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Han and Chewbacca sat in the cockpit of the Falcon, it had been a week since his visit with Ben and he'd been thinking about what his son had told him ever since.

Han began to wonder if they really had shut Ben out but how could they done something like that and not realized it?

"Chewy, what do you think? Do you think we excluded Ben from things when he was a kid? I mean I don't understand, did Leia and I work too much or argue too much? He says he feels like all he did in his childhood was train with Luke and got left out while Rey went on trips and came to work with us but tell me honestly Chewy, did we make him train too much?" Han asked and Chewy gawked at him in disbelief.

Chewy promptly replied that he and Leia were too scared that if they didn't get Ben into constant training that he would turn to the dark side just like Darth Vader but by forcing Ben to train non-stop it was almost as if they had expected him to automatically go to the dark side and that because of that Ben had eventually come to believe that in their eyes all he would ever be was evil. Chewy added that Children learn from example and so because he and Leia feared he would go to the dark side which is exactly what happened.

Han couldn't believe this,"Chewy are you saying that Leia and I drove him to the dark side?"

Chewy nodded and said that they may not have done it intentionally but yes he believed that they drove Ben into darkness by making him feel like an outcast in his own family.

Han grimaced, he felt conflicted between the anger he held towards his friend for suggesting that they'd abandoned their own son and the anger he held towards himself because he was almost positive that Chewy was right.

Chewy told him that they may not have realized what they'd done what with their busy lives but that deep down Han knew he was right and that if he truly wanted to bring Ben home for good that he knew what had to be done. That he'd have to swallow his pride and accept his mistake without excuse as Leia already had.

Han nodded,"We really did it, didn't we? We hurt him so badly. Why couldn't we see how much he was hurting? Chewy, what have we done? He went dark side and it's all our fault, I abandoned my son when he needed me most. How could I do that and be so stupid as to not realize it?"

Chewy smacked Han upside the head and told him to quit questioning everything, to just accept it and admit it out loud to Ben.

Han rubbed the spot where Chewy had smacked him,"What now?" he asked.

Chewy gawked at him again and said what translated into,"No, next year. Yes now Laser brain!"

"Hey! Only Leia gets to call me that! Chewy, you know the rules." Han complained and Chewy face-palmed before letting out a roar that said,"Go!"

"Alright, alright I'm going. You don't have to bite my head off Fuzz ball!" Han said before making his way to see Ben.

Ben was talking to his uncle Luke when he sensed his father's incoming visit and took a deep breath to calm himself.

"I'll Leave you to it Ben." Luke said as Han walked into the cell.

"Han." Luke greeted lightly as he knew that Han and his sister were still not speaking terms with him although he couldn't blame them.

"Luke." Han greeted stiffly as his brother in-law exited the cell.

"You shouldn't be so hard on him. He didn't know all along that she was alive, when he told you Jaina- Rey was dead it was because he assumed I'd killed her and believe me I wanted to but as I raised my light saber to kill my baby sister I couldn't do it. I'd hated her and yet I still couldn't do it. Uncle Luke didn't know she was still alive but he's not as stupid as me, he's smart enough to know that you just don't argue with Mom when she's that furiously angry." Ben explained with guilt in his voice.

"Don't say that, you're not stupid Ben. If anyone is stupid it's me. Your mother and I made you feel as if you were a stranger in your own home and I am so sorry. I abandoned you when you needed me most, your mother and I both did but we never meant for that to happen. We feared that if we didn't get your uncle to train you as soon as possible that you'd fall to the dark side just like your grandfather but the irony is that the harder we tried to keep you on the side of the light the darker you became. We were so consumed by the fear that you would become a mirror image of your grandfather that we sent you to live and train constantly with your uncle when if we hadn't been so foolish we would have realized that all we needed to do to keep in the light was to love you and make you feel loved. Instead we let our fears blind us and you suffered for it, there is and never was an excuse for that. I'm so sorry Ben, if I'd had any conscious knowledge of how alone you felt because of our actions I swear to you we would have done whatever it took to show you how much we loved you, how much we still love you. I realize now that we should have been there for you but we weren't and if you never forgive me I wouldn't blame you but I'd rather be hated by my son than lose him permanently to darkness. So I guess that's all I can say, there is no excuse for what I and your mother put you through even if we meant well. I understand if you hate me, I can't say it won't hurt because it will but I understand. Just know that you will always be my son and I will always love you even if you hate me." Han explained sadly.

"Dad, stop. I don't hate you and if I'm honest, I'm not sure I ever truly did to begin with but I spent the first few years of my life feeling loved and then Jaina I mean Rey came along and it just felt as if I didn't matter to you or Mom anymore. I guess over the years that anger and loneliness just built up until I couldn't contain it anymore and... this is the result. I talked to uncle Luke and he's agreed to try and help me pick up where I left off last time I trained with him, it's not going to be easy after all the shit I've caused and I can't promise I'll become a Jedi but if I do you and Mom can rest easy knowing that this time I won't fail you and I'm hoping I'll have your support this time around?" Ben explained and Han was grinning stupidly with joy for his son.

"You know it, Kid. Your mother will be so happy to hear this. We won't let you down this time or ever again, I promise. I love you Ben." Han said absolutely ecstatic.

"Speaking of Mom, is she alright? She hasn't been back to visit me since last time, not that I can blame her after how upset I made her but I'd like to see her if only to apologize at the very least. Can you ask her for me? I'd use the force but she wouldn't get my message unless she were in the cell with me so..." Ben asked.

"I'll ask but I can't promise she'll listen, you know your mother." Han replied and Ben nodded,"Yes I do know my mother which is what worries me. She always takes everything so hard and blames herself too easily for stuff like this."

"What do you mean?" Han asked and Ben bowed his head shamefully.

"Well I think I might have thrown some low blows last time she was here and I wonder if the reason she hasn't come back is because she feels really guilty. I said a lot of horrible things to her that day and ever since then I've noticed she's been feeling a lot of self-loathing, guilt and shame and I believe I'm the reason she's feeling like that. All I know is, I can tell she's really upset. She may not be able to sense me outside of this cell but I can sense her through the force and trust me Dad, Mom is still really really upset. She may not show it but she is, I can feel it. Just promise me you'll try to get her to come see me? If she won't I'll sense it but at least I'll know I tried and so did you." Ben explained and Han nodded.

"I'll do what I can, Kid but for now get some sleep. You look like you haven't slept in days." Han replied and Ben grimaced.

"Yeah well that's probably because I haven't but that's bound to happen when you have a guilty conscience and karma coming back to bite you in the ass but I'll try to get some sleep. If I can't sleep then I usually just hold my breath until I pass out from exhaustion and yes I know that's not very healthy or safe but it beats getting a concussion from bashing my head against the wall." Ben replied and Han gawked at his son.

"Dad, I'm kidding. I don't actually hold my breath to force myself asleep or bash my head against the wall." Ben reassured his father with a snicker.

"Not funny Kid. Now get to bed, it's late." Han ordered gently and Ben saluted him,"Yes sir!" he joked.

"Night Dad and thanks." Ben told him sincerely.

"For what?" Han asked in confusion and Ben genuinely smiled for the first time in years,"Just thanks. Night Dad."

Ben rolled on his side facing the wall and pulled the blanket around his shoulders,"Night Kid, I love ya." Han said quietly before closing and locking the door behind him.

"I love you too Dad." Ben whispered once his father was gone before he drifted into a restless sleep.