Hey everyone. Thank you for the great feedback. Early chapter update I actually have a lot more time to write this weekend. Lot's of thinking before the talking but then it's totally worth it. I'm kind of excited to take the story from here and I can't wait to feed into the next chapter from Voss Inc. Be prepared for a little crazy. xoxoxo
Raven woke up as clear as day, shockingly after her emotional turmoil from yesterday and all the beer she had downed. She knew that people alway say sleep it off but there was no way in hell it was going to just fade away anytime soon. She had kissed her friend. Someone she could easily consider as her best friend. Between the three of them they had almost grown up together. Clarke and Octavia knew each other a little longer but they had adopted Raven into the group almost immediately after they met. Raven was also the one who has always known her sexuality. She was never afraid to share her love for both men and women even though she stuck with women for the most part but this wasn't just a woman it was Octavia. After kissing her yesterday she wasn't sure how she wasn't going to compare others to her. She needed to talk to her for the sake of there friendship if anything else wasn't meant to be.
Raven: Hey O … I know it's early but I'd really appreciate it if we could sit down and talk maybe over coffee.
Raven wasn't even sure if she would get an answer but either way she had to try. She noticed looking at her phone Elliott had also text her sweet dreams and good morning.
"Ughhhh" Raven pretty much groaned tossing her phone on the counter. She didn't know what she was suppose to do with either girl. She didn't want to cut all ties with Elliot just yet because who knows what Octavia actually wants but once again she didn't want to feel like she was using anyone. She was known for never taking advantage of a situation. Jumping up on her counter she shuffled through her mail when she spotted a magazine with Clarke's face plastered on the front of it kissing Lexa.
"Ohhhhhh shit." is all Raven could get out. She knew for a fact that this was going to cause a giant stir in the pot between everyone. At least the pictures were good Raven scanned the article seeing the other girl maybe Lexa's previous girlfriend name Echo in the magazine as well. She was cute no one could deny that and it just meant Lexa had great taste.
Checking her phone one more time giving the world to see a text from Octavia it was blank. She didn't want to ask Elliot out again just yet so it was time for a shower and maybe hit the gym. Anything to stop her from staring at her door and reliving what had happened yesterday.
Octavia once again hadn't slept. She thought her dreams before kissing Raven were bad well the ones after the kiss were worse. She was beyond sexually frustrated and what the hell could she do about it. All she had pretty much wanted to do was jump Raven's bones but stopping that yesterday was like pulling the emergency brake on a train it didn't stop fast enough. It was burnt into her mind. Seeing Raven half naked and then feeling their bodies pressed together and hearing Raven's voice go deep and sexy asking her what could possible be wrong with what they were doing.
"Grrrr…." Octavia shivered just thinking about it. She needed to talk to Clarke she needs to just run to her best friend and tell her about how stupid she was yesterday. How it was amazing but then she fucked up. Climbing out of bed she decided to skip a shower because maybe going for a run first and grabbing coffee would help her out. She needed out of her head and what best way to do that was to sweat your life away. Grabbing her phone she seen Raven's name across it. She put it on silent last night when she got home because she was too afraid to check it if it went off. Opening up she seen the message was from this morning about 30min ago. Wow Raven was up early for her usual I never want to rise before noon self. Maybe she was having troubles sleeping as well.
Raven: Hey O … I know it's early but I'd really appreciate it if we could sit down and talk maybe over coffee.
Octavia wanted to answer back badly. She had typed out three different ways to say yes before she locked her phone and gave up. No response was way easier than saying no. Grabbing her running gear and her gym bag she figured she would just shower once she got to the gym after running. Maybe grabbing a few weight machines god knows she needed to stretch her muscles out.
Raven had already run a few miles on the treadmill. Her legs were screaming for her to stop so she finally jumped off and started to stretch. She needed to work on her core and her arms so she figured she would start that next.
"Hello" Raven turned to see a very cute personal trainer standing behind her.
"Hi" Raven turned around looking to see if she had done something wrong.
"I seen you running. Looks like you were running away from the world." the girl laughed a little.
"Yeah rough night and a few to many beers. Just had to sweat it out." Raven smiled as she started to head towards a pull up bar to work her arms and abs at the same time. Why not kill two birds with one stone.
"Would you like me to show you a few new things on the bar. I use it often and from the looks of it so do you." Raven watched the girl check her out. She totally spaced on the fact that she was in running shorts and her sports bra. She'd left her throw over tank top at the treadmill she had pulled it off when she was dying for air running.
