(I apologise in advance)

A long day shift left me beat, groggily making my way home. As I entered the apartment I saw Bella sitting on the couch, reading. She smiled as I enter and I gave a wave, smiling at our awkward greeting.

"How was work?" She asked me, I smiled at the seemingly domestic question. A normal greeting for others yet for us seemed so strange considering the circumstances of Bella's stay.

"Usual. Ben asleep?" It wasn't unusual for Ben to be asleep before 7, I didn't know how he did it though. She nodded simply, I made my way over to check what I had in the kitchen.

"Would you like me to make us some dinner?"

"I would love that Edward," I started on one of my favourite dishes to make, risotto. The dish takes forever to make but was one of my favourite western dishes. Esme spoilt us with amazing Thai and Indian food so now I crave it all of the time. The spices and different flavours in some of the asian cuisines can never be replicated in western style food. Stirring the risotto was calming, therapeutic almost. "Seth called," Bella stated, my heart leaped. I never told her, I don't know what held me back but I never did. I stayed silent, not sure of what to say. What might escalate the situation rather than help it. "Why didn't you tell me?" Silence. The stirring risotto filled the room. "Edward, answer me,"

"I don't know. I didn't know what to tell you," I admitted turning to face her, she wasn't angry her eyes were soft.

"Edward, Paul harassed my son and you didn't care to mention it," I looked down, casting my eyes away from her guilting eyes. She was right of course. "He said something didn't he? Something that bothered you,"

"He told me to leave you two alone, and accused me of having sex with you. In front of Ben," I was getting angry now, what Paul insinuated despite him knowing nothing. The nerve of the man.

"Edward, he is trying to get at you. You are letting him win by getting angry. All that matters is what we know, not what others think," She told me softly, I wondered how she stayed so calm. What these men have done to her, what Jacob did to her and his friends turned a blind eye to, it was unforgivable. It made my blood boil and my hands clutch the pot until my fingers went white but I took a deep breath and let it go. I concentrated on cooking for awhile, Bella had gone silent. The risotto began looking good and the vegetables were cooking on the side. I heard Bella walk up behind, she passed me to grab some plates and cutlery. The feeling of her so close nearly made me shudder. I plated the dishes then, also grabbing a bottle of wine for us. Bella and I sat down together, silent but comfortable.

"Ben seems to like you," She said quietly, I was glad that he did. "This is fantastic food,"

"I learned from the best," I said referencing Esme, Bella was stunning. Even though she wasn't dressed up or wearing make-up she was still beautiful. I could tell she's put on weight, good weight since she's come here. She looked healthier which made her look even better. "You look good Bella," She blushed then, thanking me quietly.

"Thank you for everything you've done for me,"

"It was my pleasure," The lack of talking spread then, I knew it was one of the best time to ask something like this. "There's no pressure or anything but I was wondering if you wanted to go on a real date one day," She stopped chewing and I thought that maybe I fucked up. "You really don't have to but I do like you and I think you are so stunning," My phone rang then, I knew it was something to do with work. I had a bad feeling when I saw the ID was of the ICU. Elisabeth. I had just picked up when someone started speaking.

"Dr Cullen, I was told by the parents of the patient that I should call you,"

"What's wrong?" I said frantically. "Is it Elisabeth?"

"Yes, Elisabeth's body has until now had fine response but her vital's have quickly declined, I've been told to ask you if you were going to come in,"

"I'll be there, tell the parents that I'm coming," I grabbed a few of my things, telling Bella that it was an emergency. I ran out to my car, it was drizzling at this point and it was cold but I had no jacket. I raced through the street, nearly running some red lights. When I got there, the hospital was quiet with only the usual night staff working. The ICU was busy per usual and I quickly found Elisabeth's parents. "What's happening?" The mother was sitting, her face straight but obviously upset.

"They aren't sure, she suddenly felt very sick over a few hours, they think an infection have hit her lungs. She isn't conscious anymore," The father's voice was dead, I could tell that we did not have good odds here. The head nurse was coming over.

