A/N: Don't hate me, it's all I'll say for now!
Jess shook Rory's shoulder slightly, waiting for her to wake up. Her eyes fluttered open and she looked around confused. The night was dark outside and he smiled at her warmly.
"What time is it?" She whispered as she sat up in the car seat.
He laughed. "Late."
"Where are we?" She tried.
He pointed out the car window and Rory instantly sat up straighter. It was a place she'd recognize anywhere. The smile on her face made him smile back. "Surprised?"
She nodded. "Very."
"Come on," he urged and Jess got himself out of the car. He came around to her side and helped a now awake Rory put of her seat.
She looked at him curiously with a smile beaming. "This was planned?"
Jess nodded. "You like it?"
"I love it," she gushed.
They reached the front porch steps and he knocked on the door. She tried to grab her key but he held a hand out, raising it over her mouth to say ssh. Rory was confused but when the door opened, she understood.
Lorelai gasped when she saw them standing there. "You made it!"
Rory smiled brightly at her mother and looked at her stomach. It looked more like seven months than six and she looked so extraordinarily happy. She was beyond words excited for this new baby and so was Rory. "Mom!"
The older woman grabbed her daughter, crushing Rory to her as best as she could. Jess smiled as he watched them and shuffled his feet. He felt like he was intruding on a reunion.
"I'm so glad you're here," Lorelai said as they still held each other. "I wasn't sure you would be and then Jess called..."
Rory turned her head to look at her boyfriend. "So even Mom knew the plan?"
"I think by now the whole town knows the plan," he said jokingly.
She clutched her mother to her for a few minutes more before Lorelai ushered them inside. The two Gilmore girls sat on the couch while Jess stood. "Evan is asleep so we have to be quiet. But I want you to tell me everything that's going on."
Rory shrugged. "There's not really much."
"Really?" She questioned. "Living with your boyfriend in the city, dream job, gorgeous mother...come on, I missed you! What kind of coffee do they have?"
Jess laughed and so did Rory. "Still dreaming of non decaf coffee?"
"Its the first thing I'm drinking or eating for that matter once this baby is out of me," she said. Neither of them were sure whether or not she was joking.
"I'm sure Luke loves that," Rory laughed then stopped. "Where is he, anyway?"
"Upstairs," she pointed. "Asleep."
"Right," she nodded. "The diner opens early."
"And with the diner mention," he spoke up. "I should get going."
Rory seemed to remember Jess was there and she turned to look at him. "What? No! Why?"
"Because it actually got late and I didn't sleep on the way here," he smirked.
Rory looked over at the clock and frowned. It was now much closer to her birthday than she thought. It was actually nearing ten minutes away. "It is late."
"Exactly," he kept his smirk on as he walked towards her and kissed her lightly. "I'll go to the diner. You can stay here if you want, talk to your mom."
"Jess -" she watched as he walked to the front door.
He waved his hand in front of him to tell her it was no big deal. "Just don't stay up too late, okay? I'm making you breakfast at Luke's."
"Really?" She smiled.
He nodded. Lorelai watched them curiously then teased, "Gee, don't you want a room to go with those bedroom eyes?"
Jess laughed now while Rory blushed. She jumped up from the couch anyway. "I'll walk you out."
Lorelai rolled her eyes dramatically and as they disappeared out the door, she tried to watch them as best she could without being obvious.
They stood on the front porch of her old home. Rory squeezed Jess' hands with her own only to then wrap her arms around his neck. He put his hands on her lower back and smiled. "Surprised?"
"Yes," she nodded. "And happy."
"Seeing your mom always makes you happy," he teased.
Rory shook her head. "Its not just about my mom."
"You're saying I might have a part in it?" He grinned down at her.
"I'm saying you might have a large part in it," she grinned back. "Thank you."
"You're welcome," he replied, still smiling. Jess took that moment to kiss her again and when he pulled away, he spoke again. "Stay. Have fun. Listen to the story of your birth at 4 am. You know you want to."
"I do," she smiled. "Thank you."
Jess took his hands off her back and Rory pulled her arms free. "You said that already."
"It needed repeating," she explained.
He laughed and kissed her again. This time he started walking back to the car. "Happy birthday, by the way!"
Rory remembered the exact words being spoken almost ten years earlier and her heart swelled when she thought of how they got here. "Love you!"