"Don't worry you look great without the tank top." The girl smiled watching Raven look back for her shirt.
"Haha thanks you know I try." Raven lifted her hands and kept on walking. It didn't look like she was going to be losing the girls attention any time soon. She was just thankful she actually had the abs to show off since she lost her shirt.
"So if you stand straight adjusting your shoulders inwards a little.." Raven felt the girl lay a hand on the back and then one on her shoulder. She jumped just a little to the touch.
"Sorry are my hands cold." The girl asked.
"Uhhh yeah but it's okay." Raven mentally cursed herself for letting her be stuck in this position.
"Okay so when you pull up you are going to step like you are actually walking up the bar rather than pulling. You are going to be using every muscle in your core even though your arms will be doing the work." Raven listened to the girl rather than paying attention to the fact that her hands had now moved to her lower back and stomach. She was pushing in on her stomach to flatten out her back she she started to pull up motioning her feet just as the girl said. She could feel muscles tighten it actually was easier than expected but harder on her muscles, she had a feeling she was going to be feeling all of this tomorrow but it was needed. After a few reps she eventually got the girl to walk away. She hadn't minded the company but today her head just wasn't into it.
Octavia had took the long way running to the gym . She circled around the building a few times making sure she got the best work out she could. She was thankful she got a rec pass when joining the university. Probably the best thing the campus gave away. When she walked into the gym she said hi to her regulars and headed for the showers. Skipping the machines she thought she had already done enough damage to her body for one day. The shower burned she felt the water scalding down her body but it was also like a cleanse as well. All she could think of running was Ravens hands on her. It was like an addicting drug thinking of what the girl could do to her. She already knew how Raven kissed and feeling her lips on her neck just gave her a slight idea of what everything else would feel like. She slammed the off button on the shower. She needed to stop thinking about it all. Changing out of her gym clothes into a simple pay of baggy sweats and a tank top she figured it didn't matter she was going to Clarke's apartment and not leaving. It was her home away from home and that is where she needed to be.
Walking out back into the main room she heard some laughing turning she spotted the one person she was trying to avoid. Raven and she was of course with a girl. Standing and watching for a second she seen the girl was instructing Raven on how to do a run up. Octavia had done a few herself but needed work on her upper body strength before she could do them as Raven was. She watched the girl slid her hand down Ravens abs pushing in on her lower stomach with other other resting way to close to the girls ass. It didn't help that Raven was wearing close to nothing How could anyone not check her out when she was in very tight running shorts and her thighs were to die for. Octavia could see the muscle from where she was standing. Watching Raven pull up on the bar it showed her arm strength that Octavia got know feeling of yesterday. Raven was gentle with her compared to how she could have been. Watching the two girls interact she was furious everything in her body made her want to stomp over to them and rip the girls hands off Raven but she knew she couldn't and she knew she really couldn't after yesterday. Glancing one more time she headed out of the gym quickly but not before her friend and the front desk stopped her.
"Hey isn't this your friend." the girl held up a magazine with Clarke and Lexa on it, and not only were they together they were kissing.
"Ohhh my god." Octavia snatched the magazine.
"Yes yes it is and I am keeping this." Octavia ran with the magazine straight to Clarke's apartment. This was amazing but bad. The publicity was going to go crazy over this and everyone knew how Clarke hated attention. She needed to talk her friend into the fact that this was a good thing. Two stepping the stairs she rounded out to Clarke's apartment in record time.
"OMG Clarke have you seen…." Octavia froze in her tracks. Shit shit shit she mentally cursed herself for never listening to her friends when they said knock. She seen the door open but never expected to see Lexa and Clarke's mother standing in the same room together. Glancing at her best friend she see hurt in her eyes and she was about to kill whoever caused it.
Getting yelled at by Abby Griffin was never fun. It was like being brought back from the dead. She never gave up and she never gave in and no matter the proof either written or slapped in the face she never admitted when she was wrong and right now she was wrong. Hearing her belittle Clarke over the kiss and how it could ruin her chance at being an amazing doctor even hurt Octavia.
Watching how Clarke made Lexa leave of all people and seeing the brunette look just as hurt as Clarke did she knew something was wrong. The story was about to come out for both of them and she had a feeling it wasn't going to be good.
