A/N Here we go everyone. This is going to be a mix of the day after and a week ahead. So tiny time jump just to get past the dialog in the previous chapter on Voss Inc. Let's see how well the girls are handling things. Let's see how well both of them are holding up and how easy it will be for them to fall back together. Kind of a filler chapter but basically putting some emotions on the ground. Please review and thank you for your support. xoxoxo
Octavia woke up scrunched on Clarke's couch not even sure how she made it back to her best friend's place. Checking the time on her phone it was literally only 3am and it felt like she had slept a year. Running her hands over her face she could still feel the heat and puffiness from crying. She couldn't believe what had happened at their girls night. It was suppose to be all of them having fun in which she knew her and Raven were fighting but she never thought it was going to end up at the extent it did. Shockingly she must have absorbed most of the alcohol with ice cream of something because sitting up she didn't feel sick or still drunk. Looking around the apartment she couldn't tell if anyone was even in the apartment with her. Everything was dark and quiet. Sneaking up off the couch she tripped over one of her shoes.
"Shit." Octavia grabbed her foot cursing at herself.
"Is there a reason why you are awake?" Octavia jumped hearing Lexa behind her.
"What are you doing here?" Octavia looked her just a little pissed about the situation and how Lexa knew about Raven and Echo but never said anything. She didn't know the whole story yet since she passed out but she planned on finding out.
"I got Raven home and then came here to wait for you two." Lexa eyed Octavia trying to gauge if she was still drunk or not.
"Where is Clarke?" Octavia peaked over the brunette's shoulder.
"She is in bed, do you want to go back to sleep?" Lexa tapped the door open gesturing her to the bed.
"I'm not getting in the bed with the two of you. Noooo way." Octavia threw her hand up at Lexa.
"I can sleep on the couch. Come lay down." Lexa stepped out of the room to switch places with her.
"I think I just want to go home." Octavia stood in debates on what to do.
"Would you like me to drive you?" Lexa looked at the brunette watching her think it over.
"Would you please?" Octavia told herself she just needed some alone time to think about everything.
"Sure if that is what you want." Octavia watched Lexa grab her keys walking back into the bedroom where she assumed she was telling Clarke what she was doing.
Walking down the stairs and to Lexa's jeep they both were silent. Octavia let Lexa open the door for her it must have been something she was accustomed to doing along with how lucky her best friend was to have someone like her. Sitting in the jeep she watched Lexa turn down the stereo volume and turn up the heat. She had a feeling a conversation was about to start.
"Do you want to talk." Octavia rolled her eyes knowing Lexa was going to ask that.
"Not really." Octavia tried to bite her tongue and not be rude.
"I know you have questions for me Octavia. You can either ask them now or hear from Clarke later on." Lexa could feel the anger start to radiate off the brunette sitting next to her.
"How long did you know?" Octavia snapped out.
"Know what?" Lexa wasn't sure what part she was referring too.
"That they had lunch together." Octavia turned in the seat to stare at Lexa.
"Maybe a couple hours like three tops." Lexa tried to think of what time she left Clarke's apartment.
"That's it?" Octavia was trying to put the pieces together.
"Yes." Lexa said nothing more.
"How did you know?" Octavia knew this was going to be the important question.
"I have someone tailing Clarke. This person who works for me also keeps me informed on where Echo usually is. They happen to run into her as her and Raven were talking yesterday." Lexa started to pray that she got to talk to Clarke first before all of this came out.
"Really now, does Clarke know this?" Octavia had a feeling Lexa was going to be dead here soon.
"No she doesn't know yet." Lexa glanced at Octavia seeing no emotion on her face.
"What else does this person know?" Octavia held up quote fingers being curious.
"I asked him to follow Echo at first trying to figure out what she was up too. Then I had him switch his tail to Clarke due to the rose and note left on her door. There seems to be a mysterious car following her or I should say all of you." Lexa watched Octavia shiver.
"Okay so we have a stalker and yet you don't know who it is?" Octavia closed her eyes thinking of any strange moments that had happened recently.
"Not yet but I plan to." Lexa pulled the jeep to a stop at Octavia's apartments.
"Are you going to tell Clarke what you just told me?" Octavia wasn't sure what Lexa was going to say.