"Back at ya!" He yelled and got into the car. She laughed. Of course he wouldn't yell it back and in Stars Hollow of all places.
Smile still firmly in place, she watched as Jess drove out of their driveway and waved goodbye. She waved back and when he was gone, she walked back inside to see her mother standing right in front of her. Rory nearly jumped when she noticed she was.
"You look very happy," Lorelai commented.
Rory nodded towards her. "Right back at you."
Lorelai beamed at her. "I am. Are you?"
"I am," she nodded.
"Come on," Lorelai wrapped her arm around her daughter the way she used when she was younger. "Let's make hot chocolate and talk about boys."
"Well now it defintely feels like my birthday," Rory laughed.
...
The cups were foamy and brown, the hot chocolate getting lower and lower in their cups. Lorelai watched her daughter explain what having Jess around at home was like.
She couldn't help but feel jealous, remembering all the times they shared together before. She was surprised she was jealous of Jess, of all people, but she knew it was only because these small visits were not nearly enough.
"I really like having him there," Rory went on then added with a laugh. "It's kind of like having my best friend and my chef there."
"Hey!" Lorelai interrupted. "I thought I was the best friend!"
"The boy best friend," Rory corrected.
Her mother smirked. "Much better. Continue. He's like a chef?"
"He makes me breakfast and I come home to dinner," she answered. "I don't think I've ever had that before."
A look of sadness crossed Lorelai's face as Rory realized what she wanted to ask. Logan's name hung on both of their tongues and the younger girl looked down at her hands. Lorelai tried to keep the conversation light again. "That reminds me of when Luke started staying here."
"Please don't tell me gross stories I'd rather not hear," Rory made a face while she teased.
Her mother shook her head. "I thought I'd save those for your wedding. Incoperate them into the speech and embarrass you."
"What wedding?" Rory asked fat more sarcastic than she had intended. "My failed marriage?"
"No -"
"What then?"
"I'm sorry," she said. "I was just teasing. I didn't mean to -"
"Its okay," Rory cut her off. The second time within two minutes her thoughts traveled to her ex-husband. "Mom?"
"Yeah, sweets?" She asked with a guilty expression on her face.
"How do you think he is?" She found herself asking. "He went to get help and all but we haven't talked since. Do you think he's okay?"
"I think if he wasn't, you'd have heard," she touched her daughter's hand.
Rory snorted. "The Huntzberger family would never tell me anything. Especially not now."
"That may be," she agreed. "But Emily Gilmore would."
"You have a point," she gave a small smile then it faded. "I feel guilty."
Lorelai patted her hand. "How come?"
"Because I loved Logan," she sighed. "A lot. I was in love with him. I married him. I almost -"
"Almost what?" She asked.
Rory tried to regroup her thoughts. This wasn't really the way to blurt out 'I was pregnant'. "I wasn't in love with him the way I should have been."
"What do you mean?" She asked curiously.
"These past weeks, month..." Rory let out a sigh. "I've been happy. Really happy."
"Thats not a bad thing," Lorelai assured her.
"But I was never this happy with Logan," she picked at a piece of tablecloth.
"Hun?"
"Yeah?"
Lorelai considered her words and when decided to start with a simple question. "Do you want my advice?"
"I wouldn't say no to Lorelai Gilmore wisdom," Rory showed a small smile.
"Just be happy," she shrugged. "You and Logan...you can't change anything about it. Feeling guilty now won't help so just focus on how you feel now. And you love Jess, right?"
Rory nodded. "Right."
"Then love him," she told her. "Be happy. You deserve to happy no matter what so don't try to find reasons to say you shouldn't be."
"There's something else," she bit her lip. Lorelai waited for her to continue and when she did, she spoke in a whisper. "I met his ex-girlfriend."
Lorelai nodded. "And?"
"And she's really pretty," she groaned. "And sweet. And apparently her and Jess are still friends."
"Uh-huh," Lorelai kept nodding. "And what did he say about this?"
"He doesn't know," Rory his her face in her hands then peaked out. "Everyday I go to work, I spend some of it one-on-one with this girl he was with for three years, that he used to work with too, that he slept with -"
"Whoa, stop it," she put her hands up in a stop motion. "First of all, breathe. Second of all, get them sleeping together out of your head."