Raven walked back to her apartment slowly. The fresh air was great. She had left the gym with the personal trainers number. I guess her name was Brandi. It was a cute name to fit the girl. No one could miss the fact that the girl had a body but no one was Octavia either. She knew that they still needed to talk but no matter how many times she checked her phone Octavia wasn't going to be there. Raven knew that if Octavia hadn't answered by now it was like a silent no and it sucked. Walking in she grabbed some coffee. It was later in the afternoon then expected. She figured it was about time to grab dinner and maybe grab some company.
Raven: Hey Eli do you want to grab some food and have a night in at my place.
Raven waited hoping she could just let things go for one night. Maybe it's what her and Octavia needed.
Elliot: Hey I'm so sorry any other night I would love too but I am with my parents right now and I don't see myself getting away.
Ughhh Raven tossed her phone seeing as she was probably going to spend the night alone she spotted the magazine on her counter again. Maybe grabbing some food with Clarke would be smart at least she could ask her about Octavia now that they had kissed and Clarke might be able to give her some insight on what was happening. Jumping up she grabbed her things and headed to the girls favorite Chinese restaurant to get some food to go at the same time she shot Clarke a message.
Raven: Hey Clarke I could use someone to talk too. Free food on me for the night?
Raven was happy to see Clarke respond almost immediately
Clarke: Sure come on over who am I to pass down free food.
Raven pretty much jumped for joy and headed to Clarke's apartment. Knowing Clarke never locked her door and she had her hands full she just quickly swung the door open and before she could even speak she seen Octavia sitting on the couch.
All Raven caught was the last part of Octavia's question regarding sharing pizza and the fact that she was starving.
"How about Chinese?" Raven asked waiting for Octavia to be just as shocked as she was.
Octavia turned at the sound of Raven's voice. She thought she was hearing things but she she seen the girl she couldn't believe her eyes.
"Seriously…" Octavia spoke pretty much not even knowing what to say.
"Is Clarke here?" Raven asked putting the food on the counter.
"No she left to go see Lexa, what are you doing here?" Octavia asked in a harsh tone.
"Hey calm down. I asked Clarke if she wanted to have dinner with me and she said yes." Raven tossed her phone at Octavia to show her proof.
Octavia caught the phone seeing not only Clarke's name in the messages but a Brandi person as well. Not trying to be nosey but still curious she clicked the name. It was the girl from the gym. Of course Raven got her number who doesn't fall at her feet for attention. She stopped herself from reading the entire conversation and just clicked out back to Clarke's name. It was true Clarke had said yes to dinner.
"That bitch set us up." Octavia looked up. "She knew I was going to be here all night and she totally set me up." Octavia tossed the phone back.
"Look dinner is free on me and I can leave." Raven watched Octavia's expression after reading the text she seemed pissed and Raven didn't want to cause any more issues for the night.
Octavia looked at Raven she seemed like she was having just as bad day as herself and watching her push the food back on the counter and walk away almost broke Octavia's heart. She needed to realize she wasn't the only one probably struggling with the situation. If anything she was the one being selfish.
Raven made a quicker exit then she could have imagined. She couldn't be in the same room as Octavia right now anyways because she didn't know how well her self control would be. Feeling her arm get grabbed and spun around she slammed into Octavia.
"Raven wait." Octavia shivered at the abrupt contact of there bodies touching.
"I'm being selfish and this between us is crazy but it doesn't mean you have to leave. You are Clarke's friend as well. At least stay and eat since you bought it." Octavia let go Ravens arm. She couldn't touch that had to be rule number one or all the rules were going to fly out the door.
"What?" Raven couldn't believe what she was hearing. Octavia was asking her to stay.
"Seriously Rave come on." Octavia bumped her shoulder a little and smiled. It was hitting her all at once seeing Raven look so shocked. She got them both to walk back into the apartment.
"I'm such a bitch." Octavia mumbled under her breath as she shut the door.
"What was that?" Raven asked not hearing everything Octavia had just said.
"Ohhh it's nothing. I guess I am just now realizing how unfair this has all been to you." Octavia kept her tone even.
"Hahahaha sure whatever you say O." Raven had no time for being nice. She was pissed now that she was standing in the same room as Octavia. She decided to try and shut down her feelings for the night and grabbed a seat at Clarke's counter.
"Did you get my favorite." Octavia beamed looking through the bags.
"I got Clarke's favorite since that is who I thought I was eating dinner with." Raven couldn't help but smile a little watching Octavia's eyes light up seeing food.
