Chapter 5: Chapter 5

Forming Bonds

Disclaimer- I don't own bleach XP

Warning- Boy x boy, light violence, slight non-con (he is willing just not happily willing). GrimmIchi

Overall Summary- Being held captive for the better half of two months has left the teen restless and reckless, taking any means to escape even though he just can't seem to get far. His actions don't go unpunished and soon he finds himself looking a tad different. "-wait Grimmjow-!" Nyah~ Neko!Ichigo, AU-ish GrimIchi

A/N: Okay last redo for this one since its the last chapter but I'll to the next part soon.

Chapter Five- Regret

Ichigo sits in the stiff wooden chair in Aizen's newly cleaned and refurnished office and tries yet again to undo the ropes that bind him his mind only thinking of his friends and Grimmjow. What if Aizen thought he was involved in the failed escape? What if he was hurt?

"Ah Ichigo, Ichigo, Ichigo. You should have run when you had the chance, why did you come back for your friends?" Aizen says nonchalantly, easily breaking though Ichigo's thoughts as he grabs the teens chin and forces him to face him. Ichigo growls and glares as menacingly as he can manage in this pathetic position.

Ichigo lets go of Ulquiorra's hand as if it had burnt him and simultaneously grabs hilt of his zanpakto, ready to fight the raven haired Espada if the need arose. Yet without warning his body froze, and suddenly the ground was getting progressively closer. Feeling cold arms catch his falling body with ease he tries to struggle but only falls faster into the dark abyss pulling him under.

"Fuck you!" He shouts out then flinches back, trying to tug his head away as Aizen suddenly squeezes his chin. "Look I promise I will never, ever try to escape again if you let my friends go alive! I'm begging you Aizen!" Ichigo shouts almost all of it up until the last part where his voice cracks and he breaks eye contact.

Aizen looks down at Ichigo before laughing in a way that any normal person would think to be gentle but Ichigo could hear the malice underneath, and it ran shivers through his body.

"Oh Ichigo I would love to let your friends go but I need to keep my beloved Arrancars and Espadas entertained, and honestly you would keep that promise for about as long as it took for you to think up another plan. So no, I'll be leaving you here while I go and watch the footage of your friends demise – Oh, wait, as punishment for trying to escape I will have you watch it with me." He says casually, easily picking Ichigo up and slinging him over his shoulder. "It'll be fun, I'll even get gin to make us some popcorn!" He exclaims, his voice every inch mocking now while his smile stays innocent.

Ichigo yells, screams and fights as best as he can while bound, trying to get away, wanting to save his friends. And eventually Aizen just gives up and knocks him unconscious.

Afterwards he locks Ichigo in a padded room that he had copied from a show he had seen while in the human world. The teen was a pain but when the time came Aizen would use that power against the soul society and he would not let these so called 'friends' stop that from happening.

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Ichigo pounds on the door of the stupid white room, his friends were out there! Pounding until he is sure his first are about to break Ichigo feels tears of regret fill his eyes.

"CERO!" He shouts, firing a blood red cero from his finger tip only to have it rebound into his face at much less force "FUCK!" He shouts loudly, jumping up again and pounding as hard as he can on the door.

"Orihime!"

"Ishda!"

"Chad!" He shouts again his fists beginning to bleed from the constant impact as the skin tears beneath the pressure. Collapsing to his knees he looks at his shaking hands as dread settles in. He cant get out. He cant save them. What could he d-

"You are weak."

Zangetsu's voice suddenly appears in his head, the unexpected sound having him bounce up to his feet before slumping.

"Zangetsu what am I supposed to do?" He calls into his inner world, desperate for a solution.

"Do you not have a sword?" Zangetsu replies, his voice slightly annoyed and raising in voume.

"Have you lost your will to fight?!" He hears next, the words almost taunting.

"CALL TO ME ICHIGO! SUMMON ME TO YOUR SIDE!" Zangetsu finally shouts.

Ichigo turns around and leans against the wall, how was he supposed to do that? He needed a blatant motive. What am I fighting for? What does I hope to achieve?

"My friends." He breaths out the simple thought giving him a sense that he was right.

"What?"

