A/N: Ok so this is a rated M story, I do not feel the need to post a warning for remotely graphic content on every chapter that there will be such. That being said this is the first real intimacy scene, this is my first attempt so please no hate. That being said, I also want an honest opinion! If you don't like it tell me and tell me what to improve on! I love hearing from you all, it seriously makes my day! Love all the reviews and follows thank you all SO much! So like I said, give me a heads up on what you think! i hope you enjoy. Sorry about the little delay I am actually (finally) caught up with what I had written. I will still try to update every other day though. Much love guys! Hope you enjoy and like always stay tuned for more!
The next morning I awoke with a burning warmth on my side. My head on something fleshy and hot. I sat my head up and opened my eyes, and there sound asleep is Kouga. His arms wrapped around me and breathing lightly. I know I can't get up on my own so I decide to wake him up, but I haven't really been around him too many times early in the morning, so I am not entirely sure the best way to wake him.
A mischievous idea pops into my mind as I stretch out my fingers across his chest, he groaned lightly but otherwise no reaction. Ok time to step it up a notch. I take my fingers and start running over the edges of his muscles, between his pecks down to his abs gently tracing their outline. I heard a deeper growl and his breathing hitched slightly as I moved down to his protruding hips. Sliding my fingertips over the V of his hips, I heard another growl of approval, followed by a quiet moan. Glancing down to where I was stroking I saw the fur covering his groin start to rise into a tent. Oh my. I didn't realize it would be that good. But that part of me that wanted to make Kouga squirm wasn't done yet. I noticed I am laying right next to a nipple, and smirk with excitement. I continue stroking the gentle skin above his genitalia as I lower my head and lick his nipple. The reaction is instantaneous! He gasps and thrusts his hips up hard. My hand grazes over his tent and I find myself even more curious. I look up to his face again and notice he is still sleeping, his breathing is shorter and more rigid but he is asleep.
I move my hand down to the base of his fur, seeing his thigh muscles twitch as I gently graze them. Courage Kagome, if you want to make him squirm this is the time. Gulp. I moved my hand up under his fur, until I felt it the short curly hairs at the base of his penis. I shook my head to clear my nervousness and looked back to his face. He is still asleep. I took my chance, I felt forward until I was at the base of his dick. I moved my hand up, making sure not to touch him until I got just above the base so as not to accidentally pull his hair. Do it Kagome. If you are going to do it do it! Don't be a coward!
I grasped at his cock, firmly placing my hand around it. I couldn't close my hand all the way around! Am I doing something wrong? Kouga's reaction was loud and immediate! I very loud moan, and very short hallow breaths but apparently still asleep. Ok, so I had seen a couple of R movies that included a sex scene so I know roughly what to do, but they never actually show the man so I am going by what is implied. Keep going! Don't stop now! I kept my firm grasp and moved my hand up and down making a rhythm with moving my hand, Kouga's breathing coming in pants.
"mmmmmm, Kagome- oh- yes. Mmmmm more." I guess that is a pretty good indicator that I have something right! Awesome! I kept up my pace, stoking his long hard length, with it twitching and bobbing as I move. I decided to try and gauge his reaction to something else. I moved my hand all the way to the end, he is HUGE! It is nearly impossible to judge under the fur but both my hands wouldn't have been able to reach the length of him. My face now focused on Kouga's as I feel the mushroomed head above my fingers. I slid my thumb up and made circular motions over the tip, I felt a liquid and assumed sweat. I continued pumping my hand and each time I came up I would rub the tip with my thumb.
Kouga's breathing coming in gasps and moans, he starts thrusting into my hand. His hips forceful as he keeps moving. I move my mouth down and gently take his nipple into my mouth and nibble it. Kouga's eyes snapped open!
He looked down at me, continuing to pump my hand, raising my mouth from his nipple. Shock and something I can't place evident on his face.
His eyes roll into the back of his head, and he throws himself back onto the furs, moaning loudly.
"kag- ome!" He attempts to look at me again only finds himself moaning again as I pick up the pace. "What- uhhhh-what -you-doing?" A deep growl escapes him again and I find myself grinning! This is better than I could have hopped for! He is completely powerless to what he is feeling! I felt a warmth pooling between my thighs, and an unfamiliar wetness. What in the-? Kouga howled and filled the cave with his pleasured moans. His hand came down with mine and he started stroking as well, I can feel his hand stroking the base where I have the top. Feeling him so lost and seeking to achieve this goal of his made a feeling of pride swell within me. I can make him completely lost to what he feels. His hand that isn't occupied, that my head is laying on came up and gripped my shoulder, tight enough that I couldn't move it.
