Two months had passed since the night in my chambers and I had fallen into a very easy to follow rhythm. But I was really growing anxious. Not once in the past two months had Severus mentioned our kiss or anything of the matter at all. To be completely honest I felt as if he was pushing me away. It made me sad inside. I found out just a couple days ago exactly why that may be.

"Hey Serah."

I turned to look behind me and saw Harry Potter standing there smiling at me. I wouldn't exactly call us friends but we did speak every once in a while. I was aware of the part he played in the war and all of a sudden I felt the need to ask him a very personal question. I felt as if I could trust him.

"Harry might I ask you something?"

"Of course!"

"What do you know about Professor Snape? Outside of his teachings that is."

He looked at me slightly confused but went on none the less.

"I don't really know all that much about him. In the final battle he gave me his memories and in those memories I saw how crazy in love he was with my mother. Whenever she married my dad he was heartbroken. As far as I know my mother is the only woman he ever truly loved. But that's it. Sorry I can't be of more help to you Serah."

"It's okay Harry really."

He smiled at me and walked on down the corridor.

Her name was Lily. She had vibrant red hair and hauntingly beautiful green eyes. I looked at myself in the mirror. Compared to her I'm absolutely nothing. It's no wonder he pushed me away. He must still be in love with her. I gathered myself and slowly walked out of the bathroom and down the hall to Professor Flitwicks class. He was my last class of the day. Today we were supposed to be learning a simple levitation charm. I already knew it because I had read thru my text before classes began but I was rather excited. I walked in and took my seat and noticed there was a feather in front of all of us. He walked in and classes began.

"Today students we will be learning a levitation charm. This is a simple charm. It is pronounced Wingardium Leviosa. The wrist movement is a simple swish and flick. Once you have mastered it and I have checked it off you may go."

Surprisingly it took me about a half hour before I finally managed to make the feather levitate. Once the professor was satisfied I gathered up my things and slowly left the room. Even though it took me a half hour I was the first student finished. I felt rather accomplished. While walking down the corridor I stopped behind a pillar whenever I heard voices. I looked slowly to see that it was the Headmistress and Severus.

"It's been two months Severus and you still haven't spoken with her about it."

"Of course not. She's my student now Minerva. Even if she is of age do you honestly believe that…"

"You're in denial my dear boy. You can't face the fact that you have feelings for someone other than Lily Potter. But pushing her away is not the answer. Stop running from your problems and face them head on."

"Merlin Minerva! Are you saying I should shag a student?"

"She may be a student but she is twenty nine years old for Merlin's sake! She is not a child Severus. If you push her away she may never trust you and if what you told me is true after the Death Eater's attacked her father and threatened her she will need protection. Just consider it please Severus."

He walked away from her. Just leaving her standing there. She slowly walked my direction and stopped when she saw me. She placed her hand on my head softly.

"Don't worry my dear. He can't run forever."

I nodded slowly and walked into the library that was just down the hall. I sat out my ink well and parchment. Once I located my quill I began to write.

Severus,

Hello. It has been forever since we talked. I miss you. I miss our conversations and how whenever I felt like crying you would assure me that it would be okay. I'm sorry if my being here has caused issues for you Severus. I never meant for it to be that way. Twenty years ago. I met you. I had no clue who you was but you showed me kindness when I barreled you over that day. I was so excited that I had made a friend. I was just as excited about our reunion. I had just lost the love of my life whenever I found you. I'm still a broke heaping mess at times but just being around you makes me feel like I'm alive again. Please don't push me away Severus. I'm begging you. I hope to talk to you soon.

Serah Anderson

I walked outside the library and coincidentally there sat an owl. I slowly gave the bird my letter and told him where to take it. The day was over for me so I decided to go out to the Quittich Pitch. Whenever I got there I went to sit down on the ground but couldn't as a strong pair of arms encircled me. One hand covered my mouth as I tried to scream.

"I don't think so little girl. You're coming with me."

All a sudden I felt really sick as the feeling of apparating took over my body. Once we landed I broke loose from the man only to fall on the ground by a tree. The man crawled on top of me.

"Look at you. Such a dainty little thing. Honestly Severus is stupid if he hasn't shagged you yet. Oh well. To the victor goes the spoils."

I tried to scream but no sound would come out of my mouth. 'Damn. A silencing charm.' The man's quickly tore open my robes and began touching me everywhere. I tried to fight back but it was no use I couldn't do it. The man stuck his hand inside my knickers and dove a finger inside of me. I threw my hands at him and he quickly pined them on my stomach.

"Man you're wet. A little slut are we? Or are you thinking of shagging Snape."

He continued to finger me harshly and I tried my best to ignore the pain. It had been four years since anyone had touched me. He finally pulled his hand out and began to lick it as if he had just been given a piece of cake. I stared up at him with disgust in my eyes. He began to fiddle with his trousers and I knew exactly what was going to happen.

"STUPEFY!"

A bright light came out of nowhere and the man in black was sent backwards into a tree. Immediately knocked unconscious. I felt the muting spell dissipate and I began to sob. I looked to my right and there he stood…Severus. I realized how exposed I was in the moment and tried to cover myself up but it was no use. The man had torn my robes to pieces. I felt a huge cloth of fabric wrap around me and I felt myself being lifted up off the ground. I looked up into Severus' eyes as he held me close to him and we disapparated back to Hogwarts. Once we landed he slowly sat me down on my feet. He pulled out a handkerchief from his pocket and began dabbing at the dirt on my face. Our eyes met and it was as if time was stopping. He pulled back from me and I could tell he was searching for the right words to say.

