"And after I called her a- I left." Cosima said. She and Shay were lying in bed together. Cosima was on her back staring at the ceiling and Shay was on her side looking at her.
"Wow, that's not good." Shay says.
Cosima looks at her, "Is that all you have to say?"
"No, I'm sorry." Shay takes her hand. "It's just a lot to take in." She takes a moment to think. "So Sarah is your sister and you love her right?"
Sarah's name brings up feelings of guilt and anger in Cosima. "Yes." She says eventually through gritted teeth.
"Did you mean what you said to her?"
Tears fall from her eyes without her permission. "No. I don't want her out of my life completely, but I don't want to see her right now." She wipes her eyes.
"Hey," Shay places her hand on Cosima's cheek and makes her look at her. "It's okay, sisters fight. You're gonna scream and yell and hate each other sometimes, but deep down you still love each other. She'll be there for you when you're ready to face her." Cosima nods her head and leans in for a kiss. "Do you want to talk about Delphine?" Shay asks when they pull apart. "Because if you and I are going to get anywhere in this relationship, we should probably discuss the fact that you are still in love with her." I want to be more than your rebound. Shay thinks to herself. "Do you want her back?"
"What Delphine and I had is over. She told me that." Cosima starts. "So there really is no going back. She lied to me so many times. Betrayed my trust. Dumped me. Slept with my sister."
"I sense a but coming."
"We've been through so much together. I always thought she would be there for me and that we would be together at the end of everything." Shay's face falls." I like you a lot. I do. I swear I do." Cosima says.
"Yeah, it showed especially when you screamed my name." She's trying to lighten the mood.
"What- I did not!"
"Really, then why did the building manager come by here and tell me about multiple noise complaints when you were still sleeping?"
"Oh god, that's so embarrassing." Cosima covered her face with the blankets.
"No, no, don't be embarrassed," Shay pulls the covers from Cosima's face. "It makes me look really good." She leans in to kiss Cosima. Cosima deepens the kiss and rolls them over so that she's on top of Shay. Suddenly Cosima's phone goes off. "Ignore it." Shay insists and she does and then the phone rings again.
"I'm sorry, I have to get this." She rolls off Shay and grabs her phone: it's Scott. "Hey, Scottie what's up? Whoa slow down! Wait, you did? Seriously? Yeah, yeah I'll come in right away."
"You're leaving?" Shay asks when Cosima hangs up.
"I'm so, so sorry! Something important came up at work." Cosima gets up and dresses quickly. "I'll make it up to you later, okay?" Once she's dressed, she gives Shay a chaste kiss and is out the door.
She arrives at DYAD, practically running down the hallway, pushing people out of her way. "Cosima!" Scott says in surprise as she rushes into her lab. "Have you been running?"
"Yeah, you said you might have a cure so I got here fast." Cosima explains. "So you found a cure?"
Cosima's excitement rubs off on him and suddenly he's excited too. "Yeah, yeah look." He hands her his papers concerning the disease and the cure.
She reads through it and smiles up at him when she's finished. "You found a cure." She hugs him suddenly.
"There are loads of tests to do and we'll need to get started right away." He says.
"Yeah, yeah totally." Cosima agrees.
They work quietly for a while until Scott can't take it anymore. "So I ran into Delphine yesterday."
Cosima stiffens. "Did you?" Her voice is strained. "Did you tell her about the cure?"
"Well yeah, I tried calling you but you didn't answer." He states.
"Okay." Is all she says. He stares at her as if he still has more to say.
"Sarah was with her." She stiffens again, her face unreadable. She knew what he was hinting at. "Is everything okay?" He's sweet for caring about her she thinks, but she doesn't want to talk about it anymore.
So she dismisses him with "I'm fine." He takes the hint and they are back to work with an uncomfortable silence hanging over them.
Sarah and Felix are in Mrs. S' truck heading to the airport. Once Delphine had told Sarah that Castor was neutralized, she had called Cal and told him he could come back. She was excited to see her daughter and Cal. Should she tell Cal what happened between her and Delphine? Would it change things between them? Would he leave her?
"Hello, earth to Sarah?" Felix waved his hand in front of her face to get her attention.
"What? Sorry." She shook the thoughts of Delphine from her head.
"Are we going to continue to sit here in silence or are we going to discuss whatever is bothering you?" Felix never missed anything.
"Nothing's bothering me, Fee. Just thinking about Kira." Sarah tried to convince him.
He knew she was lying. "So nothing's going on that I should know about?"
"They found a cure for Cosima." She's trying to distract him.
"Really? That's great! It'll be nice to see the color come back to her." He said. "Did she tell you that, weird that she didn't tell me."
"No, Scott told me." She's being vague.
"Did he call you or something?"
"No, I was with Delphine when he told us." She probably shouldn't have used that word.
"Us?" He was a quick one. "There's not an 'us' between you and Delphine is there?" Sarah shook her head no, but remained quiet. It's not entirely a lie. She and Delphine weren't together. Felix knew she was holding back. "Sarah? What aren't you telling me?" She gave him a look that said everything she couldn't speak aloud. "You shagged Delphine?" He was shocked to say the least. "Oh my god. Does Cosima know?" She didn't answer him, giving him a silent answer. "Holy shit. Holy shit. Ho-ly shit."
"Can you please not freak out?" Sarah finally spoke. "I feel bad enough about it already."
"How did Cosima take it?" He asked.
"We fought." Was her reply. "I don't want to talk about this."
It was silent for a few minutes before he spoke again. "Wait are you gay, or was this a one-time thing?" He was curious now.
"I'm not gay, Fee." Sarah said. Was she gay? Was she bi? Or was there just something about Delphine she liked. "It was a one-time thing, sorta."
"Sorta, what does that- Oh my god, it was more than once wasn't?" Sarah nodded, refusing to look at him. "Holy shit."
"What about Cal? Are you going to tell him?" He asked.
"I don't know. Please can we just drop this?" She asked.
He waved his hands in surrender. "Fine, fine."
They were silent again. They arrived at the airport a few minutes later. Felix couldn't help himself. "So, was she good?"
Sarah's mouth fell open. She had been good. So so good. "Felix!" She hopped out of the car.
"It was wasn't it?" He asked, following her inside.
"Shut it, Felix." He smirks, knowing he's right.
They walk through the airport for a few minutes looking for Cal and Kira's flight. "Mummy!" She hears Kira before she sees her. She turns and sees her daughter running to her. She kneels down and let's Kira run into her arms, before picking her up. "I missed you so much!"
"I missed you too, baby." She puts her back on the ground and kneels down to her, enveloping her in a hug, afraid of letting her go again. She wipes her tears away when she finally lets go.
"Don't I get a hug too monkey?" Felix asks. Kira laughs and hugs him too. "How was Iceland?"
"It was great! Cal taught me how to fish and we saw lots of reindeer!" Kira said.
"That's great baby, maybe we can go fishing together one of these days." Sarah said.
"Did someone say fishing?" Cal had finally found them. Sarah stood to greet him. She hugged him and then he leaned in for a kiss. Sarah pulled away faster than intended. She surprised herself by how fast she pulled away. Cal and Felix missed what she did, but she realized something then, Cal wasn't Delphine.