This one will be in Maya's POV because I'm sick of all those pronouns and debating when to say "Maya" or when to say "she". Sorry for late update. I blame school...and my ADD. DON'T HATE ME!
The police came and put Cam on a stretcher and he was taken to the hospital. I'm not really sure why, but Zig stayed by me the whole time.
In another world, I choose Zig.
In this world, I choose Cam.
Sure, Cam isn't stable or together. I can see through that just as much as I can see through Tristan, my best friend, being gay.
Now Zig is together and perfect in every way. I do want to be with him in a way. It's easy with him. I never have to worry about anything.
Most of the time, I have to talk Cam into stuff. Were that kind of couple.
Well, we were that kind of couple.
I have to be with Cam, one day. We'll wait for each other. He'll get better and we'll be together forever.
Forever is a loose word, though.
For now, I'm all Zig's. Not forever though. I'll be Cam's eventually. While I wait for him to...heal...I'll just hang out with Zig.
As far as Tori's 'feelings' for Cam, I don't give a care in what she wants or who she likes. She's fake. She's a liar. I can never forgive her.
They took Cam to Toronto Mental Hospital. He'll be taken to school and picked up. Therapy session on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
They say he can't do hockey until he gets himself together.
Which could take months. Three months at the most, they say. This year is almost over. When I'm a sophmore and he's a junior, he'll be together. In the NHL.
Parties every night.
Hooking up with girls every night.
Wow, I'm talking myself into everything being a bad idea.
Three months. In three months, Cam and I will be a perfect couple.
He'll be in the NHL and I'll be in some band program. I hope.
"Maya. Maya. Maya!"
I snap out of it and look up at Zig.
"Hey. Sorry." I say and we walk outside.
"Zig. You want me to be happy, right?" I ask.
"Of course. Always."
"Well, I choose Cam. Happy?" I say.
"No. The question is are you happy?" Zig asks me.
"No, I'm not. I love you. I love Cam." I say.
"So, choose Cam."
"But I choose you."
"Maya. At this point, I don't care who you choose."
"Really? Last night, you should have seen the way you lit up when I said I chose you."
"Just make up your mind! I'm getting really annoyed."
"Of course you are. I just need to wait. So do you. Patience is the key." I say.
I drift off again. Kat's calling my name. "Mommy. Mommy! Where's daddy? Where's daddy?"
"I don't know where he is." I say.
"Who?" Zig asks me.
"Um. Look, Zig. I gotta go. Well, you have to go." I say.
"Maya. I love you. Just know that." he says as I push him out.
"I know!" I shout and slam the door. I need to talk to Katie.
"Maya. It doesn't make any sense."
"It's true, Katie! You have to believe me!"
"Prove it." Katie says.
"Kat! Katrina! My daughter!" I shout. I see Katrina at the door.
Katie gasps and hugs me.
"I believe you! I see her!"
I cry into her shoulder and escape from the hug.
"Cam's in a mental hospital."
"Go visit him."
"I can't. Not until I know he's at least improved by a cinch."
"Do you love him?" Katie asks.
"Yes. But at the same time, my past with Zig... I just have to hold on to."
"You remember that Seven Up commercial?"
"Yes."
"Beyoncé said 'Embrace your past, but live for now.' So do that."
"I remember. But I thought it was a Sprite commercial."
Katie laughs.
"I'm always there for you, Maya. Never forget that."
"I never will." I say and hug my big sister again.
After about two weeks, I decide to go and visit Cam.
I go to the desk.
"Can I visit Cam?" I ask.
"Mr. Saunders isn't accepting any visitors right now." the desk lady Mary says.
"You don't understand. I'm his girlfriend. We... please." I beg.
"No, ma'am."
"Please."
"He'll hurt you."
"Oh, believe me, I'm already emotionally hurt. Physically, won't change a thing!"
"I'm going to have to ask you to leave, ma'am."
"No, please. Please?" I say.
"No."
"I may have to call security."
"I have been through a hell of a rollercoaster, miss! You will let me in the fucking room or I will let my fist hit you in your fucking face! I may be small, but, oh, you just try."
"Ma'am, I.."
"No! Did you hear a word I just said? Let me in!"
"Fine. Scream if you have any problems. He's not very stable."
I walk in Cam's room. "Cam?"
He looks up at me.
"You? You? You?! You!" he says, very upset about something.
"Yes, me. Hey, so, how is it in here?" I ask.
Cam throws a glass cup. I duck down so it doesn't hit me.
"Cam?"
"Maya! Get out! You put me in here!" he shouts. My eyes water up.
"No! I'm helping you!"
"I don't want visitors! Mary should have told you that!"
"She did. I didn't listen."
"Get out."
"No. Cam. Listen to me."
"Why should I? You chose Zig."
"No. I didn't. I don't know. I love you and I love Zig. It's complicated."
"Until you make up your mind, I'm not talking to you."
"Cam."
He throws a vase this time and I forget to duck.
"Get out!" He screams.
I touch my bloody forehead.
"Okay. Bye. Forever?"
He doesn't answer.
I walk out.
The glass in my forehead hurts, but thinking about the pain helps me forget about my crazy dilemma.
It feels... good.
Don't hate me, please. I'm SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO sorry for this late update.
A lame return by me. Oh well. Sorry.
I have another story I'm doing and one that's upcoming. I'll update every weekend and possible Wednesdays. When June's over, I'll update every single day, well, most days!
Who's watching grad thing on Fri-Fri.. or TOMORROW?
I have to beg my mom. I'm not allowed to watch Degrassi. Which is exactly how I came across FF. Long story...
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