"I'm scared." I wasn't sure what else to say so I decided the truth would be best. It's been two weeks since I heard from Elena and two weeks of Ana trying to convince me to tell my parents. Now it was Sunday night and we were on my way to my parents house. Mia was in Paris again, but Elliot would be there. I figured I might as well get it all out in the open. I didn't want to have to keep telling my story if I didn't need to.

"It's going to be okay." She grabs my hand slowly rubbing my knuckles. I smile as I hear Lizzy's cute little snore in the backseat. We didn't have a babysitter as we gave Gail and Taylor the day off. I didn't mind really. She was too young to understand what was going on and I loved having her with me.

Pulling into my parents drive way I park my car. God what was I doing? How was I going to tell them this secret I've been holding for so many years?

"Come on Christian you've got this. Lizzy and I are here for you." Ana whispers words of encouragement in to my ear and I feel my confidence growing. Stepping out of the car I unbuckle Lizzy and carry her in my arms. Her beautiful green eyes slowly open and a smile takes over her face.

"My Cristin." Her small hands touch my face and all my worries melt away. She has been doing so well at speech therapy, her vocabulary was expanding. She was actually saying words that shocked me. I was paying top dollar so I knew she would be advanced. Nothing would ever keep my little girl back.

"Yes lizzy I'm yours." I kiss her forehead as Ana grabs my hand.

"I can't do this.. You knock." I beg her with my eyes as we stand in front of my parents home. Giving me a small smile Ana knocks on the wooden door. We had told my parents and Elliot that there was something important we needed to discuss. I don't think they're prepared for what they're about to hear.

The door creaks and I feel my palms sweating. My mothers beautiful smile greets us and I feel sick to my stomach.

"Christian and Ana are here!" She calls to my family in the living room. Right away she takes Elizabeth from my arms heading to the room. I see Elliot and my father sitting on the couch. My mother sits in the middle of them showering Lizzy with light kisses. Looking towards Ana I take a deep breath.

"We have to talk...but please let me finish what I have to say before you guys say anything." I say as I lead Ana to the two chairs across from my family. Taking our seats I remove my jacket all of sudden feeling hotter than before. My nerves were on high.

"Christian bro what's going on?" I look at my brothers worried face and I have to avert my eyes. What would he think?

"When... When I was 15 do you guys remember how you sent me to Elena's to clean her yard?" I see my mother send my father a quick look before nodding her head.

"Well…uh long story short one day I had basically talked back as usual…and she slapped me across the face… She told me she could help me." Taking a deep breath I lean forward. "Look I was young and stupid and i'm so scared right now. I just don't want you guys to hate me. I haven't been the best son but mom, dad, and Elliot I love you all very much." I can see the tears in their eyes and it hurts for me to continue. I know I have to though.

"Basically she told me that all I needed was a little discipline in my life. So she took me under her wing. She become my Domme." My mother is the first to react as she inhales sharply. My family is very familiar with this lifestyle. They know that I am or was a dominant. They just never knew why or how I got involved into this lifestyle. I see my father staring at me in what I can only hope is not disgust. I wouldn't blame him though. I was just glad I didn't have to go into detail, as they knew full well what this lifestyle consisted of.

"Fuck! How could you not tell anyone Christian?" My brother has tears in his eyes and his breathing is heavy. I knew this wouldn't end well. I knew they would all finally see me for the monster that I was.

"I'm sorry. I know you guys must be so disappointed in me." I hang my head as Ana grabs my shoulder.

"Love I don't think your family is upset with you but rather with that vile woman." She says as she looks around the room.

"She's right son. Why didn't you tell us? We could have helped you. She… took advantage of you." My fathers expression is one of grief and I realize as I look around that they aren't mad at me but what was done to me. My mother is crying into my fathers shoulder and Elliot is pacing the room like a madman.

"I'm sorry… At the time I thought she was right. I thought she was actually helping. I hadn't fought or acted out and it actually felt good not to fuck up! Do you know what its like to live in a family that is so perfect and be the only tainted one!" Now I'm breathing heavy and pacing along with Elliot. I pinch the bridge of my nose as I take a deep breath.

"Christian you were never tainted or a failure to us. You were a child that we loved so much. I have failed you. I'm so sorry. God I failed him Carry." My mother sobs. I feel my own heart breaking and I look at Ana. I didn't even notice her take Elizabeth from my mothers arms but, she was holding her daughter as her own tears fell.

"Mom.. no God no. You saved me. You gave me a home and a family and I fucked it up. I am so sorry mom. I love you so much." I tentatively walk over and kneel beside her. Taking her smooth hand into mine I gently rub circles. Pulling her to me I take her in to my arms. Nothing had ever felt this good. To finally hug my mother and not worry about freaking out. Ana had me working on touch while we were at home. I hadn't been able to allow her to touch my chest yet but I wanted to give my mother this. I wanted her to be the first touch I ever willingly accepted. Elena's cruel punishment didn't count. I loved Ana. Yes love. I know I do. I haven't told her but when the time was right I would. However my mother deserved to have some recognition.

Feeling her sob into my chest I shut my eyes. I can sense the tense atmosphere around me. Looking up I see my brother's anguished stare and my fathers longing. Spreading my arms I reach out towards both of them silently inviting them to join us. I chuckle at my brothers shocked expression. Sending a small smile he walks up to us at the same time that my father wraps all three of us into his arms.

The emotion is almost too much to bear and I feel my own tears falling down my cheeks. Unable to control it anymore I let the sobs wrack my body.

