A/N My daughter's Hello Kitty themed 7th birthday party was a success! She had a a lot of fun and my busy week is over. Sorry about the wait on this chapter. I could had it up a few day ago, but something about it just bothers me. Not sure what though. Anywho, II hope it meets the approval of my readers. Sorry if there are more errors than normal. I had a friend edit it, then I added/changed things but didn't want to wait for her to edit it again cause she is in Australia with a full time job. So here ya go!
Hours ago she had been in an awkward silence with Emma. Now she sat at her dining room table, in an awkward silence with Daniel. Neither had manage to speak a word in the last 15 minutes. They were to meet there to talk things through. She had been sitting at the table when he came in. He sat opposite her, ran his hands through his hair and sighed, and then they sat in silence.
"How far along are you?" He finally spoke up, asking the question that had been on his mind all morning. He knew it had been a while since they slept together. He couldn't help the pang of guilt and anger at the thought that it could be someone else's child.
"About two and half months..." She waited.
"Did you just find out or are you just now telling me?" And there it was. She could hear the irate tinge in his voice.
"I tried to tell you when I first found out..." She responded. "But having a night with the boys...was more important to you." She didn't bother to try to mask her emotions.
"I didn't know. Of course I would have stayed if I had known what it was about." He tried to defend himself.
"I see. So it is just me, that doesn't matter?" She asked offensively.
"What!?" he exclaimed.
"If you had known I was pregnant you would have stayed to talk. It was not worth your time if your wife just wanted to be with you?!" She explained.
"I told you I had plans!" Daniel snapped back.
"And you should have canceled them! I am your wife! You are supposed to be there when I need you! Does that even matter to you? Do I even matter?! Regina was breathing heavily.
"Of course you matter, Regina. I should have stayed here with you and I'm sorry." Daniel apologized. Regina could hear the sincerity in his tone, but truly he didn't think it would be that easy. Did he?
"How long?" She asked.
"How long what?" He inquired.
"How long have you been sleeping with her?" She rephrased and then continued when Daniel opened his mouth to speak. "Do not lie to me... If you care about me, then have the decency to stop pretending that I am naive enough to believe you were really out with your guys all those nights" she finished.
"Year and a half." he spoke deflated. Regina felt the sharp pain in her chest when she heard this.
"Why?" She barely got the word out. "Was I doing something wrong? Was I not pleasing you or did you just...grow bored of me?" She wanted to understand. Her insecurities were starting to take over.
"No, Regina. You were...are the perfect wife. You didn't do anything wrong..." He couldn't explain his actions. "I don't know why it started. Late nights at the office and she was there."
"I was 20 minutes away...at home...waiting for you. You couldn't keep it in your goddamn pants for 20 minutes and I'm supposed to believe you have no reason for sleeping with her?!" She yelled.
"What do you want me to say, Regina? We were both so wrapped up in our jobs that we barely saw each other. Yea, you were 20 minutes. You were exhausted and passed out by the time I got home. She was convenient...and after a while it...it was just easy." He sighed heavily, He was now leaning against the wall.
"So all of this started..." Regina had started to move toward him. "Because you were too...chivalrous to wake your tired wife for a quickie?" She was now right in front of him. "Are you kidding me?! You should have talked to me!" She pushed him against the wall. "You should have fucking talked to me." Push "Not spend a year and a half…" Push" "Sleeping with someone else!" She had reached her breaking point. "I'm your wife!" She screamed and hit his chest harder. "I spent so much time...trying to figure out why...you didn't want me!" Now she was crying. Daniel stood there and took her pushes and let her beat against his chest. "I don't know...what I did...to make you stop loving me!" She tried to continue yelling but her emotions were overwhelming her. She went back in for another swing at his chest, but this time Daniel grabbed her arm.
"Regina..." He grabbed the other a second later and pulled her into his chest. He quickly wrapped his arms around her to attempt to calm her. He knew about Regina's past and the way her mother treated her. He was always so proud of how strong a woman she had become despite her upbringing. But, she still had moments of doubting her self-worth. He was always there to try to bring her out of the past.
"Why wasn't I good enough?" She whispered against his chest as the tears continued to fall freely down her cheeks.
"You were good enough. You are good enough." He soothed. "I am the one who did wrong here. You did nothing wrong..." He would continue to hold her as long as she needed.
