The next morning I met with Ally to talk about what happened. She wasn't happy with me and I was definitely fired. She was however , willing to be there for Elizabeth if I decided to leave to Seattle. That is if Mr. Grey would still consider having me. Leaving Elizabeth will Ally in the back where she lived I went to gather my stuff from the locker room. On the way out of the back I stopped short. He was here. Mr. Grey was here and I hoped it wasn't to find a new sub. Taking a deep breath I silently walked up to him. Hoping he wouldn't take my offer as being too forward. I decided to just go for it.
"Sir I wanted to apologize for last night. I-i was also wondering if you would reconsider your offer to me sir. I would like to accept it this time of you were to ask me again." I said to him as I bowed my head. I hated being submissive. I hated having to be a slave to a man. I needed this job though. Elizabeth needed to be taken care of. It felt like forever before I heard him clear his throat to speak.
"Anastasia my offer still stands that is why I am here today. However I have to ask what will happen to your daughter." He stared at me with no expression at all in his eyes. Did this man even care that I was leaving my child behind. Did he even care that I would have to sacrifice our lives together for this job. I scoffed at myself. Of course he didn't care! Why would he. A man like Mr. Grey always gets what he wants. Holding back my tears I continued to count the tiles on the floor. It was a habit I had that helped to calm me down.
"Mr. Grey I would like to accept your offer. My daughter will be living here in Detroit with Ally. She is a friend and will take care of her as long as I send her money while I am with you sir. " I swallowed back my tears. I felt like I had cotton in my mouth as I spoke. It was so hard to leave my baby girl behind but I didn't want him to see how it was affecting me.
"Ok Ms. Steele I leave Detroit today in one hour. Say your goodbyes and I will have Taylor come back to get you in 30 minutes. Do not pack anything you will have all you need in Seattle." With that he got up and left. I could do nothing but stare at his retreating back in shock. 30 minutes ? Was that all he would grant me as a goodbye to my child. Tears spilling down my cheeks I walked towards the back room again. I picked Elizabeth up from Ally's arms and rocked her to sleep for the next thirty minutes. I stared at her as I thought about what I was doing. She looked just like me except for her eyes. It was funny because they were a magnificent green. A rare color just like Mr. Grey and his stormy gray eyes. She had beautiful brown hair and olive skin. She was a beauty. I always thought she would be my twin if it wasn't for her eyes. She had her fathers eyes. Just the thought of him made my chest hurt. I could only hope that as she grew older and understood my decisions in life, she would realize it was all for her.
Christian POV
I had to get out of there as quickly as possible. Anastasia was leaving her daughter here in Detroit while she came to Seattle with me. I felt a tightening in my chest and I couldn't tell you why. I barely knew this lady but yet her struggles somehow touched me. Maybe it was because it reminded me of my mother. My mother was a horrible woman. A whore that cared little about me. These traits are not what I see in Miss Steele. I do see however the struggles of being a single mother. That reminds me of my mother. As horrible as she was I can remember her struggling to feed me and selling herself for food and money. It made me feel like I was connected to Anastasia when I saw her struggle to let her daughter go.
Apart of me wanted to say no but a bigger part wanted her. I wasn't a completely heartless man but I can admit I was a selfish one. I had no idea how this arrangement would work but I was going to try. Something about Miss Steele was telling me to go through with it and I intended too. Getting into the car Taylor drove me back to the hotel. I would have to revise my contract while he picked up Miss Steele. If she was going to be paying for her daughter while she was with me I had to make sure my compensation would be enough.
By the time Taylor arrived with Anastasia I was ready to go. Walking down to the car I felt the knots in my stomach going crazy. I wanted this to work. I hadn't had a sub in a long time. As much as I tried to seclude myself from the world I needed companionship in any way I could get it. Relationships weren't an option as I was too fucked up to even understand the dynamic of a healthy one. I had the need to control the women I was with and that's why I was a Dom.
A relationship with my family never worked. I always felt dirty and guilty around them. I knew what I did wasn't right. I hurt these women whether it was consented or not I always felt guilty. They wanted it. This is something I always made absolutely clear from the beginning. I would never touch a woman if she did not want me too. Yet I still felt pain after a scene was done. I needed this and yet I hated this lifestyle.
As I got into the car I noticed Anastasia facing the window opposite to me. I could see the dried tear marks down her cheeks. Bile rose in my throat and I couldn't stand to look at her.
Here's another chapter for you guys ! ALOT of stuff is going to go down ! I can't wait to post coming chapters. Please review and let me hear your thoughts! Christian is fighting his inner demons and Anastasia is fighting her maternal instincts. You can imagine the difficulties to come and then let's not forget little Lizzy coming into the picture too!