"I can't!" She let out another groan. "It was fine when we met because it was right after Dad came and it hadn't really kicked in. But now it has and its gotten weird and I can't not be around her because its my job."
"Hmm," the older woman mused.
The younger one was anxious. "Hmm what?"
"You're jealous," she answered.
"Of what?" Rory said. "Jess is with me."
"Yeah but see, heart and brain aren't always seeing things the right way," she explained. "You see this pretty ex-girlfriend of Jess' who happens to be nice and you're jealous."
"I know jealous," she shook her head. "This is not jealous."
"I'm not talking watch Jess make out with a random blonde against a tree jealous," she snorted. "It's a she had him for three years and what if she knows him better jealous."
"Huh," Rory leaned back in her chair.
"And you have to tell him," she advised. "You're seeing this girl everyday and its making you think of them having sex. If you don't talk to him, it will only get worse."
"You're right," she agreed. "I just...how do I bring it up?"
"Just start slowly," Lorelai said. "Casually bring up work and lead to it."
"Thanks, Mom," Rory smiled. "I forget how much I need this."
"And I forget how much you still are like a kid in some ways," Lorelai teased.
They laughed and later, after they had both gone to sleep, an alarm rang and Lorelai looked over at Luke, smiling before climbing out of bed and down to the couch Rory had insisted on staying on.
She shook her daughter awake and at exactly 4:03 am, recalled the story of how Lorelai Leigh Gilmore was born.
...
Around 8 am, after much convincing from Rory that they shouldn't go for her birthday breakfast around lunch, Lorelai walked into Luke's with her. Evan had already reluctantly went to school after seeing his big sister at home. Rory had actually been the one to send him off after his pouts of resistance.
The bell chimed above the door as the two Gilmore women walked in. Miss Patty and Babette gasped in happiness at the sight and Kirk got excited like a schoolgirl. Lorelai nudged her daughter as if to say, 'don't you miss it here?'
Lane came out of the kitchen and her jaw dropped. "You're here!"
Rory ran around the edge of the counter where she met her friend into a hug. "I'm here!"
When Lane pulled away, she gave her a huge smile. "Happy birthday! I wasn't sure you'd actually make it!"
"Make what?" Rory asked curiously.
"Make it here," Lane added. "We were hoping we'd all get to see you."
"Is there some big plan happening?" Her eyes twinkled with excitement.
The dark haired girl shrugged. "Besides just getting to see you for your birthday?"
Rory nodded with a smile. "Uh-huh. Something's planned."
Right then before she could ask any more questions about the town's plans, the curtain rustled and Luke entered the diner. "Hey, Rory!"
"Hey, Luke!" She hugged her stepfather too now. "I didn't see you this morning."
"When I left, you were still asleep," he clarified as they pulled apart. "Didn't want to wake you up. No doubt your mom had you up all night."
"Hey!" Lorelai sat at a stool and pretended to look offended. "I did not!"
"She didn't," Rory defended her.
The older woman smiled brightly. "See? Loin fruit knows."
She laughed. "Please don't call me that."
Lorelai pouted. "But its the anniversary of when I gave you life, child. Its my day, too."
She looked helplessly between Lane and Luke. Luke just shook his head. She knew this was an average thing for him. Lane just laughed. "Fine."
Lorelai threw her hands up in excitement. The curtain rustled again and Jess appeared, his face instantly smiled as soon as he saw her. There was gushed whispers from the townspeople at their tables. It was as if they didn't believe they were together once leaving the town and this was a reunion the way they reacted.
"Happy birthday," Jess told her as he leaned in to kiss her lightly.
Luke turned away, never comfortable with displays of affection and especially not between his nephew and stepdaughter. Lorelai rolled her eyes dramatically. "Here come the lovebirds."
Rory turned to look at her mother and smiled. "Lovebirds isn't such a bad thing."
"It is for me," Jess objected as he wrapped his arm around her waist. "I have a reputation to uphold."
"Poor you," she laughed and kissed his cheek.
Luke stepped forward and pointed to a table. "I have a table ready for you."
Rory looked over in the direction he pointed at and saw a table that identical to her sixteenth birthday. There was balloons and a cake on top of it and she smiled even wider. "For me?"
"For you," Lane nodded.
Lorelai went to sit at the table first and Lane and Rory followed, the latter holding Jess' hand and tugging him with her. He shook his head. "I have to make you breakfast."
