I updated. I wrote this... and then my laptop didn't save so I had to write it again. & the Graduation had me in tears! Especially Fimogen ending and Eclare starting back up. So deep! LOL.
And, there will be more twists and turns guys!
He called my name and I waited patiently for him to even look up at me. The way he said my name made me tingle. I smiled huge, even though I didn't show.
The way he kissed me made me just want him. More than I wanted the other one. My patience was running out.
He'll be the father of my children. The man I love and marry.
He'll be the one that's there for me when no one else is. When I'm old and wrinkly, he'll be right next to me. We'll be with each other forever.
Even after five, ten, fifteen, twenty years.
We will still be together, no matter what.
The other one might hate me forever.
I could fall in love with the hockey player.. or the one who shares my passion: Music.
But my decision is final.
I closed my notebook and looked down at my hand, which was cramping from writing.
I waited forever it seemed like. Just for the potential choice of who to pick to come.
Finally, I made my decision. The one I choose is the one I wrote about.
I go to bed that night, preparing for my next visit with Cam. That should go... well.
The thing about tonight is... I'm cold and lonely.
I realized it doesn't matter if I have a stable Cam or an already stable Zig.
It matters who loves me. Who has this whole time, and who will forever, like I wrote in my journal.
Zig.
You must think I'm crazy. Zig?
Why him?
I'll tell you why.
I want what I can't have; Cam.
I need what I can have... but don't really want; Zig.
Sometimes decisions are made that just shouldn't be made.
Regardless of that, I choose Zig. I think Zig is the right one for me.
Only Cam can change that decision.
But he said it himself.
He hates me.
My sweet, yet my sour.
My cold, yet my bitter.
My emptying, yet my filling.
My wrong, yet my right.
My everything, yet my nothing.
My sweet dream, yet my biggest nightmare.
My bright sun, yet my dark sky.
My reason to live, yet my reason to die.
My reason to smile, yet my reason to cry.
My reason to love, yet my reason to hate.
My heaven and angel, yet the hell I'm living.
My Campbell Saunders, my bittersweet everything.
Sorry about the stupid lame update. I suck, I know... But I hope I get some reviews?
To Camaya Shippers: FEAR NOT! CAMAYA IS ALIVE, IT'S JUST... IN THE HOSPITAL IN SERIOUS CONDITION?
To Mig or Zaya or whatever shippers: YOU'RE IN LUCK 4 THE NEXT COUPLE CHAPTERS!
This just needed to happen for the plot's sake and so readers didn't forget the story.
Next Update: Friday! Expect it around 7 or 8- ish.