee.

I remember that day as if it was yesterday. The day that I died with my Nanoha after her brother and sister had told us that their parents and Nanoha had all been killed in a car accident while on holiday. My body went cold and inside I could feel myself dying knowing I would never see her again. Just like I had said when she had to move away, I had cursed my own best friend and secret love to her death.

But now I knew the cause…Jail Scaglietti had killed both of them. The two most important people in my young life and now he was threatening the life of the woman that I love and I would do anything for her including die.

I extended my right arm and opened my hand. Lying there was a yellow triangle; my device Bardiche. I knew that Hayate and the others were not going to stay out of this. I could only pray that they didn't come under friendly fire because no matter how hard I tried to suppress the rage within me, I just couldn't any more.

The last thing I remember seeing was Nanoha trying to break free from the restraints and Arf attacking the two women guarding her. As I gave into the raging beast within me, the beast he had created with all of his experiments.

The first sound that broke through the darkness was the sound of an animal growling. I could also hear someone in my head calling out my name. I blinked my eyes a few times to clear them and what I saw was Arf standing between me and Nanoha protecting her like I had commanded.

I close my eyes and I could feel my rage as it subsides and with it the beast within me retreats. I turned away from Nanoha and call Arf to follow me. They're all afraid of me now… it's time to leave. I started walking towards the exit knowing they wouldn't stop me. Who would want to work with someone who could turn into a monster?

"This is what he wants Fate. He wants you to be alone so that you have no one there to help you when you need it the most. That's why he took those who were most precious to you away. So that he could turn you into something without a mind or conscience…a soulless machine of destruction. That's what he wants to turn you into and you're letting him if you leave now."

I turned my head slightly to look at the others. "They're not going to want to work with a monster like me; someone who might kill them without hesitation. This is why I tried to tell you Nanoha. I work best alone because I don't want to hurt anyone and the last person I want to hurt is you. And if I have to leave to protect you then that's what I'll do."

I didn't know that Nanoha had approached me until I felt her arms wrap around my waist. "Don't leave me Fate. Don't go back to that lonely existence. It's not what they would have wanted for you. I know because I wouldn't. Stay by my side forever."

I turned around in her arms, putting my hands on her shoulders. I looked deep into those beautiful sky blue eyes trying to see if there was any fear of me whatsoever. But all I saw was love and trust.

Seeing the purity of her emotions undid me inside. The pent-up grief from all those years ago started flowing from my eyes. If she hadn't been holding me, I probably would've ended up on the ground. I sobbed out my grief for the two that I had lost so long ago.

I don't know how long I had been crying when I came back to myself. Nanoha and I were outside the warehouse. I was on her lap, cradled in her arms and my face buried in her shoulder.

I started to hear a low growl coming from Arf. It was her way of warning people not to get too close. Nanoha whispered in my ear that Hayate was approaching. I reached out my hand to touch Arf to let her know to stand down for the moment.

"I have good news and I have bad news. Which would you guys like to hear first?" I dreaded the bad news, but I knew I needed to hear it.

"I'll take the bad news first." I tried to set up, but Nanoha held me in place.

Hayate moved a few more steps closer. "Alright, the bad news is Jail Scaglietti was never here. It seems that one of his girls had a hologram projector with a prerecorded message. I think he wanted to see how far he could push you. Also, one of those drones was here and it looks like it was recording everything that happened and it also escaped."

I waited to hear the worst of the bad news but Hayate's words had stopped almost as if she was waiting for something. I couldn't take her silence anymore I had to ask. "How many were killed?"

My answer was silence, so I turned my head to look at Hayate. She was smiling at me. "That would be the good news. Very few injuries and no deaths. As a matter of fact, the one who did the most damage was your dog over here. She has had her rabies shot right?"

Hayate had ordered up a full workup on both of us. I was patiently waiting for Shamal to finish with Nanoha when we heard the door to the infirmary slam open with running feet. I looked over my shoulder at Nanoha and I could see fear in her eyes. That's all I needed. I stepped between Nanoha and who ever was approaching. No one was going to get her ever again.

The curtain was shoved aside and before any of us realized what was happening, my fist met his face and he went flying. Long blonde hair and glasses went every which way as he landed in a heap 5 feet away.

Behind me I heard a gasp and movement. As I started to turn around, Nanoha went running past me to the man on the floor. I guess I should've held back as she seems to know him.

"Yuuno, are you all right? She didn't hurt you too badly did she?" I heard a grumble coming from the young man as he sat up, holding his bleeding nose. Apparently I had broken it. I looked over at Shamal with an apologetic look. She just shook her head and walked over to the young man between the two women and they hoisted him up.