Have you spoken to her since she left?
"No. To be honest I don't know if I want to." Emma was sitting on her couch, mindlessly flipping through stations while one the phone with Ruby.
You think she's going to stay with him?
"He's her husband and the father of her child. She still loves him." Emma sighed.
I'm sorry, Em. If she wasn't pregnant, I would totally hunt her down and kick her ass for hurting you.
"I did this to myself. I knew the risks and I slept with her anyway." Emma gave up and turned the TV off. "This is your chance to say 'I told you so'."
That's not something you say to a friend that's hurting. Besides, you know I was only looking out for you.
"You're the only who does..."
And I always will... I have to go. Granny needs me in early to help stock the shelves before the dinner rush.
"Okay. Call me if you guys need help tonight. I wouldn't mind the distraction."
Will do. I'll call you later.
"Alright. Bye." Emma hung up her phone and laid back on the couch.
The one day a week that she doesn't have to work at any of her jobs and she had done nothing but think about Regina. She had left the brunette in her home while she went to the gym. She assumed, correctly, that Regina would be gone when she returned. However, part of her still hoped the older woman would still be there. She had even left the gym early, because she couldn't clear hear head enough to focus.
She knew her odds in this. She had seen enough affairs to know that the mistress usually didn't win. She had once considered the idea that she actually had a chance. She thought Regina might have actually felt something deeper as well. But all of it, the phone calls, the late nights, lunch dates, the cuddling, seemed too good to be true. She realized that and had to remind herself of where she fit in to all of this.
They had stood there for what could have been hours. It was actually about 30 minutes. Daniel had held and soothed Regina until her tears became sporadic sniffles. When he felt like she was calm enough, he continued the conversation.
"So... What are you going to do?" he asked nervously. She pulled back and searched his face, trying to figure out what he was getting at.
"I'm not getting rid of it." She replied resolutely.
"Okay..." he took a deep breath and nodded. "Then we are having a baby." He spoke firmly and stared back into brown eyes.
"What...what about us?" She was still unclear of his intentions. She had no doubt that Daniel would be an excellent father. He was wonderful with children. But she wasn't sure of whether he wanted to do this together or... Hell she wasn't even sure of what she even wanted anymore.
"We will make it work. I'm not going to turn my back on my family. You and the baby are what's important." Her heart skipped a beat at his response. She wanted to break down in tears, but she didn't know who she would be crying for. One tear escaped down her cheek, Daniel wiped it with his thumb.
"You..." Her breath was shaky. "You have to stop seeing her..." She whispered, the words being said mainly to herself. She had had to stop seeing Emma. She has a chance to fix her marriage and she had to let go of whatever else she had.
"I know." He nodded and pulled her back into his embrace. She continued to cry on his shoulder. She wanted to curse the blonde for making her do this. She knew she wasn't ready to let go yet. She knew that when the time came, she would choose the security of her marriage over the unknown with Emma. She would have kept her secret till the last possible minute if it meant she had more time. Now it was over. Now she had to focus on her family...
The time seemed to go by in slow motion most days. Daniel had been home and more attentive. He was even insistent on being at all her doctor's appointments. She could tell he was thrilled about becoming a father. She smiled at the thought. She couldn't help but feel like this could work. All she had to do was let go. She hadn't spoken to Emma since that day. She couldn't bring herself to face the blonde. Partially because she didn't want to see the pain in those beautiful green eyes, but also, she knew she wouldn't be able to let her go if she saw her again.
So she had spent the last three weeks being the dedicated lawyer, and dedicated wife, and the excited dedicated mother-to-be. She was doing okay, until she spoke to Kat last night.
Her blonde best-friend had called to inform her of her run in with the blonde bartender. Kathryn said Emma looked good. That they spoke briefly about herself and that the younger blonde was happy to hear that she was working her marriage out. Kat said that was about as far as their conversation went.
Regina didn't know what she had expected. It's been three weeks... Of course Emma would move on. This was good. Emma deserved better that to be somebody's little secret. Now she knew for sure that she had to let go of what they had.
Too Much of a good thing won't be good for long
Although you make heart sing, to stay with you would be wrong
Too much of a good thing won't be good anymore
Watch where I tread before I fall