She pouted at her boyfriend. "But I want you at my breakfast too."
"And I will be," he agreed. "After I make it."
He kissed her quick and she told him what she wanted. Lorelai wanted two of everything and Lane settled for eggs and bacon. When breakfast was finished, to all of their surprise, not only Jess sat down but Luke, too.
"What?" He looked at them all, including Jess.
"Nothing," Lorelai shrugged with a smile.
They ate together quietly. Questions were asked and answered and when the food was gone, Jess and Luke cleared the plates and left the females to themselves.
It wasn't that long before Babette and Miss Patty slid into the newly unoccupied seats. "Happy birthday, doll."
"Thank you, Babette," Rory smiled at her old neighbor. "Miss Patty."
"Sweetheart," Miss Patty started. "Its true you and Jess are living together in New York?"
She nodded. "Its true."
"Oh may," the red haired woman smiled. "How is that?"
"Its amazing," she blushed. The two older women took that as a sign she meant not just living with him.
"I knew it," Babette whispered to her friend.
Miss Patty grinned. "You did call it. But I never doubted, either."
"Eew, eew," Lorelai groaned and put her hands on her bump. "Baby doesn't need to hear that. Neither does Mommy."
Lane snickered. "I don't think she meant that, you guys."
"I didn't!" Rory defended as her face reddened more. "Just...its nice having him there with me."
"Aww," Babette swooned. "That's great, honey."
Miss Patty leaned forward. "But really, how is the sex?"
Lorelai almost spit out her drink and Jess appeared behind them. "With that note, can I borrow my girlfriend for a moment?"
"Thank God," she said relieved.
The four of them watched as he took her hand and brought her upstairs. Miss Patty watched wistfully. "Oh, to be young again."
"Amen," Lorelai agreed but smiled at Luke, knowing she wouldn't trade anything for the world.
Upstairs, Jess led Rory into the apartment. He shut the door behind her and she looked around curiously. "So what did you want to show me?"
"Who said I had something to show you?" He teased.
She tilted her head to the side. "So you don't?"
"Maybe I just wanted to kiss you properly," he grinned.
"Jess," she said seriously. "Is there a present?"
"Maybe," he shrugged.
"Is that why you and Luke were up here when we came?" She kept going.
"Could be," he feigned innocence.
She walked up to him and put her hands on both sides of his face. "Boyfriend. Roomate. Man I love. Please please tell me what my present is or I might kill you on accident."
"But then you'll never get your present," he smirked.
Rory pouted. "Damn it."
Jess just laughed and took her hands from his face and held them in hers as he walked her over to the couch. He picked up a skinny rectangle that was wrapped.
"Feels like a book," she grinned. He watched as she opened it up and he saw her expression change when she noticed what it was. "Howl."
He nodded. "The 1986 version."
Rory flipped it over and looked at the back cover and then flipped through the pages. "Where did you find this?"
"Called a lot of rare bookstores," he replied. "Most only have the copy you own but I figured you might want this one, too. And you know Howl is important to us."
She smiled at him softly. "The first thing of mine you stole."
"Ouch," he joke winced. "I was hoping that was your heart."
"No, sorry," she laughed. "That came after you stole the book. Possibly right when I called you dodger."
"That soon?" He teased. "Damn, I wish I had known."
"Jess," she smiled warmly and climbed into his lap. "Thank you. I love it."
"Really?" He asked as he wrapped his arms around her.
"Really," she nodded and kissed him on the lips.
He looked at her shamefully. "I wasn't really sure what to get you. And I wanted to get you something you and that book - its kind of us. It was the beginning and I thought you might like it."
"I more than like it," she urged. "I love it."
"Good," he smiled. "I'm glad."
She kissed him again. "You know this means you have to make margin notes in this one, too."
"No," Jess shook his head. "This was hard to find. I'm not defiling this edition."
Rory just pouted. "Well, I guess its a good thing Paris didn't get my original Howl then."
"What do you mean?" He looked at her curiously.
"Paris thought all my books were used," she explained. "Because of your margin notes. Senior year at Yale, she donated them to the library and we tried to get them back but they were gone."
"Huh," he said.
"I saved Howl, though," she explained. "Its in your box so Paris didn't get near it."
"My box?" He was confused. "What box?"
