A/N: Sorry it took so long to update, i was having some problems putting things together, and had to see where it was going, but here it is , its almost 5,5 k long to make it up;)
I did't wan't to make Korra just a sex addict without a reason, so i hope this will clear up some thoughts:P
i hope you like it. The song Korra will be singing further down this chapter is Anouk- i don't wanna hurt
Kuvira was laying on the couch reading a sports magazine when she heard the front door closing.
She looked up and saw Korra entering the apartment.
"So how was your lunch date?" Kuvira said trying to read the Avatars knew Korra was already turning into a mess when she left the apartment. But to Kuvira's surprise she seemed completely fine right now.
"I-it was ok" Korra muttered and walked over to the kitchen.
Kuvira got up " It was ok…thats it?" she said and following her into the kitchen"
Korra opened the fridge and looked inside" I told her Kuv…"
Kuvira crossed her arms and leaned against the counter " Ah I'm sorry… you are two good for her anyway, there are plenty of gir-"
"She did't run away from me like everyone els does",Korra interrupted " In fact she offered herself to me" Korra said and looked up at the great uniter.
Kuvira raised a brow "She offered herself to you?"
Korra took out the ham and cheese "yes she doesn't want me to use other girls, so I'm seeing her instead" Korra said closing the door from the fridge with her foot.
"And you accepted?"
Korra took the two peaces of bread and started making her sandwich "Well… yes i did is there something wrong with that?"
"No… its just tha-" Kuvira got interrupted by the sound of Korra's phone going of.
Korra took the phone out of her pocket and smiled.
"Hey Jin how is everything going?"
"Im good, very busy at the moment, but thats why I'm calling, i have to ask you for a favor"
"Uhm.. ok shoot" Korra said as she took a bite out of her sandwich.
"Ok so we have to play on a wedding next Wednesday and Katara can't stay till the end. It's a very expansive wedding and they are paying us allot of money, so i wanted to ask you if you can replace her for the last half hour."
"Im sorry Jin but i can't, i already have a date planed out."
"Korra please, if there was any other way i wouldn't have asked you but you're my last hope, you are the only person i know who can reach the same notes as Katara, if it isn't even higher, please Korra it's a one time thing i promice"
Korra could hear the desperation in her voice and sighted" …Ok fine, but on a few condition"
"Yes! anything tell me"
"My date is coming with me, I'm not wearing a dress, and i want to sing one of my own songs, ill send you the music today, so you can study it with the band."
"Is it appropriate for a wedding?"
"Yes"
"…Fine, i need you at Ang's memorial at 10 P.M don't be late!" JInora already hung up the phone before Korra could give a reply.
Korra quickly sender a text to Asami and walked to a cabinet, she pulled out a notebook and took a seat at the kitchen table.
"What are you doing?"
"What does it look like I'm doing?" Korra said as she started to scrambling onto the peace of paper.
"I see she got your brain all in a tizzy, i just hope you know what you're doing" Kuvira said and flopped back on the couch.
Asami looked up from the blueprints on her desk when her phone buzzed.
She couldn't help but smile when she saw Korra's name appeared on her screen.
"Change of plans, ill pick you up at 7, we have to make a quick appearance at a wedding later that night, i hope you're up for some dancing?"
Asami raised a brow "what wedding?" She thought and started writhing a text back.
"Are you sure it's ok, for you to take me to a wedding? And about that dancing, you're not the only one, with some decent dance moves, if i say so myself" Asami smiled and pushed the send button.
It didn't take long before she received a reply " Ye its fine it was part of the deal, wouldn't wanna go without you. Im already looking forward to watch you dance"
Asami couldn't help but wondering what kind of deal Korra got herself into.
The CEO put down her phone and took another look at the blueprints.
She tried her best to concentrate, but her mind kept wondering off.
It was tuesday afternoon and Asami was buried deep in work, She had three meetings this morning, and was working on a delayed project that had to be finished by the end of the week.
Al dough she was working, it wasn't going as fast as she had hoped.
The whole morning she was thinking about the text Korra sender her last night.
