A/N: Happy Columbus day to all of us in the US! Hope everyone enjoyed their day off of school! So here's chapter 18 and I'm sorry it will be short. Thanks for reviewing! WARNING: Some language.

AUTUMN POV

We just laid there in silence, both lost in out own thoughts, until we were both asleep.

The next morning I woke up and noticed I was sore. I blushed thinking of last night then rolled over to look at Adrian. He was fast asleep so I laid on my back and thought about last night.

Adrian had been so sweet and gentle but I couldn't help but feel like it wasn't right to do that. After a few minutes a terrible thought came upon me- mating season.

That's what Chloe had said when she forbid Adrian to sleep in my room. Then I realized I was fooling myself all along. Adrian didn't really love me he just needed a good fuck to relieve his sexual frustration and I was the only female.

I should've known. I was pretty but not nearly as pretty as Chloe or any of the other girls in the house. Tori is dating James so that her out and Liz and Simon seemed to be getting close.

Then Chloe is Derek's mate and Adrian would never be stupid enough to take another werewolf's mate. That's it. Adrian was only using me to bide his time until one of the other girls broke up with their boyfriends.

Then he would comfort them and dump me faster than I could say don't go. What guy wouldn't? Pretty older women who were nice to him every day surrounded him.

Why would he choose me over them? He wouldn't. With that though I got up and got dressed. Another terrible thought came upon me. What if I was pregnant? I wasn't ready to be a mom.

Sure I loved kids but I'm only 17! I have my whole life ahead of me. Plus if the kid looked like Adrian then every day I would be reminded of my loss. I started crying softly then headed downstairs.

It was early so no one was up yet. I grabbed the blanket off the back of the couch and cried myself back to sleep. What seemed like a few minutes later I felt myself being shaken awake.

I sat up and blinked bringing Derek into focus. He was saying something to me but I couldn't make out what it was. I cleared the sleep haze from my mind and asked him to repeat himself.

"I said are you alright?" he asked me. That just set me off for some reason. A new round of tears started. No I wasn't all right. I was practically just let Adrian rape me last night and now I might be pregnant.

"Should I get Chloe?" Derek asked ackwardly and I nodded. Chloe came down the stairs a few minutes later, saw my rumpled state and immediately rushed over to hold me in her arms.

She held me while I cried and didn't say anything. She just stroked my hair and whispered soothing words. After a few minutes I sat back, done crying. "You wanna talk about it?" Chloe asked softly.

With anyone else I would've said no but this was Chloe and she was like a mother to me so I nodded yes. "I slept with Adrian last night. But it was a mistake. A huge mistake.

He only wants me to relieve his sexual frustration until he can find someone better. I practically let another man rape again!" I told her, wiping at the tears falling from my eyes as I remembered my rape.

"Again?" Chloe asked softly, not wanting to push to far. I told her all about that horrible night then started sobbing again. Once I calmed down a little she told me she knew how I felt.

"I was almost raped twice. I know what you must be going through I'm sorry you had to go through that sweetie." "Twice?" I asked her shocked. "Yeah. Same guy as yours. Liam.

We were on the run and Derek and I got separated since he was changing and I stayed to help him. Liam and Ramon caught up with us and Liam tried to rape me before Derek killed him." She told me.

"I'm glad he's dead." I said and she nodded. "And the second time?" I asked her. "We had just settled down here in this safe house after being on the run for a year.

Kit decided to take us to Florida on vacation. Simon made friends with this guy named Chris. Chris immediately liked me. He liked the challenge since Derek was so protective of me.

One day he took us all on this boat that would bring us to his house where we would all stay with him for a few days. I didn't want to go but Tori guilt tripped me into it.

So we went on the boat even though there was a hurricane passing through. Chris arranged it so he would take us to this deserted island his parents occasionally used claiming the waters were to bad to travel.

Simon was setting his stuff in the other cabin and Tori was taking a shower in the outdoor shower. I was in Derek and I's bedroom and Chris asked Derek to go out back and get firewood.

When Derek left Chris knocked on my bedroom door I said come in thinking it was Simon or Tori. Next thing I knew I was being pinned up against the wall with Chris trying to stick his tongue down my throat.

I called for Derek through our bond and he came in and threw Chris across the room, knocking him unconscious. Simon and Tori dragged him back to his next day Jess killed him.

We found out Jess was hired to kill murderers, rapist and all those kinds of people. She had been tracking Chris for a while and now came to finish the job." She told me.

"Wow so were you scared?" I asked her. "I was beyond scared. I knew Derek was right outside but I still didn't know if he'd make it in time." She said.

After a few minutes of processing that I spoke. "I just feel so worthless. I can't believe I let him do that to me. And now because of my stupid mistake I may be pregnant." I told her bitterly.

"You and Adrian are mates right?" Chloe asked me. "That's what he told me but I don't think I believe him." I said. "Well if you are mated pairs can't get pregnant until they both agree to it. It's a weird mate thing." She said.

"Oh well that's good at least. I couldn't handle having a kid, let alone if they looked like Adrian." I told her. "If Adrian told you you were his mate he must mean it. Are you sure he doesn't love you sweetie?" Chloe asked me.

"There's no doubt in my mind." I told her bitterly. "Why don't you talk to him about all this? I'm sure he really does love you." She tried to persuade. "NO he doesn't. I was just a toy and now I'm worthless." I said.

She could see I needed to wrok this out on my own so she didn't say anything else. She just held me and stroked my hair soothingly while I finished crying.

Sorry it's short but I wanted to get that out there and I didn't have much time to write. Thank you to my anonymous reviewer thiswillhelp for giving me this idea and my girlie autumncs98 for reviewing 3 times! Love ya girlie! So REVIEW please and tell me what you thought of this chapter. Thanks guys!