Ringing. Annoying, endless ringing. Cosima had gone home after her fight with Delphine and Sarah. She had pulled out a bottle or two of red wine and proceeded to drink the contents. She had been so upset and heartbroken. She had said things she didn't mean. She hated herself for calling Delphine a whore. She wishes she could take it back, but she can't. So she drank to forget and that's why when she wakes she feel a thousand times worse. Her head just won't stop ringing. She realizes with a groan that it's her phone that's ringing.
"Hello?" Her voice is slurred from sleep.
"Cosima?" It's Shay. "Hey, are you home?"
"Yeah, why?" She reaches for her glasses and then looks at her clock, it's one in the afternoon. She was supposed to meet Shay for lunch almost an hour ago.
"I'm at your door." Her voice is too bubbly for how she feels right now.
She slowly gets up from her bed. She's still wearing her clothes from yesterday. Her eyeliner is smudged from all the crying. "Hey." She says in a not-so-enthusiastic voice when she opens her door.
"Are you okay?" Shay asks, concerned for her.
Cosima shakes her head no. Tears fill her eyes again. Shay rushes forward and envelopes her in a hug. "It's okay, just let it out." They stand there for a few minutes as Cosima tries to calm down.
Cosima pulls away after a few minutes. "I'm sorry I missed our date."
"Don't worry about it." Shay waves her off and pulls Cosima to the couch. "Do you wanna talk about what's bothering you?"
Cosima pulls a wine bottle toward her. "No." She takes a drink. "I don't know." Shay takes note of all the wine bottles scattered on the floor.
She reaches for the one Cosima is drinking. "Hey, maybe you've had enough of that." Cosima pouts when the bottle is taken away from her. "Why don't I make you some tea?" Cosima nods her agreement. She rests her head in her hands as Shay shuffles about the apartment making tea. She wonders why they did what they did. She worries about how bad she hurt the both of them. She's still too pissed to reach out to either of them. How could she forgive them for what they did? She feels Shay sit down next to her. She looks up at her and accepts the tea she's being offered. She takes a drink. "Thanks."
"So what happened?" Shay asks softly.
"I uh..." She looks down at the tea in her hands. She needs to talk to someone, so why not Shay? "I had a fight with my sister and my ex."
"Delphine?" She asks for clarification.
"Yeah." Cosima looks at her again. "They uh, they sorta," she doesn't know how to say it.
"They hooked up?" Shay finishes for her.
Cosima sighs relief at not having to say it. "Yeah."
"I'm sorry." Shay gently rubs her thigh.
Cosima looks down at the hand on her thigh. "Yeah me too. I said terrible things to both of them that I can't take back, but I can't just get over it can I?"
"Well you and Delphine aren't together anymore, are you?" Shay says. "Why is it bothering you?" Cosima worries her lip between her teeth. "Because you still love her or because it was with your sister?"
Cosima is taken back by Shay's question. She opens and closes her mouth a couple of times before settling on an answer. "I don't know what to say."
"It's okay." Shay says. "I can see that you're still in love with her, I could see it when we met."
Cosima looks at her with confusion written on her face. "Then why did you not run when you knew?"
Shay takes the tea from Cosima's hands and gently holds her hands. "Because your soul is hurting and crying out for help and I want to help you. But first, you're going to have to talk to me about what happened."
"I don't want to talk anymore." She cups Shay's cheek and leans in for a kiss. Shay is taken by surprise at first, but then kisses Cosima back and slowly lowers her down on the couch.
Sarah walks the halls of DYAD. She's being led by Martin to Delphine's office. Martin opens the door for her. "Thank you, Martin." Delphine says and dismisses him. She's dressed in a suit again, her hair is straightened. Sarah feels a rush of arousal at the sight of the blonde woman.
They stare at each other for a moment, their eyes raking over the other's form. Each trying not to think about the previous night. "Why don't you take a seat," Delphine gestures to one of the chairs and sits at her desk. Sarah slowly sits down in front of her. They each try to avoid eye contact. "I have good news and bad news." She starts. Sarah encourages her with a nod of her head. "The good news is that project Castor and has been neutralized."
"What does that mean, exactly?" Sarah asks.
"It means that DYAD has the Castor clones under their care." Delphine responds. "All remaining participants of the project have been handled."
"So you killed them?" Sarah states.
"No, just fired and deported, but some wouldn't go and they had to be…dealt with." Delphine finishes. It was true. Some members of project Castor had been killed. She never gave orders to kill, but she didn't not give those orders.
Sarah nods her head in understanding. "So what's the bad news?"