Korra was suppose the come to the mansion at eleven, but never came. It was 11:45 when she received a text from the dancer saying she was busy with something and forgot about the time.
"Busy with something… or someone" asami thought, even dough they made a arrangement, Asami couldn't wrap her head around it.
When the dancer explained her condition, she thought Korra would jumping at the opportunity to get to her house last night. Something wasn't right, she had to know what Korra was busy with.
Everything Korra had told her, her hypersexuality, and how she deals with it,was bothering her allot. Asami wondered how someone gets diagnosed with something like that. the more she thought about it the more questions she got, is Korra really speaking the truth or is this a way to get her to have lost of sex with her, is it curable, when did it first start. All these questions that she wanted to be answered.
She pushed a button of the phone on her desk, and waited patiently.
Short after her assistant picked up," yes miss Sato, how can i help you?"
" Izzy i want you to find Korra's therapist, and make a appointment later this day. Tell him it's important and i will pay him triple"
"Yes miss Sato, anything els?"
"No that will be all" Asami said and hung up.
She rubbed her temples, she knew she cant go behind Korra's back so she took out her phone to called her.
"Hey beautiful" korra said on the other end of the line.
Asami couldn't help but smile when she heard her voice she could swear her heart skipped a beat than and there.
"Hey yourself, i was wondering if you're still coming over in an hour?"
"Ah uhmm… i would love to, but i have to finish something first, i don't think ill make it, but i will come by later today"
Asami wanted to know what or who kept Korra so busy she wasn't in need of sex.
"Korra… are you.. ok? i mean you know with your need to… you know"
"Hehe ye i'm great actually, I'm really busy working on something for tomorrows wedding. Keeps my mind of off it i guess."
Relief washed over Asami when she heard Korra was just busy with something for the wedding, instead of having some trashy female company.
"Ok good to hear that, but i wanted to ask you something, i was wondering if i could talk to your therapist, i really have some questions and i hoped he could answer some of them"
There was a moment on silence on the other side making Asami nervous, "Uhm.. Korra? Are you still there?
"Y-yes i'am," she could hear some fear lingering inside her voice "His name is Tenzin and he works and lives on Air temple island"
Asami didn't want to scare her with her request, maybe Korra thought she didn't trust her.
"Well i was wondering if you would want to come with me?" She said.
"Yes of course, ill text you his phone number and you can make a appointment, but its probably gonna take a while, he's probably very busy." Korra replied clearly relieved that she was coming with her.
"Don't worry about that, i'm sure he can make some time later today. Anyway just out of curiosity what are you working on exactly."
Korra giggles on the other side "i guess you have to find out tomorrow? "
Asami rolled her eyes "you're such a dork, you know that right."
"Don't pretend you don't like it, but i've got to go, have to finish this today."
" Somebody is being cocky right now, ok ill leave you to it, and ill see you later."
"Hehe… all right ill see you later beautiful."
Asami smiled, hung up and went back to work, it wasn't long before there was a nock on the door.
"Come in" Asami said, her eyes still fixated on some contracts she was sighning.
The door opened and Izzy entered, "I wanted to inform you that i made an appointment at air temple island at 4:30 PM later today"
"Thank you Izzy, when i leave for that appointment you can take the rest of the day off"
Izzy nodded and left the room, when she closed the door behind her, Asami quickly texted Korra to meet her at the docks at 4:15 later today.
It was 3:59 and Asami arrived at the docks, Asami parked her carbon black Audi R8 and made her way to the ferry. She felt nervous, she basically invaded in someones personal life, al dough Korra agreed with her, she could't help but thinking she went to far.
It didn't take long before Korra's white jeep appeared around the corner. Korra stepped out of the car, and Asami couldn't help but stare at her.
She was wearing grey sweatpants and a black sleeveless sweater, the hood of the sweater over her head and her strong muscular arm's in full display.
Asami's lower jaw dropped at the sight, and could already feel a faint pulls going down to her core.
"Oh.. my god, she looks so hot like that, stop eye fucking her right now!" Asami thought but kept staring at the dancer.