"Yes I plan on telling her once she wakes up. We obviously need to talk about a few things." Lexa thought back to what Echo had said regarding her and Raven.
"I'm not going to tell you the story because that is Clarke's place but if you are referring to the thing between her and Raven and Finn. You should definitely let her talk first so that you know the truth before she kills you." Octavia patted Lexa on the shoulder thanking her for the ride before hopping out and running to her apartment thinking of someone following her slightly scared her even if she knew self defense.
Raven laid in her bed staring at the ceiling thinking about everything that had gone down. She couldn't sleep even with the alcohol in her system and she was almost positive it was because Octavia wasn't next to her. She was alone and her mind wouldn't shut off going play by play hour after hour of what happened. Seeing the hurt in Octavia's eyes she knew she had a lot of explaining to do especially regarding the trust between the two of them if that was even possible now. Seeing the shock and hurt on Clarke's face due to her words hit her even harder. She knew everything between them in the past with Finn was never Clarke's fault. They both had got played and the fact that she questioned that tonight regarding Clarke's roll in it and how she watched her friend fall apart so badly after everything went down should have enforced that even more but yet she had snapped at the blonde hearing Echo's words. Thinking about Echo she wondered exactly how the girl knew so much about all three of them and their past. Something wasn't right there and that was her main reasoning for accepting the lunch invite was to find out who the girl really was but she never expected Echo to show up at the bar and blast it out in front of everyone.
"How could you?" Octavia threw her hands up at Raven standing next to the bar.
"How could I what Octavia, have lunch with someone?" Raven stood face to face with the girl.
"No just someone Raven. It's her the fucking bitch causing so much problems in our lives especially Clarke's." Octavia pointed at Echo.
'Did you once think about Clarke just once." Octavia closed her eyes knowing she was starting to hit a whole nother level of anger.
"This is not about Clarke, Octavia." Raven stepped into her line of view again.
"No it's about us and our obviously fucked up relationship." Octavia pointed between the two of them.
"Ohhh so now we have a relationship? Last time I checked I fucked everyone who flirted with me." Raven threw a low blow.
"Ohhh that's how it's going to be? So how was Echo then? Is she better in bed then me?" Octavia knew they both were starting to play dirty but the alcohol made her not care.
"Wow really O?" Raven turned around for a second tapping the bar hoping she didn't punch it.
"What? I mean you are the one holding up to your reputation. I mean at least mine doesn't involve sleeping around." Octavia watched Raven turn back around to stare her down.
"No see because you are emotionless. That is why you don't have to worry about it. You rip people's hearts out and stomp on them before any attachment is needed and then you run being hurt free." Raven stepped up pretty much spitting the words into Octavia's face. She watched the girl blink back tears hearing her. She seen the anger leave her face replacing it with hurt and tears. She hesitated for a second wanting to take back her words. She knew it was wrong and yet she said it anyways. She let herself fly off the wall.
"Is that what you think I did to you? You think my reasoning behind what started our fight is because I already know I have your heart and now it's my turn to stomp on it like everyone else has? Raven the reason the fight started is because I am afraid that you have.." Octavia felt herself get dragged by Clarke cutting off her words finally letting the tears flow down her face not being able to hold back her feelings anymore. She just watched Raven's cold stare at her not even seeing the girl she was obviously falling for.
Raven heard and felt Lexa grab her arm. Trying to split her up from Octavia. She could see the disgust in Clarke's eyes staring at her over the situation. She watched Octavia turn her back for a second trying to stop herself from crying.
"No I'm good." Raven thew Lexa off of her taking a few steps back from the exit of the bar. She then watched Clarke turn to her again like she was going to swing she actually started to embrace the fact that she was going to get hit by her friend. She could heard Clarke yell at her but she hesitated with her response because her eyes were stuck on Octavia and watching the girl cry because of her.
"Last I checked it shouldn't be me you're worried about Clarke." Raven watched both of her friends jaws drop at her words and Lexa stiffen next to her before she turned and headed back to stand by Echo with her back to everyone.
"Fuck this" Raven heard from behind her knowing Octavia had just took off from the bar and wasn't coming back.