"I fight to protect those dear to me!" Ichigo shouts his, raising spiritual pressure drastically. "I will not be held back! I will not be limited! I will save them!" He shouts, twisting he faces the door and grins at the feeling off extra weight on his back.

Pulling his zanpakto off his back Ichigo releases his bankai and slices through the door in one easy motion. Once outside he feels around for his friend's spiritual pressure. Feeling it in the east he runs straight for it using a single cero to blast through every wall in his way.

Running through the last of the rubble he was again blasted by sunlight. "Where are they, where are they, where are they." He chants looking for his friends and spotting them just below the bridge. "GUYS! IT'S ME! OI!" He calls out jumping over the bridge to land in front of them.

After straightening up and trying to regain his lost breath he notices all of his friends look blankly at him for a few seconds before Renji and Rukia start cracking up laughing.

"Hahahaha- wha- ha -ts ha on y- ha -your ha- he-head." Renji manages to get out making Ichigo frown before blushing brightly, having forgotten all about his new little additions to his body.

"I- uh- now's not the time for that!" He says his eyes quickly scanning the area. After hearing his words Rukia and Renji sober up and look at him, Rukia gaining a soft smile. He looks at his friends worrying about if they were going to reject him even if he was forcibly changed or not. They stare back at him for a few more minutes in silence until Orihime steps forward and hugs him.

"I'm so glad you're okay Kurosaki-kun." She says, her voice slightly strained before she lets go. "Well we found Ichigo so let's get out of here" She exclaims, suddenly before heading back the way she came, stoping to turn back to say "hurry up then!" They all snap out of their daze and start running at her words to the outer wall.

"We have to hurry, I was locked up in some padded room and I have no doubt that Aizen will send Gin to check on me real soon so how are we getting back?" He informs and asks as they run, keeping pace with them instead of using flash step.

"Urahara will open a gate when we get out of Los Noches and use this message device to let him know." Ishda said holding up a violet stick with a light blue button on top.

Blue.

The colour suddenly and unwantedly reminds the new Espada of Grimmjow. His lover that he was so casually leaving behind.

"Please forgive me..." he whispers in a silent prayer, already just wanting to turn around and run back to his tower. He just wanted to see Grim again, to have him come along. After snapping out of his daze he notices his friends trying to break through the large wall and making very slow progress. Raising his hand he uses his cero and blasts through all the walls in front of them, all of his friends looked at him as if wondering why he hadn't done that in the first place but he just ushers them out.

He didn't remember why didn't use these more often in the first place.

"Why hello again king.~" His carbon copy calls out from Ichigo's inner world. Sighing he shakes his head, yes that's right, he was why.

"Go back to sleep Shiro." Ichigo replies using as much strength as he can afford to put the hollow under.

After he was positive his hollow half was suppressed he looks at his friends that were running beside him and hears Chad ask how many more he could fire.

"I'm at my limit already, if I go any further I'll have to deal with Shiro." He replies, not bothering to explain who 'Shiro' is. When he sees the pale sands he smiles triumphantly and stops. "Okay Ishda let's get out of here." He says, turning to his raven haired friend.

After Ishda pushes the button they all walk a bit further away from teh wall as they wait. At least two minutes of high alert stand until they hear the gate open. About to step into it Ichigo pauses as his heart thuds and his senses hone in on one thing.

Pushing everyone in first he quickly hops in behind them sparing a quick glance behind him when the gate started closing. His eyes spot those that are painted with betrayal so deep it makes his heart crack, one word manages to reach his ears as it falls from the shattered Espada's mouth.

"Why"

The broken and painful word stabs Ichigo's heart over and over every time it repeats in his head, getting louder and louder until all he can hear is the utter heart break his action caused.

He didn't notice when the tears started to fall, nor when they got back to the training grounds under the candy store. His friends, who would have both seen and heard what happened had either figured it out or wisely decided to let him leave alone.

By the time Ichigo got home his throat felt raw and his eyes stung so horridly. But he couldn't care less. The mission was a success but his heart kept telling him it was a failure. He got back in his body which was simply laying on his bed, curling up he lets the tears fall freely. He had never wanted that. He had only wanted to stay with the Espada forever. But it was impossible. And due to his decision to leave he lost the one person he every truly loved.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Grimmjow."