As Korra made her way over, she noticed Asami was starting at her. A huge lopsided grin appeared on her face, She slowed down her phase just to tease a bit more, be four she stopped in front of Asami.
Asami's thoughts went on a rampage "Her hair is so sexy, she probably just worked out and had a shower, i really want to have that shower with her"
The southerner placed her index finger under Asami's chin and closed the CEO's open mouth,"you like what you see?" she said and placed a small kiss on her lips.
The kiss snapped Asami out of her thoughts, she broke the kiss, and cleared her throat with a small cough, " It's not that bad" she replied. "Now lets go we're going to be late"
Korra nodded and took her hand, they latched their fingers together and made their way to the ferry that was already docked.
XXX
Asami was standing on the bow of the ferry taking in the few of the approaching island, when suddenly warm strong arms wrapped around her waist. Korra started leaving soft kisses on her shoulder blade " What do you think you will find here?" she said leaning her chin on the top of her shoulder.
"Honestly… i don't know, but i hope it will get me a better understanding of what you're going trough"
Asami sighted and turned around, green eyes met blue "Look i like you Korra, and i really want this to work, but i need to have a better understanding of what you're going trough, and i think this is the best way to get some answers."
Korra cupped Asami's cheek "you know i would be honest with you right? Whatever questions you have…Why don't you ask me?"
Asami could see Korra wasn't happy about it, and it made her feel guilty. Maybe she should have asked Korra first, give her a chance to explain about her own situation.
At the other hand, she was always one who wanted a professionals opinion with delicate matters like this.
"Korra of course i know you would be honest with me, you've bin honest with me from the start, but i also want a professional explanation" Asami said carefully picking her words and gave a small pack on her lips.
Korra looked down and started rubbing the back of her neck, how was she ever gonna tell Asami about the bet she and Kuvira made the night they met "Y-ye right honest…Asami, i have to tell you something abou-" Korra couldn't finish her sentence as the voice of the captain announced their arrival, "We have arrived on Air temple island, Next boat leaves in 15 minutes"
"Tell me later, lets go and meet Tenzin first" Asami said as she pulled Korra by her arm.
Asami and Korra where sitting on the couch in Tenzin's office, Korra was resting her elbows on her knees and was bouncing her leg up and down in a nervous tick.
"Korra is their anything you don't want me to talk about?" Asami said placing her hand between the Dancers shoulder blades rubbing her back trying to ease the nerves.
Korra flinched at the sudden though, and looked at her, it took a few seconds before she spoke up
" No you can ask anything you want, its just that… this is the first time someone asked me to meet my therapist." Korra looked at the ground "Usually people start to run, after i tell them I'm hypersexual, they never trusted me around anyone, and i don't blame them."
Asami cupped her cheek making Korra look at her, Ocean blue eyes met emerald green," Korra i trust you and I'm not running away from you" She pulled Korra into a kiss, putting even ounce of love into it, she wanted to make sure Korra could feel that she mend every word she said.
"Ahem, sorry to interrupt, but you made a urgent appointment with me miss Sato " Tenzin said and made his way to his desk.
Asami quickly let go of Korra and Smiled.
He sat down, leaned his elbows on his desk, and latched his fingers together, "What did you want to talk to me about Miss Sato?"
"Asami, please call me Asami" She said and crossed her legs. "Im here because I'm looking for some answers"
Tenzin looked at Korra who was clearly avoiding his gaze" You know there is a doctor-patient confidentiality Miss Sato, i can't tell you anything without Korra's consent"
Korra hesitated, a moment of silence went by before she looked up at Tenzin,"you have my consent, but i think its better for me to wait outside."
Korra got up, and made her way to the door, but a hand quickly grabbed her own, "Korra wait, you don't have to leave if you don't want to" Asami said her eyes where filled with worry.
"I know" Korra said and sighted "But if i stay you don't get all the answers you want. Don't worry about me, I'm just gonna be outsides" Korra gave her a peck on her cheek, looked up at Tenzin, nodded and left the room.
When Korra was gone Tenzin returned his attention to the woman on the couch.
"Miss Sato what was it that you wanted to ask me?"