Raven sat up in her bed after playing it all back in her mind again for like the 20th time. What did she even mean by it all besides the fact that she wanted to start a fight. She wanted to piss people off because she was hurting. She wanted people to feel her pain because she was actually afraid her words were true about Octavia ripping her heart out. Standing up to walk to the bathroom she punched the door a few times till she could her hand burn. Why was she so fucking stupid. Knowing that tomorrow was there first day back on campus she wasn't sure she could even put a foot in front of her friends yet.
*One week later*
Octavia stood near the gym with a couple of her friends off the soccer team. They were all laughing talking about how they were going to be dying having to run again. It had been almost a week since the fight between all of them at the bar and usually she never sees any of her friends in passing and she had been thankful for that. Turning around she spotted the dance team walking out of the gym before them and of course the first person she sees is Echo talking and laughing with some girl she didn't recognize. Turning back around she didn't want or have time for a confrontation on campus grounds. She didn't even know where Raven had went that night. Lexa said that she brought Raven back to her place but since Echo has obviously been there who knows what it actually meant or what could've been happening all week. She also hadn't spoke to Raven since that night on top of the fact that she told Clarke to not talk about her she didn't want to know anything at all.
"Heyyyy." Octavia heard Echo all but shout at the top her lungs causing her to turn around for the sake of it and she spotted Raven walking out of one of the locker rooms in the hallway. It looked like maybe she had hit the campus gym which wasn't usual. Biting her lip she watched Raven look up causing her to catch eyes with the brunette. Once again holding back her tears she turned her back on both of them not even wanting to see the interaction between them. She couldn't and refused to acknowledge it or Raven still.
"Let's go kick some ass." Octavia wiped at her eyes feeling one of her friends tap her on the butt as a cue to get her ass running. Taking a deep breath she threw herself pretty much into the game and on the field. It was only a practice game between the girls but Octavia played like she was trying to win. She felt her muscles burn and the sweat drip down her back.
"Calm down there Blake." She heard one of her team mates laugh as she sprinted pushing herself with some quick footwork she turned using her power to slam the ball past her own teammate playing goalie.
"Geez you keep playing like that and we might be heading to the championship this year." Octavia laughed grabbing some water before bending over and heaving after trying to swallow it. She could feel the sickness in her stomach from seeing Raven today and from pushing herself. Raising her hand to her coach she stepped off the field laying down on the bleachers closing her eyes for a minute. She needed the world to stop spinning and to catch her breath.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Octavia jumped before recognizing the voice to be her best friend.
"Not really." Octavia peaked up looking at Clarke who was smiling down at her.
"You don't have a choice O." Clarke pushed her leg off the bleacher causing her to almost fall on her ass.
"Ughhhh." Octavia pushed herself up watching her teammates run the field.
"Talk." Clarke nudged her shoulder this time.
"I seen Raven today." Octavia spit out feeling her body shiver just saying her name.
"Maybe you should talk to her." Clarke bit her lip knowing the answer but she had spoken to Raven and no they weren't on perfect terms but still she hated seeing her friends like this.
"How about not." Octavia rolled her eyes hearing Clarke say it again for probably the 100th time in a few days.
"O you guys have to talk eventually. I spoke to her and…" Octavia cut Clarke off by putting her hand over the blondes mouth.
"I said I do not want to talk about her." Octavia watched Clarke's eyes go dark like she was pissed off.
"Well you are not going to have a choice Octavia because were all coming to your game tomorrow. Just a fair warning." Clarke stood up and walked away feeling her best friend glare at her from behind.
"Fucking great." Octavia threw her hands over her eyes laying back down on the bench.
Raven had barely seen Octavia since that night. Usually walking down the hall she never had to duck the girl or hide so she wasn't killed because they didn't have any of the same classes but walking out of the locker room today seeing her made Raven's heart stop. Watching the girls eyes gloss over as she scanned from herself to Echo and back almost made her sick. Yes Echo and her and been around each other but not purposely. They had a few classes in the same wing but nothing overly special and she had tried to make it a point that they didn't hang out alone again because of what happened. She admitted to herself that Echo was sideways and twisted but she hadn't cut off all communication for Clarke's purpose even if no one knew it. She had spoken with Clarke and apologized for everything and even Clarke had said sorry back even though there wasn't really a good reason. Clarke had told her Octavia didn't want to see her and she couldn't blame the brunette for that but she wished that she could just explain herself at the least. She knew they both had their faults in the argument and the whole day but it still killed her seeing the hurt in the girls eyes. It haunted her at night.