"-gome!" I heard a very loud gasp as he nearly screamed out my name. His whole body jerked and his hips went up forcefully into my hand and I felt him convulse! I stopped pumping and felt a wetness on my hand as he wilted beneath me. His penis withered in my hand and his breathing slowed but his heart was still racing. He lay there with his eyes closed, a layer of sweat covering his face. He was trying to calm himself. I lay there unmoving, he hadn't moved his hand and I wasn't going to until he did.
After a few minutes he groaned and I felt his hand move, he grasped mine and pulled them both out from under his fur. I felt my cheeks redden as I saw my hand covered in a white liquid that could only have been one thing. Wow, I have never actually seen it before! It looked a bit like milk but thicker since it wasn't running down my hand, and I felt an overcoming urge to examine it more thoroughly. I started to raise my hand, but Kouga's hand still held mine and he stopped me. I glanced up to him and his eyes are still closed, his breathing and heart rate are back to normal why wont he look at me?
I started to get a little scared, had I offended him? Had I done something he didn't want me to? Have I broken some kind of rule? I felt a fear swell within me as I tried backing away from him but his grip is still tight on my shoulder.
"Stop thinking so much." His voice calm and steady. I didn't sense any of the angry alpha I had yesterday. "Did I honestly scare you that much? After this you think I would hurt you?" Gulp.
"I-I-I-mmm -n-n-not s-s-su-r-re." I found myself stuttering and I didn't like it. His eyes opened and he looked at me.
"I would never hurt you Kagome. You have to know this." He released my hand and sat up, he walked over to a pail of water and rinsed off his hands before bringing it to me to do the same. I rinsed them off and shook them dry. He sat there crouched beside the bed while I did so. Once I was done he moved the pail and pounced on me!
He landed on top of me, resting on his forearms which are on either side of my head, his knees gently spreading mine so he can lie between them. We lay there forehead to forehead, neither of us speaking. Just enjoying the scent of one another. He moved his face down and gently touched our lips together but this kiss didn't stay gentle for long. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and pulled him into me, his hands fisting my hair as I moaned out at the new sensation.
The moan seemed to be all the encouragement he needed as he slid his tongue along my lips asking entrance, I quickly opened to him and we battled for dominance once again. I felt a fire burning inside me, that swells as he touches me. This fire consumes me and I feel the heat between my thighs reach a pitch, I needed something but I don't know what. I drug my nails over the skin on his shoulders and felt him thrust his hips against my heat. A loud gasp escaped me that broke the kiss, but only for seconds before he was latched onto them again. He thrust again and I felt a shot of pleasure shoot up my spine at feeling his hardness against me. He was already hard again? I thought there had to be time between? I heard him groan and continue thrusting. He lowered his hand and ran it along my side eliciting a deep grumble from me, that Kouga quickly matched. Groaning out his approval his hand lowered to my hip where I felt him start pulling up my kimono. I can feel the silky smooth material sliding along my legs, moving up so he has access to my bare legs and-
A wave of fear and wrong washed over me, and I moved my hands to his chest firmly placing them and pushing hard. He was pushed off of me, but his lips still in a slightly puckered position. I suppressed a giggle, but felt Kouga growl at the parting. He tried to lower himself back down but I kept my hands firm. His eyes are hazy and I can tell he isn't thinking clearly.
"Kouga!" His eyes close and snap open with startling clarity. He groaned at seeing me laying beneath him in such a compromising position before raising himself up and offering to help me sit up. I graciously accepted his help. Once I am sitting I begin puling down my kimono and readjust myself so that I am covered. He looks me over after and sighs slightly.
"shame." I feel my cheeks heat up.
"I hope that was-" He grinned at me, while I tried to think up what I was trying to say. His grin was different than normal, there was something light and happy about it. Something in his expression was almost innocent, but I couldn't help but be lost in it.
"What made you think of it?" His voice was soft and excited. Excited? Have I done something to excite him? He was anxiously awaiting my reply, that much is evident from his expression. I sighed.
"I woke up and you were beside me." I smiled sheepishly. "It made me feel very-" I tapped my finger on my chin lightly. "special."
"You felt special simply because I was there when you woke up?" His tone was quizzical.
"It is an intimate thing to sleep beside someone the way we did." I was good and embarrassed now. He grabbed my hand and raised it to his lips as he kissed my knuckles.
"Then I will be here when you wake up every morning." He grinned at me over my hand. I blushed bright red again.
