Hi everyone so quick question. Has anyone planned to write something with a certain plot and storyline but then found yourself writing something completely different? Yes? No? Well anyways that's what happened with this chapter. But the chapter that I had planned will be posted for next chapter. So anyways hope you like this chapter! Oh and thank you to the reviewers, I think there's like 18 now. Which is like 18 more than I expected so thank you all so much. Also all the amazing reviews. And thanks to the people who favorited this story and just took time to read it. All you guys are awesome.

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She looks at the envelope, and just by the formal handwriting on the front of it she can tell it's from him. Belle Gold is beautifully written in dark ink, and she tenses a little. He used her new last name, her married name. She doesn't know if he wrote it out of spite or love. Maybe he was mocking her. She didn't know, and she figured she would have to read the letter to find out. But she was hesitant. She wasn't sure she wanted to read the words that he had for her. Her mind came up with numerous possibilities. It was driving her insane staring at her name while her imagination and fears ran wild.

After biting her lip harshly she decided she needed to read it. She ripped it open quickly. She pulled out three folded papers. She carefully unfolded the first one, though with shaky hands.

"Belle," she said out loud reading the letter, though her voice was barely above a whisper. "I love you," at that she let out a sob. She walked to her living room and sat down in a chair. "I always have and always will. I want you to know that. I hope you believe that even after everything I've put you though; the lies and the secrets. I'm sorry I couldn't be the man you hoped I would be, the man you thought I was becoming. I'm sorry I let you down," she cried, her body trembled. She hated how self-deprecating he sounded. She loved him still did love him for who he was. She was sorry she didn't see how much he was struggling after they got married. She thought he was happy and fine. Maybe if she had saw how much he was hurting and struggling with the control and power the dagger held over him, she could've helped him. But she didn't. She started getting angry with herself. "Please Belle, I know somehow you think this was your fault, but it wasn't. I risked our marriage by keeping things from you and wanting to go after my own desires and not even caring who I put in harm's way. As long as it wasn't you. So please don't blame yourself." But she did. She was his wife, she was supposed to know him the best, and she was supposed to help him. "I've had over 300 hundreds years of practice in hiding, and masking my emotions. I've become good at that. I'm sorry I didn't let you in and kept up a façade. I tried to warn you that I am a monster but you refused to believe It." and she still didn't. She called him a beast at the town line out of anger and sadness, but she didn't believe it. "I'm sad that I proved you wrong but I'm too selfish to say that I wish I had never met you. I'm sorry for all the sadness and pain I caused you and I wish I could change a lot of things, but I'm not sorry I got to be a part of your life. Asking for you as my price was the second best deal I've ever made. The first being when we agreed to love and cherish each other for the rest of our lives, and although that didn't happen, I'm glad I got to marry you. You brought love and light into my life. I never expected something so wonderful to happen to me, but you did. That's why it pains me so much to deliver the next two paper, but I think we both know it's for the best." She frowned. What were the papers? She saw that there were a few lines left but her curiously got the best of her and she open up the folded papers. Her eyes skimmed the page, and tears flooded her eyes. No, this wasn't best. She didn't agree with his words. How could he write her a letter telling her he loved her but then send divorce papers? She wondered if the last line explained anything. She switched out the divorce papers for his letter and read the last lines. "Sweetheart, I will always love you. Forever."

She read and reread the last line. He'd had given up on them but she didn't blame him. She was the one who banished him away. Her hand went up to wipe away a tear. As she did she woke up.

She started crying as she sat in bed. She reminded herself that it was just a nightmare. She tried to get back to sleep, but she couldn't not after that. She still had a few hours to go before she could get ready to go down the shop in hopes that on opening day she might have a visitor who didn't run out. So she decided to get up. She made her way to the kitchen and put the kettle on the stove. Picking out her most soothing tea she made it how she usually did. She walked over to the only window in her apartment and looked out and the beautiful city skyline. She took a sip and the taste reminded her of the blend she used at the Dark Castle. She sighed and looked out at the lights that lit up the whole city. Making the dark night not so dark. Although it was beautiful it made her feel sadder. It was nothing like Storybrooke, and especially nothing like the Enchanted Forest. She tried to remind herself why she was there. She found herself placing a hand over her stomach, over the growing baby inside of her.

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