"Severus I know. You don't have to say anything. I know that I'm not Lily. Hell she's a saint compared to me. But I know this. Over the past few months I have grown to care for you tremendously. You've been there for me whenever I felt like my whole life was falling apart. Is it love? No by all means not yet. But if you're still in love with her I understand. I'm still gonna be here for you like you've been here for me. I'm gonna go clean up and take a bath."

I departed from the sitting room into my room then the bathroom that was jointed on. Once inside I closed the door and slowly took off my clothes. When I drew the bath I saw what looked like a bruise on my inner thigh. I let out a horrific gasp as I slowly slid in the water. I sat there for what seemed like forever just thinking about what I had said to Severus. I was afraid that I had seemed harsh or bitter but I secretly hoped he took it well. Once I was finished I stepped out and clothed myself in my undergarments and a nightie that reached down to my knees. It was Slytherin green in color and I absolutely loved it. I stepped back out into my room only to see Severus standing by my bed. He looked up slowly and his eyes widened. I quickly realized that I was in little to nothing and my blonde hair was in a curly mess at my waist.

"Um…I'm sorry. I'll get changed."

I went to walk towards my closet but didn't succeed as I felt my back being pulled into his chest. His arms encircled my waist and in the mirror on the wall I could see his head resting in the crook of my neck. I heard him inhale and I could instantly feel heat welling in between my legs. His black hair fell over my shoulders as I felt his lips come into contact with the skin on my neck. He laid soft gentle kisses on the skin as his hands roamed around my stomach. His left hand roamed upwards and landed on my breast, giving it a gentle squeeze. I let a moan find its way out of my lips and turned quickly to claim his lips with my own. My hands found their way into his hair and his landed on the small of my back. His tongue flicked out and tapped my bottom lip, begging for entrance. I gave in gladly and our tongues roamed and explored each other's mouths. We broke for air and I just looked into his eyes. I could see lust in them but for some reason I was scared.

"Severus I…"

"I know Serah. You're scared. I'm sorry."

He started to let go of me but I wrapped my arms around his waist.

"No Severus it's not that at all yes I am scared but…I'm not…I'm not Lily."

"I know and honestly I'm relieved. Yes Serah I loved her but she's dead. It took me years to realize that no matter what I do I will never have her. But you…you're so vibrant and full of life. The first time I saw you cry after your father died it about damn near shattered me. I understand completely if you don't want this. I don't want to force it on you however, I too have grown to care for you. I only wish to…"

I stopped his speech by placing my lips on his once more. He got the hint and started kissing back as his hands roamed my body. They landed firmly on my ass and he lifted me up slightly. I took this as a hint circled my legs around his waist. He turned around and gently laid me on the bed. I released my legs and he sat himself between them. He started pushing my nightie up around my stomach. I raised up and tossed the annoying garment into the floor and immediately started to undo the buttons on his shirt. I had just now noticed that he took off his frock coat and was just now in a while button up shirt and his trousers. Once the buttons were done on his shirt he flung it to the side and I looked upon his chest and torso. It was laced with many scars. Normally something like this would scare me but not with him. I raised up and gently began to kiss each scar. A moan fell from his lips and I felt him unclasp my bra and gently start massaging my breasts. I leaned back and felt the pleasure from his menstruations. He lowered his head down and gently took one of them in his mouth as his hand went lower until it reached my inner thigh. I suddenly felt pain as his hand came in contact with the bruise and I hissed. He pulled back suddenly and looked at me with confusion until he saw the bruise.

"Oh Merlin. Serah I am so sorry."

"It's okay Severus. Touch me please…just be gentle."

He nodded and took my lips as his hand gently moved around my thighs. He started rubbing my clit through my knickers and I let out a moan and thrusted into his hand. Meanwhile by hand found his hard member, confined by his trousers. He raised up and before I got the chance to unbutton them he did it himself. Once the annoying garment along with his boxers were cast aside he looked at me longingly.

"Serah. You were nearly raped today. Is this what you want?"

"Gods Severus just fuck me already."

My words must have took him by surprise because he all but tore my knickers off of me and leaned down to kiss me once more before slowly entering me. It hurt slightly due to the bruise but I didn't let it show because no sooner than the pain had been there it went away and was quickly replaced by pleasure. My head rolled back as the pleasure of him filled me. He slowly started pumping himself in and out of me. Amongst the incoherent moans I could hear him say my name. Every time he did I felt myself being lifted higher and higher. I knew I wasn't far so I wanted this man as close to me as possible. To do so I raped my legs around him and pulled him to me. In this position he was hitting my g-spot and I wasn't going to last much longer so I begged.

"Oh Severus please. Harder."

One more thrust and I came undone. I moaned his name as my climax hit me. Several thrusts later and he joined me in ecstasy. He collapsed beside me and all that could be heard was our harsh ragged breathing. I looked to the side to see him lying there and he was already looking at me. He slowly leaned in to kiss me but was interrupted by what sounded like an explosion. We looked at each other in panic and got up quickly grabbing whatever clothes we could get ahold of.

"What the bloody hell was that Severus?"

"I have no clue but it can't be good. Let's go!"

Once we were both dressed we ran quickly to see what was going on outside.