"You going tomorrow?" Raven snapped out of her thinking hearing Echo.
"What?" Raven turned to look at the girl who she was currently not paying attention too.
"The first soccer game are you going tomorrow?" Echo knew Raven was thinking about Octavia since she spotted her in the hallway.
"Yeah Clarke asked me to join her and Lexa." Raven watched Echo roll her eyes.
"Oh yay for blondie." Echo shut her mouth knowing she was never going to get anywhere with Raven if she bad talked Clarke.
"Let's not." it was Raven's turn to roll her eyes hearing the disgust in Echo's voice.
"Sorry." Echo started to walk with Raven. No one knew she was just trying to weasel her way into the group to get back on Lexa's good side. Using Raven wasn't a good or bad thing because the girl was hot but Lexa was who she was meant to be with for the rest of her life. Using Raven to make Lexa jealous had worked in the bar so she thought. So she planned on exploiting it even after her altercation with Clarke. If she could be friendly they might all let there guard down but in the mean time Raven was a great distraction.
"Are you going to be there tomorrow?" Raven watched Echo like she was thinking over something or even planning something.
"Yes we will be dancing at halftime, maybe you can come say hi to the team with me" Echo smiled at Raven thinking about maybe tomorrow could be just another step into the circle.
"Will see how things go." Raven smiled before stopping at her next class hugging the girl and watching her walk away.
"You know you're still wrong right." Raven turned to see Clarke coming down the hallway from the field glaring at her.
"I have my reasons." Raven stopped knowing she was going to be late to class any minute.
"Sure whatever you say Raven." Clarke stopped trying to give her friend a partial smile even though just seeing Echo anywhere near her friends made her want to punch the girl again.
"Clarke please." Raven didn't want to argue about it again.
"You know she seen you two right." Clarke was slightly pissed because she thought that Raven and Echo weren't hanging out anymore.
"Yeah I noticed that." Raven tried to push the hurt face Octavia had given her out of her mind.
"Start thinking with your heart Raven before you lose something that is actually good for you." Clarke started to walk away from her.
"You know this isn't all my fault right, she won't even talk to me." Raven snapped just a little.
"Ohhh you're right Raven it isn't all your fault but you are the only one fucking with the enemy. Actually you are the only one who has left their apartment and went out. You are the only one who has smiled at another girl maybe even several of them. Actually you are the only one who doesn't seemed to be suffering out of the situation, so please next time save your attitude." Clarke rolled her eyes at her friend before walking away thinking about how oblivious the girl was regarding Octavia's feelings for her.
Octavia walked out of the locker room in a pair of basketball shorts and a tank top. Her gym bag was thrown over her shoulder causing her to be off balance as she tried to run a towel through her hair. It was dripping wet from her shower after soccer practice. It was her last class of the day but she didn't want to make the walk home being completely sweaty or soaked. Stopping flip her hair over rubbing the towel over it one more time before pulling it up she felt her gym bag get lifted off her shoulder causing her tumble a little twisting her head to the side recognizing the shoes she knew immediately Raven was standing next to her. She felt her heart jump into her throat as she quickly tired her hair up and standing again trying not to be as stiff as she felt. She didn't speak a word just looked at the brunette who was looking back at her. Octavia almost thought her eyes looked sad like she was missing something. They weren't as bright as what she remembered them being. Not really wanting to talk she reached for her bag that was currently in Raven's hand watching the brunette step backwards.
"Really?" Octavia spit out without thinking.
"Can we talk?" Raven tried her hardest to not smirk at Octavia rolling her eyes.
"I'm not in the mood." Octavia reached for her bag again only to have Raven step back one more time.
"Raven seriously." Octavia could see the humor in the brunette's eyes and it pissed her off even more.
"If you don't want to talk can we at least walk." Raven gestured forward putting Octavia's gym bag on her shoulder.
"Maybe I don't want to do that either." Octavia stomped her foot seeing Raven start to walk forward without her but not leaving her bag.
Raven felt Octavia stomp after her till they were walking slightly side by side with Octavia just a few steps ahead of her. She knew the girls schedule and they both were done with classes today. She never expected to see her or talk to her but she happened to be walking by seeing Octavia struggle with her bag so she took it as an opportunity to see if they could talk.
