There was no school today, praise the lord! Haha though it's the end of the day I hope to update again today because I have to do MCAS tomorrow so it'll be a bit harder for me to update this. But for this chapter it might seem a bit fast paced but all I can say is just try to enjoy it better than the pace, I mean I'm really trying my best-not that I'm complaining- but if it is too fast paced tell me and I'll try to go more slower! But until someone says anything about it being to fast, then enjoy the chapter!
"We. . . what?" Luka was sitting on her bed, her eyes wider than ever as she stared at Gumi's kind of pale, upset face. She couldn't believe it yet all the signs around her said it was true as can be and though this was Gumi's fifth time explaining it ot her it still didn't feel real. She finally managed to pull on at least a pair of shorts and tank top as she sat on the bed and she moved a hand through her hair wondering exactly how this happened.
"We had sex. You were. . pretty drunk and I don't really know how it happened but we ended up just-doing it. I'm sorry Luka but. . I think this honestly changes things between us. Two best friends can't have sex without becoming friends with benefits and I don't want that." Gumi said as she looked at Luka who was staring at her intently, her blue eyes burning in her red face and she groaned letting herself fall back and she sighed then urged with a hand for Gumi to come over and when Gumi did she was dragged onto the laid out next to Luka, her hair spreading gently out over the bedsheets much like Luka's and she stared at the girl.
"Gumi we don't need to be friends with benefits. We're going to forget this ever happened." Luka said slowly but seriously as Gumi's eyes widened slowly with surprise.
"But Luka how can we just. . forget it ever happened?" Gumi asked with surprise as she stared at Luka wh just looked back at her evenly.
"We can't let this ruin anything. Trust me, if we just forget it and go along with being friends nothing has to honestly change and we'll be okay. It'll be easy to forget, it's summer! We just have to do abunch of fun stuff and we'll eventually forget it." Luka said as she smiled and then reached out stroking Gumi's cheek whcih caused it to color softly and she smiled gently and slid her hand down across Gumi's hips and pulled her closely. "We can jsut spend the rest of the night like this but in the morning we'll go on like nothing ever happened okay?"
"O. . kay." Gumi finally relented and she blushed softly pressing her cheek to Luka's fingers softly and her eyes fluttered shut gently. How can she forget this? Forget the way Luka had clung to her tight crying out her name a thousand times in her ear? How they kissed to deeply that Gumi didn't know where she began or Luka ended? How Luka looked so happy, so content after it was all finished and over? She couldn't. Not one moment of them having sex would ever leave her mind no matter how much she wanted to forget for Luka she just couldn't.
"Good." Luka said with satisfaction as she hugged Gumi closely and brushed her lips across Gumi's hot cheeks. "You know I love you just like a sister right? That's why I can't let things change."
"I know Luka, I know." Gumi choked out gently when Luka kissed down her cheek as she blushed darkly and she moved her arms around Luka hugging her tight.
"Then I'm glad." Luka murmured before kissing Gumi softly and as she kissed the girl she couldn't help but feel like she was making a very bad decision for her and for Gumi. She hung on ever so tight to Gumi, held her like she needed her more than anything in life and it was true. She did need Gumi and that's why she couldn't let one thing change their friendship ever.
It was on their fourth day of the agreement to forget that they had sex that Luka felt changes within herself that she never knew of before. Lately she found that she was staring at Gumi more and when she did her heart would skip, her lips would tingle and her hands would twitch gently with an urge to reach out and grab the green haired Vocaloid and kiss her deeply and caress her pale skin.
She found her heart skipping more nad becoming more obsessed with what Gumi was doing and how she seemed to burn with jealousy whenever Gumi talked to another girl and spend time with them but she had no claim whatsoever on the green haired vocaloid but her blood heated when it happened. She didn't know why she was changing now, why she was noticing Gumi and feeling this way about her now and she figured it was only because she and Gumi had had sex.
She sighed as she leaned against the counter and scratched her cheek lightly then closed her eyes softly as she stood there when the shuffling of feet against the floor caught her attention and she opened her eyes again looking over her shoulder. Walking towards her, his long purple hair pulled back fulled leaving only a few locks of his bangs around his face was Gakupo. He was an incredibly beautiful man that much was clear but when it came to him she just didn't feel that spark she felt when she first met him and she wondered faintly if it was because she had started liking Gumi back then before she shook her head a bit.
"Hey, Gakupo." She said scratching the back of her head softly as she leaned against the counter looking at him and he smiled. God why couldn't she like him?
"Hey. How are you, I haven't seen you much since we've been here." Gakupo said smiling gently at her as he stood in front of her, his blue eyes seeming to sparkle at her and she looked at his shoulder instead.
'Maybe cause I've been avoiding you like crazy. That could be why you've barely seen me, also because I really don't want to be alone with you like we are now.' The words floated through Luka's mind and she was tempted to say then but she felt guilty about it and she blew out a soft breath then smiled. "Yeah I know! I've just been spending time with Miku and Rin alot and hanging out with Gumi that's why. I'm sorry though." That was what she opted for to say out loud and she cringed internally at how fake she sounded.
"Ah I see I see. Well would you mind walking with me along the beach then?" Gakupo asked like a gentleman but she saw his gaze move along her chest and she cringed again internally. But she smiled softer looking at him and felt an urge to just run away, to get away as far as possible.
"I'm. . not really sure. I don't feel like going out at the moment. It's too hot today and I'd rather stay inside with the air conditioning." Luka protested ever so weakly and she grinned so crookedly she couldn't believe it as convincing and Gakupo blew out a soft breath then looked at her seriously.
