Chapter 1

A/N: So if you are reading this, you have decided that you think you can handle the content in this story. Please feel free to stop reading at any point. And if you are going to criticize my writing, just don't. This is, as mentioned before, 100% personal. So I really don't care what you have to say about it to make it "better". It's real life. Not a just a story I felt like writing.

The night of my year five school dance. I was so excited. It was the first year my mum hadn't offered to help. So I would be able to chill out with my best friend. Alice. We had decided that we were going to get ready at her house, since she lived so close to the school. We had finished getting ready and headed to the school. When we got there we were amazed. The school hall had been decorated so well. It didn't even look like our hall anymore. Alice and I walked up to the door and gave the guy there our tickets. He looked at Alice and smiled then he turned to me and looked me up and down a few times before taking my ticket and wishing us a great night. We walked into the hall and started dancing. We were having such a great time. It was so much fun! After a while we got tired so we went and got a drink and sat down on the chairs provided. We were talking, laughing and just having fun. Jasper cam up to us and asked Alice if she wanted to dance. She said yes. Alice had like Jasper since the end of Year 3. I was just sitting there watching Alice dance with Jasper. I heard the chair next to me scrap across the floor and looked up to see who had sat in it. I was shocked to see the guy who took my ticket sitting there looking at me.

"Hey beautiful. My name's Jacob. What's yours?" he asked me

"Bella." I replied scared. My mum had taught me stranger danger.

"Bella... such a beautiful name for a beautiful girl" he said looking at me adoringly.

I looked over towards Alice and saw her looking back at me worried. I mouthed an "It's OK. I'm fine" to her and watched her turn back to continue dancing with Jasper. I didn't want to ruin her moment with Jasper. She had been waiting for so long for a chance like this.

"Bella, would you like to dance?" Jacob asked me

I didn't want to be rude so I agreed. He got up and held out his hand for me to take. I was a little hesitant at first but took his hand, as not to be rude. He led me out of the hall and that's when I knew something was wrong!

"I thought we were going to dance?" I questioned

"We are. But I thought we would dance out here. We don't want anyone to see us now do we?"

"We are just going to be dancing. What's wrong with that?"

"Nothing. It's just, it would look weird if we were seen dancing together. I mean I am a lot older than you. I'm in Year 11. So we don't want anyone to start talking. Come on lets dance!"

We started dancing then he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him. It felt weird. Both good and bad. I'd never been like this with a guy before and that was the good part about it. But he was a stranger and I had only just met him. That was the bad. We stayed like that for about 5 minutes then he lent to my ear and whispered "You will never forget this night! That I promise" into it.

I didn't understand what he was talking about until he bit my earlobe and moved his mouth to mine, crushing his lips down onto my lips. I didn't know what was happening. I was only 10. He picked me up and took me to his car, laid me down on the back seat and got on top of me. I tried to push him off me but he was too strong. He started undoing his pants and pulled them off. Then he took his lips of mine and pulled his shirt of. He was on top of me completely naked. I screamed.

"What are you doing Jacob?"

"Come on Bella! I can tell this is what you want! You don't have to pretend! I know I'm hot! Just relax and have fun!" he replied as he slid his hand up my arm and took my dress off.

Once my dress was off his lips were back on mine and he was raping me. I felt so useless. I didn't respond to anything in the hope that he would stop. But he never did. He moved his lips from mine and whispered into my ear "if you don't start responding it will only get worse!" as he grabbed my butt and squeezed it. It hurt but I thought it best to do as he said. So I pulled his face back to mine and kissed him. It caused him to deepen everything. The kiss, the rape, and the grip he had on my body. When I was out of breathe, I pulled my face away from his. His lips never left my body. He moved to my neck and started kissing and sucking it. I was scared, but I thought if I was brave he would stop.

"OK. You've had your fun! Now I want to return to the dance."

"NO! YOU DESERVE THIS BITCH! I KNEW WHEN I SAW YOU THAT YOU WERE A SLUT! THIS IS WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU! YOU NEED TO LEARN THAT YOUR A WORTHLESS AND GOOD FOR NOTHING EXCEPT THIS!" he screamed as he hit me.

He was on top of me so there was nothing that I could do. He kept hitting me. Across the stomach, the legs, the face. Anywhere and everywhere. It was hurting so much, I started to cry.

"KEEP CRYING AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS SLUT!" was all he screamed.

He kept hitting me and when he had had enough of that he went back to kissing me and raping me. I was sore all over but he didn't care. After about an hour he put his clothes back on and redressed me. Helped me out of the car and led me to the outside of the school.

"If you tell anyone that I did this, I will not be happy. And when I'm not happy, the person who made me unhappy isn't happy either. You got that?"

"Yes." I squeaked

"So when people ask you what happened you are going to tell them that you went to the bathroom and there was a guy in there, he pushed you against the wall and started attacking you. Then he took you outside the school and ran off. I came and found you and helped you out. OK?"

I couldn't speak so I just nodded.

"And if I find out that you told anyone otherwise, we will have another little session of this." he said as he kissed me gently once more.

He led me back into the dance and no one noticed we were gone. Except for Alice. Jacob left to see if there was anything he had to do as a helper of the dance and Alice came up to me.

So there you have it... Not a pretty start.

Isabella Jame Swan Cullen XxX