"My Jess box," she whispered. "The one I made of you when we broke up."
"You mean when I abandoned you," he corrected.
"I mean when we broke up," Rory replied.
He ignored her defense of his actions back then. "You know what this means, right? We get to rebuild the collection."
"I started to," she admitted. "But it just wasn't the same."
"Then we'll do it together," he brushed hair away from her face and smiled.
She was about to kiss him again when the door opened and Luke entered. "Jeez!"
Jess smirked as Rory jumped off of his lap. "Hey, Luke."
"Your mom wants you," he threw his thumb behind him to show he meant down in the diner.
"I'll be right down," she nodded.
Luke stood there awkwardly before turning and going back downstairs. Jess laughed once he was gone. "I don't think he'll ever be comfortable seeing us act like a couple, no matter how old we are."
"I'm his defense," she laughed. "I wouldn't really want to walk in on a family member acting like a couple with anyone."
"Good point," he agreed.
"I should go," she picked up her book.
Jess waved it off. "Leave it. I'll put it with my stuff."
"Okay," she smiled. "Thank you."
"You're welcome," he smiled back.
One last kiss and Rory was out the apartment door and downstairs where she heard the tail end of Babette and Miss Patty grilling her mother about the Danes men. This was gonna be a great trip.
...
Lorelai had convinced Luke to give Lane the day off where Jess had offered to take her spot for the day. He agreed buy only because it was Rory's birthday. His wife gleamed in victory when they left the diner.
They went shopping for the day. There was work talk, boy talk and baby talk. Rory tried to push aside the ache she felt when they talked about babies and wondered how old hers would have been now, if it'd be a boy or a girl. She spent the rest of the time scolding herself for thinking of something so sad.
Paris called around 1 pm to wish her friend a happy birthday. Rory was surprised but happy to hear from her and quickly asked for updates on Doyle and the kids. The conversation lasted a good ten minutes before she was called away.
They picked Evan up from school earlier and brought him over to play with Steve, Kwan and Christina at Lane's house. Rory was suspicious that Zach was nowhere in sight. It strangely reminded her of her going away party before she went on the Obama campaign.
At around six pm, Lorelai made up some excuse about needing to go back to the house. Lane left little Christina at her motherhouse. Rory laughed as she remembered how scared Jess was of Mrs. Kim back in high school. She wondered what he would think of her now.
The house was silent as they approached. She knew her suspicions were right when she saw the dark house. The six if them went to the door and were greeted by a large surprise when they walked inside. Rory laughed, not even surprised they threw her a surprise party.
Jess grinned at her from behind Luke and she smiled widely back. In that moment, she knew he had a part in this. She saw now how the addition was done, something she had not noticed quite so well the night before.
"Happy birthday!" Lorelai laughed and hugged her daughter to her side.
"Wow," Rory laughed.
"Good wow or bad wow?" Lane asked.
"Good," she nodded and looked down at the kids who already went ahead of them. Off in a corner, Rory saw a definite surprise.
Emily Gilmore.
It was clear she hadn't jumped up and yelled surprise with everyone else. But there she stood, a small smile on her face. Rory walked over to her and hugged her immediately. "Thank you for being here, grandma."
"Your boyfriend called me," she answered as they broke apart. "Requested that I come here for your birthday. I didn't know what was planned."
"I'm glad," she risked a look over to Jess. "Do you...do you think we can officially resume Friday night dinners?"
Emily's face looked brighter. "I would really like that. I miss seeing you girls so often."
"Me, too," she smiled.
"Next Friday?" Her grandmother wondered.
Rory smiled bigger. "I'll be there. So will mom."
She hugged her again, happy to get to see her again so soon. Rory really had missed her.
The party got really active and Lorelai brought out all the old games, even the pink feather boa. Rory laughed when she saw it and Luke rolled his eyes. Of course she still had it. Jess didn't get it but he went along with it as Lorelai came out with a cake that looked like Rory.
When Jess asked Lorelai how she thought of this stuff, she smiled and said, "You said like her 16th, right?"
Rory opened presents from everyone, blushing a very deep shade of red when she opened Babette and Miss Patty's gifts. She quickly covered them in their box and went to the next one. The three children there didn't need to know what it was.
Sookie had been the one to bake Rory's cake. She admitted it was a little hard to make her face right but she was proud. The birthday girl told her she did amazing on it and it looked exactly like it had years ago.
