Austin

Making my move is harder than I thought.

So, I finally made up my mind and decided what I want to do. Dez.

Before you think anything dirty, it's not like it sounds. I don't really know what I mean, or how to say it, but all I know is that I just want him.

But here's the problem.

I was about to break up with Ally when I suddenly realized that she has her own career, making music like me. And she will begin touring, so breaking up with her wouldn't be the best thing at the moment.

Then there is Dez.

You see, Dez loves film-making, and wants to find a good university that supplies what he needs to be successful. I was so caught up in worrying about what to do, and then recording at the studio that I forgot he told me he was going to be going up to Orlando for a month or so. I mean, it's not that bad. He's still going to be in Florida, but all the way north.

I don't think it's the right time to proclaim my everlasting love for him though. If I do, it would be complicated because I, still, haven't broke up with Ally, and it would be sort of a long distance struggle.

Then I have to think about myself. Since I am working on a new album, most of my time will be clogged up recording, and planning out dates for touring.

Everyone has their own thing happening. And I almost forgot that our adulthood is near, reminding us that it is time to face the real world.

Too bad childhood doesn't last forever.

But at least I have Trish.

Right?

Before I knew it, two months had passed. Dez came back but I still haven't had the chance to make my move; still not knowing how to even make it. Like, do I just go up to him and be like,

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

Or,

"Wanna go out?"

And it's not like Dez isn't waiting. He must be. Another reason why I might have been avoiding him. I don't think I'm ready.

Unfortunately, there is still a problem.

I need to breakup with Ally and I haven't been able to since she is still touring. And I sometimes wish that I wasn't so nice. So then, I can break up with her over the phone.

But fuck me.

I still have to worry about the media, and the fans' reactions, but at least I know what I'm going to do. First, I will break up with Ally, then I will come out. Finally, I will ask Dez. But I have to do this soon, don't I?

If I don't, Dez's feelings could possibly change and then, what would happen?

Little did I know, many things could change in a short period of time.