When I finally seemed to be out of tears, I buried my face in his shoulder.

"You will be so upset with me." He stopped rubbing my back.

"What for?" His voice was soft but cautious.

"Rajiru." I spit his name out of my mouth like a bad taste and still felt like that wasn't enough.

"What about him?" He had tensed, I felt it but he was trying to hide it.

"He was here." He tensed again and didn't try to hide it. He grabbed my shoulders and pushed me back a little so he could see my face.

"What happened?" His eyes were dark and I felt anger in his tone and aura.

"Can't you smell it?" I am sure it was just my guilty conscience but I could smell it. I could smell him, Rajiru. His scent permeated me and this place.

"The water mist obscures scents in here. What happened?" His voice was firm and steady.

"He-he-he tried to-to-" I couldn't form the words. How could I? How could I tell Kouga the man I love that I- that my body was open and available for another man just hours ago?

"Did he hurt you?"

"Not really-"

"Kagome you have to tell me. What happened?"

"He tried to mate me." He froze. I saw all the light go out of his eyes, his eyes almost changing color to a gray and his breathing lowered to barely there.

"Kouga?" I tried to move my hand to his face but he held them tight. "Kouga please-please I am so sorry." I saw a flicker of light in the back of his eye.

"Sorry?" His voice was dry and barely there. "What did you do?"

"I tried to stop him-" The flash of light was returning to his eyes. The blue I loved flashed brilliantly. "I tried-"

He placed a finger over my lips and I felt myself take a breath in an attempt to steady myself but it came up shaky.

"Kagome he is 3 times your size." He hung his head a little. "I should have sent someone with you."

"Kouga this isn't your fault." He looked utterly defeated and I felt my heart break for him. Why didn't I fight harder to keep Kouga from feeling this way!

"What exactly did he do?" He was trying to look at me but I could tell he was afraid to. "Did he-" He took a breath. "Did he take you? Did he claim you?"

"He said he didn't like unmated women." I whispered. "He touched me-but he didn't enter me with his-his-" Kouga pushed himself forward and claimed my mouth in a deep and heated kiss.

I felt a fire burn within me, that I welcomed. This fire this warmth was what I wanted, this pleasing feeling of Kouga on me. I returned the kiss and went to wrap my arms around his neck when he pulled back.

"You taste like him." He spat to the side and I felt myself become ashamed of myself again.

"Kouga I need to wash him off of me." He looked over to me and smiled.

"That is a good idea." He stood and offered a hand to help me stand but I took it and pulled him down onto me.

He gasped.

"Bathe with me." He groaned.

"I don't know-"

"If I bathe with you I will smell like you and that will be a damper on his attempts." I smiled at him but his eyes showed apprehension. "Or am I wrong?"

"Yes- that should work but-" It didn't take him telling me twice. I wrapped my leg around his torso, eliciting a gasp and a groan from him and flipped us into the water.

He shot back up with a yell, I surfaced moments later and was looking into a very angry pair of blue eyes. I smiled sheepishly as I stepped forward and wrapped my arms around his hips. He took a gasp of air but held completely still. We stood there for a few moments just enjoying in the feel of one another. I steeled myself for what I wanted. I want Kouga, I want Kouga to touch me and make me forget all about that horrible man. I need Kouga for this. I took a deep breath and kissed his shoulder lightly where my head was rested.

"Can't bathe properly with this on." I moved my hands over the clasps of his armor and was satisfied when it sagged with no support I grabbed it off his shoulders and placed it on the rock ledge. I turned back around to him as he was eyeing me curiously. I pulled my soaking wet kimono off of myself and placed it on the rocks. Kouga's eyes instantly darted to the water pouring over the cliff to avoid looking at my bare body. I moved up and grabbed the fur wrapped around his waist. I knew how it attached and where so I found the hook and undid it. There in the rippling water stood Kouga completely nude and a little shy looking. A light blush stained his cheeks as he cautiously gazed over to me. The water was just deep enough to hide my chest below the surface but the crystal clear water revealed all.

I saw his length seem to grow, and harden. Unlike when I saw Rajiru's length I didn't feel afraid I felt nothing but love and admiration. This man was only made in this condition by me. I smiled as I once again wrapped my arms around him, enjoying wholeheartedly the feeling of our bare skin together. I felt a tingle everywhere we touched and I reveled in it. I ran my hands up his back with my palms flat, he arched his back into me as I moved and groaned deeply.

He finally moved to place a hand on my hip. He ran his thumb over my hip bone and I shivered. I took his free hand and placed it on the back of my neck to where he wrapped his fingers in my hair and pulled it so I was looking at him.

I looked up to him, his eyes were dark the beautiful sky blue was more of a midnight blue. I smiled at him but his expression didn't change. His expression wasn't a bad one instead it made the tingle in my belly grow.

He pulled me forward as he crushed his lips down onto mine. The contact was nearly painful but I welcomed it. I pulled Kouga closer to me as he groaned against my lips.

His erection was thick and hard against my stomach. His hands traveled lower and wrapped around my thighs. He lifted my legs and wrapped them around him. He placed his knees behind mine and braced himself against the rock edge. He had us in nearly a sitting position.

When he broke the kiss we were both panting from lack of air. He rested his forehead on mine.

