tbh I went to read up the lyrics of this song after i wrote the chapter so it isn't like i wrote it listening to this song but still, i love the songs. I have so many song choices for the next chap i don't even know what to do. anyway, onwards.
Another day passed after that day, and then another week. Elrond could not do it, he could not utter the words that would break his sweet little bird's heart, but he knew he had to, for it was much crueller not to. And that was where Glorfindel came barging into his office, eyes full of rage and fury.
"You have not told him." It was a statement, not a question. Elrond sighed and lowered his eyes to the floor. "I couldn't." He admitted. "You have to." Elrond shook his head, "I do not know how, Glorfindel." He looked up when he heard Glorfindel snort, "You should have thought of that when you wooed Celebrían!" Elrond winced. "You should not lead him on, you should not give him love and hope where there is none!" Glorfindel shouted at him. Elrond stood up abruptly, staring right up into Glorfindel's eyes, "I love him! I have loved him a thousand years ago and I will love him a thousand years later!" Glorfindel stared back, "Then why! Why would you choose to take another lover while you know he waits for you to return to his arms! Why would you betray him of you had loved him!" Elrond looked away as guilt flared up in his heart. "Because I am selfish."
The warrior pushed the lord back onto the chair, while he pulled up another and sat down in front of him. "Explain." He crossed his arms. Elrond sighed, "I had felt a spark for Celebrían ever since I laid eyes on her one year ago. But at that time I wanted to return home right away, before our talks were even done, I wanted to mount a horse and ride without rest back into Lindir's waiting arms and away from Celebrían." He shook his head as he remembered how he felt. "Then why did you not?"
"Lady Galadriel stopped me. She had seen something, and she told me to stay for a night first, and if I still wished to leave after what she knew I would see, then she would not stop me. So I stayed, determined that whatever I saw would not phase my decision to ride back to my lover the next morn." Elrond looked up at Glorfindel. "I saw my children Glorfindel, my very own flesh and blood, a pair of twins playing in the gardens and a sweet adorable young babe in my arms, cooing as she played with my hair. I couldn't, Glorfindel, I couldn't not choose something that I have wanted ever since Elros passed, my family." Elrond had tears in his eyes as he recounted the visions he had seen of his children, children he would have with Celebrían.
"You are truly selfish Elrond." Glorfindel shook his head, but before Elrond could say anything, he spoke up, "I will forever hate you for breaking our sweet minstrel's heart, you should have thought of your wish to have a family in the future before having taken Lindir as a lover, you should not have given him hope and let him experience the love he would have with you, you shouldn't have given him a happiness that you knew could be taken away by something else."
"I did not wish to betray his love. If I knew this was to happen, I would have taken a step back and remained friends with him all those years ago, but I cannot turn back time. The guilt tears at me every time I see him smile at me, the thought of having to tear his heart to shreds eats at me, I do not know how to tell him Glorfindel." He pleaded with his friend to give him an answer. "Do not look at me Elrond, I will not do this for you, it was your choice to create this problem and so it will be you who solves it. And you had better tell him soon, do not hurt him anymore with more empty promises."
Elrond nodded solemnly, "And bear in mind that Celebrían will arrive in a month's time for the ceremony." Glorfindel reminded him. "How could I forget… Will you promise me one thing though Glorfindel? That the hate you have for me will not be projected onto Celebrían, she does not know of Lindir and she does not deserve to bear the brunt of my foolishness." Glorfindel looked scandalised, "how dare you think so low of me, your foolishness is getting to you. Please, get yourself together before you start governing this realm again." Glorfindel put a hand onto the lord's shoulder before he stood up and made for the door.
"Is everything all right love?" Erestor questioned his lover as he strode into their sleeping chambers and sat down heavily on the edge of the bed. "I have let something terrible happen, my love." Glorfindel put his head in his hands. Erestor sat down beside his and placed his hand on Glorfindel's lap, "What is it?" Glorfindel raised his head again and twined his and Erestor's fingers together, "The reason of the extended stay was not because of diplomatic reasons, well not entirely, it was because Elrond wanted to court Celebrían." Erestor gasped, "Elrond was courting Celebrían? What about Lindir?!" Glorfindel shook his head, "Lindir did not know, he still does not know, that was why I went in search of Elrond today." Erestor urged him on, "Well what did he have to say for himself?"
"He says that he had initially wanted to ride back right after feeling the spark he had for Celebrían, but the Lady Galadriel stopped him. She had seen something that she wanted Elrond to see before he made his decision to leave. And Elrond did change his decision to leave after seeing the vision." Glorfindel sighed. "What could possibly be more important than his love for Lindir?" Erestor's voice was laced with rage. "His children." Was all Glorfindel said, Erestor was a smart elf, he could figure it out. "What are you saying, Lord Elrond doesn't have an- oh." Erestor sat back. "How many?" Erestor had asked. "Three. Twin sons and a daughter." Erestor sighed. "A choice between a family of his own flesh and blood or his lover of a thousand years." Erestor was kin to Elrond, he knew of Elrond's desire to have a family, so he knew all too well why he would choose Celebrían.
"That's not the worst thing that I have allowed to happen." Glorfindel sighed. "What more?" Erestor asked. "I left the door to his office open when I barged in. And I heard Lindir's light footsteps rush off when we finished talking." Glorfindel looked defeated, if he had not done so, who knows when the lord would tell his lover? If he could put if off for a week, then he could surely put it off for a month, this was for the best. "Oh poor sweet Lindir, having to hear of terrible news like a little thief instead of face to face with his lover, no wonder no one could find him today."
"Yes, I did not follow him when he left, nor did I tell Lord Elrond of our visitor during our talk. I saw Lindir walk into their chambers just now, they will talk tonight and tomorrow we will coddle and comfort our little broken songbird." Erestor nodded in agreement with his lover, "Come now, we must rest, tomorrow will be a day where no birds will chirp nor will songs of joy be sung."
right? right? Lindir my poor baby. it's not exactly a cliffhanger but i guess it's a little bit more exciting? anyways as always my tumblr dreamsareallwehaveleft. tumblr