If looks could kill, I would've dropped dead. "Who are you and why did you hit me?"

"Sorry, I just reacted. I'm still in mission mode. My name is Fate Testarossa and I'm Nanoha's roommate and partner. Again I am very sorry for my reaction. I guess I need to learn to ask questions first not strike first."

He seemed to be debating whether to accept my apology or not when Nanoha piped up." It's okay Fate. As long as he knows that you were only doing it to protect me, I'm quite sure my big brother will have no problem accepting your apology."

The man that Nanoha called her brother was looking back and forth between her and me as if he was trying to decide what he was going to do or say. But then he started staring at Nanoha and the look he was giving her was anything but brotherly. All of a sudden I got the sensation and feeling that I wanted to pound and pulverized this man for giving her such a look. What is this feeling? Could this be jealousy? Why should I get jealous over her brother? Their blood relatives after all, aren't they?

After about 30 min. of babying and coddling the man that was introduced to me as Yuuno Scrya, finally left the infirmary after Shamal assured him that Nanoha was fine and that he didn't need to worry about her.

Shortly thereafter, we were allowed to leave to head back to our apartment. Upon arriving, Arf was very excited and wouldn't leave Nanoha alone. After a while, Nanoha collapsed onto the couch exhausted and panting.

She noticed that I was still standing by the door watching her. I had been watching her, studying her since the warehouse to see if I could see any problems. To see if there was the slightest difference between now and before she disappeared.

As I was gazing at her, I could see tears start to well in her eyes. I was beside her in a moment, pulling her into me. Now that we were alone with no one for her to be strong in front of, she broke down from the stress and the ordeal that she had gone through. All I could do was just hold her and allow her tears to exhaust themselves.

"Fate, would you tell me about them and about your past? What he did to you to make you like you are. I want to know everything about you; the good and the bad."

I was torn about what I should do. The things of my past I've locked away deep inside so that they couldn't be used against me, but they still were. I'm still affected by my past. Maybe if I talked to someone about it, it won't hurt as much, or haunt me every night.

"There hasn't been an awful lot of happiness in my life. What little happiness I have had has been short-lived, but those memories are the ones I cherish the most and are what keeps me going. Are you sure you want to know about this darkness that is within me?"

"Yes, I want to know everything about you. Fate is Fate. What has happened in your past is what has made you the person you are now and I want to know what experiences you have had and the people that have made the difference in your life. I want to be able to help you when you need it the most and the only way I can think of to be able to do that is to know everything about you. So please let me in and I will do my best to try and hold back that darkness."

This woman in my arms is breaking down all of my defenses. It seems that I no longer possess the will to resist her anymore. Just like my Nanoha did all those years ago. All I can do now is pray that when she finds out that I'm not even human that she will still look at me.

"Alright, I'll tell you. I just hope my story doesn't give you nightmares because I know they do me."

I knew this was going to be a long story, so I piled up the pillows and leaned back on them. I stretched out one of my legs along the back of the couch and pulled Nanoha into me so that she was draped over my torso. After she got comfortable with her head resting on my chest, I pulled the light blanket down to cover us.

I started to walk slowly through the forest in my mind back to the beginning of everything…my creation.

Fate's Past Memories (Song Forest)

My very first memory was the sensation of floating and when I opened my eyes, I was surrounded by fluid with a very cold surface holding it in place. Later I found out that it was a stasis tube.

I had no concept of time so, I had no idea how long I had been in there. One day when I opened my eyes, there was a pretty little girl standing on the outside. She had red eyes and blond hair and when she noticed that my eyes were opened and looking at her she smiled and put her hand against the glass so, I reached my own hand out to try and touch hers. From then on, she came to visit me every day.

Then the day came that the fluid was slowly drained out and I started to panic not knowing what would happen when it disappeared. As I was laying on the floors' surface, my body felt heavy and weak. The fluid that was still in my lungs I was coughing out and for the first time I breathed in the air.

I felt something wrap around me and then I was picked up and carried into a room where I saw the woman that was always outside the tube. She had the same expression on her face now as she did then…cold. I had no idea how she truly felt about me until much later. The woman looked at the pretty little girl and told her to take care of me and teach me what I needed to know. You see, I was born as a five-year-old little girl.

The little girl introduced herself to me as Alicia and she told me that I was her clone, which made her my big sister. She also told me that because she was my big sister, she would always protect me. Then she said that she's the one who had picked out my name and it was Fate, Fate Testarossa.

The first six months of my life with Alicia was so happy and carefree. Alicia told me that the woman with Violet hair was our mother Precia. I always wondered why mother would look at Alicia differently than she would look at me, but I would soon find out that answer when she started her experiments on me.

