Hey, I decided to do Shout- Outs for the last few chapters.

OneDirection2013; I don't know how to respond to that. There will be more, though, like you always request!

VolleyballChicks101; ;P. Is it that obvious?

fiftyshadesofkay; I love ur username... and it'll be a mystery... Cam? Zig? IDK. Seriously... I do not know who I'm gonna make her end up with.

Amelia Wilde: Well THANK YOU very much.

It's dark outside. I'm in the hospital. As my eyes blink open, the first face I see is Katie's.

"Hey, kiddo. Mom and Dad think they should take you to a mental hospital." Katie whispers.

"Get out of here." I say, coldly.

"But what do you want to do? Go home? Or get out of here?" Katie asks, as if I didn't just say anything.

"I want you out of my face." I snap.

"Maya." Katie says, and touches my knee.

"Get out of my face." I repeat.

Katie nods and walks out the room.

I don't mean to be this way. I was all up for dying. It's all fair. Zig wouldn't have to worry about me. Cam wouldn't have to worry about me. But I'm alive. I shouldn't run Zig all around saying I choose him and then saying I choose him and then saying I choose Cam. I shouldn't force Cam to act like he's fine. He's not.

When I open the window, I sit on the edge for a while. Deciding what I'm going to do. Jump off?

I'm three stories high. It's definite death.

Zig walks in.

"Maya." he says.

I gasp and my shock causes me to fall.

Zig's hand is there to save me and pull me back in. He shakes his head at the choice I was about to make.

"I want you. And only you." I say.

"You choose me? You've said that like twenty times. Then you said you wanted Cam."

"I don't want you to hate me, too. Cam already does and when he gets better, he deserves somebody." I begin.

"If he gets better." Zig corrects me. Though, I don't need to be corrected.

"That somebody won't be me. Why, you may ask. I'll already have a somebody. The wait is over." I tell him.

"I'm disappointed in you, Maya. You realize you threw your life away just to go back to Cam?!" Zig shouts.

"Yes, Zig. I don't mind starting over. All the same joys and pleasures. All over again. The best part is... I'm with you." I admit.

"I'm not with you." Zig says.

"Whatever. Can you... take me to your place?" I ask.

"Why?" Zig asks.

"I hate my life."

Zig walks out of the room and talks to my parents. Whatever he tells them, it works and I go home with him. When I get in his room, it's fairly messy.

I take off my shirt and pants, curling up in his bed. As I drift off to sleep, I'm awoken by Zig saying my name.

"Maya." he whispers. He's next to me. In bed. Why?

"Yes?" I whisper.

"Why'd you make that wish?" he asks.

"I don't know. I regret it... but I'm happy I did it."

"What did I do? What was so wrong with your life that you had to go back?"

"I didn't have Cam. That's what was wrong."

"What about me?"

"What about you? You were irrelevant to the decision. I wasn't thinking and... " I start to say.

"You weren't thinking. It was stupid and selfish."

"Yes, it was. It was stupid and selfish. But... Cam's the guy I... think I love. I don't know what you are."

"I know what I am. The guy you never loved at all."

"Don't say that. I did love and I still love you. I'm just confused."

"Confused about what, Maya? You had everything. All your dreams came true."

"Except one. Campbell Saunders is like my life. There's not a day that ever went by that I didn't think about Cam."

"Your wedding day?"

I suddenly have a flashback.

I look in the mirror at my dress. It's pink. I wanted a glitzy wedding. Tori sort of convinced me glitz was fabulous. I was only 20 and the next year I had Jaxon. I decided to be a jazz teacher in a college and play at nightclubs on weekends.

I did have everything.

Katie and Tori told me I looked lovely.

"Cam would love it." Tori says.

"I bet he would. Pink was his favorite color... on me. He said it brought out my eyes." I say.

"He was damn right. Let's get this wedding started, shall we?" Katie agrees.

"Can I have a minute alone?" I ask.

"One minute." Tori says as she walks out with Katie.

I look at a picture of Cam I have.

"So, Cam. I want you to know that... no matter what I still love you. I always will. I want to know why you left me like that. If I could go back in time to you, I would. But I can't and Zig is my second choice. But you'll always be my number one, hockey player. I love you. I'd cry right now, but my mascara would run and I don't have time to fix my... my.." I'm cut off by my tears.

Tori and Katie come in.

"Time's up." Katie says. Tori sees my face and hugs me.

Katie kneels next to me.

"You okay?"

"I'm fine. It's just... I'm letting go of Cam. Completely."

"Not completely. You'll always have him and he'll always be there." Tori says.

"No, he won't. He... he's gone. He's dead. It's all Zig's fault anyway." I say and wipe away my tears.

"Um... at the vigil... you said it was no one's fault." Tori corrects me.

"Seven years ago. Let's just call the wedding off." I suggest.

Zig walks in.

"I know I'm not supposed to see you yet, but... what's taking so long?" he asks. I turn my face so he doesn't see my tears.

"Get out!" Tori shouts.

"Just what I want. To see my ex at my wedding." Zig comments and walks off.

Tori and Katie help me fix my make-up.

I look at the picture of Cam in my sweaty hand.

"I'm doing this, Campbell Saunders. It's happening." I say and fold the picture in fours. I stuff it in my strapless bra. "But walking down the aisle.. you'll be with me. For good luck." I add.

When my dad is walking me down the aisle, I think of Cam a little. But I'm also jittery.

I don't hear a question about marriage or anything. I hear Cam's voice, asking, "Maya, do you love me?"

And I say, "I do."

Because I do. And I always will.

Zig looks at me.

"That's why? I can never live up to those expectations you have."

"What expectations? My expectations are that you have to love me and treat me right."

"Oh, and I never did that?" Zig says, sarcastically.

"You did... Zig." I whisper, but I realize I almost said Cam.

I see Cam laying next to me. Kissing me. Stripping me.

I see Cam showing his love and affection towards me.

I snap out of another one of my Cam visions, face to face with Zig. And when Zig enters me, I don't mind it. Technically, we've done it before.

But the thought of Campbell Saunders still races through my mind.

The thought of his laugh, his smile, his voice.

I missed my visit with him.

But it doesn't matter, right? Because I made my decision. Zig.

I'm just not sure it was the right decision.

No, Maya, it wasn't. Come on, guys, let's be honest. Most of the Degrassi fans are Camaya shippers. BUT, that doesn't mean there won't be Movak, which is my pairing name for Maya & Zig. Oh, stupid me, giving spoilers... What'd you guys think of this chapter? Good, Bad, Okay, Horrible? Awesome, Suckish, Alright, Horrendous?

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