Hux had already known he would have had little choice but to let his master have sex with him. It was not the first time. Many years ago the two had experimented with each other sexually on a few occasions.. usually drunken fumbles of hands and mouths. But never intimate in this way.. and it had been a long time since anything like that had even been hinted at. But it had never been like this. Never like it was this last time... never with the amount of passion ... never on this level of.. want. Hux knew something was different. He knew there had been a change. . He wasn't sure if he would be better off with or without it in his life.
He stood 3 months later in front of his mirror. Gazing at his reflection. His uniform pristine. .. his appearance no different to how it was before. It was a very good disguise for what he really felt. What he really was. What his priorities really were. He was suddenly overcome by a wave of nausea. For the 3rd morning I a row he vomited into his sink. Stomach sore and empty. He straightened himself up and began to leave for his duties.
Kylo had not approached him in all of the time since their encounter.. he felt used.. he was confused. .. he felt dirty.. he felt abused. He felt like a discarded whore and he wished he could take back all of the feelings he had shown towards that bad bad man on that afternoon. He was filled with anger... hurt... regret... and heartbreak. He had actually let himself feel wanted by that cold.. impossible shell of a man. He was a dark lord. Nothing more. And now he was having his baby.
He had always thought he was infertile. After an injury years before. Turns out doctors are not always correct in their diagnoses. He should have him hung for his mistake.. it was getting harder and harder to face each day. The wretched spawn inside him turned his own heart cold. He felt nothing but a black abyss inside where just a small amount of soul had been. Even bad guys can get hurt.
He looked at his bed. How much he wanted to stay there.
But that would be letting kylo win.
And fuck... he wasn't going to let that happen