Cuddling - Fem!Phan

AN: This is a little bit of a fic I started writing ages ago but never finished and they sort of cuddle so I decided to use it. You might never see the final finished product so I wanted to at least show you guys a bit of it.

A few months ago on a Saturday night when they were cuddling in bed watching some lame rom-com movie neither of them had really wanted to watch that they'd first even mentioned the thought of adopting a child. They'd talked about it a little before but it was only ever a passing comment like when we have kids or wouldn't that look cute on our baby. They'd never properly discussed when or how they'd have kids.

Phil was the one who had mentioned it actually. They were just lying there, Dan cuddled up against her girlfriend's side when Phil had just plainly said it out of nowhere like they were just talking about something as simple as the weather "What do you think about having a kid soon?"

Dan didn't really know what to say, if that was because she was a little shocked by the suddenness of the topic or the fact she was half asleep she wasn't sure. But it took her a moment to even think of a response "Sure, I mean if you want to"

Phil just smiled, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of Dan's head and looking back towards the screen before saying anything else "I've always wanted to have a kid with you. We're soul mates remember?"

Dan laughed, nudging Phil the best she could from her position. It had been a long running joke since Dan had introduced Phil to her mum that they were soul mates simply because if the fact Dan's mum had only watched them together for maybe five minutes before she blurted out that they were made for each other. So it became their own little joke that whenever they'd get caught up in the moment and say something totally cheesy like you're amazing or that's why I love you, the other would simply smirk and say that's because we're soul mates.

Dan didn't even realise she hadn't answered until Phil moved to allow herself to look into Dan's eyes, or at least be able to see the younger girls face more clearly.

"You want to adopt, right?" Phil asked gently, studying Dan's face for something to tell her if her assumption was right or wrong.

"Yeah" Dan agreed, flashing Phil a brief smile before continuing "Adopting just seems like the right thing to do, you know. I mean, we'll be having a kid together and we'll be giving a kid who will spend their life in care homes otherwise, a chance"

"I can tell you're really into the idea of adopting" Phil said with a smile as she gently moved a strand of hair out of Dan's face "You know you get this little sparkle in your eyes when you talk about something you're really passionate about"

Dan rolled her eyes playfully at Phil, a small smile gracing her lips now as she looked at her girlfriend "That was like something that was straight out of a cheesy romance novel"

"Hey, shut up" Phil laughed "I was trying to be nice. Can I not have a nice serious conversation with you?"

"Not if you use lines like that you can't"

And that's when the silence hit. It wasn't awkward, just comfortable. But they could both tell there was more to be said. Dan wasn't exactly sure what she was supposed to say. After all her original plans to start the adoption papers at twenty one hadn't exactly happened since she's been busy with uni and because of the fact she'd just broken up with her long term girlfriend at the time. So maybe it was time to get it all started. There was no doubt in her mind that she definitely wanted to adopt and she knew that the paper work took a long time to complete and process but she also believed that Phil was the one for her all joking aside.

"Do you want to adopt? Dan suddenly asked, obviously catching Phil off guard as the older girl actually jumped a little.

"It's the easiest option, isn't it?"

"Yeah but…" Dan trailed off, realising what Phil had meant by it's the easiest option. Phil had told Dan when they first got to together that she couldn't have kids. Phil had had a boyfriend who she was only really with to impress her dad and her boyfriend desperately wanted kids and although Phil knew she was gay, she went along with it because she wanted kids just as badly. They tried for about six months before they realised something must be wrong. And sure enough when they went to check it out it was revealed that she was in fact infertile. She tried a few different treatments that the doctors said might work because she was only twenty-two at the time, but sadly nothing worked. Dan knew very well that Phil was still a bit sensitive on the topic and avoided talking about it as much as possible.

Dan stayed silent, trying to think of a way to say she didn't want to actually have a baby without sounding insensitive and hurting Phil's feelings. It was very obvious Phil longed to have a baby more than anything and Dan worried constantly that when this conversation did happen she'd say something wrong and upset Phil. And really of course she didn't want that to happen at all.

Phil eventually broke the silence, a sad smile on her face as she had obviously been thinking about what Dan had not wanted to say.

"If we both want to adopt, then what's stopping us?"

"Nothing, I guess" came Dan's reply, maybe a little too quickly for her own liking but she was nervous. "Are you sure you want this though? I mean it's a big decision"

"I know" Phil said, her mouth twitching upwards into a small smile "But I think we're ready. We both have a secure job with the radio show for at least the next few years and realistically even if that doesn't work out, we'll still have enough money in savings to keep us going if it comes to that"

Dan realised that her girlfriend did in fact have a good point and that they would be okay no matter what happened. So why the hell not? They both wanted to raise a child together and this was their chance so why not go for it?

"Yeah" Dan agreed "If you're sure we're ready for this, then why not?"

Phil's smile widened before she leaned down and kissed Dan firmly on the lips before pulling back slightly and letting a grin take over her face.

"If we both want it, lets go get it"