"Luka I like you. A lot. I want to spend time with you, get to know you a lot better but every time I want to do something with you you just make up an excuse and run away. You only let in three people which is Gumi, Rin and Miku while Kaito and Len were just barely let in but everyone else you keep at an arms distance almost. Why won't you let anyone in? Let me in? I can make you happy Luka, I know I can so why won't you just give me the time of day?" Gakupo asked with a soft upset yet irritated look and she felt like screaming at him that it wasn't true, that she had plenty of friends but she knew it was true.
"Gakupo I'm sorry." She sighed out as she looked down never knowing the full extent of his next question would truly have on her until he said it and when he did it froze her.
"Are you gay Luka? Is that why you won't give me a chance?" Gakupo asked, the question both freezing and searing through Luka as her eyes slowly widened as she stared at him, her irises a very light blue with shock as she stared at him. "Are you?" He asked again a bit impatiently and she blinked quickly then she forced a shaky fake laugh.
"I'm not gay! What made you think that?" Luka replied as she continued to laugh fakely but inside she was screaming and her heart was thumping hard against her chest with fear though she couldn't even begin to think why.
"Because you just always seemed to be looking at Gumi all the time and you ahve this weird sort of look on your face and because you prefer her more I was just wondering if you were gay." Gakupo said with a soft little shrug as Luka stared at him with shock.
"Well that was stupid of you to assume." She finally got out then glared, her eyes immediately darkening and she stormed past Gakupo efficiently pissed off when he grabbed her hand and she whipped her head to the side to glare at him and he just held onto her hand tight.
"I'm sorry. I really am. Can we just start over?" Gakupo asked with a little begging tone to his voice as he stared at Luka who slowly relaxed a bit and she sighed.
"Fine." She finally sighed out then gave up her anger when he pulled her against him making her raise a brow feeling no urge to blush, no skip of the heart, no butterflies nothing of the sort.
"Good. Then I'll try my best not to mess this up then." Gakupo said softly as he smiled gently at her and she returned the smile with a little bit of difficulty and she went to push away and then her eyes widened when his lips pressed against hers softly.
He kissed her gently, her lips still and her body a bit stiff and he held her close to him as she stood there, her eyes widen with a soft blush at the suddenness off it when she blinked softly. No. This didn't feel right at all, it felt just. . weird. She blinked again then felt a rush of relief when it was over which was strange and he looked at her a bit strangely then he looked over her shoulder blinking rapidly then a little panicked look in his eyes registered.
Luka felt confused as she stepped away from him and looked over her shoulder only to freeze in place. Gumi stood in the door way, her green eyes wider than the round moon itself and her mouth was open a little bit giving her a shocked look but Luka could see the sliver of pain that slid across her eyes.
Luka felt like if someone had just ripped her heart out and fed it to her would have been better than this weird pain she was feeling in her chest at the look on Gumi's face and she stumbled away from Gakupo and towards Gumi. "Gumi-"
"I-I'm sorry!" Gumi rushed out before running away in a blur of green and orange making Luka's heart clench softly. No! It wasn't what she thought it was! She felt like screaming it, felt like never talking to Gakupo if that what it took to get that pain from Gumi's eyes and she clenched her hands before blowing out a soft breath then felt a strange urge to cry.
"Luka you know I didn't do that on purpose." Gakupo said softly making her skin seem to itch like he was under her skin and she felt incredibly angry at that moment. Most of the time when people said that they didn't mean to do something on purpose it was most likely just planned to be done anyway and it might not have been then but it would have been sometime.
She felt the anger bubbling through her veins but as she looked at Gakupo, her eyes holding pure flames of anger and resentment, she knew he was sincere but she couldn't stop herself from being so angry and she needed an outlet. She stalked forward her eyes continuing to blaze and as she walked forward Gakupo moved back until he hit the counter looking at Luka and she grabbed his shirt yanking him down kissing him hard, pouring her will power into that kiss to make it convincing and she felt her heart twisting.
It wasn't him she was supposed to be kissing, not in a long shot, but he'd have to do for now. It made her feel disgusting knowing she just wanted to sleep with Gakupo, be with him, as an outlet for her attraction to Gumi but she needed to give him some sort of chance right? And it'd make things-maybe-easier on her and Gumi's agreement to forget and she then pushed away from him as he looked at her with a slightly glazed look.
No. She wouldnt' go sleeping around as a means to get the memory-faint as it was-out of her head and she turned dashing away from Gakupo hearing him call out her name in confusion and she ran upstairs tears pressing against her eyes and as she moved down the hallway there was place she was going whenever she felt confused, one person who could make her feel better than anyone in the knocked on the door a bit hard as tears threatened to form in her eyes as she waited for the door to be open and when it did Luka felt like wailing.
"Luka? What's wrong?" Miku asked instantly, her teal eyes becoming like slates of ice as she scanned the hallway and Luka just stepped forward hugging Miku tight lovign that Miku would protect her though it looked like things should be backwards. "Luka?"
"I'm so confused Miku. I don't know what I'm doing anymore!" Luka managed to choke out as she hugged Miku tightly, her face being burrowed into Miku's shoulder and she felt a hand beginning to stroke her hair softly.
"It's okay Luka, I got you. Come in and talk to me like old times." Miku murmured then she pulled Luka into the room and when Luka walked in she launched herself onto Miku's bed and the aqua haired girl climbed onto the bed with her and she hugged Luka tight. "It's okay Luka, whatever it is it'll be okay I promise."