"How have you been?" Raven knew it was a stupid question but she needed to start somewhere. Watching Octavia throw her a look over her shoulder pretty much told her there wasn't going to be any talking on this walk.
"I've been okay. You know class and working out as usual. I even added a track and field class to my schedule." Raven walked watching Octavia soak in the information but she still didn't talk.
"I talk to Lexa and Clarke a few times. Things seem to be doing okay for them right now even after everything." Raven kept her eyes on Octavia seeing her shrug a little.
Octavia had been listening to Raven talk about the last couple of days that they had not spoken. It had been about a week that felt like a year. She didn't acknowledge anything the girl said and she made sure to hide her smile when Raven cracked a joke or said something funny. It hurt not being able to talk back but she really had nothing to say to her at the moment. Seeing as they were already through the courtyard and at the street entrance she knew this is where they usually split off because there apartments were in the opposite directions. Walking across the street she stopped holding her arm out for her gym bag. She watched Raven hide a small smirk and walk past her in the direction of her apartment.
"You don't live this way." Octavia watched her stop in her tracks to her actually speaking.
"I'm enjoying the weather." Raven said still walking slowly towards Octavia's apartment.
Octavia mumbled under her breath looking at Raven from behind. She wanted to run and jump on her back so they both would fall laughing on the ground as usual. Everything in her body told her to just give in and talk to the girl but her pain of her words wouldn't let her. It was like an internal struggle between her heart and mind. Stomping back up next to Raven again they walked in silence.
"I'm going to be at the game tomorrow." Raven started talking again once Octavia was next to her. She smiled at the brunette kicking a rock keeping it in front of her perfectly like a soccer ball.
"I am sure you plan on handing them there ass on the field." Raven was trying her hardest to get the girl to bite at anything.
"If you need some help I am sure a certain blonde we know can help out." Raven watched Octavia crack a smile at that comment. It was regarding to that night when Clarke punched Echo. She felt like maybe it was a step in the right direction. They were getting closer to Octavia's apartment so Raven slowed her pace a little more knowing that the brunette felt it but she didn't complain.
"I have two weeks to make a decision on if I want to take that class outside of the city." Raven watched Octavia stop for a second slightly turning towards her before continuing to walk.
"I would be gone for a couple of months if I say yes to it." Raven watched Octavia slip again and she wondered if she would finally speak but she didn't. Hitting her stairs she gestured for Octavia to walk first as she followed. Watching Octavia slip her key into the first lock unlocking it she watched the girl put a key into the lock above it. It was new and made her question things even more.
"What is that for?" Raven couldn't help but ask.
"Don't worry about it." Octavia turned holding out her hand for her bag watching Raven eye the lock and then search her face for anything. She stared right back at her feeling the surge of emotions in her body with them being so close and just looking at each other. She watched Raven step closer to her almost as close as she could get before placing the strap in her hand but not letting go yet. She felt her eyes go wide watching Raven glance down at her lips. She needed to get away now she needed to step back and shut the door but her body was froze feeling the desire radiate off both of them.
"Octavia." Raven's hands were itching to reach up and touch the girl. She hadn't let the bag go yet knowing if she did Octavia was going to slam the door in her face. She wanted to kiss her so bad and they were so close she could smell Octavia's shampoo from her recent shower and she almost closed her eyes taking it in.
"Raven let go." Octavia couldn't say anything else she just had to demand the statement.
"Octavia can I come in?" Raven blurted out before even thinking about it. She knew she was going to get rejected but for some reason she just needed to hear the tone of her rejection to see if they still had a chance.
"Uhh ummm…" Octavia was confused by the question. It was the last thing she expected Raven to ask her and for some reason she couldn't find it in herself to just shut it down.
"It's okay don't answer that." Raven smiled just being happy that Octavia didn't say no. Reaching up tucking a piece of her hair behind her ear she watched the girl slightly closer her eyes to the touch.
'Thank you for the conversation." Octavia snapped opened her eyes feeling the loss of contact. She seen Raven smirk just a little before letting go of the bag turning to walk away. Standing in the doorway she wanted to say something but she didn't know what to say. She just wanted to see Raven turn around once more just for a second.
