"I… The… Uh, I think we should just-" I think he understood how much I didn't want to end the sentence. Making demands wasn't in my nature (mostly due to the monster) and I couldn't tell him what I wanted to do. So he interrupted, offering me a solution to my obvious dilemma.
"How about we walk? I mean it'll be a lot longer but it's mostly a dirt road so it's near the forest. You'll like it, I promise." Immediately, I understood what he was doing – making it look like it was his choice to walk when really it was more mine than anything else. I appreciated it though, it lifted the angst that had been settling into my chest since we'd gotten close to the car.
"That sounds lovely." He shut the car door quickly with a loud bang and I sent him a thankful smile, which he returned, sending my heart racing. How was it even possible for a human being to be so considerate? In my life, I'd always seen people who thought the world revolved around them. It was always 'I' and 'me'. No one ever thought that just like their world revolved around them the same was true for everyone else. It was as if Gray understood this, even if he'd never said it to me specifically. Just in his everyday actions, it was obvious by the way he always thought of others first. He wasn't egotistical, he saw the same beauty in the world that I glanced at every day.
"I'll be quiet too, that way you can listen to your little forest animals." He wiggled his fingers, making a joke about the magic, but I chose to ignore it. Instead, I nodded happily, the feeling of joy, due to understanding things a little more, threatening to take me over. But at the same time, it was battling with the side of me that said all humans were bad, and surely Gray couldn't be an exception to this rule.
Not even 10 minutes into the walk, Gray was already breaking the rule he'd set himself, but I didn't really mind much. Judging by how he'd thought of going by car I was willing to bet that the shopping centre was pretty far, so I'd have more than enough time to enjoy nature.
"You know all the birds and animals around us?" His voice left in a soft whisper that threatened to get blown away, but I heard it.
"Yeah," I answered in a similar volume, although my voice was quiet anyway so I was probably inaudible. I concentrated slightly on everything around us. There were certainly a lot of birds, all chirping happily around us as if reflecting my mood. There was also crunching of frost heard to the side of the road so there was probably a fox around, although why it was close to the road was unclear to me. I hoped it wouldn't get too confident and get caught up in a road accident.
"Did you know that they only ever come out like this when you're around?"
"What do you mean?" I shot him a confused look, slowing my steps even further so I could concentrate on the animal still lingering on the sidelines. I wanted to beg it to go away like I'd done with the birds, but I couldn't seem to gather that energy again. My mind slowly patted against the fox's mind, a whispered plea to go further into the forest where it couldn't get hurt.
"If I were here alone I'd hear 1 bird, maximum. But now that you're with me they're hoarding around us. It's beautiful." He closed his eyes, stopping. I followed suit, my instincts shouting at me not to, but my heart begging me to close them. All survival techniques thrown out the window, I concentrated on my surroundings. Just like always, things took on a stark contrast which only became apparent when I could focus everything on nature.
It was like my soul, my heart, and even my mind became one with the forest, humming in tune with its essence. I became another small animal, scurrying through the gaps left by the lower branches to make a quick, graceful exit. Another bird high in the trees, free at last, with wind flowing through my soft feathers, supporting my wings. And when I was like this I could truly see what they saw, appreciate all that nature had to offer. Because I became nature.
"God, I don't even know how you do this but it's crazy powerful Maisee." His voice startled me out of my daydream, pulling me away from the fantasy world. My eyelids fluttered open, seeing Gray standing there with his eyes still closed, slowly swaying with the wind. His hands were stuffed in his pockets, his shoulders hunched in from the chill but his face didn't betray how cold he was. All that was there was a serene expression, that I could somehow see my own face forming when I got immersed in my dream.
"You see it too?" The sound left my throat choked. It's like I'd forgotten how to even be human, losing my ability to speak.
"Only with you." His eyes opened too, zeroing in on my form as I watched him curiously. What did he mean? "I don't think I told you but you're so powerful that whenever you use your ability it just kind of… expels out. So by being around you whilst you contact your savant ability, I experience the same thing."
"That was part of my savant ability?" I'd always known I was different in my way I saw things, but I could've never imagined that this was the reason. It felt like cheating somehow, simply being able to see all of this beauty due to my genes. But I wouldn't change it for the world.
"Yeah. Amazing, isn't it?" A laugh left my lips in disbelief. I'd never have thought I'd even be having this conversation with someone in my life. Explaining how I saw nature… It was just something that was special to me and that I didn't want to taint by attempting to put it into words. But I didn't have to do that with Gray, because he'd already seen. It felt freeing to know that I could give it to someone as a gift without having to lose the magic of it all. And it truly was that – pure magic.
"Unbelievably so." We'd started walking again, knowing that if we didn't get going we probably wouldn't get back before nightfall.
"I can see how you'd think that, I mean you've only known about being a savant for a week. But don't worry about it, I'm sure you'll get used to it someday."
"I don't think I want to, though."
"You don't want to be a savant?"
"No, I don't want to become accustomed. Then I'll stop appreciating the beauty. Right now, every time I get that explosion of senses I… God I become breathless and wide-eyed and absolutely entranced by the magic. But if I get used to it, that'll all be lost, won't it?" I didn't remember the last time I'd spoken for that long without someone screaming at me that no one cared. Gray was watching me attentively though, as if he had nothing he'd rather do than hear me rant about the feelings taking over my chest.
"If it makes you feel better I don't think you'll ever become used to it. I mean I've experienced that and I could be living through it every day of my life and still become speechless every time."
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