"That means you got my favorite too because we love the same thing." Octavia spotted her box and pulled it out. Turning to the fridge she grabbed two beers and hopped on top of the counter.
"Beer?" Octavia handed one to Raven.
"Sooo what do you want to talk about Octavia?" Raven questioned. She figured she might as well try.
"I don't know Raven you got a subject on your mind." Octavia tried to play stupid.
"Seriously…." Raven wanted to punch something instead she just downed her beer.
"Ughh can't we just sit and eat and talk about something else for one night." Octavia pleaded.
Raven thought about what Octavia had said and she figured maybe the girl was right. They needed a night of normal to cool off and being in Clarke's apartment made in kind of a neutral zone.
"Sure one night sounds good to me." Raven tipped her head at Octavia. "Could you grab me another one of these." She figured she would make get off the counter rather than herself standing up which would lead to a compromising position between the two.
"How was your day?" Octavia started the small talk conversation.
"It was good I got up and hung around for a bit. I seen this." Raven tapped the magazine.
"Ohhh yeah wait till Clarke tells you the story on that whole thing, on top of it let's just say we all had to see the raging side of Abby Griffin today." Octavia popped the top of the beer handing it to Raven. She felt there fingers touch and she pulled back her hand quickly hoping it wasn't noticeable.
"So is that where Clarke is now?" Raven asked.
"Yeah she went to try and smooth things out with Lexa. I am starting to think everyone had a rough day today." Octavia glanced at Raven who was staring at her.
"Yeah I hit the gym for most of the afternoon. I'd been lazy the last few days and decided to kill my body a little. I think I am going to pay for it tomorrow." Raven rolled her shoulders she could already feel it in her arms.
"I know I seen you." Octavia let it slip before she could stop herself.
"You seen me?" Raven stared at the girl with intent.
"Yeah I went running and figured I'd just shower there and head over here and I seen you." Octavia kept her head down she wasn't sure if she should mention who she seen her with.
"Ohhhh…. well why didn't you say hi?" Raven decided to ask.
"You were with some girl… that's why." Octavia snapped. Shit she thought to herself why did she even have to mention it.
"Ohhhhh…" Raven wasn't sure what to say and of course that one time is when Octavia would see her. "It was just a personal trainer giving me a few tips on my core workout" Raven told the truth but she didn't add the fact that the girl gave her number to her.
"Suuureee I am sure that is all it was Raven." Octavia tapped her heels against the counter. She could feel her anger rising.
"I'm not so sure I've ever had a personal trainer be so hands on Rave?" Octavia questioned her but still refused to look up from her food.
Raven sat in silence on what to say next. She wasn't sure if she should just blow it off or actually start the conversation they needed to have.
"Hmmm well I can't help who wants me and who doesn't O" Raven stood up walking around the counter to toss her food in the trash.
"You know maybe if you wore some clothes at the gym it wouldn't be so bad." Octavia knew this was going no where good.
"Well the last time I checked I was single and she didn't seem to mind." Raven figured it Octavia was going to be jealous she was going to make her admit it.
"Ha yeah go figure." Octavia huffed.
"What is that suppose to mean?" Raven leaned on the counter daring Octavia to look at her.
"Did you have to get her number Raven like really do you ever fucking stop." Octavia turned to finally look at her.
"How…..my phone. You looked through my phone." Raven stood up in complete shock.
"It was hard not to miss when you pretty much tossed it in my face." Octavia jumped off the counter trying to get away.
"I didn't toss anything in your face Octavia and if you would have read farther than the introduction text you would have seen it was her who actually gave me her number." Raven started to get mad.
"Yet you decided to text her back your number…" Octavia could feel the jealousy pretty much dripping off of her.
"I'm single Octavia what do you want from me." Finally Raven yelled.
"Can't you just stop…. like don't you get it?" Octavia yelled back.
"Stop what… I am not a fucking mind reader O." Raven told herself to calm down before it became a screaming match.
"I don't like it Raven…. Ughhh I hate seeing other women around you and touching you and god do you have to be so damn hot that they all look." Octavia slammed her hands on the counter.
Raven stood silently but she was smiling. She couldn't help but smirk cause Octavia just called her hot and pretty much admitted to being jealous.
"You think I'm hot?" Raven all but beamed.
Octavia looked up shocked at her confession and hearing what Raven had asked. She also noticed that Raven had a smug smile on her face.