"You're welcome." Octavia spoke quietly watching Raven freeze. She seen the girl glance over her shoulder and with that being enough she smiled turning to close her door. She leaned back up against it cover her eyes with her hands. She gave in just a little. She let Raven get a little to close a little too soon. Hearing that the brunette could be gone for a couple of months almost made her want to run back out the door and hug her but she was still pissed and she was hurt and she couldn't unhear the words Raven used on her. She did know now that Clarke was right they eventually needed to sit down and talk.
Raven made her way back to her apartment. The sun was just starting to set she wished that she got to sit and watch it with Octavia but she knew it was too soon. They both were hurt and still in that grey area of what they had. She was curious about the second lock though. No one had mentioned it to her about anything in the last week. If something had happened or if it was for safety she figured at least Clarke would have mentioned it. It sucked being on the outside a little. She knew why but even then she figured someone would have said something if it involved Octavia getting hurt. Walking up her steps she figured she would reach out to Clarke and see the blonde had to say about it.
Raven: Hey Clarke so I got a question for you.
Raven opened her door shutting it behind her she walked to her refrigerator to grab a beer hearing her phone beep
Clarke: What's up?
Raven: I walked Octavia home today. What is with the second lock on her door, you never mentioned it?
Raven sat down on her couch wondering if Clarke hadn't said something for a reason or if Octavia said not too but what could be the reasoning behind it.
Clarke: Wait you walked Octavia home today? How the hell did that happen?
Raven rolled her eyes knowing that was coming before the answer to the actual question.
Raven: Let's just say I didn't give her much of a choice and she didn't really talk to me but I talked to her the whole way and she didn't run away so I guess that is a little improvement towards us being friends again. Now to the real question what is with the lock?
Clarke: Wow Raven I am shocked you stepped up and took the first step. I guess I do need to yell at you more often. The lock is because of what Lexa has been following and with Octavia being home alone lately she needed that security measure for her own mind.
Raven: What is Lexa following. Why have I not heard about this?
Clarke: Well Raven you kind of went on a 48 hour bender when we were figuring everything out. Not much I can change about you being drunk and stupid. Lexa was informed of some more things regarding that creeper guy and the car. I can fill you in tomorrow on the details.
Raven sat her beer bottle down thinking about the two days she spent drunk off her ass trying to kill the words and look in Octavia's eyes from her mind. Just thinking about it now hearing Octavia yell at her about them fighting doesn't mean she should run to another girl. It was when she was suppose to be running back to her so they could talk it out and that's how couples work and stay together. Octavia had admitted to being insecure and yet Raven didn't hear it or see it. Raven wasn't sure if that is exactly what she did but she knew getting into the car with Echo was going to bite her in the ass and it did the second Echo blurted it out purposely in the bar. Tapping the counter she shoved her phone back in her pocket grabbing her keys she decided to walk back to Octavia's. Hoping it wasn't a bad idea she had to at least try.
Knock Knock….
Octavia sat on her couch watching Netflix with ice cream. Hearing the knock at her door she jumped a little she checked the time not sure who it would be she got up ninja style heading to the peak hole on the door. She had been paranoid lately being alone due to Lexa telling her about the guy following them around. He had been spotted more than once near Clarke's building and hers. Lexa had been staying with her since then and Octavia added the lock because she just needed knowing she was safe. Looking outside she saw Raven standing at her door. She sighed not wanting to fight with the girl anymore.
"What do you want." Octavia leaned her forehead against the door knowing Raven could hear her on the other side.
"Please just give me one minute and if you want to slam the door in my face I'll let you do it. I will even do it for you." Raven pleaded just wanting her to open the door for a second. Hearing the locks click she watched the door crack open with Octavia leaning on it. It took her breath away seeing the girl in a pair of sweats and one of her t shirts she wasn't sure how the brunette ended up with it but it made her heart skip a beat thinking of her wearing it at night.
"What Raven?" Octavia watched the girl take a deep breathe like she was preparing herself for something.
"Can I help you with this?" Raven reached up tapping the lock not sure if that was even going to make sense.
"What, my lock works just fine." Octavia wanted to shut the door but she could tell Raven wasn't done talking and she was confused.
"No ughhh how do I say this…. " Raven started to tap her hand on the frame of the door.
"Raven focus." Octavia snapped at her realizing she was actually talking to her rather than shutting her out.