"You do know that just because we wake up like that together doesn't mean that that will happen. Right?"
"But there is a chance and for that I will gladly wake up beside you." I laughed at his enthusiasm, apparently that was the right thing to do! I apparently made his morning. I couldn't help a feeling of pride filling me. I satisfied my man completely. My man.
I sat there watching him get his armor fastened back on, the grin seemingly permanently on his face. Once he considered himself ready he walked over to the chair and removed the fur, what he did next had me giggling. He walked around it in circles sniffing it and the ground around it all the while. He finally took a seat in it and rubbed himself around like a cat nuzzling a hand trying to get affection. I giggled loudly and it caught Kouga's attention. He gave me a look, not necessarily of anger but of irritation. I quickly silenced my giggles.
"Sorry, I can't help it. You look ridiculous!" I once again giggled, and this time Kouga chuckled with me. I was so lost in my giggling I hadn't noticed him walking toward me. He reached down and picked me up in his arms. I squealed in surprise and his chest shook with laughter,
"Can't have my lady smelling like another man again." A sprout of worry shot through me before I quashed it. He rid my chair of their scent because he doesn't want to scare me again. "I rid it of their scent, shouldn't be a problem now." He was looking down at me. "And for good measure we will leave my fur on it while you are in it today. That way you will smell like me too and that will calm me." He adjusted the fur and placed me down in the chair. He kissed my forehead and knelt down on his knees in front of me.
"Kagome, we need to talk." Oh no. That is never good. Apparently I looked as scared as I felt, because Kouga sat forward and placed his hands over mine. "Don't worry, nothing bad. Jiki needs to speak with us."
"Oh." I breathed in deeply, keep calm Kagome. "When will she be here?"
"Excuse me?" Speak of the devil and she shall appear! She was just outside the curtain, Kouga gave a quick "enter" and she did.
She bowed deeply before waddling over to us and sat down near us.
"Kagome, glad to see you are up and about." I blushed a little.
"Well with a little help." She nodded in understanding.
"It will come to you." She smiled to Kouga and then back to me. "I will get right to it then." She took a deep breath before continuing. "Kouga says you have accepted to be his mate. Is this true?"
"Yes." A huge smile covered her face, as she leaned forward and placed a hand on Kouga's shoulder.
"This is great news!" Kouga grinned at me. "But there are a few things we need to speak of first." Alright, I had to figure I would have questions right? I took a breath to calm myself before nodding that I am ready.
"What do you know of the mating ritual?"
"I asked a few of the women, and they told me what they knew. I also witnessed Ari and Marik's mating ritual." She nodded.
"Good. But there are a few things I must know before I agree to let you mate." She has to approve it? I had no idea I would have to have Jiki's approval! "Kagome are you-" She seemed hesitant, oh no. "pure?"
"Am I pure, you mean have I ever-"
"yes that is exactly what I mean. Have you ever bedded with a male?" I am pretty sure I am red as a tomato!
"No, I mean yes! I mean-" I am rambling, oh my gosh! Kouga tightened his grip on my hands as he interrupted me.
"Yes she is Jiki. I am the only one she has ever slept with and all we did was sleep." My blush deepens if that is possible. Kouga's face blank as he answers.
"If you mate with Kouga do you understand your responsiblities?"
"I believe so."
"Ok, so to confirm I will name them. You are responsible for calming him, offering him a place to come for comfort, as well as being firm and vigilant by his side, a co-leader to the tribe, to lead in his stead if necessary, and possibly the most important." Her expression lightened from it's firm set. "You must bear him an heir. Kouga is our prince, not just our alpha. Any children you have would be born into the wolf demon royal line. So you must raise them and teach them everything they need to know to be a fair and honest ruler." That was a mate's duty sure, but have it spoken of so lightly was odd to me and made me blush. "You can perform these duties?"
I nodded affirmation and she smiled warmly at me.
"You have my blessing for a mating." She looked to Kouga now. "Alpha mating is typically done at a full moon, do you wish to perform it this full moon or the next?" Kouga's answer was instant and without thought.
"This one. As soon as we can gather the men." Gulp.
"When exactly is the full moon?" I had to know how much longer I am a free woman.
"In about a week and a half." Jiki's answered happily.
Kouga stood and offered a hand out for Jiki to do the same. He lowered his head and kissed my forehead and smiled at me.
"I will send in breakfast. I need to get messengers sent out for the other tribes to attend." He turned to leave.
"Wait! Kouga, would it be possible for me to invite some people?" Jiki and Kouga looked confused as they glanced back and forth.