...
As the party was wrapping up, the guest list got smaller and smaller. Emily said a quiet goodbye to her daughter and grandchildren. Evan went to bed soon after and Lane and Zach had left as well because the boys had school the next day. The party was soon down to just the four of them. Luke cleaned up with Jess while Lorelai and Rory sat on the couch and relaxed. "Good birthday?"
Rory nodded. "Very good birthday."
"Good enough to rivel your precious ones?" She lifted the feather boa.
She laughed. "I think so. Top three, definitely."
"It was nice of your grandmother to come," the older woman said.
The younger one smiled. "We're gonna do Friday night dinners again."
"Okay."
"Okay?"
"Yeah, okay," Lorelai was stunned. "Would you prefer I said no?"
"No," she shook her head. "I'm just...surprised."
She said nothing, just patted her daughter's head and smoothed down her hair. "So Jess called me and set this all up."
"All of it?" She turned to face her mom. "I thought he was only part of it."
"Part of it," she shrugged. "The leader. Do words matter?"
Rory saw Jess as he walked in the kitchen and smiled. "I didn't know that."
"He was even gonna invite his mom," Lorelai explained. "But they brought Doula to a renaissance faire somewhere so they couldn't make it."
"Oh," she pouted. She had really wanted to see Doula, especially to try to make up for the last time she saw her at that dinner.
"Its definitely safe to say the boy loves you if he's willing to invite TJ somewhere," Lorelai laughed.
Rory had to laugh with her. "Yeah, he and Luke aren't exactly his biggest fans."
They giggled together as they dove into talking about the etch-a-sketch that neither Luke or Jess have accepted. TJ still brought the thing out and it always made Lorelai laugh to see Luke's reaction.
A ringing sound came through the house and Jess called out to Rory. "Your phone's ringing."
"Tell them I'm busy," she told him and kept talking to her mom.
It wasn't until after she heard Jess say hello and ask how did the caller get this number that her veins turned to ice.
Rory was off the couch in a flash and Lorelai was calling after her in confusion. Luke was standing there watching Jess, who had grown frozen as he listened to the other person talk. He hung up and the expression on his face was unreadable.
"Jen says happy birthday," he said icily.
"Who's Jen?" Lorelai asked as she walked into the kitchen.
Luke connected the dots and spike first. The two younger ones in the room were too locked in a staring contest to answer. "Jess' ex-girlfriend."
"How do you know Jess' ex?" Lorelai asked her daughter. "Rory?"
Jess decided to back up her question. "Yeah, how?"
Rory fidgeted as she fingered the sleeves of her sweater. "We work together."
"Fantastic," Jess muttered. "Fan-fucking-tastic."
"I was going to tell you," she defended.
"Yeah?" He asked. "When?"
"I -"
"Is this the girl you told me about?" Lorelai asked, not noticing until it was too late the expression of Jess' face was definitely readable now.
"You told your mom but not me?" He scoffed.
"I asked her how to tell you," she explained. "Its not like I wasn't going to tell you."
"Because this way was planned," he replied.
"Don't do that," Rory shook her head. "Don't be mad before I really get to explain."
"I think everyone just needs to take a moment here," Luke tried to I interrupt.
"I think so, too," Jess said and walked out of the kitchen. He grabbed his jacket on the way out the front door.
"Jess!" Rory followed after and grabbed her own jacket, leaving Luke and Lorelai in a silence in the kitchen.
"Rory, I need to go think, okay?" He didn't turn to look at her but he did stop walking.
She nodded though he couldn't see her. "Where will you go?"
"I don't know," he replied. "I'll be at the apartment above the diner later, okay?"
"When do we have to leave?" She asked.
"Don't worry about it," he said. "I'll drive you there in time."
With that, he continued his walk off the property and was soon out of sight. Rory stood there, staring at the direction he went, her eyelashes sticking together from the wetness. Lorelai came out behind her and wrapped her arms around her shoulder.
"Come on, kiddo," she whispered. "Let's go back inside."
Luke went upstairs after cleaning was done. He decided to leave them alone for the moment. Lorelai held Rory as she started to cry, feeling definitely like a teenager again.
A/N: I know I said Jen wouldn't cause problems, but also I feel like they need this. And like I said, don't hate me please! It will worth it!