A/N: New update!
To those complaining about my fanfiction updates: I decided to start a new writing strategy! I began all these WIPs knowing how I wanted to end them but not knowing what I wanted to write. I began plotting out the order of my stories by chapter. Right now I'm going to focus on LSF since that's what I have plotted entirely to the end and has been my most successful. I'll be working more on Special Education since I know what I want to write, I just need to plot. With my other stories I'll work on after LSF for sure because the writing of the other stuff is off from lack of motivation and I still have more to figure out. So once I complete LSF and begin finishing SE then I'll work on some of my others.
Hopefully all that will help speed up some of my writing and I hope you understand what's been going on with my fanfiction.
Yes, I put titles to all my chapters in this story after "The Wedding Chapter" and plotting this story I've noticed the themes in each chapter and gave it a title based on the major plot going on in it. So, that's why.
Alright, on with the story :)
"So this is the infamous coffee shop you keep talking about?" Kurt asked as he studied every detail of the coffee house they were in. It was quaint, there wasn't much to it, but its simplicity was enough for Kurt. After all, his favorite coffee house was The Lima Bean, and there was nothing fancy about that place.
Blaine smiled, "Yeah... it's not the most spectacular but they sure do make a real good cup of coffee. You must try!"
Kurt studied his soul mate's face, from the smile that could out shine the Sun to the light twinkle in his honey eyes. He could tell Blaine was easily excited, even from a cup of coffee. Kurt laughed, "What's going to stop me from buying a coffee?"
Blaine rested his chin on top of Kurt's shoulder, "Mmm... you're so perfect."
Kurt blushed, "Why do you say that?"
"Because," Blaine began, "If you didn't like coffee I wouldn't love you as much as I do." He laughed.
Kurt laughed too, "Then I guess I'm glad I like coffee." Kurt knew Blaine was joking though. It was fun teasing with him too.
The pair ordered their coffee and took a seat where - as Blaine told Kurt - was the usual spot Blaine went to with Trent and Jeff.
"What do you think is going to happen with - Finn and Rachel?" Blaine asked curiously.
Kurt took a drink out of his cup with a shrug, "I don't know. I mean I love them both and want to make sure that they're making the right decision, but I don't know what is right for them now. It's good that they're not getting married until later, but whether they are better as just friends or in a relationship is where I stand confused."
Blaine nodded and took a sip of his coffee. Licking his lips he said, "I thought they were too young to be getting married. Aren't they only juniors?"
"They're as old as me and I'm only a junior." Kurt said. Blaine nodded again and they sat in silence.
"Hey!" A voice exclaimed as the person who owned it hugged Blaine from behind. It startled Blaine for a moment but he instantly recognized the voice. He turned around to be face to face with Josiah.
"Josiah, hi!" Blaine was excited to see his friend again. Kurt too waved slightly at Josiah, waiting for Blaine to introduce the new person.
"Who's this?" Josiah asked, looking at Kurt.
"Oh, I'm sorry. Josiah, this is Kurt. Kurt, this is Josiah. Kurt's my soul mate." Blaine couldn't help the grin on his face. He liked introducing his soul mate. It was something he didn't think he could get used to.
"Hello." Josiah said brightly, a gleam in his eyes, "Wasn't it just the other week you told me you haven't yours yet, Blaine? Wow, so much can change in such little time!"
Blaine chuckled, "Yes it can." He looked back at Kurt and with a smile he added, "Maybe you and your soul mate can join Kurt and I on a double date?" Blaine suggested.
The gleam in Josiah's eye vanished, "Oh, about that." He frowned and looked down at his feet.
Blaine frowned too, and found himself in a sudden awkward situation, "What? Didn't you already find your soul mate? You said you di-" Then Blaine noticed a tear fall from Josiah's face.
"I lied, Blaine. When I said I found my soul mate I lied. I just said that because you looked like life was taking you so well. Me, not so much. After the accident my life spiraled downhill. I just wanted something positive to tell you so you wouldn't worry."
