Korra parked her car at the docks and waited for the ferry to arrive.
She hasn't bin to air temple island in a long time, which was a good thing, but now something has changed she needed guidance and fast, before things got out of hand, her body was shaking and she couldn't stop the trembling in her hands.
The ferry ride was only 15 minutes, but it felt like hours had past when the boat docked at the island. She made her way to the house and already noticed a hand full of people where meditating in the meditation pavilion.
She opened the wooden doors of the temple and made her way to the dining area.
The moment she walked inside she found who she was looking for. A bold man with a pointy beard looked up from his plate with a confused look on his face.
"hey… Tenzin… i was kinda looking for you" Korra made an awkward smile and rubbed the back of her neck.
Tenzin got up from the table and walked over "Korra is everything all right?… you know our session isn't until next week right?" He placed his hand on her shoulder and looked at her with a worried look in his eyes.
It didn't take long before he noticed the damage that was dealt to her face this morning and the trembling of her body.
"Lets go to my office… shall we?" Korra took a deep breath and looked at the ground before she nodded in agreement.
Tenzin's wrapped his hand around her shoulder and guided her down the hallway.
The office was just like she remembered there wasn't allot in furniture in the room, accept for a desk, a file cabinet and a long couch that was placed in the middle of the room. "why don't you lie down so we can start" Korra nodded and did what she was told.
Tenzin pulled up his desk chair next to her, he walked over to a file cabinet and took out one of the files.
He took a seat and pulled out a notebook from inside the file.
" Ok take your time and start from the beginning " he said crossing his legs to get comfortable.
Korra took a deep breath and began her story. She told him about the night she met Asami, the after party and the day at the beach. Tenzin didn't say much and was just scrabbling things down on a peace of paper, until she told him she played on her guitar. Tenzin looked up from the notebook "you played ?"
"yes… i played because she asked me to" he nodded and continues scrabbling in his notebook.
She continues her story telling about her night she had and what happend this morning, and the incident she had with Ember before she came here. After an hour she finally stopped talking and looked at tenzin." i've never felt like this before and i don't know what to do" She said waving her hard up in the air.
"Korra… admitting your fears is the frist and most difficult step in overcoming them. The first time you came here you were a mess, you trashed up your room multiple times in your… outbursts, attacked my employees multiple times, and had sex with multiple patients that were staying on this island. It might took a long time but everyday got a bit better. You've bin discharged from this island for some time now and you showed up for every appointment sins."
Tenzin took a deep breath and looked at her.
"Now we know that in your case having sexual intercourse usually suppresses the state of anxiety. But the fight you had this morning was a trigger for the state you're currently in right now. The moment you denied yourself from your release with…" he looked down on his notebook " Ember… only increased your frustration, thats why you cant stop shaking. i can give you something to calm the body but i advice you to meditate to also calm your mind"
Korra growled" argh.. i fucking hate meditating" She crossed her arms but knew if she didn't do something she could not function properly. " Ok.. give me those damn pills and ill go in the mediation pavilion." Tenzin nodded and got up to his desk, he opened a drawer and pulled out some subscription medication." Take one of these whenever your body shows signs of shaking or trembling like you have now." He threw her the bottle and she caught it in her hand. She nodded got up and was on her way to exit the door "oh and Korra…i know you're scared about Asami beging one of the triggers, but i don't think she is… it was just bad luck you had this morning and i think she might be good for you. i know how you cope with your anxiety in a… unusual way…but if you want to have a shot with her, you have to stop having sex with everything that moves… try something els… wright down your thoughts on paper." Korra stood still to let the words sink, she was surprised how direct Tenzin could be sometime "…you want me to start writing on new songs do you" she said looking at the doorknob she was holding. "it might clear up your thoughts thats all im saying… be patient Korra everything will be all right"
Korra didn't want to admit it but the meditation and the pills she got from Tenzin clearly did its job.
The trembling of her body and hands stopped and she felt allot better than when she arrived. The sun was already going down and she almost forgot she still had to pick up Kuvira.
She quickly drove over to Bataar's apartments and the dancer was already waiting outside.
"you are late.." She said as she got in.
"Ye sorry about that… i had a emergency counseling session with tenzin"
Kuvira got a worried look on her face " are you ok… do you need me to… you know… calm you down?"
Korra knew her friend was doing her a favor, she knew all to well what happend when Korra didn't get some when she needed, so it would be better to avoid that kind of situations.
"nah… im fine, Tenzin gave me some new prescription drugs and i meditated for some hours"
"Good because i don't think i would be able to dance if i went for another round"
Korra rolled her eyes and smirked " so it was that rough uh…"
"shut up.. i don't wanna talk about it" Kuvira crossed her arms.
They both set in a comfortable silence as they made there way to the mansion.
ill let your mind wrap around this little chapter for a while before im clearing up the confusion in the next one/.. the next chapter will be a recap from Korra 1 month after her breakup with Michel;) i hope you like it and please leave a review with your thoughts about this chapter...
yes you can say Korra is a like 50 shades of fucked up;)