"I'm going to kill that bitch." My mother heated words reach my ears and I can't help but laugh. Lifting her face she sends me a teary eyed smile. Elliot ruffles my hair and I send him a sarcastic glare. I know he's wanted this for awhile. He's always wanted a brother he could bond with and until now he never had one.

"That makes two of us." My father says and I stare at him unsure of what to say. I was so afraid of disappointing him. Growing up I wanted nothing more than to prove to him I could make him proud. I looked up to him in ways that I couldn't even explain.

"I love you guys so much." I whisper in to my moms hair. I give her a tight squeeze refusing to let go. I had years to make up for after all.

"How long Christian?" My brothers question pulls at me. I didn't want to get into specifics.

"It was a long time El.. about six years."

"Six years…What about you Ana? Are you… a sub?" My brother turns towards the love of my life and I feel bad for leaving her alone. I was just so caught up in my emotions I didn't even realize it.

"No… She's my girlfriend." I send a wink her way as her mouth falls open. I know I had told her I wasn't ready for the relationship thing but who was I kidding? This woman and her child had me hooked for life.

"Girlfriend?!" My mother sits up and rushes to Ana's side. I laugh as she pulls her and Lizzy into a death grip. My mother loved Ana and she was the only one who knew that Ana used to be my sub. I knew she would keep that between us. No one needed to know anyway. I loved her no matter what.

"Well it's about time. I for sure thought you were playing for the other team." My brother playfully teases me as he shoves my shoulder. I send him a thankful look as I knew he was trying to lighten the mood.

"Cristin?" I snap my head towards Lizzy as she wiggles out of her moms arms. Slowly but determined she takes tiny steps towards me. I smile and cheer her on. She was working so hard and even though her steps were shaky it didn't matter. The doctors said she would be walking normal in no time.

"Wow look at you Lizzy ! You're a big girl now!" My brother calls from beside me and she sends him a toothy grin. Finally reaching my arms she grabs on to my neck.

"Sad Cristin." Lizzy frowns as she touches my faces. Yet again I amazed at how bright she is. The doctors were right when they said she would be advanced even with her motor skill malfunction. Once they started teaching her nothing could stop her.

"No sweetie. I love you." I give her a sweet kiss and hug her to my chest. Staring across the room I see Ana looking at us with a pained expression. My mother leaves taking my father with her no doubt trying to figure out a way to end Elena Lincoln.

"Hey i'm going to give you guys a chance to talk." Elliot whispers to me. Standing I give him a slight nod before walking over to Ana. Taking her hand I walk her over to the couch before sitting us both down. Lizzy squirms in my arms until she finds a comfortable seat on my lap. Rubbing her hair I look at Ana.

"What's wrong?"

"I'm so happy for you." She says while staring at her daughter play with my watch. I knew she was happy for me but I could also tell something was up.

"Please Ana.. don't bullshit me."

"It's just… did you mean it when you said I was your girlfriend?" Her voice is timid and I reach out, gently wiping her tears away.

"Yes Ana…I-You're so important to me." I tried but I couldn't say it yet. I wanted her to know I loved her but I was afraid. She smiles and shuffles towards me. Putting her hand behind my neck she pulls me down for the sweetest kiss.

"I've been waiting so long to finally hear you say those words. I have wanted more with you even when you were mean and foul." I laugh as she recalls our first weeks together. I guess I was rather foul. I look into her eyes and somethings just not right. Grabbing her face I gently but firmly hold her in place.

"Anastasia tell me whats wrong." I had never used that voice with her since we stopped our contract but I hated when she lied to me. Staring at me with a small smile she moves my hand to hold on to it instead.

"Christian…well when I saw you with Lizzy it made me realize she doesn't have a father. Even though he was a drug addict he was still her father. She'll never have that and it breaks my heart." I couldn't lie her words stung. I thought of myself as more to Lizzy than just her "Cristin."

"I'm actually hurt… I mean don't get me wrong I know that I'm not her father biologically but doesn't mean I'm not her daddy. I take care of this little girl as if she was my own. I do everything I can to make sure she's happy. I thought I was filling that role." I couldn't hide my hurt and anger as I spoke. I thought she considered me to be a father figure to Lizzy. Looking down at the precious girl in my arms she stares at me before giving me her silly smile. I look back at Ana and I frown as I see her crying again.

"What…I'm confused Ana. If it bothers you that much I won't continue-"

"No!" She cuts me off, "No I just can't believe you feel that way. I mean yes you do so much for her but I always thought it was because you just wanted to please me. I mean I knew you loved her but I didn't know you thought of yourself as her daddy…"She breaks out in to tears again and I can sense Lizzy's apprehension as she stiffens in my arms.

"Of course I do…I love you. God I can't keep it in any longer. I love you Ana and I love Lizzy as if she were mine." I gather my two girls in to my arms and I just hug them. I knew Ana would understand how much she meant to me now. I wouldn't be able to hold her if I didn't trust and love her.

I hear my mother as she stands by the living room entrance. Her smile takes up her whole face as she walks over to us.

"I told you dear, it was just a matter of time before he figured out how much he loved you and this darling baby is definitely my grandchild now." I laugh as my mother hugs Ana and takes Elizabeth from our arms. Looking towards my girl I tuck a stray hair behind her ear before giving her a small kiss.

"I love you so much." My heart jumps at her words and I can't help smile. As long as someone like her could love me I knew I would be okay.

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