AN- So, this chapter the past will be described as from Sora's POV, because you are seeing it from his eyes. This won't happen often, at least, I don't think so, unless I want to broaden the past POV. But it will always be either Sora or Roxas.
Sora could feel the rage, the need for that... that thing inside his heart to escape. It was his duty to keep it at bay, and lately, he hadn't been doing the best at it. His eyes saddened as he knew that loss of control meant the end.
But he wouldn't think of things that depressing at the time, he would think of other things, like... Riku.
Riku was still in the coma that Xemnas had knocked him into at the end of their battle. As soon as it happened, Sora had been able to deal the killing blow to Xemnas, and after that, he had carried Riku's sleeping body all the way to King Mickey, and Disney Castle was where he was kept, ever since.
Seeing as Riku showed no signs of waking up anytime soon (or possibly never wake up at all), Kairi and Sora had moved into the castle to keep an eye on him. It was after that that everything all went... bad.
Sora pulled himself out of his musings, someone was coming into his room. He stepped closer to the wall and held up his arms. The meetings with other people always made it harder to hold back the demon in his heart. Blue light connected the handcuffs on his hands and feet to the wall. He wished that the King had let him have neck-cuffs... he had said that it was too much, though. Sora sighed, running his fingers through his black-streaked hair. His visitor was Kairi.
"Hi, Kai." He said.
She was crying, as she usually was after coming to see either him or Riku. He assumed that she had just come from visiting Riku, and it had given her the courage to talk to him.
He missed her. He hadn't talked to her in a week, because the last time she was here, the demon took over, and insulted her and Riku, and even Sora himself.
"S-Sora? Is it really... you?" she asked, holding her breath.
"Yeah, Kai. I promise, it really is me. I'm handcuffed to the wall and the floor, so you're good. It won't rush you this time, and I'm more in control now."
Kairi stepped into the light of Sora's room. It wasn't a prison by any means, no one was locking him in but himself. Only he knew how much of a danger the thing was, and he'd take no chances. Only on days like these, where he could feel Roxas watching him would he ever venture out of his room. His room was a blue as bright as the sky, and the floor had the magic effect of making you feel as though your feet were standing in the surf of the ocean.
"Sora! Oh god, Sora, I'm sorry, I shouldn't be visiting you, my light agitates the-"
"Shhh, I know, Kairi. But I'd lose myself a lot quicker if I couldn't see at least one of my friends. So your presence helps more than it hurts, Kai."
She smiled, hugging him. "I'm glad. If only Riku was awake, he'd be able to help you, he knows about this kind of thing."
Sora sighed, hugging her closer. She didn't know, but her light gave him strength, more strength than he could ever have on his own. He nearly wished that he still had Ven- but he banished the thought. His friend deserved his own body as much as anyone else, and no one could have anticipated the reaction of what was left behind. "Yeah... I miss Riku."
The two friends talked for a while, but eventually Roxas couldn't hold back the demon, and it fell to Sora. Sora knew immediately when Roxas couldn't fight anymore, an intense pain was beginning at the base of his skull, and he knew the thing was coming. He cut Kairi off mid-sentence.
"K-Kairi... g-get out! H-Hurry! GO!"
Kairi gave him one last glance, and ran. Once she was out, and the door shut, she peaked through the little window.
Sora, though still cuffed to the wall and floor, gave her a devilish smirk, and his gold eyes seemed to be laughing at her.
"Harry! Harry! HARRY BLOODY POTTER, wake up!"
Roxas sat up, still feeling the phantom ache in his chest from when it would take over Sora's body. He shivered, then looked up at who called his name.
It was Fred/Axel. Roxas had been getting closer with him and distancing himself from most everybody else, becoming a recluse. He only allowed Axel and Sirius into his room. Today was the day Roxas went back to Hogwarts. He began to pack away all of his stuff into his new suitcase. He had bought it with two rooms, a bedroom, and a battle arena/training room.