While Alicia was at school, Mother would inject me with different colored fluids. They would always give me great pain, almost like they were changing me, or doing something to me inside. This went on for many months without Alicia knowing what was happening to me.

Until one day Alicia came home sick unexpectedly. She heard me screaming downstairs in the laboratory and came running to find out what was happening to me. The sight that she saw horrified her.

I was strapped down to a table with at least 15 different types of the IV tubes running into my body. Alicia came running over to me and tried to unstrapped me from the table, but mother pulled her away telling her to go upstairs and ignore what was going on; this thing wasn't for her to care about. It was only for her glory, her plans for me, from the beginning was to create a killing machine that would go to the highest bidder.

Mother's mentor was helping her with her research as well as getting the chemicals and serums of unknown origin that she needed to complete her project, which was called project FOREVER. As her goal was to create an immortal soldier, one that could heal quickly on the battlefield without the need for a medic. This soldier would need to be unstoppable.

This went on for several more months. Alicia would hold me every night as I cried myself to sleep wanting to know why mother hated me so to cause me such pain.

Then one day it happened. I had, had a bad reaction to whatever was given to me as I tore up the laboratory. When I woke up, I was inside a cage like an animal. I was never so grateful to mother for doing this when Alicia wasn't home.

After that day, that's when the beatings and the whippings started. She would chain me up trying to get that reaction out of me again and again and again. But when she couldn't get it, she started up with her experiments once more. She wasn't satisfied with the one reaction she had gotten.

I hadn't seen Alicia since I have been put into that cage, but here she was standing with the key and opened the door. I moved to the very back, trying to tell her to leave me there, that I was dangerous to her, that I might try and hurt her even though I knew I wouldn't mean to.

She didn't listen to me and took me outside into the sunlight and held me as I cried. That was the start of something wonderful. A little girl with brown hair and sky blue eyes came walking up to us wanting to know if I was alright.

She introduced herself as Nanoha Takamachi and she said she would like to be our friend. Alicia introduced us as I continued to stare at this beautiful girl in front of me. Next to Alicia, I have not seen any other children and this girl was so beautiful it made my heart race. The color of her eyes was such a blue that they were like little pools of the sky. I could just lose myself inside them and be happy doing so.

Nanoha would come by every day to visit with us, including the day that mother found out that Alicia had been taking me out of my cage and bringing me outside. She was furious with Alicia. She threw me back into my cage and then proceeded to discipline Alicia for her indiscretion. I could hear what was going on and knew that she was being beaten, but there was nothing I could do. I tried getting out of my cage, but I just wasn't strong enough to break the lock.

Nanoha had told me that she had heard Alicia screaming in pain. Begging her mother to stop hitting her, so Nanoha ran home to get her older brother and mother to help save her friend not knowing where I was.

After the police and ambulance arrived, the police made a search of the house and found me in the laboratory still trying to get out of my cage. They helped me upstairs so that the paramedics could treat my arm, which was a mess from me trying to get out.

When I saw Alicia on the stretcher I ran to her, but it was mother's next words that will forever haunt me even to this day. "Get away from my daughter you monster!" I moved away from her afraid that I would hurt her. When my sister took my hand and told me that I would always be, now and forever, her little sister.

When Alicia and I had gotten out of the hospital, they had charged mother with abuse, assault, and illegal possession of laboratory equipment as well as a few other things that I did not understand at the time.

We had been put into a foster home. They were good people, they were nice to us. Then came the time I thought that was the worst time of my life. The girl I had a major crush on, my first love had told us that she and her family were moving away and she didn't know if she was ever going to be able come back. I went through so many emotions within a short amount of time. Sadness then pain and then all of a sudden anger. I was angry at her because she promised the two of us that she would always be there for us. We made a blood oath pact on that very promise and now she was breaking it. Before I even realized what I was doing, I hit her and then I was afraid of what I had just done and ran. I ran away from everything and everyone.

By the time Alicia had calmed me down and was able to convince me to go and apologize to Nanoha, they had already left and I never got a chance to see her. Alicia came up with a plan to help bring my spirits up. We may only have been six years old, but we could do odd jobs to raise money and we would surprise Nanoha by showing up on her doorstep. It took us four years to save up enough money, but we finally did it.

When we arrived in Japan we knew where we needed to go. Nanoha had sent us one letter telling us her address and phone number so that we could stay in contact with her. When we reached the café that her parents now owned, we saw her older brother and sister working the counter, but no sign of their parents or Nanoha. So, we had gone in to find out where she was so we could surprise her. Her brother Kyouya said that they were all on holiday and wouldn't be back for another week, but they would be happy to have us stay at the house until they returned.