"Who?" Kouga finally asked.
"My friends, the ones I used to travel with: Sango, Miroku and Shippo?" Kouga looked uneasy, as Jiki turned and left. "Kouga?"
"It's just that not all the tribes have a no human policy as we do." He wouldn't meet my gaze. "They might come off as an easy meal." I found myself suddenly angry.
"Really? But these same people are to be ok with me marrying an alpha? I will be fine but any other humans are fair game? Kouga how could you!" He looked up at me finally and I saw that this really was upsetting him.
"Kagome, I can't- If something was to happen-" My anger continued to grow.
"What you would be embarrassed by your human's friends or her sympathy? What Kouga! What would bother you so much at them being here?!"
"If something happened to them, I would feel horrible but your pain and sorrow would get the better of you. I wouldn't be able to handle my new mate being inconsolable. It would tear me apart." The last sentence was little above a mumble but I still heard it and it washed my anger away completely.
"So I just don't get to see them anymore? Ever?" Tears welled in my eyes and Kouga sighed.
"Please don't cry." He walked forward and wiped a tear from my cheek. He leaned in a placed a quick kiss on my lips. "I will think of something." He turned and left leaving me alone.
The rest of the day I sat in the chair, stretching out my legs and different joints with Ari's help. I was too caught up in the thoughts of this morning, my new responsibilities and my pending mating ritual. Ari tried talking to me but found conversation lacking and gave up. She was making supper, lost in her own thoughts when I finally had something to talk about.
"Ari?" she turned to me with a "hmmm?"
"I have a question, that I think you are about the only one who can answer." She looked at me quizzically.
"Ok, what is it?"
"When you and Marik had your first time." I started blushing as I looked up to her and noticed her blushing as well. "Were you nervous?" She stood there a moment, contemplating.
"Yes, I was terrified. Some of the women told me it would hurt so bad that I would swear it off ever again." She blushed brighter. "But once I had him all I wanted was more. We barely separated for a week." I blushed even brighter but her blush lessened. "I am not ashamed that I love my husband and I love when we are intimate." She smiled. "My advice is just go with it. When it feels right do it, but if you aren't ready yet then tell him. Kouga will understand. Once you do it though, you will probably want him more and more. The mating is a powerful bond."
"Thanks Ari that is enlightening."
Kouga came in for supper and before he ordered Ari away I requested a proper bath. Both hastily agreed. Kouga carried me out to the stream and Ari carried the soap, clean kimono and a drying cloth. Once Kouga sat me down he turned and walked off into the forest around us. Ari helped me undress and slide into the water. I found it is easier for me to sit up on my own, and I could even slide myself into the water. I can put a little bit of weight on my legs but they quickly buckle. Ari didn't speak as she sat there ensuring my safety while bathing. She helped me out once I was finished and even fetched Kouga. He grabbed me and took me back to the den. While walking he dismissed Ari and she left.
Kouga leaned down and inhaled deeply my scent before speaking.
"I had an idea about your friends." I snapped my eyes open and looked out him awaiting explanation. "I don't think it is safe to invite them to the mating, but what if we were to go visit them for a few days afterwards?" I couldn't help the grin that covered my face.
"That sounds perfect! I can show you off to my friends and get a little fresh air out of the cave all at the same time!"
"Show me off?" He is confused, I can see it written all over his face.
"Yeah, introduce you to all of my friends and let them marvel at how amazing of a mate you are." I placed a hand on his chin, and he came down to press a kiss to my lips. When we broke apart I laughed lightly. "Just like that." I smiled and he looked down at me quizzically. "I have never had such a reaction from just a kiss. All I want to do is pull you back down for another." He chuckled.
"Well you are the only woman who will ever know just how great I am. I am a one woman man, and you are that woman."
We made it to the den and he placed me on the bed, and went to remove his armor. I sat there watching in astonishment at the way his muscles moved under his skin. Completely lost in staring at the magnificence of Kouga. He smiled as he looked at me, as he lowered his armor to the floor and flexed a few times.
"I hope you got your eye full?" I smiled mischievously.
"I could never get enough at staring at you. You are stunning and probably the thing I love the most about you though." I paused to add a little suspense and I could see it was pushing him to wait. "What I love the most about you is that you are mine, my man. My wolf."
I felt his chest rumble in approval as he moved to crawl over me. He lay next to me and pulled me into the crook of his arm.
"Yes, Kagome I am all yours. Forever." I sighed in contentment, as I let my eyes drift closed. I heard him yawn, as sleep surrounded me.