"Well i was hoping if you could tell me more about Korra's… condition"
Tenzin raised his eyebrow , he sighted " Ok lets start at the beginning"
"Korra came here 2 years ago voluntarily, she came in because her foreign relationship triggered PTSD.
Most of the time she had visions and nightmares, all about the same situation playing over inside her head, it made her aggressive and violent.
With the right medication and surroundings, she shifted her aggression in a more delicate matter.
So instead of being aggressive she became rather…lustfull"
"Mr Tenzin, may i ask what kind of nightmares and visions she was experiencing?"
Tenzin got up and made his way to his file cabinet, he opened the drawer and pulled out a thick file before walking back to his desk.
He opened the file and took out a peace of paper and started to read it out load " my visions are always the same, She is leaving packing her stuff i walk after her but it has no use, she left me and there is nothing i could do about it. I go back inside and trash the place up, I'm destroying the house and burning al the belongings that i can find of her."
Tenzin placed the peace of paper back on his desk " In the beginning she was a very closed person, we didn't know what her nightmares where about, but after the treatment started to take effect it revealed it was the day of her break up"
"She must have really loved her" Asami said she could imagine what she was going trough, she lost her own mother when she was little.
" Korra mentioned you gave her medication the last time she was here, what kind of medication did you gave her?"
"They are hormones that will suppress the trembling in her body, right now when she feels… lustful, she slowly loses the ability to think with reason. Symptoms are easy to spot, she will start to tremble, her hands will start to shake and she can't form a normal sentence. Right now the medicine can only suppress her physical symptoms, we are currently working on one that suppresses her urges as well"
"So what happens if she doesn't act on what her body is cravings for?"
Tenzin sighted "Maybe its better for me to show you"
He pulled a USB stuck out of the file and plugged it in his computer, and turned the screen to Asami.
"What I'm about to show you might be a bit overwhelming" he said and pressed play.
Asami was watching the video, on the screen it showed a small simple room with a bed, the camera that filmed, was hanging in the upper corner of the room, she could tell by the angle the room was filmed at. It was 3:40 A.M and the camera was on night vision.
"There is a Camera in every room of the building for our patients own protection." Tenzin said.
In the bed was a sleeping figure, she could tell it was Korra, Her muscular arms had a firm hold on the sheets. It wasn't a peaceful sleep she was in, she tossed and turned, and had a painful expressions on her face.
It didn't take long before Korra shot up from her bed, she dashed of, and disappeared from the screen, by the sound of it she was emptying her stomach in the bathroom.
After the sound of a flushing toilet Korra came back in the room. Her body was shaking severely, and she was phasing trough the room.
She made her way to the door and leaned her head against it, she turned the doorknob and slowly opened the door, Korra scanned the hallway and left the room.
"Where was she going?" Asami said
"She was going to find someone to fulfill her needs"
It didn't take long before sounds of screaming came from the screen, the lights in the hallway flickered on and several employees where running past Korra's room.
Four strong men appeared in the screen trying to control Korra, who was fighting them every step of the way.
She was putting up a hell of a fight, two men where holding her legs, and two where holding her arms.
Korra tugged in her legs and stretched them with great force, The two men that had a hold of her legs lost their balance and fell to the floor, both her feet where now free, she pushed herself of off her bed, slamming the two remaining main against the wall, clearly it nocked the wind out of one of them as he let her go, and grabbed his own stomach trying to get some air.
While the men was bending over, Korra quickly gave him a knee to the chin nocking him out cold, "Where is the back up, we need to sedate her!" the remaining man screamed.
The remaining man still had one arm pinned behind her back, she jumped,and kicked both her legs in the guys stomach, the moment he let go Korra made another run for the door but got blocked by the previous two men.
"Y-you have to let me…I-i Need to"
The two men stepped forward holding up their hands in a calming gesture "We know, calm down Korra, we can help you just calm down and get back in the bed"
Korra's body was still severely shaking, Korra was trying to get a hold of her thoughts, when one of the men quickly grabbed her arm. Before she could fight again, the other pushed a needle inside her neck and sedated her. She launched forward trowing in punch after punch.