"We've done some rushed blood tests but we aren't sure what's causing her decreasing vitals, she's on and off consciousness,"

"What's it looking like?" The father asked the nurse, she face after that question told it all.

"We don't think she'll pull through, her body is dramatically declining," The mother began crying then. There was a sudden noise and then raised voices and the nurse ran back over to where Elisabeth was. I couldn't see much with all the nurses but I saw her body seizing. Everything slowed down for me, I saw all the nurse frantically trying to help her, but then everything stopped. I knew her heart had stopped. I could see them trying to restart her heart, I could see it all and so did her parents. The nurse looked over at us then, through the glass we saw her shake her head. The parents broke down, I stood there shocked. I didn't know how long I stood there before I collapsed onto one of the chairs.

I didn't know I was crying until the father called me. I looked up at his sullen face before he told me he was taking his wife home. I nodded not really saying anything, he thanked me for caring. How was life fair? To allow a teenager like her to die, she was destined for greatness and even in the short time I knew her I could tell. I was way over my head, I never should've allowed myself to get this attached. I must've sat there for a long time before I heard my name called by a familiar voice. Looking up I saw Carlisle, I must've looked bad because he came over.

"Oh son," Putting a hand over my shoulder it was like I was a kid again. "The nurse called me," He said as an explanation, this was so embarrassing I was a seasoned doctor and here I was crying.

"I'm sorry," Was all I could say to my father, he nodded pushing me to stand up. We headed towards where I presumed his car was parked because my car was parked out front. He drove me home, the dark streets sobered me up. "What am I going to do?" He let me finish knowing me too well. "I just bawled like a child in front of other staff, they are going to think I'm incapable of working,"

"You'll be allowed a week or two off to get together again," His tone was blunt, he was disappointed. "I'm not angry Edward,"

"You're disappointed," I stated for him, he sighed.

"No, I'm not. You are allowed to be upset, but I made these same mistakes when I was your age, getting too close to patients. I get it but you need to control it before it destroys you. Trust me Edward," We'd arrived at my house at this point, the light was still on meaning Bella must've waited up.

"Thanks dad,"

I woke up before reading the text about having two weeks off from work. Reminding me of the night therefore regaining my shitty attitude. Rolling out of bed I headed to take a shower, passing by the mirror I realised how bad I look with red eyes from crying. I'd talked to Bella when I got home telling her what happened to Elisabeth. Bella was upset as well but not as badly as I was. Once I was changed I headed out to grab some breakfast before remembering that I needed to pick up my car from the hospital. Bella was in the kitchen making coffee already.

"Want some tea?" She asked me, I just nodded in response to her. She started heating some water as the coffee machine brewed her usual coffee. "Feeling any better?"

"Not really," I didn't really want to talk about it anymore. "Are you working today?"

"Yeah, I need to drop Ben off at daycare before. What are you doing?" She asked me politely.

"I need to go pick up the car at the hospital, is Alice going to pick you up?"

"She is in about half an hour," She passed me my tea and we drank our drinks together. I didn't feel good at all, this sadness was just sitting in my heart. How many kids have I seen die at this point, how much death did I surround myself with?

"I think I'm going to walk to get my car, might be nice to take a walk," She gave me this worried look, I knew she was worried how I was taking Elisabeth's death but I wasn't going to lie and say I was okay because I don't think I am. I left then heading towards the hospital. I hadn't talked to Carlisle since last night and I didn't really know what to say. 'I'm sorry for embarrassing you?' I mean it wouldn't reflect well on me or my dad, I wasn't a new doctor but I was on the younger side they might think I'm not stable enough to deal with my patients. I cared about my patients and that's what made me a good doctor but it didn't work in my favour sometimes. It hit me harder because Elisabeth seemed to have known that she was headed towards her own demise, she was aware of how serious surgery was for her condition. Children like Daisy, their childhood was stolen for them and some of them will never grow to adults but they were as aware of the possibility of death and what it meant for those around them.

