Two weeks… Two weeks and still absolutely nothing… I suppose that's a good thing, it means more people are living a fulfilled life. But hell does it make my job more repetitive. Naoi seems perfectly entertained being four feet deep in paperwork, but me? Well… That's another story.

I've started keeping a diary just to fill up some of my spare time, I've actually started becoming quite fond of it. I guess it's just something I never had the time for before. Naoi's fun to talk to, though he never has time for me anymore. He's always doing paperwork, always. My chest pains are hurting less, though they're twice as frequent now. I've given up on trying to hide it from Naoi, I learnt that was a bad idea the hard way. Now whenever I show the slightest discomfort he's at my side. And to be honest, I'm loving the attention. So much so I'd be lying if I said there wasn't a couple of times I'd faked chest pains just to get the attention. I know it's needy, and I'm not proud of it. But what can I say? I'm lonely, and loneliness is almost like…. like…. A drug. Yes, that works. Loneliness is a drug.

As Naoi finished his work he threw his head back. "Anything?" I asked him. He sighed loudly "Absolutely nothing…" I walked over to his desk and shut his laptop, "So, you're done?" He groaned but nodded. "So…. What do we do now?" He asked. I smiled, I finally had his attention.

"I guess we could…. Play a game?" I suggested. Naoi raised an eyebrow, "A game?" I nodded, "Yeah…. Like…..hmmm…. What about truth or dare?" Naoi widened his eyes "No way, I can't stand doing dares." He replied frantically. "Why don't we just play truths then?" I suggested laughing slightly at his innocence. Naoi smiled and nodded.

"Okay, you first. Ask me anything." I told him. Naoi scowled and raised a hand to his chin in thought. "Urm….What's your favourite colour?" He asked me. I almost laughed at the simplicity, though I guess it's a start. I thought for a moment. "Blue, like the sky. I like the way it brightens up the sky after a night of darkness." Naoi smiled admirably, "That's beautiful…" I heard him mutter. I smiled back and couldn't help but blush slightly.

"So, what's your favourite colour?" I asked deciding to simply rebound the question. "Red." Naoi answered almost a little too quickly. "Oh…. Why's that?" He smirked, "It's a secret." There was a short silence that rippled through the air.

"My turn," He said. "Have you ever loved anyone? Other than Kanade I mean." I blinked a couple of times, what the hell brought that on. "I don't think so," I answered shocking even myself. I don't think so!? Why would I give such an obscure answer!? I saw him a raise an eyebrow. "No!" I shouted far too sharply causing Naoi to jump. I was left aghast at the way I responded, it was almost like... I was trying to defend myself… and I didn't know why…

"Sorry…. Sensitive subject?" He asked in a soft apologetic voice. When I realised how hurt Naoi looked I felt myself break inside. That's when I felt a familiar sharp pain hit. I used my arms just in time to stop myself from falling to the floor – though it was difficult because my arms now seemed to have the consistency of paper.

Naoi gasped catching me by the arm. When I regained posture he dug through a bag by his desk and handed me a couple of painkillers (as he usually does). "I'm sorry… bad question," He muttered as he sat next to me and put a hand on my shoulder. "No, it's not your fault. I should have responded better…" As I raised my head I realised how close he was to me. I suddenly felt as if I was being suffocated, but for some reason I kind of like it. I took a deep breath and put my hands on my knees to support myself.

"I… I don't know if I've ever loved anyone else…" I confessed. "I mean, I feel like I should say no as if it's blindingly obvious. But saying it just feels…wrong" He took his hand and placed it on mine causing me to flinch. I knew it was just to be comforting, but I couldn't shake this feeling. Maybe I've just spent too much time on my own…

He gave my hand a slight squeeze before letting go, "I understand. Anyway, I believe it's your turn." I smirked, admittedly I wasn't sure if we were continuing. Though I was glad we were.

"Who do you like?' I asked him in a slightly suggestive tone. He bit his lips, "I can't tell you that…. But… What if I told you something else instead?…" He stuttered awkwardly. I was now even more curious then before, "Go on," I said motioning him to continue. "Well… I haven't really told anyone about this, but… I want to tell you because I care about you and I don't like keeping things from you,' he started. " I… feel a way about guys… That I should feel towards girls and… I don't know why but I do."

I blinked a couple of times, not because what he said was even remotely surprising – but because I somehow didn't guess beforehand…. How the hell did I NOT get it? It's so blindingly obvious, hell, his name is one letter away from being Yaoi.

I then noticed the look he was giving me, it was that puppy dog look. Just waiting for a response but afraid of when it comes. I tried to figure out what to say, "Okay." Now it was him who was blinking. Goddamn it, could I reeaaalllyy not think of a better response…!?

"W-w-wait what..?" I shrugged deciding to go for the 'apathetic' response, "I don't mind. Who you love is who you love. Besides, it's not like it's a choice." In response he gave me a sincere smile of gratitude. I smiled back, relaxing in my own skin for once.

I reached forward and moved a strand of his hair behind his ear to comfort him, almost as if to say I care. And from his expression, I could tell he was grateful. Honestly I didn't think it was that big of a deal, though clearly I was mistaken. Because from the way he was acting, I could tell that for him it was a very big deal.

He said he hasn't told anyone. Does that mean he's been keeping it a secret all this time? But…Why? I knew it would be a bad idea to ask him, so I didn't. And it turns out I didn't need to, because that's when I figured it out myself.

I remembered what he told me about his father… It really shouldn't surprise me that Naoi wouldn't feel comfortable telling someone like that, regardless as to whether he's his father or not. His father was already crushing Naoi under the pressure, He probably figured that coming out would just add logs to an already scorching fire. Which was something he really didn't need, especially since he was already at odds with his father.

I had never met the man, so maybe I'm not at liberty to judge. But I can honestly say that I hate him with every fibre in my body – a term I don't use so lightly. But my overall feelings of anger towards his father didn't cause me to forget what this whole ordeal was about; Naoi.

Naoi and I were then drowned in a comfortable silence. Not a normal silence though, the kind where words weren't exchanged but rather thoughts. Because words weren't needed, we understood each other perfectly, with or without speech. It's the kind of silence that says 'I've got your back' in a way we could both mutually understand.

As the pessimistic thoughts started to fade, the more heart-warming thoughts came into effect. Of all people he could have told… He told me. He trusted me. How I felt at this thought could be best described as… flattered.

I felt my fingertips tingle slightly from where I touched his hair, and almost simultaneously I felt a comfortable warmth in my chest. It's funny… But no matter how many times Naoi and I end up in these stupid 'heart to hearts' we always seem to realise there's something we don't know about each other. And I like it that way! Finding out something new every time I talk to him makes me feel like we're constantly getting closer and closer.

"Thanks for telling me…" I said breaking the silence"…I like it when you tell me stuff." I finished. Naoi smiled and got up. "I'm going to the roof to get some fresh air, care to join me?" I grinned and nodded.

Hi guys, sorry its so short and took so long. (I decided to take a break and now focusing on it is really hardXC) Lol, i know its like majorly smushy. I kinda feel like the quality's going down with each chapter... Oh well, hopefully next chapter will be both longer and better.