"Kagome-" He shifted his hips and his thick erection rubbed against my womanhood. I bucked my hips against him and my netherlips parted for him. Having his penis touching me so intimately I felt an immense warmth spread through me, I wanted more. He groaned as he thrust slightly but instead of his penis filling me the way I craved it to his length slid along my slit. I gasped at the friction and arched even furthur into him.

"Oh Kagome-" His face buried into my chest, his breathing coming out in ragged pants. "Kagome-" He thrust his hips again. I felt his rigid length drag along the sensitive place that had me bucking my hips again.

I could feel his shaft all along my womanhood making every muscle quiver and shake in delight, but feeling his mushroomed tip slide out from between my butt cheeks made me moan loudly in pleasure.

"Kouga-" His name fell from my lips and I heard him growl against my breast bone. He raised his hands from my hips to grasp my breasts, I groaned as his rough palms slid over my sensitive nipples. "Ah!" He flicked his thumbs over my nipples and I felt them harden instantly.

He buried his face in the crook of my neck and growled against my wet flesh. The tingle of his growl reverberating through me and I felt the fire within my belly grow.

I ached for his touch to cover my body. I pressed myself against his chest, wrapping my arms around his shoulders where I dug in my nails. I felt him stiffen and stop his rolling hips and I had an instant worry that I had hurt him.

His gruff voice sounded against my shoulder.

"Do that again." He thrust his hips up again and I dug my nails into his shoulders again in an expression of the complete and utter pleasure I was feeling. "Yes-Kagome." He groaned my name against me and I felt a sense of feminine pride well within me.

I am making him feel this way, I am making him moan in pleasure. I roll my hips against him as he thrusts upward and the heated friction makes both of us moan.

I bring my hands around and wrap them in his long hair pulling his mouth into a kiss that he quickly deepens. He starts thrusting his hips wildly as his tongue plunges into my mouth. I feel the familiar fire in my belly continuing to grow, the heat seeming to sizzle throughout my nerve endings as I feel as if it is reaching a boiling point. Kouga continues thrusting chanting my name against my throat as I keep moaning and gasping into the night air.

The fire roars within me as I can't contain the pleasure from this fire Kouga is stoking within me. I feel as if the damn holding back the lava that is seeping into my veins breaks as I scream to the moon.

"KOUGA!" He thrusts one more large long thrust before I feel a heat on my back.

The fire races through me as my vision blurs and I hold onto Kouga for dear life. His palms press against my back and he pulls me to lay my head on his shoulder.

His breathing is ragged and uneven as he strokes my back lovingly.

"I'm sorry." His voice barely a whisper against my shoulder. I try to pull back so I can look at him but he holds me still.

"Why are you sorry?" A sudden fear races through me. He regrets this? I forced him into this? I forced him the way Rajiru tried to force me...How could I do that?

"I have wanted you so bad for so long-" He kissed my shoulder. "I couldn't contain myself when I finally saw you. I let the wolf have it's way and I shouldn't have."

"Kouga? You didn't-"

He finally pushes me back from him and I see his eyes down and his expression is anger.

He was mad? I felt anything but mad after that!

"Kouga you didn't do anything wrong."

His gaze rose to me and I saw the red tinges in his eyes.

"This-" He moved his hand between his body and mine. "This is-was meant for our wedding night the night of our mating."

I tried to touch his shoulder to calm him but he pulled away from me and climbed out of the water. I moved to the edge and tried to get my grip but he quickly lowered a hand and helped me up. As soon as I stood up he wrapped his arms around me.

"I know. I know this wasn't wrong. It won't effect the mating in any way-" He buried his nose in my hair. "The wolf wants more-and wont be properly sated until he gets it." He pulled away as he lifted up my dirty kimono since my clean one is soaked.

He watched me with a hungry expression in his eyes as I tied off my kimono.

"I love you Kagome." He smiled hesitantly as he offered up his hand so we can walk back together. I graciously accepted his offer and we took our time walking back to the cave.

"I love you too Kouga." He smiles as he leans in for a kiss. He quickly pecks my cheek and moves in behind the waterfall of our den.

The cave is quiet as we tiptoe to our den and bed. He pulls me down nearly on top of him with a wicked grin.

"I thought you were mad?" I manage to squeak out before I yawn.

"Not mad. Exercising restraint." He grins.

"Now that we are in private-" He thrusts his hip up and grinds his erection into my hips.

I groan as I bury my head in his chest.

"Kouga-"

He pushes me to over beside him as I curl into the crook of his arm and try to absorb his warmth.

"No more tonight. Have to save something for later I suppose." He chuckles.

"Agreed." I try to suppress a yawn and fail.

"Thank you Kagome. I needed a stress reliever." I giggle sleepily.

"Anytime."

He leans his head into me.

"I will never let him touch you again. This I promise you." His voice is nearly a growl and I recognize the difference between my loving Kouga and the possessive wolf Kouga.

"I know."

My eyes close and the day fades into dream.

A/N: Sorry this took so long! I had computer issues! I have it back and going again and am ready to write. I have answers for all your questions and they will be answered in the next few chapters. Mating ceremony in the next chapter I think! YAY! Love you guys and thank you so much for all the kind words, the faves and follows, and of course for your patience! I hope you stay tuned :)