Hello everybody, I know it has been ages since I updated the last time. I was writing exams and I just couldn't get around to it. I hope you enjoy this chapter and please review.

Present: Taking Abel home

Jax rolled off of her and lay next to her panting. Lucy sighed and turned around to face him. He smiled at her and pulled her close.
"I've missed this," he whispered and kissed her softly.
Lucy giggled: "Me too, baby."
It was true. It had been weeks since her accident and the C-Section and she was finally back to being her old self. The casket had come off two weeks ago and they had taken Abel out of the ventilator four days ago. Everything had gone great and today was the day she would finally be able to take her baby home. Jax and she had spent the last days setting up the baby room. They had gotten a white baby crib and a very comfortable blue armchair. Jax had found a sleep sofa in his mother's storage and it fit perfectly with the other furniture.
She had missed having sex and she was very glad that Jax had waited for her such a long time. She knew who her husband was and she knew what that meant. Jax had slept with other women in the long time they had been together and with even more in the short year in between, where they had been separated. What happens on a run, stays on a run – simple motto, but it kept her sane. He knew what would happen if he did something like his in Charming, so he didn't.
In the last couple of weeks he had stayed in town and tried to figure out who had done this to her. He had talked to many people and probably hurt some as well, but Lucy didn't care. She wanted Jax to avenge their son and she had told him so many times. She made sure he was focused on killing whoever hurt their baby. Every club member, especially the president, supported Jax.
"Did you talk to Unser? He called yesterday and told me that he found a witness to my accident."
"Yeah, I've talked to him. He came by yesterday when you were already asleep."
"What did he say?"
"Well, the witness seems to be a school teacher and mother. She was standing about two streets away because her baby kept crying in the backseat. She told Unser that a black SVU speed past her and shortly after that she heard the crash. She didn't get a good look at the license plate, but she did say, that the driver was a middle aged white man. I guess that means we can exclude the Mayans and the One-Niners. Maybe one of Darby's guys. But I don't get it. Darby just got out of Chino. I don't see a motive." He paused: "Anyway I called Clay and he set a meeting with him later today."
Lucy nodded, she didn't want to ruin her great mood by thinking about that old hateful pig.
"I'll take care of it baby. I promise," Jax said taking her hand in his.
"I know you will. But I'm just so angry, whoever did this didn't just put my life in jeopardy, but our baby's life as well. None of it makes sense. The people you work with, no matter what side, they don't just kill women and children."
Jax shrugged and pulled her close, but Lucy stiffened, something she had just thought about made her stomach turn in disgust.
"What?" Jax asked his gaze confused.
"None of it makes sense unless," she paused, fear growing inside her: "the club had nothing to do with it."
"Excuse me?" He asked, still disordered.
"Maybe this has nothing to do with the club or you. Maybe this is all about me," Lucy choked out.
Jax didn't move, his eyes narrowing to slits.
Lucy sat up, her heart was racing and she knew if she didn't relax she would start to hyperventilate. She tried to stop herself from thinking about that night but the images overwhelmed her in a second. She fought against them, looking directly into Jax' eyes, knowing he could pull her back into reality. He seemed to notice the panic building inside her, so he pulled her close and whispered soothing words into her ears. First she couldn't hear them, her mind made her listen to her own screams. The screams that had made her throat burn. Screams of agony and fear and disbelief. But then slowly Jax voice broke through them and with his words entering her conscious the ugly images left.
"I'll keep you safe. I promise." Jax muttered, stroking her hair and kissing her face.
Lucy closed her eyes. Jax had finally understood what she had tried to tell him. That this had something to do with her family. Her mother had been brutally tortured and killed and until this day, no one had found out why. Lucy shivered. Whoever tried to kill her, he was probably still out there, waiting to finish his.
"I'm going to be sick," she mumbled and hurried into the bathroom.
Jax was sitting in the kitchen drinking coffee and watched her approach.
"Are you okay?" He asked and she could see how worried he was.
"Yeah. I thought I would throw up, but I didn't. I just needed to calm myself down."
"I thought about what you said and I think that you might actually be right."
Lucy nodded, pour herself a cup of coffee and sat down opposite Jax.
"When do we pick up Abel?"
Lucy looked at her watch: "In about an hour."
"Okay, I'll meet you there. I really have to talk to Clay and bounce your idea of him."
"Do that baby," Lucy got up and kissed him softly on the lips.

Lucy was holding Abel and kissing his sweet face, when Jax entered.
"I signed all the papers. We can just walk out with him," Lucy smiled and tried to hold back the tears.
"Oh baby," Jax stepped closer and hugged them both. He kissed first Lucy and then his son.
He lay his arm around her, picked up the car seat and led her out of the room and into the elevator. Lucy was glad that he had his arm around her. All she could do was stare at Abel's perfect features. She kissed him over and over and whispered loving words to him.
Jax chuckled: "You are going to make him a real softie."
Lucy shot him an angry look: "He's a baby. You can never love a baby to much"
Jax laughed again and opened the door for her. They walked across the parking lot towards Lucy's new car.
Jax took Abel from her and strapped him into the car seat. Lucy thought about getting in the back seat with him but decided against it. She got in the front seat next to Jax and waited for him to start the engine.
On the way home they barely talked. Lucy listened to every sound Abel made. Every gargle, every cough she turned around and checked how he was.
"Baby, you are making me crazy. He's fine," Jax chuckled and took Lucy's hand.
She laughed with him and tried to relax.
At home she carried Abel into his room and sat down on the couch with him.
"Look around you baby. This is your home. This is your room. This is where you are safe."
Jax leaned against the doorframe and Lucy tried to read his face. But this look she had never seen. It wasn't protective or blissful. It was a peaceful look. Like the three of them in this room could mask out all the bad shit going down.
"Sit with us."
Jax walked over and sat down next to her. She handed Abel to him and watched as her man rocked their son in his arms.
"I love you," she said and kissed him on the cheek.
"I love you, too," Jax replied.
Abel started fussing and Lucy decided to try and breastfeed him the first time without any help. Since he had come out of the ventilator she had done it a few times in the hospital but she was still nervous if it would work now.
A few minutes later Abel was happily drinking and Lucy felt wonderful. This was what she had always dreamed of. And even though she had had a horrible couple of weeks, she knew that she would want more babies. She looked at Jax who was watching her quietly.
"Don't you have to be somewhere?" Lucy laughed and stroke Abel's soft head.
"Are you trying to get rid of me?"
She shook her head: "No. I just don't want you to shirk out of your duties."
Jax kissed her and walked out the room: "What would I be without you?"
She laughed: "Probably more rich and less worried."
She could hear Jax laughing loudly as he walked out the door.