Robin's face changed immediately, changing from utter despair to beaming with happiness, and Henry left Esme's side and went to his mother, kissing her head and hugging her tightly. Esme was delighted to see the two of them so happy, and she was excited to see Regina was awake, but she was also nervous in some sense; she hadn't spoken to Robin properly since he woke up, not really, and now that Regina was awake, it seemed a little overwhelming. Nevertheless, she was excited to see Regina awake and talking, and she was delighted that it was, at the very least, one less thing for Robin and Henry to worry about.
"Regina? Regina, how.. how are you?" Robin said, holding her face in his hands and kissing her.
"Well she can't exactly answer if you keep.. ya know… kissing her," Henry said, looking quite disgusted which both Esme and Regina found funny as they both let out a little giggle. Robin, however, did not find it funny and was still worried so when Regina laughed, Robin was concerned that it was a noise of pain as opposed to joy; everyone could see the concern etched into his face;
"I…I'm okay…" Regina said, holding both Henry and Robins hand and talking slowly and quietly. Esme sat at the end of the bed and watched as Regina gazed at two of her boys and couldn't help but feel like she was intruding. She didn't want to seem pessimistic, or make any of them feel like they shouldn't be happy, but she also couldn't help the fact that she just felt uncomfortable. She knew how she was supposed to feel but she just didn't; instead of being happy and excited, she was nervous and worried. She really hoped that one day, Regina would look at her the way she looked at Henry - Esme understood that the woman had built a lot of walls and it would take a while to break them down - but that wasn't going to be today, not when she had so much to catch up on with Robin and Henry and Esme didn't want to take that chance away from her. She and Robin had to mourn the death of a son, she and Henry had 7 weeks of life to catch up on and Esme just didn't really factor into that.
"Ummm… how about I go and get Roland?" Esme said, standing up slowly and using the end of the bed to steady herself. She hated this woozy, nauseous feeling. It was the thing that stopped her practicing her visions back in Messene; she needed to remain strong incase an opportunity to escape came up and this wooziness did not go hand in hand with that.
"No!" Regina said, much more emphatic than Esme thought she was even capable of being, under the circumstances. Esme stopped walking and looked at Regina, who's gaze was now firmly on her, before walking back to her original spot and sitting down at the bottom of Regina's bed. Regina stretched out her hand and Esme looked at for a second before taking it. Robin watched with pride and joy that his two girls were together again, the way they should have been from the beginning. He saw the joy in Regina's face but also saw that she felt the same way he did; worried. Worried Esme wouldn't understand what had happened, and how could she? She was magic, so he knew she understood that it was a spell that did this to them but could she forgive them? She had grown up in a war land because her parents had sent her through a portal, so could she really believe that any sort of magic could rip apart the bond nature created between parents and their baby? Robin hoped that she could, but he saw that she was struggling right now as she held Regina's hand and he new that the bond they felt with her was not reciprocated and that it would take time for her to grow to love them both. Robin knew by the way Regina was looking at their little girl, her eyes glistening, that she somehow realised this too, and although it must have devastated her, it just meant it would take longer than they wanted to hug her, or hold her, or teach her everything that they wanted to.
"Umm why don't you two go home and get some rest?" Robin said, running his fingers through his hair in a bid to make himself feel less exhausted. He watched as Esme immediately got up and went straight to Henry and, although he wanted to feel happy that she was so close to her brother, he was devastated slightly. He knew she was trying to take all of this in her stride, and he understood this wasn't an easy situation for her, but he wanted her to need them as much as they needed her and right now, she just didn't. Henry noticed Esme's haste to leave and took her hand, a gesture Regina noticed and smiled at even though her heart was broken at the sight of her daughter desperate to leave. Regina didn't blame her, not at all, but this wasn't how she wanted their reunion to go. Henry kissed Regina and told her how much she loved her before hugging Robin and walking towards the door. Esme hugged Robin quite comfortably but hugging Regina felt more awkward. Esme had always had a bond with Robin so being affectionate with him didn't feel awkward but with Regina, it felt like hugging a distant relative at a wedding; you knew you were supposed to because they were family but you didn't necessarily know them well enough to really love them. They had always had a mutual respect for one another and Esme undoubtedly enjoy Regina's company, but their interactions were usually work related and Esme always felt that she was a means to an end; Regina was training Esme so that she could compel Zelena and that was really where their interactions end. Nevertheless, hug Regina she did and both Esme and Henry left, hand in hand as brother and sister.
Robin watched them leave while Regina slowly broke down as the door closed and his heart broke so all he would so was lie on the bed beside her and hold her as she cried.
"Regina, it's okay-" Robin began but she gripped his arm and wailed.
"She hates me! My own daughter hates me" Regina exclaimed between gasps for air.
"Hate y- She doesn't hate you!" Robin said, exasperated at what she felt. "She just doesn't know yo - us!"