After a few seconds her punches slowed their phase and her body fell motionless in to the arms of the man.
The guys carried her to the bed and restrained her arms and feet.
Tenzin paused the video "Lets skip forward till she waked up" he fast forwarded the video and pressed play short after.
Korra shot up clearly having another nightmare, She panicked when she noticed her movements where restrained. She looked at her hands, seeing the leather straps tightly secured around her wrists. She pulled the restrains but i had no use, her whole body was shaking severely, she turned her head to the side and violently emptied her stomach.
"I-is someone T-here, I-i need to… " Korra muttered trying to complete her sentence.
before long Tenzin appeared in the room and took a chair next to the bed "Korra, do you know what happened last night"
"I-I need t-to…" Korra muttered again, clearly not processing the question Tenzin just asked her.
Tenzin aked a few more questions but nothing came trough to her, he sighted, "Lets get you cleaned up soon" Tenzin said and left the room.
Tenzin left the room and 2 others came in, when one of them came closer with a syringe it clearly panicked her, Korra started violently pulling on her restrains.
With one hard pull the one that was holding down her left arm broke. The guy quickly tried to sedate her but Korra was faster, she yanked the needle out of his hand and stabbed it in the other guys hand who was trying to hold her down.
The men quickly stepped back, before falling to the floor.
She tried to free herself from the other restrain, but her hand was trembling to much to loosen the strap around her hand.
When the remaining men stepped closer, she swung her arm to his face, hitting him right on his nose. He stumbled backwards both hands cupping his nose as blood started pouring out from under his hands.
"I need some help in here!" he yelled, quickly two others walked in, Korra had already given up on the a temped to loosen the step the normal way, and started jerking on it instead, it didn't take long before the other restrain snapped by the force of her pulls. With both arms free she quickly went to work on her feet, but two men jumped on top of her leaned their whole body weight on the Avatar.
"Sedate her! Sedate her now!"
Asami again watched as Korra lost consciousness , after someone sedated her.
"This went on for about a two week till we decided it was to dangerous to keep going like this, We constantly gave her a sedative to keep her from harming the staff. But her body fought it of very quickly, we kept increasing the dose, till the point it could even sedate a horse. In this state of mind not a single peace of information come trough to her."
"So what did you do to fix it?"
"We called her roommate, Korra mentioned she helped her out sometimes if she couldn't find a… partner. We gave them some privacy, and i think you know what happened next. Once they where done, it was like nothing had ever happened. The trembling was gone and she was completely responsive."
"From that point on i decided to change the corse of treatment, meditation became mandatory, and i gave her a notebook to wright down her thoughts." Tenzin took a small notebook out of the file and gave it to Asami.
Asami opened it and looked through the pages, to her surprise all of the pages contained musical notes and lyrics. "What am i looking at here?"
"That miss Sato is her life story, her feelings buried deep inside of her, she wasn't ready to talk about any of it, until my daughter decided to have band practice in the recreation room one day."
Tenzin took out another USB stick and plugged it in, and pressed play.
Korra was laying on her bed and scrambling down notes, It was the only thing she liked to do around here, and it really helped to clear out her thoughts.
She was halfway down a page until the sound of music caught her attention.
She closed the notebook and made her way to the source, she walked down the main hallway and stopped in front of the recreation room. The music was definitely coming from inside but at this time of night the recreation room was closed for patients. She hesitated for a second but curiosity got the better of her, she opened the door and stepped inside.
The moment she stepped inside the band stopped playing and looked at her,"Im sorry, i didn't want to interrupt, i just wanted to hear you guys play."
A girl that was holding a guitar smiled and nodded "its nice to have some audience, go ahead and take a seat"
Korra smiled and walked over to a table and took a seat, the girl with the guitar was a bit younger than her and had a bit of a strange haircut.
"Jin, Are you sure this is a good idea, you know we are not allowed to come here for practice, and I'm sure your dad doesn't approve having patients around us either" the boy behind the drums said.
"Don't be such a pussy Kai, now lets start and 1,2…1,2,3,4 " at that point the band started to play, after another hour the band decided to have a break.