Alicia and I came back from the seashore to find the two siblings holding onto each other and crying as if they had lost everything in the world. Once they had calmed down enough to be able to talk to us, Kyouya handed us a letter that was severely crumpled and tear stained. It said that they regret to inform the family, that Mr. and Mrs. Takamachi and their daughter were all killed in an auto mobile accident and their bodies would be shipped home for proper burial in whatever tradition their family upholds.

I could feel it happening; the pain in my chest was unbearable. I fell to my knees. I was shaking from head to toe. Alicia was by my side holding me, but nothing could stop what was happening to me because I was dying inside all because my best friend, my secret love was dead. I would never see her ever again and that would become my greatest regret.

After the funeral, we left the siblings alone and drifted from shelter to shelter living off the streets. I was never the same again. The only way we were able to survive was to steal our food. I seemed to be particularly good at it. I was much faster than Alicia was. Apparently whatever mother had been doing to me was still affecting me.

We had been on the streets for about six months when we were found by a man who said he would help us. If I had known what he had planned, we would have run and never looked back, but we were still naïve. We still had our innocence of youth. So we trusted him, a man named Jail Scaglietti.

Apparently he was our mother's benefactor as well as mentor, but the things that she had done to me was nothing compared to the horrors he put me through. I was placed in a stasis tube with a green slime like substance for days, maybe weeks. I lost track of time when it was drained before it was refilled with a yellow slimy substance, the same consistency as the green. I think I had been left in that one for a longer period of time.

When I was finally removed, Alicia was able to get me cleaned up. She gave me food and water and told me that everything would be all right, that we'd get out of there and we would both be safe.

I would change every time I was put in that stuff. My hair went from blonde to yellow and my eyes turned a brighter red. I no longer looked like my sister and I think that hurts the most out of everything that he has done to me.

After about a year, the doctor as he liked to call himself, decided that there needed to be a major change in my life. So while I was recovering from one of his perverse torturing, he took Alicia out of our cell.

The next time I saw my sister she was in the stasis tube and her life signs were so weak they were almost nonexistent. He told me that if I was a good girl and did what he told me to do, he'd keep her alive. If I had known he planned on killing her anyways, I would've let her die mercifully instead of what he had done.

By this time, I have lost track of all time. My day-to-day life was pain and more pain. Soon day and night was nothing but pain. But on this one particular day, I heard explosions and people yelling and screaming. A girl opened my cell door. She was so foolish being there unarmed. I threw her across the room. She crashed into my bed and crumbled in a heap.

My one goal was to find my sister and pray she was still alive when I got to her. There was no sign's of life in her tube. She was just floating in the solution lifeless as a rag doll. I had no idea how long she has been dead. I touched the glass like she had done for me all those years ago, but she didn't reach out for my hand like I had done.

"I can still bring her back to life. All you need to do is stop them from destroying my laboratory. Stop them and I will bring her back to you."

"She's dead. You're not God. You can't bring back the dead and she wouldn't want me to anyways. At least now I know she's at peace, and there's nothing more you have to hold me here and you never will again."

"If that's what you think then watch her disappear and be lost to you forever." he reached out his hand and pushed a button after a few minutes, I noticed something wasn't right. She started to disappear before my eyes. Her body was disintegrating until it became nothing.

I heard more screaming of people from those that have invaded the laboratory. I had no one left, just myself. I made a vow at that very moment I would never get close to anyone ever again because they were never going to be used against me. So I ran as far away as I possibly could.

That day, Fate Testarossa officially died and a young woman with the codename Lightning was born.

End of Fate's Memories

After I finished telling her, I half expected her to move away from me, far away from me. After all, I am nothing but an inhuman monster. But she surprised me throughout the story there were times when I felt her get closer to me and at other times my shirt felt wet, which made me think that she might've been crying.

"You've had a very hard life, haven't you? The two people that loved you the most were taken from you in a horrible way. That's why you're always pushing people away from you. You don't dare get close to anyone for fear of them dying like you said that time months ago."

"I'm a monster, Nanoha. I'm not even human. I deserve to be alone so that no one else suffers because of me."

"No! No one deserves to be alone especially you. I don't know what it is about you Fate, but I am drawn to you. I trust you like I have never trusted anyone else before. You see, I'm damaged goods too. When I was younger, my parents and I had gotten into a car accident and they were killed, I probably would've died also if they hadn't brought in a special doctor to save my life. But I ended up in a coma for two years. When I came to, I had no family just some strangers. They said they would be there for me and eventually those strangers adopted me. While I was in rehab I met Hayate and she told me about the TSAB and so I joined. They accepted me with my amnesia. They said as long as it didn't interrupt my job, they were okay with it. So you see you're not the only one that is damaged goods and I don't care what you say Fate, you're more human than a lot of people I know like that jerk Ambrose. I still think he's an alien."