When he bought that was also when he bought his two new wands. His holly and Phoenix feather didn't work at all anymore for him, so he bought two new ones.
After the wands he had received, he thought that Ollivander would be scared of him going bad like Voldemort.
His first new wand was more like Oblivion, Blackthorn wood with a core of Basilisk Skin, 9 inches, and rigid. Roxas had no problems with it so far, in fact he liked it much more than the holly. The second wand (Ollivander nearly fainted dead away when he inquired about a second wand) was made of Hornbeam wood with a core of a Re'em horn, it was 15 and a half inches long, and springy. It was somewhat like Oathkeeper, and Roxas liked it. He had been practicing with them both for as much time as possible.
A Basilisk skin wand usually bonds with someone dark, an aspiring Dark Lord. A Re'em horn wand was a very exotic and hard to find wand, as Re'ems were extinct. Re'em horn wands give an enormous magic boost to even the weakest spells. Both were very powerful wands, one associated with darkness, the other associated with power. Roxas really cared little about that fact, he knew that he would simply follow Sora wherever he may go.
As he packed his last pair of socks away into the trunk, and put his wands into their holsters on his arms, his door opened. Hermione peeked her head in. Roxas felt a pang in his heart. He had practically abandoned her, he had said only the most basic greetings to her, he hadn't meant to abandon his best friend that much. He beckoned her in.
She walked in slowly. Roxas pictured Kairi from one of the later days, walking into Sora's room. He shook the image away, this was his friend, Hermione. Not Kairi. When she got close enough, he jumped up and hugged her. She made a surprised noise.
"H-Harry?" She said, in a voice that sounded as though she was barely daring to hope.
"Hermione. I-I'm sorry I haven't been talking to you that much lately. I just... have a lot on my mind, like how Ron isn't actually my friend." Roxas said carefully.
"WHAT?!" She shouted. Roxas clutched his ears.
"Ow... yeah Fred and George told me that he just wants to get into my bank account, so I've been... dealing with it, badly, by staying in my room so that I don't go punch him. I want to sit with you on the train, please. I've missed you... and I'm sorry."
"it's okay, Harry. I don't blame you for what that- that- that bastard did. I'm just glad you're not avoiding me again." Hermione smiled, and hugged him closer. She stepped back and frowned. "But... I'm a prefect, I have to sit in the prefect's carriage."
Roxas' face fell. He had hoped to mend the gap growing between them, but he supposed he could do that at school. "its okay, Hermione. I'll probably sit with the twins then."
Hermione nearly frowned, but instead she smiled. "We'll catch up more at school, alright?"
"Definitely."
"ALRIGHT, ALL SCHOOLCHILDREN TO THE DOOR, WE'RE LEAVING!" Mrs. Weasley's voice echoed through the house.
Roxas and Hermione headed to the door, where everyone was carrying their stuff. Luckily, Roxas' new trunk had come with a permanent feather-light charm. He carried it easily, and soon enough they had arrived at King's Cross. He walked through to platform nine-and-three-quarters, and hopped on, leaving everyone else behind. As he walked down the train, he saw Malfoy, alone. His hair was longer, still its platinum blonde, and he was wearing muggle clothes. Roxas' eyes widened.
"Riku?" He said as he passed. Malfoy turned back, eyes widening.
"Roxas?!"
Roxas nodded. They quickly made plans for Riku to meet Roxas in his compartment after the prefect's meeting.
Roxas continued down the train, finding no empty compartments, until the very last compartment. Neville stood outside the door, seeming to be contemplating something. Roxas looked to see who was inside, and saw the familiar blonde hair and white dress, along with a sketch pad. He looked at Neville, then walked inside.
Naminé looked up, a knowing smile on her face as he entered. Neville was still watching, kind of shocked. Roxas beckoned him inside. Neville walked in slowly. He sat down across from Roxas and Naminé, smiled awkwardly, and pulled out a cactus. Roxas wanted to discreetly greet Naminè, he decided to call her by her nickname.