"Security. The lock that is what it's for right? Can you just let me be that for you tonight. No strings attached I will even sleep on the couch but just one night let me do something for you." Raven rambled it all out at once.
Octavia was shocked. With Raven knowing just a tiny bit of why the lock was there meant she had asked Clarke or Lexa. She hated admitting she was a little afraid even if the creepy guy had never approached any of them. She was always independent and strong but once Lexa had told her the car was parked outside her apartment several times she just needed it along with the mace she bought. Lincoln had offered to come stay with her for awhile if it helped her but she shot down the offer just wanting to be by herself. She wanted to go back to it just being her and that's all she needed to worry about at the moment.
"What" Octavia wasn't sure what to say. She wanted to swing the door open and let Raven in because getting a full night of sleep sounded amazing but even with her emotions saying she wanted to be alone she knew all it would take was one touch and her and Raven would end up in bed together.
"Please we don't even have to talk Octavia. I just want to be here for you." Raven took the risk and stepped forward with them almost flush in the doorway she watched the brunette look over her face staring her down like a challenge. Like she wasn't going to say yes unless Raven just did it anyways. Stepping forward even closer now she watched Octavia tip back onto her heels but still gripping the door shut.
"One night and this isn't for me it's for you." Octavia walked away from the door heading into her apartment hearing Raven shut the door and lock both locks. She took her seat back on the couch wrapped in a blanket to eat her ice cream. Glancing over her shoulder she watched Raven take her shoes off and then her jacket dropping her keys in her usual spot. It made Octavia blink back her tears because it was so normal but it wasn't. Feeling her walk around the couch she took a deep breath in wondering why the hell she just let the girl into her apartment.
Raven walked over to the opposite side of the couch and sat on the ground leaning against it. She didn't dare sit on the couch she wanted to leave Octavia as comfortable as possible since the impossible just happened and she was sitting in the brunette's apartment watching her eat ice cream out of the container. She smiled looking down hoping Octavia didn't see her because she was adorable all wrapped up with her hair a mess watching Scandal and gasping the new or crazy things that happened on the show.
"You can stop staring." Octavia had felt Raven's eyes on her for over the past 30 minutes of them sitting in silence and it was making her blood boil wanting the girl to touch her.
"Sorry." Raven realized she was caught taking her eyes off the girl she looked down at her hands. She decided to look around the apartment noticing almost everything was based around the couch like that is where she had been sleeping lately making her wonder if it was because of what Lexa had said or if it was because sleeping in the bed alone was hard enough.
Octavia watched Raven check out her apartment making her own judgments on what she had been doing the last week. Knowing she hadn't been in her bed because sleeping in any bed alone was too hard for her. Deciding tonight would be night one she stood up heading towards the kitchen to put her ice cream away. She opened the closet door near her hallway and walked back towards Raven tossing the blanket at her as a signal to that she was most definitely sleeping on the couch and no where near her bed.
"Thank you." Raven had been watching Octavia walk around the whole time but trying to make it not noticeable.
'You're welcome." Octavia turned around heading into her bedroom she shut the door. It was pitch black in her room and she hated it already. Wanting to be able to sleep a little bit she figured it wouldn't hurt pulling her door open and leaving it half way open she walked over to her bed stripping herself of her clothes and climbing in looking out the door to the TV light where she could see Raven moving around to get comfortable on the couch.
"Sweet dreams." Raven had watched Octavia open the door back up leaving it half way open like she didn't want to sleep alone but not with her as well. She would take anything she could get at the moment. Grabbing the blanket she adjusted so she could see into the bedroom watching Octavia lay down curling into a ball.
Octavia had heard Raven say sweet dreams. Thinking it over she closed her eyes repeating it knowing at least for one night she could sleep. Finally let herself drift off knowing Raven was in the other room watching over her and it was the first time she felt better in a week.
A/N Okay so can you really deny true feelings? I guess that is where these two are at. They knew what they had before they obviously let their past get in the way which happens to most of us. The question is can they fix it and is Octavia letting Raven back in to quickly. It Raven looking to get Octavia back to quickly. Are they both running off desire rather then addressing the issues. Who knows but there is going to be a little fluff coming but another hiccup just comes along with it. Please review and thank you to everyone who is still reading Voss Inc and this story. I appreciate it. xoxoxo