I felt the corners of my mouth twitch at that last part. I silently agreed with her. I was starting to wonder if he was an alien too. He always seems to pop up at the wrong times, especially right before one of our missions. Something about the man makes me uneasy just like her brother. Something about him doesn't feel right to me.

"So you see, to me you are as human as I am. Fate is Fate no matter what they have done to you or made you into. What I saw you become today made me want to be with you even more. I will always want you near me and the closer the better. Besides I've always had a secret thing for vampires."

I could feel myself blushing at her words. Even after all of this, she still wants me for me and not scared of what I am.

"Hey Fate, can I ask something of you? Can you just for tonight, hold me all night? I don't want to be alone tonight. Is it all right if we sleep next to each other tonight?"

I hugged her close to me and kissed her temple. "You never have to ask. You can sleep next to me every night from this night forward."

I fixed us a light supper while Nanoha took a shower. After we finished eating, I suddenly realized I had a small problem. I don't sleep with clothing on and I didn't want Nanoha to feel uncomfortable. The closest thing I would have would be one of my long black slips or maybe one of my teddies. The slip would probably be best I could use it like a nightgown.

After I had gotten changed, I open my door so Nanoha could come in. This is the first time she'd ever been inside of my room since I moved into it. When she stepped in it, she looked like she was looking for something. Upon spotting whatever it was she was looking for, she made a beeline straight for it. It was the picture, the picture of the three of us. I was on the left, my Nanoha was in the middle and Alicia was on the right. It's the only picture I have of the three of us girls back during our carefree days when I was happiest.

"This is the three of you together, isn't it? Which one is you and which one is Alicia? I'm assuming the one in the center is your friend Nanoha. Nyahaha… It seems kind of funny to call someone else my own name."

"I'm the one on the left." Something about her laugh was nagging at me. It was almost like I had heard it before, before I met her. It will come to me in time.

I walked up behind her as she was looking at the picture and I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her back in to me. It doesn't hurt as much any more when I look at Nanoha and Alicia, at least not as much as it did. I think I'm finally starting to heal from those open wounds from so long ago all because of the woman in my arms. Someday I may even be able to let go and move on. But that's still down the road and it won't be easy.

"I wish I had known you back then. You were a cute little girl. But I'm glad that I know you now because you're a beautiful woman inside and out. Now let's go to bed and get a good nights rest."

She pulls out of my arms and walks towards the bed. I noticed that her pillow is on the left side, but that's all right because I tend to sleep in the middle. So I walked to the right side of the bed so that I can climb in and I get settled in the middle. I'm on my back looking at the ceiling holding my arms next to me too afraid to move them. I haven't slept in the same bed with someone since Alicia. I didn't know what to do or how to relax.

I felt the bed move as she moved closer to me. She took my right arm and lifted it up and over her shoulders so that I was cradling her back. Then she placed her head on my shoulder and her arm crossed my stomach and then she tucked her hand in between my back in the bed. My body relaxed on its own accord and soon I found myself drifting off to sleep knowing that she was safe in my arms.

I slowly started coming back from the realm of dreams to find something soft and wet touching my forehead. Then it moved to my temple before slowly moving to my cheek, then the corner of my mouth and finally my lips.

My eyes fluttered open as the final sensation of our lips meeting. I gently slid my tongue over her lips seeking entry and just like before she parted them, I dove in. Only this time I wasn't the only one that wanted to explore. Our tongues dueled over supremacy on who was going to explore.

I rolled over on top of her relishing the sensation of having her body beneath mine. I pulled my lips away from hers for two reasons; I needed oxygen, but I also had to ask a question. After catching my breath, I looked into her beautiful sky-blue eyes." Are you sure about this? Once I start, I'm not going to want to stop."

She looked me right in the eyes with such passion." Fate I want you to make love to me. Make me yours and make me your woman."

Tears start coming to my eyes. The feeling within my chest swelled so much that I had a hard time controlling the emotions that started to overflow throughout my body. I recaptured her lips, but this time in a gentle and sensual kiss. As I was kissing her, my hands were busy unbuttoning her night shirt. Then slowly pushed her shirt away and over her shoulders. I pulled her up into a sitting position, so that I could continue taking off her night shirt.

After breaking from our second kiss, I quickly pulled off my make shift nightgown before throwing it somewhere in the room. The only article of clothing left were her panties, but I would get to that in due time. I wanted to take this slow and make our first time together memorable and loving so that she would know exactly how I felt about her.