"Hello, Keeper of the Chain of Memories." Neville glanced over with a confused expression on his face. Naminé smiled radiantly.
"Hello, O Key of Destiny."
Roxas smiled at her, and Neville just grew more confused.
Roxas really didn't want Neville to hear their conversation, so he cast a nifty spell that the twins had taught him.
"Muffliato!" He whispered. He turned to Naminé, thinking about how she had saved Sora.
"Roxas!" She squealed. "When did you remember your past life?"
"Mmm... this summer. About a month ago, I had been having weird dreams since the end of the school year, so I found a book about reams, and I decided to see if I had a previous life, then I remembered... I can't believe I had a crush on Ginny and Cho. Ugh."
Naminé laughed, then spoke. "Ooh, you'd better not tell Sora that. He'd be very jealous of them. I remembered about midway through my second year, on my Christmas break. Ever since I was a little kid I'd have dreams of myself in a castle, and a bunch of other people like you and Sora, so my father finally took me, and I remembered."
Roxas was listening, but only the part about Sora registered in his brain. A smile lit up his face, and hugged Naminé.
"Wha- oh! You didn't know? If you are alive, then Sora is definitely alive! I have also had some vague visions of the future, and I heard a warning involving Sora and Kairi. Once, I had a dream where you two were-"
"WHOA! When that happens, I'd like to find out myself. I can't wait 'till then... I miss Sora, especially how warm his body always is."
"Okay... uh... too much information, I don't wanna know about you and your boyfriend like that."
"Ha-ha... okay, Nami!"
Neville was watching with an extremely confused expression. Neither noticed him, but Neville could read lips. He was wondering where the weird buzzing noise was coming from, and he was very confused about the conversation that Harry and Luna (Loony) Lovegood were having. All that he had really gathered was that Harry had a boyfriend named Sora, and they apparently hadn't seen each other in a while, because Harry thought the Sora person was dead. Neville was worried, so he decided that he would tell Hermione about what he'd heard.
Roxas and Naminé looked up as the doors to the room opened. Draco Malfoy walked inside, once again alone.
"Hey, Riku. Are you sad because you have to grow out your hair again?" Roxas snickered.
"Hey! Don't dis my hair. Your hair is worse, all messy like that. So... hi Naminé. Do either of you know if Sora or Kairi are reincarnated, or even anyone else?" Riku asked.
"Yeah, but I see Hermione coming down this way, and Neville is probably really confused. Here, meet me in the second floor bathroom at midnight. Also, I could use a sparring partner, so be prepared."
"Got it." Riku said. He jeered at Roxas, for the sake of Neville and the fast approaching Hermione, then walked out.
Roxas quickly lifted the spell from Neville, just as Hermione walked in.
"Harry, is Malfoy bothering you already?" Hermione asked as she sat down next to him.
"Eh. Not really, just... asking how I got out of the trial."
"What? You got off because you were innocent!" Hermione fumed.
"Yeah, I told him that, but he made fun of me a bit more, then left."
Hermione fussed over him a bit more, then they settled into small talk, like what the Sorting Hat's song would be, and what Neville and Naminé did over the summer, and a lot of other things that Roxas didn't hear, because he fell asleep.
Roxas dreamed of one of the best and worst days of his and Sora's life.
Sora was feeling really good today. So good, in fact, that he didn't feel the demon at all. HE decided to take a chance and leave his room. He made sure that his cuffs were on his hands and ankles, though they weren't shackled to anything, they could be at a moment's notice.
He decided to visit Riku.
Riku was sleeping in a pod reminiscent of when Sora slept for a year, but rather than a single year, Riku had been sleeping for two years now. A year ago on that very day, Sora had awaked Ventus... and by extension, the demon.