Blaine's mouth fell open, he was without words. Luckily Kurt filled in, "I'm sorry to hear that, Josiah, but like Blaine and I, you'll find them someday." He tried to stay positive in this suddenly negative turn.
Josiah looked Kurt dead in the face, cheeks blobbed with wet tears, "My soul mate died while I was in ICU." He said so coldly it sent a shiver down both Kurt and Blaine's spines, "When I thought I wasn't going to make it, he didn't make it." And suddenly Josiah was crying to hard to produce words.
Kurt let a small tear fall from his face, he only just met the boy and he felt so sorry for him. Blaine stood and gave his old friend a hug, "It's okay." He repeated over and over again, "It's okay. We'll get through this together."
"I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm going to live alone for the rest of my life."
"If it helps," Kurt said from his seat. Both boys turned to look at him, "my dad lost his soul mate when I was a child. Years later he moved passed her and found love again." He stood and walked up to the other two, "I know some people don't believe that someone should be with anyone but their soul mate but Carole makes my dad really happy. She may not ever compare to my mom, but she's a spectacular person and my dad deserved her."
Josiah looked back down at the floor, "I don't know... I just don't know."
"Maybe he can talk to you. You need someone like him to talk to." Blaine suggested and Kurt nodded his agreement.
"My dad is an excellent person to talk to about almost anything. I think you need a support of someone like him, definitely!"
"I'll-I'll think about it."
Blaine looked to Kurt. He suddenly felt fear flow through his body as he realized one of them is going to eventually die and the other will have to walk the rest of their life without the other half. He wasn't ready for that.
As Kurt walked into Glee practice Monday morning he witnessed a sight he was afraid of seeing, even though he wanted to see it when he first heard of the happening.
Rachel extended her hand out to Finn's and dropped something in it, "Looks like you won't be needing another one of these for a while." She said. Finn lifted the item up closer to his eyes and Kurt could see the object glisten in the light of the room. It was their engagement ring.
Kurt's heart dropped as much as he wanted his friend and step-brother to wait until they were older it was a such a heartbreaking sight to see something you usually don't imagine seeing. He approached Finn who was absentmindedly staring at the ring.
"Now what?" Finn asked blankly when he felt Kurt's presence next to him.
"Return the ring. You're not going to need it now. Unless you can fit it on your finger. Bet it'll look very pretty." Kurt chuckled to himself after saying the last part.
"Is it bad that even if I'm still with Rachel I still feel like my heart shattered?"
"Probably not. She broke off a wedding engagement at your wedding." Kurt said.
Finn pocketed the ring, "Do you mind coming to the jewelry store with me after school to return it?" He asked Kurt.
"Sure, I'll come."
Blaine couldn't keep his focus during his classes today. His focus was kept on Josiah. He still couldn't believe Josiah was going to live his life without his soul mate and he couldn't imagine life without Kurt. He didn't want to, but he kept on doing it.
Every once in awhile Blaine's mind slipped and he thought about life without Kurt. He only just met his soul mate but already he forgot life without him, because Kurt's been with all his life. Even if he wasn't there physically his name was still on Blaine so Blaine knew he was still alive.
Now Blaine sat on his bed in his dorm and once again he thought about a dead Kurt. Blaine shuddered as he tried to blink out of the thought.
Blaine realized that life is short and someday either he or Kurt will no longer be here and the other will have to live the rest of their days without them. He realized that every passing second is one second closer to their impending deaths. Every second gone was every second that scared Blaine more. He began watching his finger hoping that Kurt's name would not disappear. A thing that he knew had a fifty percent chance of doing eventually.
Blaine did not want to lose Kurt. He kept reminding himself that Kurt was fine and nothing was going to happen. Not today, not for a long time.
BLAINE:
The lights go out and I can't be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
Have put me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead, singing
He began singing. As more seconds passed on the clock.
Come out of things unsaid
Shoot an apple off my head and a
Trouble that can't be named
A tiger's waiting to be tamed, singing
You are
You are
Blaine stood and walked over to the window in his room. He stared out it blankly, not really staring out of it.
Confusion that never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know, singing
Come out upon my seas
Cursed missed opportunities
Am I a part of the cure?