I cupped her face in the palms of my hands so that she had no choice but to look into my eyes again. I had to give her one last chance if this was what she really wanted or not. "Nanoha, this is your last chance. I can stop now or keep going. What do you want because I couldn't live with myself if I forced myself on you? If this really truly isn't what you want please tell me what you want."

Her response was to pull my hands away from her face and gently snake her arm around my waist, pulling me into her. Her lips went to my neck and started kissing me while her other hand reached up to massage my breast. I have never felt sensations like this before. I have never been with anyone else. Nanoha will be my very first and as far as I'm concerned, my only lover.

Slowly she starts to kiss her way down my neck to my chest, making her way to my other breast and captured my nipple and began to suckle. The sensation was maddening as I could feel it all the way down to my apex. Not only did I have her mouth suckling me, but her other hand was now pinching and twirling my other nipple between her thumb and forefinger.

I bury my hands in her hair and pulled her head closer into my breast to let her know that I wanted more and she understood and sucked harder, pulling more of me into her mouth. Then all of a sudden it was cold as she had removed her mouth, but her hand had taken its place and then I could feel hot breath on my other nipple as she claimed it the same way as the previous one.

I could no longer take it. I needed to touch this woman. I needed to caress her, kiss her and make love to her. I gently laid her back down when she finally released my nipple. I claimed her mouth in a deep passionate kiss. My hands moved down and started to massage her breasts, focusing mainly on her nipples and areolas. She arched her back pushing her breasts into my hands.

As I broke our kiss, she started to moan her approval at my touch. Slowly I kissed my way down her neck and reached her collarbone. That's when I noticed a faint white line going from her shoulder diagonally down to the valley of her breasts going cross her abdomen and ending at her hip.

This must have been a result from that accident she was in as a child. I suddenly got an idea and moved my lips. Gently, I started to kiss every inch of the scar gently until I got to her valley and then I started slowly moving my way up one of her mountains to her peak and claimed it with my mouth. I gently moved my tongue caressing the areola around her nipple and then flicked her peak with the tip of my tongue.

She gasped out her pleasure. Her hands were clinching the sheets underneath us as she arched her back once again pushing her breast into my mouth. Gently I closed my lips around her nipple and then bit down on my lips to put pressure and then I pulled away quickly. She screamed and then purred as I rubbed my thumb gently to soothe her nipple that I had just hurt. I proceeded to give equal treatment to her other mountain peak and when I was done, I moved back up and started kissing her once more.

I had to keep reminding myself to take this slow and gentle as this was our first time together, but she wasn't making this easy. She was now begging me to take her and make her complete.

Once again, I started kissing her scar only this time I went through the valley of her bosom to her abdomen where I made a side trip to her belly button. I traced my tongue teasingly around the rim of her belly button and then with quick jabs, I stuck my tongue into it to give her a tease of what was to come to her treasure down below.

As she was distracted by what I was doing, my hands moved to her underwear and my thumbs hooked the waistband and pulled them down as her hips bucked up. After I had pulled them all the way off, I noticed that the crotch was soaking wet with her nectar. I brought them up to my face so that I could breathe in her perfume that was strictly hers and hers alone.

My blood was on fire for the first time in my life. I wanted to feed on someone and not just on anyone but her and her alone. I have never tasted blood before as I have never needed it, but for some reason I'm craving the woman before me. I could feel my fangs growing, but I tried to push down; this need to taste her blood. I tried to focus my attention on her flower and the nectar that was leaking out of it.

She had bent her knees up and then widened them to give me better access. I could no longer hold back and bury my face in her treasure. My tongue was capturing the nectar that was leaking out of her flower and the more I tasted the more I craved. I tried to hold back, but my passion to taste more of her was clouding my thoughts and I bury my tongue deep inside her flower to scoop out as much of her nectar as I possibly could. And that's when my tongue touched something. I wasn't expecting to and my eyes widen with surprise. It was her hymen. Nanoha was still a virgin.

Now I understood her words from earlier. She wanted me to make her a woman because she had never been with anyone before and from the feel of her channel, I don't think she's even touched herself before because she is so tight. I removed my tongue and gently kissed her inner lips before slowly crawled up her body and caress her cheek to get her attention.

"Nanoha, are you sure you want me to do this? Once it's done it can't be undone. Are you sure you want me to take your virginity and make you a woman?"

"Yes, I want you to be my first and if I have my way you will be my only lover. Make me yours in every way." She touched my cheek and then moved her hand down to my mouth and touched my fang. "And if you need to feed, then I willingly give you permission to feed on my blood."

I closed my eyes and stretched my mouth open wide. If it was at all possible, I think my fangs grew even more.

"Then I will make you mine and feed at the same time, my love."