"Don't get all cocky." Octavia couldn't help but laugh because Raven looked like a child who just got candy.
"Answer the question." Raven wanted to hear it.
"Ughhh yes Raven I think you're hot, I mean come on look at you who wouldn't think it." Octavia felt her world of control slipping away.
"Is that what your problem has been lately." Raven slowly started to walk around the counter towards Octavia.
"It's part of it…. " Octavia trailed off watching Raven slowly walk towards her.
"What is the other part O." Raven stopped not wanting to stop her from talking.
"I'm obviously a jealous person for the first time in my life. It sucks." Octavia threw her hands up.
"Annddd…." Raven smiled stepping forward again.
"I told you not to get cocky." Octavia could still see Raven smiling as she was walking towards her.
"Annndddd…." Raven waited again but this time she was standing next to Octavia.
"No touching Raven…." Octavia turned to protect herself with her arms extended.
"I won't touch you." Raven put one hand on each side of Octavia blocking her against the counter but making sure they weren't touching.
"Raven…. ughhhh." Octavia couldn't breath she felt like she was being smothered with sexual tension.
"I'm not touching you Octavia." Raven leaned in letting their faces sit inches apart she looked down at Octavia's lips. She remembered how they tasted and she was dying to kiss her again.
"Is there anything else you have to say Octavia before I kiss you…." Raven smiled when she felt Octavia's hands go up immediately to her hips like she was going to push her away but she didn't.
"I… I…. I think I might have feelings for you." Octavia closed her eyes she couldn't watch Raven look at her lips one more time without losing control of herself.
"I… I… I sort of kind of have feelings for you too O." and with that Raven leaned forward and pushed their lips together. There was no hesitation this time Octavia kissed her back the second there lips touched. She heard Octavia groan as she felt their bodies touch.
Octavia lost her battle. Rule number one went out the door the second she felt Raven's lips hit hers. She couldn't deny it any longer she grabbed Raven by the hips and yanked her forward. The feeling of there bodies touching had her groaning. It was like she was missing something all along and now she was finally getting what she wanted. Feeling Raven swipe her tongue on her bottom lip she pulled back looking into her eyes.
"I'm not touching you." Raven's hands were white from gripping the counter hard. All she could do was kiss Octavia as she felt her hands roam her body. It was the worst torture she ever agreed too. She wanted to deepen the kiss she was almost pleading for it.
"Raven…" Octavia grabbed her face kissing her softly. Feeling the girl struggling with what little control she had left.
"What…" Raven was terrified she was going to get rejected again.
"Stop listening to me…" Raven didn't hesitate hearing what she said she grabbed Octavia by the hips and sat her on the counter taking control of the situation. She groaned when she felt Octavia's hands slid up her shirt a little. Pulling them flush against each other trying again to deepen the kiss again.
Octavia felt like she was high, she knew Raven was dominate but this was a whole different feeling. She had never felt so wanted it was making her lose control over herself. She felt Raven swipe her tongue across her bottom lip again she took the incentive to bite down on her bottom lip hearing Raven moan made her just want her more she tossed out all thinking and kissed back hard letting the kiss deepen she let her tongue explore Raven's mouth feeling there tongues fight for dominance in the kiss she pushed Raven's shirt up feeling her abs she used her nails down them to Raven's pants pulling her closer.
Raven was lost she didn't know what to do she didn't want to rush anything but Octavia had control of everything she lost herself in the feeling of Octavia's lips the way she kissed her with passion like it was there last kiss. Feeling her hands grab her pants she started to pull up Octavia's shirt feeling the girl lift her hands they didn't even hear or feel someone come through the door.
"Ummmm….." Clarke stopped dead in her tracks seeing her best friends making out and about to do god knows what on her counter
Raven was first to turn her head and spot Clarke in the midst of pulling Octavia's shirt off she pulled it back down instead.
"Ughhhhhh…." Octavia pretty much shot dangers at Clarke seeing her smirk.
"You know I can just leave…." Clarke started laughing as she acted like she was going to leave her apartment.
"Actually how about you two leave…." Clarke turned around looking at them again seeing them staring at each other again.
"Clarke remind me to kill you later." Octavia hopped off the counter leaving Raven standing by herself smiling back at Clarke.
A/N Yay finally an admission and well who could stop them from at least kissing again. Let me know what you think... and I should be able to update Voss Inc as well so the next chapter of course is going to play off some flirty, humor and fun. Can't wait for it. xoxoxo