Delphine takes a breath. "We are unable to locate Helena." Sarah looks disappointed to say the least. "I'm sorry. We are trying our best, but I have to tell you, if she didn't make it out of the desert there is little hope-"
Sarah stands up and puts her hands on Delphine's desk. "Don't say that. She is alive, I can feel it. And you're gonna find her. If anyone can survive out there, it's my sister."
Delphine is taken aback by Sarah's sudden change in attitude. Her ferocity sends warmth straight to her center. She stands too, she's much taller than Sarah especially in her high heels. "Look, I'm just being realistic. The desert is a big place and your sister- your sister may not survive."
Sarah walks away from her. She's afraid Delphine is right. She's afraid of losing Helena. She wants to save her, but everything is out of her hands. Suddenly, Delphine's hand touches her shoulder. The touch sends sparks through both of them. Sarah turns to face her. Her hand stays on Sarah's shoulder. They hold each other's gaze as Delphine speaks, "I promise you, I am doing everything in my power to save your sister." The fierceness in Delphine's voice pulls her in and Sarah is on her toes, dragging Delphine down to kiss her.
Delphine responds immediately, kissing Sarah back hard. She backs the smaller woman into the nearest wall. Sarah hikes her leg over Delphine's hip and Delphine settles into her, her thigh pressing against the brunette's center. Sarah grinds down against Delphine's leg trying to create friction. Sarah's hands dig into Delphine's hair as their kisses grow more feverish. Neither of them seem to care that the windows are made of glass and anyone could see them.
Delphine reaches for the button of Sarah's pants and undoes the button. She reaches her hand down into Sarah's underwear, meeting slick wetness which makes both women groan. Delphine finds her clit easily and circles it with two fingers. Sarah arches into her searching for more contact. Delphine attaches her lips to Sarah's neck, enjoying the feel of the woman's skin under her lips and tongue. She nips at Sarah's neck, reveling in the red mark she's created. Now Sarah has two marks on each side of her neck, the one from the night before turning a slight purple.
Before she knows it, Sarah is coming against the fingers circling her clit. Sarah lets out a gasp and Delphine's lips make a smacking noise as she lets go of Sarah's neck. Delphine leans down and gently kisses Sarah on the lips and then rests her forehead against the shorter woman's. They stay like that, holding onto each other as Sarah recovers. Delphine's fingers gently moving through Sarah's sex, careful to her avoid her sensitive clit. Sarah closes her eyes, enjoying Delphine's touch.
"Umm…Doctor Cormier?" It's Scott. Neither woman had realized someone had knocked. Sarah and Delphine jump apart. He seems mortified when he realizes what had been going on before he interrupted. He stares at them and shuffles his feet, looking down at the floor. "Uh…Martin said that I could come in…"
"What is it Scott?" Delphine asks a little irritated that they had been interrupted. Scott's cheeks turn pink.
"Sorry, but I have news about the gene therapy treatment." His confidence comes back.
"Really? What have you found?" Delphine walks toward him to look at the papers he's holding.
"We've had a breakthrough, we might have a cure." He smiles up at Delphine brightly.
"That's great Scott!" Delphine is just as excited as he is.
"I thought we already had a cure?" Sarah questions walking closer.
"No, that was just a baby tooth and it was a band-aid." Delphine explains to Sarah. "But this could mean that we could save others from the clone disease."
"Are you gonna start giving it to Cos?" Sarah asks.
"Well there are still more tests to do, but yeah." Scott says. "I tried calling her to tell her, but she didn't answer."
"You haven't seen her?" Delphine is surprised. It wasn't like Cosima to neglect her work.
"No, I take it you haven't heard from her either?" He says.
Delphine and Sarah exchange looks. "No, we haven't spoken to her." Delphine answers.
The air is thick with unasked questions. Scott can guess what happened. "Oh-Okay, I will keep trying then and yeah, I'll just go." He stumbles over his feet as he leaves.
Delphine turns to face Sarah. "We can save her." She reaches for the shorter woman's hand.
"We can save her." Sarah repeats, confirming what Delphine said. She looks down at their hands. "Do you think we should stop this?"
Delphine shakes her head. She takes in the woman before her. She's beautiful and there's no denying the attraction she feels to her. "I- I don't know." She can't stop herself from leaning down again. Her free hand cup Sarah's cheek and she kisses her softly.
"Cos will never forgive us if we keep this up." Sarah says when they break apart.
Delphine releases her hand and takes a step away from her. "You're right. This needs to stop."
Sarah nods her head in agreement. "I guess I'll be going now." She's still hesitant to leave, the French woman is almost irresistible. Sarah is able to tear her gaze away from the French woman and leaves. Delphine can't help but admire the sway of Sarah's hips as the brunette walks away from her.