I'd arrived at the hospital, the sky still bright. I didn't really want to see anyone this morning so I quickly headed to my car but I had horrible timing. Walking out of the doors of the hospital were Elisabeth's parents, her father holding a box of what I presumed were his daughter's stuff.

"Dr. Cullen how are you?" He asked me politely, I didn't really know what to say.

"You can call me Edward, I'm not working today," He smiled at me before putting out his hand for me to shake it.

"I'm really thankful for all you did for my daughter,"

"Oh I don't think I did too much, she was a lovely girl," This was so awkward for me, I had no idea what to say.

"She talked about you when she called us, she always talked about how you were one of the better paediatrics and how well you treated her. She hated being treated like a child and you never did that to her. She was really thankful for that, you made her feel like she had control again," He told me, it was weird hearing that she talked about me to her parents, almost flattering how good she made me sound. "We are holding a memorial for her next week back in San Fran, I would love if you could make it," I thought about it for a second and maybe it would be good to get away from here and the hospital.

"I would love to," Both of the parents smiled at me.

"We will email you the details," He said finally before they head to their car. I thought about what kind of memorial you would hold a girl like Elisabeth but I guess I would find out wouldn't I?

I'd been sitting around moping, doing some paper work for the hospital that I never finished. I decided to go and meet Bella, as well as Alice, at the shop. I drove over there expecting to find the girls but instead I only saw a messy mop of blond hair. The bell on the door ran as I entered and his brown eyes snapped up. "Nice to see you Edward," He greeted me quietly, his calm nature always shone through.

"How are you?" I asked him as I looked around the shop, Alice did do a really good job with everything around here.

"I'm okay, your sister constantly keeps me busy," He joked softly, I always wondered how he could stand my sister. "You are upset about the girl aren't you?" I knew he had a sixth sense somehow he always seemed to know things.

"She was a great kid," I commented back, Jasper's eyes softened at my voice.

"I'm sure she was,"

"She told me that all the nurses were crushing on me, and that they thought I was gay," I smiled at the memory of my first meeting with the girl. Jasper didn't say much after that about Elisabeth, just pleasantries about sports and the weather.

"They should be back soon, they went to pick up some photos they took for the frames," Jasper finally told me. I waited around looking at all the clothes already put out before hearing the bell of the door ring. Bella walked in holding what I guessed were the photos Jasper was talking about.

"We need to put these in the frames," Alice called from the car outside, I helped popped open some frames as Bella aligned the photos straight. I did catch a glimpse of some of the photos, a couple of Bella and Jasper but a few more of no one I had really seem before. I helped Alice hang them up and when we took a step back I was quite impressed.

"They look really great Alice," I was particularly interested in the shots of Bella, not that I was bias or anything but I thought she looked amazing in the photos. In one of the shots she was dressed in a crop top and jeans, the other she was in a tight dress. She really was gorgeous, at least to me. "Bella are you going to head off now to pick up Ben?" Alice then mentioned looking at the time.

"I'll see you later Alice!" Bella called as we walked out together. We headed towards where the daycare is, the traffic was getting quite bad at this point.

"I need to go to San Fran next week for Elisabeth's memorial," I paused then thinking about how I was going to say this. "I was wondering if you could come with me?" I said slowly and unsure. Bella thought about it for a couple seconds, silence making me nervous for her reply.

"I'll need to think about where Ben can go," She said simply and I was sure if that was a yes or not. "Maybe Alice can look after him, it'll only be a few days," She thought aloud, I was really grateful she even considered coming with me.

"Thank you, I don't know if I can go alone," I admitted quietly to her and I could see her looking sadly at me. We spotted Ben just on the inside of the daycare and Bella ran in to get him. He was smiling widely and looked like he had a great time. "How was your day Ben?"

"It was great, I met this kid Tyler and we are friends now!"