Or am I part of the disease? Singing
You are, you are, you are, you are
You are, you are, you are, you are
And nothing else compares
Oh nothing else compares
And nothing else compares
You are
You are
Home, home where I wanted to go
Home, home where I wanted to go
Home, home where I wanted to go
Home, home where I wanted to go
Blaine looked back down at Kurt's name. He still didn't want to believe that one day one of them would not be here.
"I'm here to return a ring." Finn said to the lady behind the counter the store as he laid down the engagement ring.
"They said no." The woman guessed in more of a statement as she picked the ring up.
"No, she said yes." Kurt told her, "She just changed her mind later."
"How long have you kept this?" She asked, inspecting the ring.
"Several weeks." Finn replied as he began twiddling his thumbs.
"Honey, you can't return the ring if she already wore it. For several weeks, too." She laid the ring down and scooted back to Finn.
Finn picked it back up and put it in his pocket, "Thank you." He mumbled before he and Kurt left.
Kurt and Blaine were on another coffee date at the same place as before Tuesday afternoon, "They wouldn't take back the ring." Kurt began to tell Blaine.
"Why...?" Blaine asked absentmindedly as he played with his coffee cup.
"Because he owned it for too long." Kurt told him. Blaine gave him a nod. Kurt noticed his soul mate's body language as something that is bothering him, "What's wrong?"
"Hmm..." Blaine looked up and stopped playing with the cup, slightly more alert.
"Why are you acting like this? I know you, you're not like this." Kurt asked.
"Sorry, just... things..." Blaine replied, "Things have been on my mind lately."
"Okay..." Kurt rested his elbows on the table and leaned in closer to Blaine, "What 'things'?"
Blaine sighed a little before responding, "Kurt, I don't want to lose you." He looked right into Kurt's eyes, "I know we've only met just a few days ago but I love you. You're my soul mate, and I don't want to lose you. I can't imagine a world without you."
"Blaine, someday one of us will be gone. How do you feel about that? One day, we're all going to go."
"I know - I know that. I'm just scared that it will be sooner than we both expected."
Kurt smiled a warm, comforting smile at Blaine and reached across the table to rest a hand on top of Blaine's, "We'll have each other for as long as our lifetimes, and every lifetime after that. Even if we lose each other sooner than later in this one, you'll have the next one to look forward to, a promise that I can make." Blaine looked down at their hands.
KURT:
Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
'Til it's too late, it's not too late
Our hearts are hungry for the food that won't come
And we could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would've done
KURT AND BLAINE:
Yeah gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given here
This is all we got then we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying oh
Kurt looked at Blaine and gave him a head nod to sing. Blaine smiled and did so.
BLAINE:
Well if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye
Should be so careful who we left out of our lives
So when we long for absolution, there'll be no one on the line
KURT AND BLAINE:
Yeah we gotta start lookin' at the hands of the time we've been given here
This all we got then we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying oh
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying oh
KURT:
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
KURT AND BLAINE:
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying
BLAINE:
You never know a good thing until it's gone
You never see a crash until it's head on
Why we think we're right when we're dead wrong,
You never know a good thing 'til it's gone
KURT AND BLAINE:
Yeah we gotta start lookin' at the hands of the time we've been given here
This all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying oh
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying oh
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying
Blaine loved the little song, but the fear still whirred in his stomach.
Kurt walked into the living room and found his dad reclining in his chair as he read the paper, better now than never to ask Burt if he could talk to Josiah, "Dad, can I speak to you?" He asked as he took a seat on the couch.
Burt looked up from the newspaper and to his son, "What's on your mind, kiddo?"
Kurt huffed and looked down at his hands, "I have this friend..." Kurt trailed off, not knowing how to take this.
"Wait, is 'this friend' you?" Burt asked, afraid of the possible talk this could take him.
Kurt shook his head with a small laugh, "No, it's more of a friend of Blaine's, though." Burt relaxed, "This friend's soul mate died before they ever met. He's been having difficulty getting past this. I want to know if you wouldn't mind speaking to him? From one person who lost their soul mate to another?" Kurt got out all in one breath. He inhaled sharply after he was done.
