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And on with the story…

What happened last time…

I ran out of the hall crying, bumping into three tall figures on the out.

"Tonksie! What's wrong?" Sirius.

"Are you ok?" James.

"Dora, what happened?" Remus.

It got too much, too many voices repeating the same thing, I kept running.

Great way to start the first day back.

I think I found the room James was talking about, I didn't realise it at first but then I saw the door appear as if it knew all I wanted was an escape. I walked into a room filled with a massive bed, a couch, a few full bookshelves and a record player. Perfect. I lay down on the bed and continued crying. I had always been soft and insecure and I hated it. I thought people would like my hair but they clearly didn't. I fell asleep a little while later not really caring much about lessons.

I woke up with a jolt. I had had a horrid dream where everyone at Hogwarts hated me and that Remus said he never wanted to speak to me again and calling me a coward. I hated these types of dreams. I had been having them since I turned 7, always waking up from a horrible nightmare about something I might have done wrong. I hated all of it.

It turned out it was only 12pm, which meant I had time to go eat lunch, but I quickly changed my hair colour to mousy brown, my actual hair colour. I headed off to lunch when I saw Lily walking on her own in the distance, I ran up to her so I could walk with her.

"Hey Tonks. What was with the disappearance?"

"Oh, nothing, I just couldn't be bothered going into class today." I lied right to her face. Wow, that was low even for me.

"Urgh, I get that feeling all the time, like I forgot to do Professor Slughorn's potion essay and all I wanted to do was stay in bed and read, but I knew I couldn't so –" I wasn't really listening at that point, I was just looking for James, Remus and Sirius, but they weren't in here, maybe outside?

"Sorry Lily, I have to go." I said, completely cutting her off.

I ran outside to the court yard to see James, Sirius, Peter and Remus sitting in a tight circle. I wanted to find out what they were talking about so I snuck around to go behind a tree, but me being me, I had to go and trip over something, like my own feet.

"Tonks, is that you?" Remus asked.

"Hah, um yeah, I guess." I replied.

James, Sirius and Peter had walked over by then and were helping me up.

"What was wrong back then?" Asked James.

"Nothing, nothing, just me being stupid, like always." I added the last part in an undertone.

"Tonksie, if anything is wrong, you can tell us, you do know that, right?" Sirius said.

"Yeah, I guess."

"Ok, let's all go build a snowman while the snow is still here!"

We went and built six snowmen/women. We all did ourselves, and of course James had to add 'Lily' next to him. I t was fun while it lasted. Then when I went to afternoon classes, all the sadness came back. I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe I'm just weird.

The bullying and whispers continued after three months and the Easter holidays were coming up. The time went both quickly and slowly. Us first years of course didn't have as much to do as the seventh years but it still seemed like a lot to do at the time, because of this most of the first years, as well as the rest of Hogwarts, chose to stay over the Easter holiday. It meant that I won't see my mum and dad but it meant I would keep on top of my work. James, Remus and Sirius could have and wanted to go home, but after I told them I was staying, they decided against their original plans, I was grateful, but it meant more opportunities to see me cry, and I hated the fact that I seemed weak around them. I had realised a few weeks back that I have matured since the time I had been here at Hogwarts.

Today was an interesting day, I had double potions first up, then defence against the dark arts next, then transfiguration, then double charms. All my favourite subjects in one day. Maybe I would be happier today.

"Look, Tonks, I think you're depressed." Remus said straight out at lunch.

"WHAT?"

"You're depressed, I can sense it, you aren't eating as much and you don't have your normal fire that you usually have."

"Tonksie, is this true?"

"I think, I mean ever since that time when I ran at you crying, all people say about me is that I'm a diva who thinks she owns the place and that every time I walk past, people pretend that they have frost bite, and it just gets to me." By the time I finished telling the boys this, I was crying and trying to catch my breath between sobs.

"Hey, hey, shh, it's ok Dora." Remus had pulled me into a hug and was trying to soothe me, and I just melted at his touch.

"We love you Tonks, who gives what those people think, you only have to care what you think about yourself." James said. "It's just that they are jealous because you are so confident and perky that they wish they could be you!"

"Yeah, they are all just massive gits for calling you those names and if I ever see them, they will wish they kept their traps shut." Sirius promised.

"Thanks so much guys, I love you too!" The boys joined in with the hug.

"Hey look, your hair is turning bright yellow!" Peter said while just kind of standing awkwardly to one side.

"Well, that is the colour of happiness!" Remus added

Oh my, I am just having such a fun time writing this; it seems as if the words just pour out of my body like, rainbow jelly. I don't know, I'm weird.

I will be posting a bit more as I'm in a creative mood this week, so please give your feedback, like do you want longer chapters or more lovey action with our precious Tonksie and Remus?

I love you all!

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