"She… she hugged you. She hugged you and she couldn't hug me," Regina said, clearly struggling following their awkward encounter with their daughter.
"It's just going to take time, my love. But we have it and we will make this right again, okay? I promise," Robin said, holding Regina's face in his, imploring her to see the candour in his eyes. Although this seemed to ease her pain slightly, she lay with her head on his chest and gripped his sleeve, as if she was worried he was going to leave.
"How are you feeling?" she asked Robin, looking for any sign of pain in his face.
"I'm fine, my darling. I'm absolutely fine, don't worry," he said as he kissed the top of her head. This gesture, however, caused Regina to wince; something she tried to hide but failed. Robin looked at her, concerned, and realised what a fool he had been. Yes, of course the memory loss and emotional pain of their past would take a great deal of time to heal, but in the process of worrying about this emotional pain, he forgot about the physical pain she was in; she had battled with her sister and Emma and almost died and that would take more than 7 weeks to heal.
"You are my concern. How are you?" Robin asked.
"I'm fine, don't worry," Regina soothed, keeping her head on his chest and running her hand across his cheek.
"For a minute back then, i thought you were dea-"
"I know. But i'm fine. We are fine," she said, and kissed him, softly and gently on his smooth, dry lips. Robin sighed, then smiled and settled himself into the bed with the love of his life and remarkably felt content.
"What are we gonna do? About Esme?" Regina asked after a few moments silence.
"Honestly? I don't know. But what i do know is that we will deal with this together, the way it should always have been," Robin said with intent and a tinge of anger behind every word. He knew that Regina was hurting, and he completely understood why, but he felt angry. Angry that someone had not only taken away the love of his life, but their daughter. Angry that someone had taken away them seeing their little girl walk for the first time, talk for the first time, protect her, love her, teach her. Regina was an amazing mother, and had already lost a son, and Robin was furious that he not only failed to protect her from losing another child but also that he couldn't remember the person that put her through yet more heartache.
"Hmmmm," Regina sighed, quite content in the arms of Robin.
Robin laughed slightly. "What was that for?" he asked, running his hand through her hair, stroking her face.
"Just thinking."
"About what?"
"How different our lives would have been without this curse. How different her life would have been."
"Regina-"
"No, I know. There was nothing we could do, blah, blah, blah but just think about it. We could be married, maybe have more kids, you wouldn't have met Zelena and we-"
"I know, my darling, believe me I know. But we wouldn't have our amazing boys, we maybe wouldn't be as strong as we are now-"
"Strong?" Regina said with a slight laugh. "Robin we fall at every hurdle we come to!"
Robin was slightly offended and he didn't hide it very well. Although he understood why she felt the way she did, he had always thought that Regina understood why he left, why everthing happened with Marion or, at the very least, that she forgave him, but clearly she didn't. Hurt though he was, he realised that if she didn't already understand, he needed to make her see how he felt.
"Fall? Regina we overcome every hurdle. Look at where we are now! We have overcome everything that's been thrown at us and we are together, and that is exactly the way it is going to stay. Okay? I will never, ever leave you again, I swear," Robin promised, holding her face in his hands and imploring her to look at him.
"Good, because i need you Robin, okay?" Regina said, placing her hands over his, wishing he never had to let go.
"No my love, you don't. Look at what you achieved when i was in New York. You are a saviour, without me, Regina. I'm simply an idiot without you."
"You're not an idiot-"
"We are in this situation because of me, my love. So you see, you do not need me. It is I that needs you," he said, and kissed the top of her head again, gently this time so that he didn't hurt her any further.
"I'm a saviour because of you Robin," she began, shutting down Robins attempt to refute her claim. "Without your faith in me, i would have lost my son and remained that villain that i was. You reminded me how to love Robin, and it's that love that makes me this 'saviour' you're talking about. If you were to leave-"
"I won't. Regina i swear to you, i will never leave you again. I couldn't; I love you far too much," he said and Regina immediately looked at him. The eyes that had once hosted a forlorn, haunted look, were now the home of happiness, even though they were glistening with tears.
"Y-You-"
"I do. I know i haven't shown it lately but i do, with every bone in my body," he promised her as she held his hand tightly, and Robin grinned as a smile slowly spread across her face.
"I.." Regina began but she stopped even though Robin continued looking at her, hoping to hear the words he desperately wanted to hear. He held her face in his hands and continued to gaze into the eyes he loved and remained in silence.
"I… I love you too, Robin" Regina said, so quickly Robin almost couldn't make it out. But he did, and he smiled as he heard the words flow through the mouth he was so desperate to kiss.
"You do?" Robin said, smiling.
"I do," Regina said, but before she could continue, Robin's lips met hers. His hands were holding her and his lips felt soft and moist against hers and, in that moment, she was happy. She returned his gentle kisses gladly.