I moved back down her body, taking in her scent as I went and when I reached my destination, I dove back in. I encircled my arms around her thighs so that I could better pull open her outer lips. I started slowly, moving my tongue in and out of her flower. I wanted to build her up slowly, so that when I broke through, it wouldn't be so painful.

I increased the speed of my tongue stroking her insides. I could feel her walls starting to tighten. I knew she was getting ready for her first orgasm. I had the time this just right to minimize the pain she would feel. She was almost there. Just a little bit more as I continued to stroke in and out. The speed of my tongue increased until I felt her first spasm. I shove my tongue in as deep as possible breaking her hymen just as her orgasm peaked. Her body trembled and jerked and my mouth was flooded with the combined tastes of her nectar and her blood. I started sucking to pull out as much of her fluids as I could get. I was rewarded with her glorious taste.

I continued moving my tongue in and out, continuing to stroke her trying to lap up as much of her as I could. In the process, I noticed she was starting to ride the wave of a new orgasm that was building due to my continued movement inside of her. So I increased the tempo of my tongues movement and within a very short time, she was experiencing her second orgasm. Her body was twitching and spasming so I stopped the movement of my tongue inside of her and concentrated on sucking and licking the nectar and what little blood was left that was being pushed out by her contracting walls.

After I was done cleaning her, I slowly moved back up and lie down next to her. I pulled the sheet and blanket up over us so that she wouldn't get chilled as her body was covered in sweat and pulled her into my arms. I knew she was falling asleep even though her body was still trembling. I gently moved my hand up and down her back to relax and comfort her through the aftermath of her first orgasms.

We stayed like this for about an hour when she started to stir and wake up from her nap. I could feel her eyes opening as her eyelashes brushed against my skin. Then she shifted her body so that she was draped over the top of me.

"That was amazing. I never thought it would feel like that. I can't describe the pleasure you gave me, but I can show you." And proceeded to kiss me dipping her tongue deep inside my mouth, tasting her self and then slowly she scraped her tongue across one of my fangs.

I was unable to retract them fully like I normally would. Was it because of my tasting blood for the first time? I was unsure why my fangs were still protruding just below the rest of my teeth, but it seemed to turn Nanoha on as she kept running her tongue over them again and again, almost like she couldn't get enough of them.

She gently captured my lower lip in between her teeth and pulled her face away from me, scraping her teeth as my lip was finally released from her hold. I never thought something like that would be such a turn on, but I couldn't wait to see what else she had in mind and I didn't have long to wait. She started kissing her way from my mouth and down my neck. When she reached my collarbone, she kissed her way down to where the two met and starts suckling the skin.

The sensation was erotic. I started moaning out my pleasure at what she was doing, which spurred her to suck harder until finally she made a popping sound as she released my skin from her mouth and then gently she trailed her tongue over the skin to sooth it. She placed a light kiss on top of the tender skin and then continued her trail of kisses down to my breasts.

Slowly she moved up to one of my peaks and captured it in her mouth. The sensation was beyond anything I had ever felt before. I arch my back up, pushing it into her mouth. As one of my hands laced itself into her hair to pull her tight into my body, I was trying to encourage her to be bold. The next thing I knew she bit my nipple with her teeth and then soothed the painful feeling with her tongue like I had done. She treated my other nipple equally.

While she had been working on my breasts she was causing my lower half to tingle and pulse in time with her sucking. After she had finished sucking and massaging my breasts I was slightly trembling and wondering what else she could do to me if I was getting this way just by her touching my breasts. What would happen when she touched me down there?

It felt like an eternity when she finally moved down to my apex. I had moved my legs apart to give her easier access when she stopped and was staring. I was starting to worry that something was wrong with me, when she looked back up to my face and smiled.

"You're so beautiful and you're all mine."

She started to stroke me, caressing my inner lips and then she found my clitoris and my hips jerked involuntarily. She smiled at this reaction and continued stroking me. Then I started pumping my hips up trying to get her fingers to slide into me. She finally gave in and slid one of her fingers inside of me. As she pushed it in deeper, she hit my hymen and her eyes widened with surprise just like I had done when I found hers.

She leans forward so that she's close to my face and whispers. "I'll try to be as gentle as possible."

I nodded my head yes to let her know that I knew what was coming and that I needed her to continue. So she started to pump her finger slowly in and out of me. I started to clinch the sheets. I couldn't stop the noises coming from my mouth or the groans that were vibrating through my chest.

Then she added a second finger, which increased the sensation tenfold and I bucked my hips up on her down stroke and forced her to break through my hymen just as my orgasm crashed over me. My body twitched and trembled with the force of my climax. When I was finally able to catch my breath, I noticed that she hadn't stopped moving her fingers inside of me. She may have slowed them down, but they were still moving in and out of me when she noticed that I had finally come down from cloud nine.