Sora watched Riku's sleeping body wistfully. He wished that he could sleep his troubles away, dream peacefully through the war.
Sora had taken his Mark of Mastery with Ventus, before they had realized what exactly the thing was, and before it had gotten powerful. Both had passed, Sora easily, but Ven had a bit of trouble.
Sora heard the door open, and he turned around abruptly, holding back the urge to summon his Keyblade and hold it to the person's neck.
It was Kairi, King Mickey, Ven, Donald, and Goofy. Sora smiled, and beckoned them closer.
Kairi walked over slowly, as though she was dreading something. Sora turned completely, his back to Riku.
"Hey, Kairi!" Sora said cheerfully.
"Sora, I'm so glad that you're up and about today!" Kairi said. Sora knew immediately that something was up.
"What is it, Kairi?" He asked.
"Well... I... umm... Sorai'minlovewithyou!" She said, so fast that her words blurred together. Sora didn't understand, but Roxas did. Roxas got angry, rather quickly. It woke up the demon.
"What?" Sora asked. He hadn't yet felt the repercussions of Roxas' anger.
"Well... I'm... in love with you, Sora." She said hesitantly.
Sora was shocked. He loved Roxas with all of his heart, he loved Kairi as a sister, nothing more.
"Kairi, I'm sorry, but I can't return your feelings. I'm in love with someone else." He said.
Neither noticed Riku open his eyes, blink blearily, and then focus on the conversation before him.
"WHAT! HOW? Who is it? Are you in love with Riku? How could you be in love with Riku? He's been asleep for two whole years! I was the one who took care of you through all of that, I was the one who went with you to wake Ven up, it was ME! NOT HIM!" She yelled.
And that was when the combined anger of Roxas and the demon kicked in, putting Sora on the defensive, and letting his guard down.
"NO, KAIRI! I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH RIKU! I am not going to tell you who I love, but I'll tell you this- you haven't been through anything with me! You don't understand how I feel at all! Every day, I sit alone in my room, holding back what feels like instinct, to protect you all! I keep something that feels like a part of myself locked up in my heart, every day! And every day, it gets harder and harder to recognize that I should hold it back, harder and harder to push against, and one day, it's gonna overwhelm me, Kairi! I can't hold it back forever! It's driving me insane, just sitting in that same room day after day, in self-induced loneliness. I have no sense of time, all there is, is holding it back, fighting the urge to let go! I have no one, nothing to hold on to! No one knows how I feel, I am afraid to go to sleep, for fear that it'll take advantage of me! The only person who knows anything about how I feel, who's been through anything with me, is Roxas! He feels and does the exact same thing, but from the inside, he's the only person I can depend on. You all don't even trust me anymore! You skirt around me like I'm a ticking time bomb, about to explode and kill you all! Well newsflash, the whole reason I've locked myself away from society is to protect you. No. Kairi. You haven't been through anything with me. You don't know me anymore..."
Sora ran right past Kairi, tears streaming down his face as Roxas' rage turned to sadness, sadness for him.
Ven ran after Sora, glared at Kairi, and said, "I'll try to calm him down. I can somewhat relate to him..."
Mickey turned, and was about to walk out sadly, until he heard a strangled voice call out.
"What- what was that?"
"RIKU?" He exclaimed.
"Harry, wake up! We're nearing Hogsmeade!" Hermione said.
Roxas jumped up, and grabbed the black school robes. He shuddered. They reminded him of the old Organization cloaks. As if on a command, everyone else filed out of the compartment. Roxas changed clothes carefully, quickly and deftly moving his charm from his muggle clothes to his robes, only flashing his real face for a moment before he was Harry Potter again.
He followed his friends out of the compartment, talking amongst themselves about things like Ron's betrayal, which Hermione had finally explained when Neville was wondering why Ron hadn't come to the compartment.
Roxas looked up at the night sky and saw a shooting star.
"I wish... I wish I could see Sora soon."