Burt folded the paper and sat it away from him before answering his son, "As a person who walked the earth without his soul mate to another?" He asked. Kurt nodded, "Sure. Bring this person in and we'll speak."
Kurt smiled, "Thanks, dad. I hate to see anyone like this, and it's been giving Blaine some ideas..."
"Now what's wrong with Blaine?" Burt asked as he began to rub his face.
"He's just scared of losing me. I'm trying to tell him that it's alright, and that nothing's going to happen to any of us for a long time. I just hope he can move out of this phase."
"It probably is a phase. He's probably just thinking about all the time he wants to spend with you and how little he actually has. Just give it time, kiddo."
Josiah stood freaked in front of the Hudson-Hummel door next to Kurt and Blaine, "Are you sure you want to go through with this?" Blaine asked reassuringly, "We can turn around if you want?"
"No." Josiah replied simply, "I need to know how to get better. I need to learn how to move on."
JOSIAH:
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
"Come on, let's go in."
"This is Josiah." Kurt presented the boy to Burt as they walked into the house.
Burt outstretched his hand for Josiah who took it and shook it, "Nice to meet you, Josiah." He greeted then signaled for everyone to the living room, then another to take a seat.
"Josiah, Kurt brought you here because apparently your soul mate died before you two ever met. Is this correct?"
Josiah looked to Kurt then to Burt and nodded, "Ye-yes, sir." He slightly stuttered.
"No need to fear, boy. I won't bite. I'm here for any assurance you need. I too lost my soul mate. I walked through this world eight years without her, but it certainly isn't the end of the world. Do you have any questions for me?"
"How did you get over it?" Josiah asked, "It's been so long and I'm still not over it."
"Everyone gets over deaths differently. Some take longer than others, it's okay, they were your soul mate who you will never meet in this lifetime. That doesn't mean you won't ever meet them." Burt reminded him, "What you need is the support of your loving family and friends to get by. Never shut them out. I didn't think I would make it if it wasn't for Kurt. I knew that I had him and that we were going to get through this together."
Josiah looked to Blaine with a smile, then to Kurt, who he may have hardly known, but has treated him so well. Kurt brought him help, after all.
"Then eventually I moved on. It's completely normal for two people to marry even though they aren't soul mates. It's completely normal to fall in love with them, and I did with someone who wasn't Kurt's mom. It might have taken me eight years to do it, but I did, and maybe you will too. Finding love with someone who was not made for you may not be something that all soul mates do but you're young and deserve somebody to spend the rest of your life with."
Josiah nodded, "I'm not sure I want anyone else. Maybe someday, but I think it's not going to come soon."
Burt rested a hand on Josiah's thigh reassuringly, "Whatever it takes, you can talk to me, my wife, Carole, Blaine, or Kurt for anything, we're all here." He looked to Kurt and Blaine, "Boys, do you have anything you'd like to add?"
Blaine grinned widely, "We decided to sing a song." He looked to Kurt and they both nodded their readiness
KURT:
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
The sun will rise
To better days
And change will come
It's on it's way
Just close your eyes
And let it rain
'Cause you're never alone
And I will always be there
You just carry on
You will understand
BLAINE:
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
Just look inside
You know the way
Let it go
KURT AND BLAINE:
Fly away
BLAINE:
And say goodbye
To yesterday
'Cause you're never alone
And I will always be there
You just carry on
You will understand
KURT AND BLAINE:
And I will be strong
When love is gone
KURT:
And I'll carry on...
KURT AND BLAINE:
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
The sun will rise
To better days
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
Just close your eyes
And let it rain
BLAINE:
When you need it the most
And all you've got is a prayer
KURT:
You must carry on
KURT AND BLAINE:
You will understand
You will understand
You will understand
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
End Notes: Yep, that's the chapter! Hope you aren't too mad about the plot twist at the beginning. This is how I planned it going.
Songs (in order): Clocks - Cold[play
Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen
Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
You'll Be Okay - A Great Big World
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