Savannah POV

So much time had past...It seemed like forever since the outbreak first started. I had lost track of the days a while ago...So much death, all around us. Everywhere we went walkers spread their filth.

Food was becoming scarce….the animals being eaten themselves by the walkers and leaving nothing for us. Even if we caught something we had to make sure it wasn't bitten, otherwise we wouldn't be able to eat the contaminated meat.

More people had joined us, it made me sort of uncomfortable to have so many people, the less people the less attraction. Then again more people might provide safety, having more people to defend against any sudden walker attacks.

"Savannah! Mind helping me out with something?" Lori asked

"Of course" I smiled back and slowly got up "What do you need me to do?

" Do you mind watching Carl for me while I do a couple of chores with Carol?"

"Of course" I nodded and went over to Carl

As I walked over I could see Jon talking with Shane, I shuddered to think of last night and my hand went up to my cheek, remembering his hard hand hitting my face.

Everyone around camp was busy with something, around doing chores. There were exceptions though that included my husband and Carol's husband. They were such ass holes...I hated Jon...but I am too scared to leave him. He would kill me if I did…

I looked over to the Dixon brothers whom were doing god knows what. Daryl looked over at me and nodded, slightly and continued on with his work . Merle however never missed the opportunity to let his eyes greedily linger over my body. That man disgusted me, every time I passed by I felt as if his eyes were undressing me…. Daryl though….He was different...He had gorgeous blue eyes which held a sort of distant look to them, as if he were deep in thought. They also held a great amount of pain, showing he had endured much suffering from his past. I could sympathize with his suffering….and related to him...

I admired his strength, the way he could be so strong in this hell, even though I can see he has suffered. His eyes drew me in, they were like two icy blue orbs, bright as the stars full of mystery.

"Hey Carl what are you doing?" I squatted down beside him and smiled

"Oh Hi Ms Savannah! Nothing much...Being bored...Wish I could go out hunting like Daryl and you do!" he said with a grin on his face

"It's too dangerous out there hun. Walkers can come out of nowhere and take you by surprise. Plus we need a big strong man like you to stay and watch over everybody while we are gone, yes?" I giggled knowing just what to say to make him feel proud. My comment was met with a glowing grin and giggle.

" Ya! You're right! I have to defend everyone from the monsters!" Carl said happily and motioned as if he were shooting something

I giggled, finding him so adorable. I've always loved kids, back in Italy I used to take care of a bunch of orphans. Practically raised them from infants. But that was a long time ago...better times…

"Ms Savannah?" He pulled on my hand

"Yes hun?"

"Do you think my dad is still out there? Still alive I mean" he looked up at me with his big blue eyes that broke my heart. I knew Rick, he was a good man, a strong one. Jon hated him because he was actually a decent person but he was always friendly to me. I hoped he was okay, for Lori and Carl's sake. I smiled.

"I bet he's on his way right now, looking for you and your mom. He's a strong man, he'll make it through" I hoped that it was convincing enough. In a world like we are in, you can never be certain of anything.

" You're right. Dad's probably off saving people like usual! He's awesome" he smiled. If only I had the same confidence about things, the same certainty. But I had learned a long time ago to be different.

" You are too Ms Savannah" he smiles and hugs me. I chuckle and hug him back, kissing the top of his head.

"You are so sweet, stay that way alright?"

He smiled and nodded "I will!"

"Thank you for watching him Savannah I really appreciate it" Lori's voice came from behind me

" It' no problem. He is a sweet boy" I smiled at him and ruffled his hair, causing him to laugh

"I'll see you two later" I smiled and walked off and went to my bag I had left on the ground, sifting through it looking for my sketchbook.

"Merda merda merda merda!" I swore as I looked for it not finding it

"Lookin' for somethin' Italia?" a familiar deep voice came from behind

"Oh! Daryl! Thank you, where did you find it?" I smiled and took it from him

" Found it under a tree. You must've left it when you were drawin earlier"

I smiled brightly at him, that was sweet that he would bring it to me.

"Well..I...thank you very much. I don't know what I would do if I lost it"

" Well its a good thing I'm around or you would have lost your head by now" He teased

I rolled my eyes and smirks "Oh yes what EVER would I do if i didn't have you around?" I teased back

"Probably would be bored as hell" He chuckled a bit

"Probably would. Anyways what are you doing now?"

"Eh, bored. Was thinking of goin' huntin. You up for it?"

I smiled "Of course. Need some time away from the camp. And certain people…" I sighed sadly

I quickly grabbed my knives and walked with Daryl into the forest. We stayed out there for quite a bit, finding mostly squirrels but we found a deer too.

"Wow this is a big one. Might last us a little while" I smirked

" Ya. And if we didn't have that asshole husband of yours around here we'd have more" he joked

"Yes…indeed..." I sighed sadly

"Hey, I'm sorry...I shouldn't ave said that...Just he treats you like shit...Why do ya put up with that?" he asked

"I...Its complicated…"

"Then enlighten me…"

I didn't know what to say to him. What could I say? That I was afraid? That if I did anything against my husband that he would kill me? That he had almost killed me before from beating me? What could I say that wouldn't make me look like the biggest coward in the world…

"Because...I just...can't…" I kept on walking

"Cmon Italia..." puts a hand on her shoulder and looks at the scar running from her neck down to her back and his eyes widened "Did he do this to ya?"

I stayed silent, not answering him. "Let's get back to camp…" I said a little harshly, and I could hear him sigh.

We walked back in silence, not speaking one word to each other, tension filling the air. I could feel he wanted to say something, but he kept quiet anyway. I then heard a moaning and I stopped in my tracks. Daryl obviously hearing it too dropped the dear and raised his crossbow. We moved slowly forward towards the noise to see, thinking it was walkers. I think I would have preferred that, instead of walkers, I saw my husband….with Andrea….

"Shit…" Daryl swore under his breath as he saw it wide eyed and unbelieving " That bastard"

I just looked at him with a straight face, not surprised in the slightest and walked on, never looking back. This wasn't the first time...and probably not the last...I could feel Daryl's eyes burning into my back with disbelief that I would be so calm about it. But what he didn't understand was I was already broken…