The girl put down her guitar and walked over to Korra,"you are really talented" Korra said as the girl took a seat.
"Thanks, my name is Jinora, and that is kai, Katara and Tahno."
"Korra, nice to meet you"Korra said and smiled.
"Do you play Korra?"
"uhmm… yes i can play a little"
"Ah nice, show me what you can do"
Korra hesitated "i don't know… It's bin a while and i real-„"
"Come on you'll be fine, here" Jinora said and got up to retrieve her guitar.
She basically shoved it in Korra's lap so their was no point in arguing no more."fine what do you want me to play?" Korra asked
"Anything is fine"
"ill improvise than"Korra said and sighted and pulled her fingers across the strings.
She closed her eyes, the sound of the guitar attracted the attention of the other band members and watched her closely.
" We're breaking things we can't repair, and none of us will take the blame.
No, nothing can be done this time,"
Without hesitation Tahno joined in on the piano.
"All the memories that we've made, I've threw them all away, There's no need to talk it over."
At this point Kai grabbed a cabasa and Katara grabbed her guitar and joined in as well.
"Don't let me get you down, Let's just move on, I am setting you free…
'Cause I don't wanna hurt no more, No, I don't wanna make you go through one more rainy day.
No, I don't wanna hurt no more, Strange enough I always knew,
I'm taking off today, Don't wanna hurt no more"
The doors of the recreation room slowly opened and Tenzin stepped inside, he was ready to speak up, but when he saw Korra was the one who was playing, he decided to just watch in silence.
Korra was so deep in thought she didn't even notice Tenzins walked in, her eyes still closed as a tear slowly made its way down her face,
"The darkness you left in my soul, And do we know how much we've lost?
Will the moon be shining as bright as before? And as I'm singing this song,"
the tears well up in my eyes, And I will always wonder.
why I will never have, the life I wanted
Now I'm letting it go"
"'Cause I don't wanna hurt no more, No, I don't wanna make you go through one more rainy day
No, I don't wanna hurt no more, There's not much more to say
'Cause it's too late now,I won't hurt no more"
"So I wait 'til morning comes
You made it clear that it has been only pain loving me
The things that we won't do for love
I am… setting you free
'Cause I don't wanna hurt no more
I don't wanna make you go through one more rainy day
No, I don't wanna hurt no more
Strange enough I always knew I'm taking off today
I am letting you go…"
Korra spulled her fingers on the strings for the last notes and let the sound of the guitar die down before opening her eyes again.
Tenzin paused the video "From that point i knew how to open her up, but she is a very stubborn person, Jinora was a big help when it came to Korra's recovery, and they even became friends."
Asami didn't know what to say she never imagined that Korra had to go trough all this, but one thing she was certain about was, that Korra would never do what Mako did.
The song that Korra sang made that very clear.
She was a person who would suffer all by herself, take the weight of the whole world on her shoulders and carry's it till she drops.
"Thank you mister Tenzin, i think i heard enough" Asami said and smiled.
She stood up and walked to his desk to shake his hand, he took it gave a firm shake, but didn't let go.
" Miss Sato a few days ago was the first time that Korra mentioned the feelings and confusion you stirred up inside of her, She is really trying, and i hope you can see that as well. Give her a chance to get to know her before making any rash decisions. You are good for her, i can tell"
" You don't have to worry about that sir, i will take good care of her"
With that Tenzin let go of her hand and Asami walked out of the door.
She was looking for Korra but she was nowhere to be found, she walked up the front desk,
"Excuse me have you seen A tan girl, black sleeveless sweater and sweat pants?"
The girl nodded and pointed outside " She went to meditate"
Asami nodded and walked outside, she could already see Korra sitting on the ground.
She walked over and placed her hand on her shoulder, Korra tensed up by the sudden touch but relaxed when she saw the Heiress face.
She didn't know how to react, Because she didn't know what the CEO had seen from her, she stood up and looked in her eyes.
There was a moment of silence, that neither of them dared to break.
But not long after Asami wrapped her arms around Korra's neck and pulled her in for a deep and passionate kiss.
The song is from Anouk- i don't wanna hurt
Korra is not crazy...