She increased the speed of her hand building the wave once more. Only this time she decided to suck on my nipple as her hand pumped into me with this dual action. I knew I wasn't going to last very long. Within a few minutes, I could feel it cresting and my body shook and trembled with my second orgasm of the day.

She slowly removed her fingers and pulled up the sheet and blanket while I was still in the afterglow. I tilted her head up so that I could see her face and gently I kissed her lips. "I love you, Nanoha." As I closed my eyes to let the exhaustion wash over me, I knew that today was going to be a very long day of love making.

It's been three days since Nanoha and I have become lovers. The connection I feel with her I have never felt with any other person, not even my sister. It's almost like we're a part of each other. Whether we are near or far away, even when she's asleep, I can still feel her inside of me.

I've been having a dull ache at the base of my skull for the past hour, but I'll take care of that slight headache when I get back to the apartment. Right now, I've been called to Hayate's office for an important meeting.

As I get settled in the chair across from Hayate's desk, I noticed that Shamal is standing off to the side looking at a folder that's in her hands with a slight worried wrinkle upon her brow. I looked back and forth between the two women wondering why it was just the three of us in the room.

"Fate I've called you into this meeting for a reason. I think we may have a small problem, but I don't want the rest of the team to find out about it just yet, but I'm also not sure on how to approach Nanoha with this. As you know, I had Shamal do a full workup on her when we got back from her rescue. There was an anomaly in her blood work that Shamal cannot account for, but it's not a short term but a long term anomaly. Shamal do you want to explain to Fate, what it is that we're talking about?"

The dull ache at the base of my skull has now increased and it's crept up the back of my head and is now encompassing my entire skull. I'm actually having a hard time concentrating on what Shamal was trying to tell me about Nanoha. Apparently I'm having trouble hiding my discomfort because Hayate was looking straight at me with a worried expression on her face and I've noticed that Shamal's words have started to falter.

By now, the pain in my head has gotten so bad. I'm clutching the sides of my skull, trying to prevent my head from exploding. My body is covered in a cold sweat when I hear a voice screaming for me to come home quickly. Nanoha was in trouble.

"NANOHA!"

I left out of my chair and tore through the doors. I was running down the hall shoving people out of my way in the process, not caring if I hurt anybody. I just knew I had to get to Nanoha. I didn't wait for the elevator so I flew up the stairs. When I reached our floor, I burst through the door and down the hall. Teana and Subaru saw me coming and flatten themselves against the walls to get out of my way. When I reached the apartment door I flung it open.

Arf was outside of Nanoha's bedroom door. I could tell Arf has been trying to get into Nanoha's room. There were claw marks on the outside of the door as if she's been trying to break into the room.

I was in front of her door. Within seconds, I flung it open only to find Nanoha in a fetal position with her arms wrapped around her head as if her skull would crack open if she didn't do so. She moved her head to look at the door. I could see tears streaming out of her eyes. And then suddenly they fluttered closed and her entire body went limp. That connection that I could always feel since we became lovers was now a hollow void. I could no longer feel Nanoha inside of me.

I fell to my knees. There was only one reason for that hollow void and that is Nanoha was dead. That was the last thing I knew as the darkness within me consumed my mind and I passed out.

Authors Notes: Okay, here's the end of chapter 5. Please do not kill me or flame me as everything happens for a reason. I will try and update as soon as possible. Do not expect another long one like this one. I doubt I will ever do one this long for a very long time. Especially seeing how this chapter is the equivalent of three of my previous ones. Ouch.

Anyways, I hope that you thoroughly enjoyed the background information on both Fate and Nanoha, although you knew most of Nanoha's from chapter 3 and yes, there really is something wrong with Nanoha, but you'll find that out in the next chapter, (sorry I tried to fit it in this one but it was a no go) if I survive my reviews that is. Now everybody knows why Fate is the way she is.

I was planning on posting this on Tuesday, but as I got this done a little early, so I decided to try and get this out to you all a little bit sooner.

The next chapter is going to be mostly focused on Nanoha as well as a couple of the other characters as they reminisce of their time with her. (Filler but important chapter, Sorry)

Until the next chapter comes out, please review and tell me what you think. Just don't hate me too badly, but please review.

The song I used as back ground music while I was writing Fate's Memories is called Forest by Emily Bindiger from the original soundtrack of El Cazador. If you want the OST of this and any other anime series or movies check out my profile for their web addresses.

Also, keep checking my profile as I do update. It will let you know when I have upcoming stories as well is anything new like me being out of town, which will be happening a lot next month, although I will do my best to try and post chapters in between my leaving.

In Love & Light,

Zona Rose ~*

Updated 6/7/2011