Ahsoka is making coffee and pancakes when she hears that Anakin Skywalker is dead. She thinks for what feels like the millionth time how she doesn't understand how Anakin, the greatest of all the Jedi, could now be dead. It doesn't make any sense.
In fact it is perfectly nonsensical.
Luck of the draw she wonders, cruel twist of fate?
She remembers how he had once said to her that everything happens for a reason. She doesn't understand the reason behind this; she doubts that few people do.
When she first left the Jedi Order and rented a flat of her own, she would often think that Anakin would be in the kitchen making coffee or blueberry pancakes . She still sometimes thinks that will happen now even though she hasn't seen him for a year and the Holo News proclaims that he is dead.
She thinks how it was not supposed to be this way. She thinks how he was supposed to bring balance to the force.